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We're all waitin' for the end

2007-12-24T07:03:45Z

Wow so I haven't updated in forever. There's never any time, and I usually don't have any pictures to update with. But I think three months is enough time for me to gather some stuff together. Okay first, let's start with the shows I've been to. Over Columbus Day weekend, (that Friday) Lauren and I went to see Alove for Enemies, Soldiers, With Blood Comes Cleansing, and Stray from the Path with her friend Nick at the Aviator Center. October 10th I saw Circa Survive, Ours, Fear Before, and Dear and the Headlights in Worchester, with my friend Derek from school. Oct. 12th, Natalia came down to visit and we went to see High on Fire, Mono, Panthers, and Coliseum, at the Living Room. November 15, she visited again and we saw Against Me!, Sage Francis, World Inferno Friendship, Cobra Skulls, and Society at Lupo's. And finally, Nov. 29th I saw Andrew Bird and Glenn Kotche, with Allie and Blake from school also at Lupo's.

In between all of that, I went home a couple of times, like for Lauren's and Priscilla's birthday and other random times. And other times, people came to visit me. So now there's definitely a lot of pictures to put into this post. School has sucked and it's been so much work. I finally got my grades though, and I'm happy to say all the hard work has paid off. B+ in Western Civ. honors, A- in Thought, Language, and Culture honors, A in Psych, and A in Calc. Next semester I'm not so lucky. I have an 8:30 class every day, which is going to suck balls. But my schedule is pretty balanced so I guess that's good. The weekend Lauren came up and Natalia came down we went to Remi's and it was crazy and we drank way too much. I lost everyone's money and my phone. Then we went to Boston for one last time and ran into Ryan from school and partied with him and Ken at Boston College and all that good stuff. Anyways, so here are some pics!

Lauren's and Priscilla's Birthday

Thanksgiving Break

Natalia and Lauren visit Providence together for the 2nd time.
I'll tell you right now it was a crazy time, and I don't remember most of it.
Never drinking so much Captain Morgan's again.

The night before the Civ final the crew went out to Ri Ra's...

The girls

The boys

The birthday boy

Everyone

The boys with comb-overs.

The boys from McDermott Room 205

The next night we celebrated Ryan's birthday

Irish car bombs in Pat's room in Fennel.

Kriner had this awesome belt where he wrote "Happy Birthday Ryan" on.

Clubbie's was weirdishly empty so we took over.

The city for Mom's Birthday (Friday)

We went to see Cirque Du Solei: Wintuk
& ate at Keene's Steakhouse.

Mom's Bday Party (Saturday) at Rasputin

Obviously, a little too much alcohol.

More celebrating Sunday night

Wow so definitely a long entry. I probably shoud, but don't feel like elaborating more. So far the vacation has been good. Slept until 4pm four days last week. Went to my dad's for a couple of days. Saw Juno with Lauren and Christine last night. It was terrible. Went to Hooters with Lauren and Marc today. It was spicy. Don't know where I'm spending Christmas yet. Okay well, until I have more pictures, adios!

I'll try to make this perfectly clear

2007-09-29T03:09:27Z

So college is fine. So much reading, but I'm getting through it. My mom came to visit the first weekend. Then Lauren came on the 13th and Natalia on the 14th to the 15th. Then my daddy came on the 16th. This past weekend Max and I went to visit Natalia in Boston and went to college fest.

On Wednesday night I went up again to see Rocky Votolato. The Great Depression and Portugal, The Man opened for him. Woo I love Rocky. I also love Veitnamese food, and the crazy place we found that has every Asian food ever. We took the MIT shuttle bus back to BU, and it was good times going to sleep at 3am and waking up at 5am to catch the train back to Providence. I'll be going back again Tuesday night this week, and it's gonna suck major balls, especially since I have three classes on Wednesdays. But I can't wait to come home for Columbus Day.

Before I left. Park with Olha, Lauren, and Natalia.

Lauren and Natalia visit Providence.

How I feel about Boston. Gross.

Lauren Joosten is clearly better than you will ever be. ;-P

2007-09-13T19:30:53Z

I just wanted everyone to know that Lauren came to visit me in Providence, thus proving that she is the absolute best person in existence.

You'll think there's a place where you made it,

2007-08-29T05:42:00Z

July 21st, Natalia and I went to the city after work to ABC No Rio. On the way there, we saw some motorcyclist crash into a car and get taken away to the hospital. That was awesome. We got there late like we usually do so we only saw the end of Tombs, but Engineer and Coliseum were awesome. As soon as the finished we took the subway straight down to Coney Island to catch Cursive at Siren. They sounded a little off, but their set was really good. We tried to get into Gletchik after, but we got there around 9:45 and they didn't let us in those bastards. So instead we went to this other restaurant and hung out with Art and Sergey and their friends.

July 28th, I had to work again but left early to go to my doctor's to get my shots checked out. Then somehow it took me 5 hours to get my ass to the city, so when we finally did that it was pointless to go to ABC for Kidcrash and L'antietam so I'm very upset I missed that. Either way we headed to central park to try and see Max's dad's band, Luma play. But again, we missed that too. We watched the crazy gospel singer woman for a while and then went to this Burmese restaurant with his entire family. Then we went to Baldwin to Ralph's party and got there around 12:30ish. By then everyone was either gone or too drunk to comprehend anything. So we bought a pack of Corona and left around 2am to hung out with Patrick and Kamil. It was a ridiculously long night.

August 3rd, we went to Good Times Fest at Micheline's in Brooklyn. We came in during Avant Le Tonnerre. Then we saw Daesu, Mayans, Storm the Bastille, Keyboard, Kidcrash, Comadre, and Graf Orlock. Some other people played but I don't remember back that far. Some crazy drunk black guy came up to us and Max and started talking to us, and as we slowly walked away, he tried to follow us and get into the building and haha the security guys punched him. Lol it was a sight to see. The next day we worked and then went to ABC No Rio to see Comadre again and Off Minor.

August 11th we went back to ABC No Rio for Daitro and Ampere. Then the 19th we went to Don Pedro's in Brooklyn for Circle Takes the Square, The Boats, Pterodactyl, Casket Architects, and I think there was another band I don't remember at the moment.

Then I worked forever all month and I don't remember anything I did, because nothing is that exciting. Then I quit my job and still didn't really go anything. I got a Macbook and bought lots of stuff for school. Went to Philly for the King Tut exhibit with my dad and his girlfriend and daughter last August 20th. Lauren had a block party this last Saturday and we met lots of new people. This summer was ridiculously short, full of too much drinking, and for some reason I'm incredibly poor for having worked over 30 hours every week this summer.

Okay so this concludes my summer update. Here are pictures from everything that I possibly have haha... Enjoy!

Kurt's Apartment:

The night we drove around to five different 7-11s
looking for something to do and met Patrick & Kamil.

Gilgo Beach:

Patrick's House:

Max's Pictures from Kidcrash and then when we went out to a Burmese restaurant with his entire family, Ralph's party, and then Lauren's house. Long night.

Robert Moses with Olha, Alina, Lauren, and Christine:

Good Times Fest:

Comadre at ABC No Rio:

Lauren's Block Party/Me Being Awesome:

There's a place called Kokomo

2007-07-16T01:36:17Z

I haven't been home in forever and I obviously haven't had time to update anything so here goes a really quick one. For the 4th of July we [my mom, Natalia, Olha, and I] took a cruise to the Princess Cays in the Bahamas. There were plenty of good times... and some weird ones, like when my mom brought a random ship employee home with us - but we won't get into that. We were on the island only for a couple of hours, hence why I don't have many pictures from that. We went snorkeling and ahh the water was soo pretty and clean and so salty that you didn't even have to swim, you just floated naturally. It was fucking awesome. I want to go again. We met some awesome hotties like Randy aka Chayim and his cousin Seth. Let's not forget Nick and Stephen, and of course our bartenders Steve and Alaric. Here's a glimpse at what all of ya'll missed:

As soon as we got on the ship, we went up to claim our secret spot.

Of course the first thing Natalia does when we come into our room is
knock over the ice and water and breaks all the glasses and plates.

Statue of Liberty and Manhattan

The Verrazzano Bridge

We went to see some" Welcome Aboard" Show then
went to the bar and then back out on the deck.

Disaronno, cranberry juice and vodka, and a cosmopolitan, yummy.

It was very windy.

The back of the boat.

Awesome books in the library haha.

Pretty water.

Grand Lobby.

Lunch time at the Britannica. Nice portions.

Casino and floor plans.

Best picture ever.

Dinner at Todd English.

Yumm, tiramisu.

Picture of us boarding the ship.

Black and White Ball.

People ballin' it up.

We tried teaching Natalia to cross her eyes.

Me and Natalia's Raspberry Martinis and Olha's Blue Margarita.

Grand Lobby and ship facts.

Leaving the ship.

QM2 from afar.

Drinking some ice cold water.

Lizard!

Back to the ship.

This is what we resort to when we have to wait for someone to get out of the shower.

I don't have any pictures of the Red, White, and Blue Ball...

But I can tell you that the moon that night was fucking crazy.

Our secret deck one last time.

Nick and Stephen, our 2nd and 3rd officers.

We heart sailors!

Last dinner.

Complimentary champagne.

Finally came to the conclusion that me and Natalia cannot make normal faces.

In the elevator...

One of the gazillion pools and hot tubs.

Natalia making fun of some guy.

Our nightly hang out.

Drink up!

Steve the bartender and Seth the cousin.

Trip is over. =[ Car ride home.

For 07/07/07 me and Natalia went to Brooklyn to see Boredoms play under the Brooklyn Bridge, and that was awesome. They had 77 drummers playing together, it sounded really cool. We got there at 430ish so we didn't get in, but we did manage to get up on the bridge and see them from there. Look it up on Youtube if you're interested in seeing what went on down there. Peace.

Here's to the nights we felt alive

2007-06-12T04:42:23Z

I was going to make a long entry about how I've disappeared for the last three months and how I'm finally back in the game, but then I realized I am out more than ever. I'm not going to explain what that means just yet so moving on. My monitor hasn't been working and today I finally put in the new one. It's quite nice and hella fricking huge lol. Makes me realize how badly I need to reformat this webpage too.

I can't believe school is over. Feels like I'll see everyone again next week. Prom was fun and so were the weekends in between then and now. I don't have much to say other than how I got drunk a ridiculous amount of times in the last two weeks and how sick I was at work last weekend. I've hung out with a lot of new people and summer is looking pretty good so far. After graduation me and Natalia went to see CJ's band, Numiera. They honestly didn't sound like metal so quite listenable. Unfortunately, we had to cut it short and meet everyone at Benihana's for dinner. Oh yea, and I got a scholarship from school. Anyways, here are pictures of about everything from prom (May 24) to graduation (June 9).

At home with Dr. and Mrs. Roberts

At Travis's

Parents

The infamous drinking speech

At Fox Hollow

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Oh baby

Oh the way to my house.

Mi casa

Trip to city

Britney Spears sing a long.

Karaoke-ing it up

We stayed up until 10am and slept till 5pm. It was pretty awesome. Next week was full of late nights with Doc and handing in labs.

This is how I study for finals.

Senior Day....

Bowling

Somehow we fit 8 people in Eric Wall's car.

Matt knocked over a pot of flowers lol

Graduation!

After Benihana's

And I wish for one more day to give my love and repay debts

2007-05-21T01:17:51Z

I tried to go dress shopping with Lauren on Wednesday but everything was so terrible and ugly. We did see Andrew and Dave though.
Thursday, Natalia picked me up from school and we chilled around for a little bit and then got on the train to Penn and subwayed our way over to Roseland. Haven't been there in such a long time. We stood on the will-call line for a ridiculously long time and missed part of Cursive's set. These Arms Are Snakes couldn't make it, so their set was cancelled. We pushed past everyone possible during Cursive. They were cutie pies in their suits and all. Then we pushed even more to get all the way to the front for Against Me! and Max found us somehow. Their set was so good and so much fun. Their new songs sounded pretty good. Mastodon was scary so we didn't stay for them. Luckily, Roseland had an ATM so I could buy some unneeded shirts lol.

Friday I went to my dad's and Natalia picked me up and we went to Estelle's and after trying on almost every possible dress, I finally bought one... and a pair of shoes too. It's eh, but whatever Estelle's is hella cheap and I don't really care what I wear anyways.

Saturday we went to work. First day of Natalia coming back, it was quite exciting. After work Lauren and Amanda came over and then Olha, and we all went to the Ukrainian Festival. Too bad it was raining and nothing was going on the stage. We ran into Diana Dekajlo but that didn't help us figure out where they were gonna perform. We got some vareneki and stood around. Some drunk guy came over and then the fun started. His name was Mike and so was his friend's. They played soccer with a beach ball in the rain and hit a poor man in the face. Then they took us to some sketchy "sports bar". Well that was fun. Olha was so good with making stuff up on the spot. Her name was Jen for the day, and she was French and English, and from Montauk Point. One of them sang Britney Spears for us and it was great, I have it on video. Their Hitler look-a-like friend was nice though...and sober. So we missed out on all the dancing, but I guess they were entertaining enough. I don't know what I would do without drunk Ukrainians.

Huddling for warmth.

Phat Mike.

Natalia got along with Hitler...
I mean Dan, the physical trainer.

The Boy Who Cried Bitch lol.

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Uh...

I know a time is coming

2007-05-09T23:57:21Z

April 19th I went over Lyndsay's and her mom cut my hair woo. Friday, I went over Doug's for 4/20 with Liz and Zoe after school. I was supposed to go see CocoRosie but that didn't happen =[. Then I don't remember what happened. The next Friday was our Physics trip to Six Flags. It poured all day and the food sucked, and all the rides were closed. Me and Lauren managed to go on the Houdini one, Medusa, and some other stupid one. Travis got really drunk haha. Liz and Zoe got kicked out of the park for sticking up their middle fingers for the picture on America's Scream Machine. We came back and Dorothy messed up Liz's car.

This week are AP's. Government was Monday. Pretty easy. Kinda bullshitted 2.5 out of the 4 essays, but I should be good. Lyndsay came over after and we went to the city. Stopped at Whole Foods and bought way too much food like always. Then got lost trying to find Bowery, even though it was embarrassingly close. Final Fantasy was this guy from Toronto who recorded himself playing violin a billion times and layered it and sang in a crazy voice. He had a girl on stage fool around with the projector. Nonetheless, I liked it. Then my drunk boy Zach and Beirut came on. They put on such a good show. The night before, Arcade Fire, Sufjan Stevens, Grizzly Bear, and The National came to watch, and the next night URGE was recording the entire show for a Live EP. So I guess we picked an unlucky day. But hey, definitely made my Monday night worthwhile. One of the guys ran over from the Arcade Fire show at Radio City to play. Possibly one of the best concerts I have been to. I really like the French song, and the first encore song was soo good. For the third encore song they all got down and played the entire song in the crowd. Owen Pallett from Final Fantasy was standing right next to me with his tambourine. We were so close to Zach, yet so far. Yea, basically it was really good.

Didn't go to school the next day. Wasted my entire day with my mom. Calculus AP was today. The free-response questions were impossible. I looked at them and laughed. They could not have possibly been asking such ridiculous questions. I might've gotten one out of the 6 correct. And that counts as 50% of my grade. Hello Calculus next year. After all this, I honestly don't care. As long as it's over with. Only English is left. Lyndsay gave me the first season of the O.C. on Friday and I've spent every waking hour watching it. I don't know why I've never watched it. Seth Cohen is now my life haha. Natalia comes home this weekend. Hello partytimeeeeee!

Lmao Liz.

This is Travis the entire trip.

Our accelerometers are the bomb.

Hah, I don't know.

Well I've seen it come and go

2007-04-18T21:01:06Z

I didn't write about Easter break yet so I guess I better do that before I forget. The last day of school, March 29th, Lauren and I went to the Knitting Factory to see Drag the River, Owen, and Rocky Votolato. All of which were great. I was really sick so that sucked, and then we both suddenly got really thirsty, but luckily the woman at the bar gave us like thirty cups of free water. That was a definite plus, since I had to pay for Lauren and we were really tight on money. I don't remember if she ever paid me back or not. My dad picked us up at the Lindy train station and Friday we went to Apple Bank to change my account. I got an ATM/Check card, so that was good. The only downside is that there aren't many Apple Banks, and I don't know of any except that one, and it's pretty far. My dad and Raisa were going to a wedding so he dropped me off at my house and Saturday morning I took the train and the bus to Boston to see Nate-Dog.

She met me at South Station and we went to the Hard Rock Cafe and met up with a bunch of people. Our waiter, Brian, looked so much like Eddie Magnetico that Natalia decided to just called him Eddie the whole time. He was a little obnoxious but I guess that comes with the territory. By the time the whole gang arrived, about 200 people came in on a field trip or something and the place was packed. Luckily we got our orders in right away. Then we all sort of went our separate ways. Natalia and I went back to her dorm and I dropped off my stuff and we walked over to Axis or Avalon or wherever the heck the show was. We missed Chinese Stars, but Celebration was good just like last time. We pushed our way up front for The Blood Brothers. The crowd there was actually normal for the most part, except for the psycho guy next to me who kept elbowing me in the face. At one point he hit my face so hard that my head slammed the girl next to me. That was awesome. Other than that, the show was really good. It seemed like they didn't play that many songs, or maybe it just went by really fast. I kinda liked Boston's rule about shows ending early. It was over by 9:30 so we had the rest of the night to do whatever. The fact that the Blood Brothers didn't have any new merch was a little upsetting, but maybe it was a good thing since I was broke anyway. After that we went to Natalia's OB group's "pre-game" before the Spring Fling. We got these really yummy drinks with vanilla vodka, coke, and something else, and uhh you couldn't taste any alcohol, it was sooo good. Then we played that crazy game where you drink a cup of beer and then have to flip your cup over and the next person drinks, and my team won every time. Booya Natalia. Walking home was fun since I couldn't walk straight. Tristyn stayed at her boyfriend's apartment so me and Natalia stayed up all night dancing to reggaeton lol. Sunday, Natalia had another OB meeting, which she tends to have every time I come to visit. We didn't really do much after that. The food was very disappointing - it probably sucked cuz it was the weekend though. I ended up waking up really early on Monday to shower then I left and took a bus back to New York.

I met my mom at Grand Central, cuz she wanted to go register her business but she had no idea where we were supposed to go so that didn't help anyone. We ended up just walking around stores. I got two really pretty necklaces. Then she drove me to my dad's house so I didn't go see the Blood Brothers again in NY. Then I wasted the rest of the week at home. It felt really nice. On Friday I went to Radian’s 21st birthday at Morimoto in the city. The food was sooo good. It's right across from Del Posto, which I also hear is nice. Then we went down a couple of blocks to Park and chilled there for a while. Radian got so annoyingly drunk, and he kept arguing about how Jews deserve to be treated like crap. He kept going on and on about how he loves Dostoevsky, but he read Crime and Punishment in English, so I don't understand why he loves it so much. You can't really grasp the true meaning of the book since a lot of it is lost in translation. I guess I shouldn't be talking since I haven't read it in Russian either but whatever. So we left at around 1am, but apparently he got into a fight with the cab driver on his way to some lounge after that, and was sent to jail hah. He didn't get released until Easter, and that's when he came over for dinner. Lol, idiot.

I was supposed to hang out with Natalia on Friday but since we were at the birthday for too long my mom didn't want to drive me so late. So Saturday I went over her casa and we chilled with her relatives. Luckily, no one fell down the stairs this holiday. Then we picked up Lauren and went to Belmont State Park and played soccer with Natalia's cousins. After a while we dropped her cousins off at home and went to Subway to meet up with Marc and Igor and that was cool. We got some ice cream at Marble Slab and all was well. My mom picked me up and yea the next day was Easter and I think I already updated about how a ton of people came over.

I finally ordered a camera and a bunch of books. And I went to visit Providence last weekend, but that's a whole other entry. Here are pictures from the park.

Natalia and her cousins.

_loveishomicide @ 2007-04-10T00:49:00

2007-04-10T04:43:01Z

I couldn't sleep last night, because all I kept thinking about was how I want to cut a handful of people out of my life. I let some take advantage of me in a recent attempt to change and be truthful. But being honest makes me so vulnerable, and I'm too weak. Not having things go my way still makes me feel so shitty even though I should be used to that by now. I'm sick of this nauseous feeling. I'm letting go because I'm selfish and I'm sick of hurting. I just don't want to hurt anymore. Goodbye.

_loveishomicide @ 2007-04-09T03:07:00

2007-04-09T07:07:01Z

First off, Happy Easter everyone! I'm not a good Christian and I did not go to church, but then again don't make me try to recall the last time I went. I liked how Natalia's dad called me a non-believer and how my mom questioned if I even knew how to pray. But all in all, today was a good day. My mom and I cooked plenty of food and a lot of people came over. First Ella and Lazik, then Vaiva and Vesta, then Raisa, then Luba, Marik and their son, and eventually Masha and Radian. Ella kept bringing up the fact that I don't have a boyfriend more often than she usually does. My mom usually boasts about how if I did, I would be distracted from my studies and I would be an idiot and make terrible decisions that I would later regret. And Ella usually stands up for me and says that I'm way too smart to do that. Basically, a conversation I've heard much too often. Honestly though, what does it matter? If I really wanted a boyfriend I would get one. Not to be conceited but I don't think that would be a problem. We won't even go into how old was I when I had my first kiss. Or how at the same time it was the best and worst weekend of my life thus far. So this entry isn't about the holiday or what happened today, but about how it took a stupid movie for me to realize something I already knew.

I was watching Rumor Has It while I was cleaning up after everyone left. I don't feel like explaining it, but basically poor little confused, Jennifer Anniston discovers that the story of The Graduate is about her family so she leaves to figure things out. Somehow this movie made me realize that I live one fucked up life. I should probably see a therapist. I don't confide in anyone.

My mother doesn't know me at all. Her conception of me is so far from the truth that it scares me to imagine who she thinks I am. My best friends don't know my deepest and darkest secrets. I play along with who they think I am, just for the thrill - and for the comfort of not having to open up. I feel more comfortable telling strangers my life story. It never mattered before, because I changed schools practically every year, and before I could trust anyone, I had to forget them and focus on making new friends.

I'm like a chameleon. I was never a shy child. Ever. Overtime I grew distant from my mom, and I became quiet around her because we didn't have anything in common. She began calling me shy, and I swear ever since then I molded my personality to fit her description. When I look back to how I was in fourth or fifth grade, I was a totally different person. I was loud and open and I was friends with practically everyone. Things changed around seventh grade. It really helps that so much time has past since then, because I think I can finally look back and understand what happened. I've never talked about it with anyone and I don't want to get emotional, but I was really hurt by what my "friends" did to me that year. I forgave them a long time ago but that would explain why I hated Locust Valley so much. That's probably why I'm so frustrated. This is the longest I have lived in one place. After two years, I was ready to move again, but it never happened. I agreed to go to a new school in eighth grade, because I thought it would be the closest thing to moving. Then when I had to go back in ninth, it killed me. It was probably the worst two weeks of my life. I was so miserable. I never had to face something I ran away from before. Doesn't help that I started working at Bagel Master that week. I feel so bad for forcing my mom to have to work so hard to send me to LuHi just because I'm such a selfish pansy. I honestly would've preferred moving and going to a different public school. I didn't even like LuHi that much, and I can tell you now, it's not worth the money. I probably would have gotten a better education at a different school, and it would have been free. I mean, I love the people I met there, but at the same time I'm sure I would've stayed in touch.

So basically in seventh grade my personality totally changed and I became really quiet and now I don't let people know me. To tell the truth, after all these games, I don't know who I am either. I don't even know if I can consider my friends my real friends, because I'm such a liar and I've never been honest with anyone. It's not fair to them. There might be one or two friends that have been constants in my life, but even so, I'm even afraid to tell them everything. So fuck that, I deserve to be dropped off the face of this planet. This epiphany isn't going to make me come clean to anyone, because like I said, I'm a pansy and I don't feel like dealing with it. That's why I'm so anxious so graduate and move on. But by the way things are looking right now, I'm going to be staying in one place for a very long time. I made my mom spend all our money on my high school, so I don't have any for college. So maybe it's about time I start to fix my problems instead of continuing to run away from them, because they are catching up with me.

_loveishomicide @ 2007-03-25T16:43:00

2007-03-25T20:37:38Z

My birthday was on Tuesday. I basically didn't do anything, and it was better that way. Lauren and Priscilla came over for cake and stuff. The guy finally came to paint the pink room (recently renamed the "Oh Shit Room). Now it has become the Christmas Room. Although, I'll admit, I think the colors look pretty nice. We put in laminate floors and got a nice new track light, so yay I'm excited to move my computer in there or whatever I'm going to end up doing.

On Thursday, Priscilla, Alyssa, and I went to Port Washington and got brazillians. Honestly, it wasn't as bad as I expected.

On Friday my mom took Priscilla, Lauren, Christine, and Liz out to a Russian restaurant to go clubbing for my birthday. Lyndsay backed out at the last second =[. It was a lot of fun and we were looking mighty fine. Russian guys complete my life. They have amazing dance moves and are total hotties. Our fivesome dominated the dance floor for most of the night. We ordered a hookah, so that also was a new experience. Out of no where Liz's mom showed up to pick her up at 2:30am. We ended up leaving around 3am. We came home around 4ish, and went to sleep around 4:45, which was awesome since I had to go to work the next morning.

After work I hopped on a train to Penn and headed downtown to ABC No Rio. I missed Hologram, and came in while Loma Prieta was playing. I heard at least three of four of their songs, and wow I liked them a lot. I probably should've gotten one of their $5 shirts. I found Max and while we were talking Sal came over, who was there with Elle, Fletcher, and Matt. Then Yo Man Go! played. Eh, I didn't like them that much. Then I moved to the other side and Off Minor came on. I was right by the speaker and I loved every second of it. They were really really good. Now I'm deaf.

Then Max walked me to a Mexican restaurant at Broadway and Houston to meet up with Megan for Lyndsay's birthday. Food was pretty yummy, and then we walked to the Magnolia Bakery. There was a really long line but all worth the wait. I tried one of Megan's Asian honeydew cookies - kinda weird, but not too bad. We talked to the doorman for a little bit and then got our cupcakes. There were two different lines - one to order drinks and stuff and one to pay. We were all standing on the line to pay, and one of the workers asks me if I wanted him to help me, and I'm like "No, it's okay. I don't need anything." and he goes "Okay, well I just want you to know you are really beautiful." LOL... I was like "Thanks haha." Then it was my turn to pay, and the cashier asked me if I was really shy. He said I shouldn't be, because I'll be getting lots of sugar tonight. Hahaha wow. Then he shook my hand. And when we were leaving, the doorman stops me and he gives me a piece of paper, and goes "Please call me anytime." Lmao, wow what a night. As we were walking to the Psychic some guy asks us for money and we didn't give him any, and he flipped out about how we should go to hell. Pretty fun, yet scary stuff. At 11:08 we got on the Huntington train and headed home. My mom didn't answer her phone so I took a cab home, and I ended up driving around with him for over a half hour, because we went to Plainview first and uhhh, blah. Didn't get home until 1am. I was supposed to go to Dom's party, and even Dan called, but instead I went straight to sleep and went back to work this morning. The story of my life.

I really want to sleep, but I have a calculus test tomorrow that I need to get over an 85 on. I can't wait for this week to be over. Wednesday me and Priscilla are going to visit Binghamton, then hopefully Lauren is going to see Rocky Vololato with me Thursday night. Friday I have no school, but I want to go to Boston and visit Natalia again, since I won't see her for a while. Probably catch the Blood Brothers Saturday night while I'm there, so I don't have to go see them here alone on Tuesday. I'm definitely reconsidering Canada, because it's causing too much trouble and blah I just don't want to go anymore. We can reschedule until the summer. Instead, I need to go visit the other colleges I applied to and never visited, and maybe I'll go to Florida, since it's warm there, unlike Montreal. This week I got accepted to Northeastern and Boston University, so those are pluses. I'm just waiting to hear from four more schools. So far everything seems to look too expensive, so I definitely need to look into some scholarships. Ugh, too much work.

Let the rains embrace you

2007-03-14T22:41:59Z

I don't remember the last time I updated, but my mom has been gone since February 27th. It's been really nice being able to use my mom's car. She finally came home Monday night so I'll miss that. She never did tell me where she went, and honestly, I don't care.

I got denied to NYU's College of Arts and Science, but they accepted me into their General Studies Program with guaranteed acceptance to the original college I applied to for junior and senior year. But I don't want to do a liberal arts associate's degree so I probably won't do that. On a more positive note, I got an acceptance letter from Fordham on Saturday, and then packets from Binghamton and American University today. So that's four schools down, seven more to go. I don't know where I want to go or even if I want to go to any of the schools I applied to. I'll probably go to the cheapest one and that's it. I decided I want to get the hell off of Long Island, because I hate how everyone knows each other here. I need a change and a place where I can start over.

So let's see... Friday after school I went to the city to meet up with Max. At the Hicksville train station, I saw a bunch of people from my school and it was pretty gay. So Max took me to Vegetarian Paradise 2, and it was pretty yummy. Then we still have a while before I had to meet Brandon so we went to Strand and just hung around there for a while. Then we headed back to Penn Station and I got tickets really quickly and got on the train. I took Brandon to Burger King for dinner, since I knew there was nothing to eat in my house. Then we stayed up all night watching a bunch of movies and it was pretty nice. Priscilla came around 4am from Dom's to crash at my place, so I let her sleep in my mom's room. I had to go to work in the morning and it sucked a lot. I didn't get any sleep and woke up late. After work, I talked to Natalia, and she promised to send me a postcard from her trip to Italy. I came home, showered, fed Brandon bagels, and around 430ish I drove him to the train station to go back to Philly.

At 7:30ish Lauren and Christine came over and we went to Walbaum's to get snacks for the party. Then Priscilla came with that whole posse and the ultimate fiesta at Diana's began. There were a bunch of Dom's friends I didn't know, but sometime later the boiler man, Liz and Dan came, and eventually Dave and Eric showed up. I remember trying to give Kelly directions to my house like thirty times, but she ended up not coming. Will showed up pretty late too. Haha, overall it was a pretty good time. There were about 25 people there, jeez. At one point I kept burning my fingers, and I fell asleep on Doug in Eric's car, then we moved into Will's car, and I remember being locked inside and I really had to throw up so that was fun. I really needed air so I opened the window while we were driving and stuck my head out, and my glasses flew off my head, which was wonderful. I came home and haha I don't know passed out and somehow woke up with Dan in my bed. Lauren was the only one to take any pictures, and her computer's power cable broke so for the time being I don't have any pictures.

After cleaning everything up and showering, Sal came over. Everyone parted ways and we went to Panera. It was soo nice outside. I thought we were going to go back to my house so I didn't bother bringing a sweatshirt, but that makes me an idiot. We drove to Elle's house to pick her up and then another girl and ended up going into the Chinese food place across the street from the pub for two and a half hours. There were a bunch of people and then somehow we went to the ska show at the pub. We saw The Fad play and I don't remember if we saw The Flaming Tsunamis or not, but either way we ended up going outside and people started playing guitar and singing along in the car. I asked Olha to pick me up and we went to the office in Massapequa and did our thing. I was so tired, I passed out in the car. But when I came home, I vacuumed everywhere, finished the laundry, and made sure everything was cleaned up.

Monday, I came home at 2:30pm and went straight to sleep only to wake up at 10 to talk to my dad for ten minutes and then went back to sleep until 7:30am. I heard rumors my mom was supposed to come home Wednesday, but she ended up coming home a little past midnight that night. Yesterday was nice, because I ended up going to Panera with Priscilla, which I've noticed I've been going to often lately. (We saw Marsha there with her grandma last week. I miss her!) And then I hung out with Lauren after she finished all her labs from last semester (Congrats, love). Tomorrow we have a NUT day at school haha, and then no school Friday, so woohoo party tomorrow. This weekend and St. Patrick's should be fun, and then Tuesday is my birthday, so it's going to be good. I can't believe time is flying by so fast.

The inhibitions of their prey kept them from screaming

2007-02-27T01:26:10Z

Wednesday morning Lauren picked me up and we got on a train and then a bus and headed to Boston. We sat across the aisle, which is extremely annoying. I don't understand why the single people need to all sit separately. You're all going to end up sitting next to someone anyways ugh. We got there, and ate dinner and then Natalia, Agatha, and I went to Roxy for the show. We missed Shipwreck, and came in while Since the Flood was playing. Then Death Before Dishonor came on. Those Boston kids are so funny. There were these four girls that just jumped up and down, and then a handful of hotties "dancing" it up. I couldn't watch them with a straight face. For Madball we went all the way to the front. Natalia was having the time of her life while people attacked me. They were really good though. During the last song, some guy jumped from the stage and reached over and poked me in the eye and took out my contact. That was really cool. Kind of interesting to see like that. I got two pretty hardcore shirts and we went home.

Natalia got her books together and we went to Agatha's apartment. We ordered pizza and started watching a movie but we kept interrupting it to feed everyone ice cream Her roommates seemed pretty cool. This drunk kid, Craig fell asleep on me. Fun times. Me and Lauren passed out on the couch and then we went home around 3ish.

Thursday we spent all day doing nothing. We showered, then stuffed our faces early in the day. I tried to fix Natalia's computer. Then I attempted to find the One Tree Hill episode I missed the day before. Then Natalia went to her one hour meeting that lasted three and a half hours. Me and Lauren made good use of the whiteboard, while Tristyn and Jessica watched Grey's Anatomy. Then as soon as Natalia came back from her meeting she left to go do homework. Lame. Lauren, Tristyn, and I had our own fun. Tristyn left three different people extremely long messages. Then we talked to Tom, this guy who has Lauren's exact phone number except with a 631 area code.

Friday we stuffed our faces again. Well at least I did. I like how people look at me in the dining hall when I have to go back three times to fill my tray up with as many plates of food as I can and then eat it all. Then we got our stuff together and took the T to South Station and then the bus back to NY. We sat across from each other again and ughhh. Lauren made friends with the guy next to her lol. We went to Coldstone and they played Belle and Sebastian lol. My daddy picked me up and we went home and he took apart the bed in the pink room. It's so empty now it's crazy.

Saturday my mom and I went to the sauna on McDonald Ave. with Marina and her son. Then we went to another sushi place. Very yummy. I friend fried green tea ice cream and also got fried banana for dessert and it was soooo yummy. Then we got lots of food in Brighton and stopped by my dad's house to drink tea. Sunday I worked and started to do some of the Calculus packet. Today was a snow day woohoo. Yup I'm still wasting my life away. See ya.

Tristyn!

The banana is going to "Tell Someone" about STD's.

Fixing Natalia's computer.

Me eating an Oreo and Madball's set list.

Psycho.

We didn't go outside all day.

Natalia about to nap. Little did she know we were going to attack her.

Natalia checking out my unbuckled pants lol.

Me conquering Etch-a-Sketch.

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I'm pretty sure Natalia appreciated my breath all over her.

I forgot who we were making fun of in that picture.

Natalia's face.

Agatha!

Tristyn, Natty, and Agatha <3