The Last Dance

I know I have said that I want someone who could make me feel full range of emotions.  Someone who could make me feel as though I've got the whole world in my hands when they wrap their arms around me but can still make me hate them all the same.  I can't be in love with someone and not experience every single emotion across that spectrum (just the nice emotions more often than the not-so-nice emotions, thankyouverymuch.)  I'd actually be scared if we never fought or disagreed...if we didn't go out of our way to push the other person's buttons 'cause we know how to.  I mean...I wouldn't have it any other way 'cause lets face it--if I was with someone who had exactly the same interests as me/liked the same things that I did, I mean seriously--how freaking boring would that be?  Tsumaranai desu yo.  =T

What do you do?  How do you go about handling it?  I've been going out of my way to ignore phonecalls 'cause it just hurts too much to even deal.  I can't bear to hear about it anymore 'cause it gets worse each time.  My mind is over it but my heart isn't.  Maybe one of these days, my mind/my heart will meet somewhere in the middle, we'll see.

I really should let my hair down/not care so much every so often. ;)

I've come to realize that I'm a pretty career-oriented person.  Back when I started this blog three years ago it was always about school, papers, class, exams, and professors.  Three years later, it's about work.  I guess if there's one phrase to describe my job it would be the following: Never a dull moment. 

I love the random shit that gets thrown at me when I try to account for/anticipate everything that will happen.  I do all that I can to try to lead change but then somehow, something else gets thrown at me like...WTF?  Then you're faced with decisions as to what you do, how you do it, do you even do it, and what is your expected outcome?  Seriously, merchandise flow is either gonna make me or break me and suffice it to say that I will be best friends (wait, scratch that--SISTERS) w/the girls who own that backroom for Holiday 2008.  As important as brand selling is, I really feel that it takes a backseat compared to product availability.  I know I just lost a bunch of people w/all that jargon but whatever--er.

If there's anything that will keep me sane, it's gonna be exercise.  I'm currently entertaining the idea of training for a marathon in January 2009.  I think that would be the easiest way to not gain weight over the holidays.  I mean...run one and you get to brag about it for the rest of your life.  The Walt Disney World Marathon is happening on 1/11/09 in Orlando Florida.  I think it'd be great to fly down there, run the damn thing, and then get drunk on the beach for a few days before flying back up to deal w/snow in Chicago.  I don't know how that would work  w/my schedule but Lady Foot Locker is also sponsoring the Disney Princess Half Marathon in March which would be kinda cool too.  (That's right, I'm a fucking princess/that's that.)  If I run it, I'm getting a caravan of people to cheer for me at that finish line, dammit.  =P 

I just don't want to underestimate the race.  Granted, I can run comfortably for an hour doing at a 12 minute-per-mile pace but once I see that screen on the treadmill that reads 6.0 MILES, my mind just kinda reads that and tells my body to feel tired/shut down.  It's definitely more of a mental thing for me than a physical thing.  We'll see, I'll work myself up to it...this'll be great.  Stay tuned for that one, lol~

Anyway, must go GMAT.  More later I'm sure~  =)

I just bought Dir en Grey tickets OH SCORE

Once again, I'm here doing my Biore strip routine. I love how it takes quite some time for this thing to dry completely 'cause it gives me time to get a few things done or in my case: crank out yet another blog on my day off. =P

It's really weird but all across the different circles that I'm in, there has been one recurring theme: pathetic people. You know, the ones who're are stuck in the same old spot and literally don't move for, YEARS AND YEARS. The spoiled brats who have their mommies/daddies to back them up even if they amount to like, absolutely nothing no matter how much they invest in them. Ugh, I have no respect for any of them. I'm not gonna say anymore 'cause it's not like these people deserve anymore space in my blog but one thing's for sure, it serves as a reminder to keep moving forward before the whole world passes me by 'cause I sure as hell am NOT one of them.

Other things that are happening:

I managed to get the last week of October off. Thank goodness for PTO days before I like, kill myself along w/a few others. I've come to realize that God doesn't help those who don't help themselves/as a result, I have decided to give a few things a whirl. I'm just hoping that they turn out for me really really soon. *crosses fingers really hard* My GMATs are happening the last week of October. This damn exam has been looming over me for like, a year and a half now. I really just need to bite the bullet/just take the damn thing. I'm a bright girl, with a good amount of CONSISTENT practice, I could achieve anything or in my case: a 670. =)

After that, I'm gonna spend a few days partying. I love dressing up for Halloween. I have the best idea for a costume, stay tuned for that one. *flashes a grin of evil-ness* Seriously, October 2008 will be the most productive month of my life.

I'm so glad I have tiVo 'cause I've been really getting into TVB's The Drive of Life. That show is pretty much the reason why I enjoy going to work each day 'cause it gives me something to look forward to 'cause it's already tiVo-ed for me. It's a 60-episode drama that commemorated the 10th anniversary of the end of British rule in Hong Kong/being handed back to China/how the economy collapsed and what happens to this wealthy family/their business through the midst of all this. There's so much drama that gets woven through this that I'm sitting at the edge of my seat through most of this. Definitely a star-studded cast. I'm in love with Raymond Lam's character 'cause he plays one of those conceited, smart, and charming asshole-type rich boys who progressively turns into a man with each episode. (Not to mention that he's also really good looking, lol!)  There's a bit of comic relief that gets thrown in at just the right parts too which makes this great. Pretty much this series will air until the end of 2008 and if there's only one thing that I watch from now until the end of the year, it's definitely this.

Mmmkay, this is kinda random but lately, my mom has been asking me if there are any Chinese guys in my circle 'cause she wants me to date one. Oy. I don't think it'll ever happen 'cause it'll be like dating the likes of my father or my brother... Yeah, 'nuff said.

Alrighty, it's now time for me to slowly peel off this strip.  Time to go/embark on other tasks.  More later I'm sure~  =)