Candice

Mon, 15 May 2006 13:41:42 GMT

everyone add my new journal

bulletsnbombs

Fri, 10 Mar 2006 04:31:49 GMT

why am I doing this to myself?
sooo stupid
why am I updating the stupid stupid thing.
I don't like tonight very much.

Thu, 16 Feb 2006 02:23:46 GMT

from now on I'm making my own desicions, I'm my own person and I need to do what I think is right, even if it means making mistakes on the way. thats how you learn. mistakes and pain are all part of life anyway. if youdon't feel pain then you don't feel any of the good stuff either...you need to make mistakes and fuck up in order to get where you want and feel good.

Sun, 12 Feb 2006 16:19:17 GMT

you were wrong when you said everything's gonna be alright

you were right when you said you can't always get what you want

Wed, 08 Feb 2006 14:19:34 GMT

if you're not in school today. you're never getting scratched again.

Mon, 06 Feb 2006 06:24:42 GMT

I'm trying so hard to sleep but I can't stop thinking. I need to stop letting oppurtunities just pass me by because I'm afraid. I need to stop letting the things I want go because I'm scared of rejection. it'll be really hard for me because of the type of person that I am, but I have to make this change for myself.

too many nights sitting here alone on my bed lead to this

Sat, 14 Jan 2006 04:10:10 GMT

wow, looking back at the summer. everything seems to have changed so much. I feel like I've grown up alot..and I'm not completly sure if thats a good thing or not. or maybe it's just the state of mind that I tend to have in the summer. everything is so carefree and bright and happy. things are always a little on the shitty side when it's right smack in the middle of winter. things aren't that bad now anyway, I just need to get healthy and keep my grades up. and I think not seeing the sun for so long is also what tends to make things seem not so great in the wintertime. I think I'm just not quite as much of a little girl anymore..I guess that I just went through some stuff that wasn't exactly fun and it kind of just forced me to grow up, obviously not completly because I'll nevre grow up completly but at least a little bit. I've been lonely on and off lately and I've been catching myself from time to time almost wanting a boyfriend, but I have really mixed feelings about the whole relationship thing. I have enjoyed being single..and I really think that being single helps to improve your friendships. I don't plan on rushing into anything serious either, serious relationships can be a really fucking scary thing and if you go into one when you're not ready, it can turn out to be a fucking disaster. anyway yeah. so about me making this weird heart felt entry out of fucking no where. and I'm actually kind of excited about my birthday this year, not that I have anything great planned or I want anything special..but once it's my birthday it's spring and then its summer again...and I really do want summer again.

Sat, 31 Dec 2005 08:24:53 GMT

I feel really numb to life anyd everything thats going on around me right now.

Fri, 23 Dec 2005 00:33:54 GMT

you have no idea how amazing it feels to be this happy after feeling like shit for the past three monthes. I'm finally starting to feel like myself again. hopefully it stays this way

Mon, 19 Dec 2005 04:29:57 GMT

I'm really happy that theres only one week of school until the break and that for one week I can just return to the amazing state of mind that I have during the summer. where everything just feels so carefree and nothing matters except being with my friends and laughing and having fun.

Fri, 18 Nov 2005 14:56:18 GMT

-UNIQUE--
1. Nervous Habits? biting my lip, chipping the paint off of my nails
2. Are you double jointed? nope
3. Can you roll your tongue? no, i wish i could though
4. Can you raise one eyebrow at a time? I sure can, and it took alot of practice ^_^
5. Can you blow spit bubbles? duh.
6. Can you cross your eyes? idk
7. Tattoos? hopefully when I turn 16
8. Piercings and where? bellybutton and lots on my ears
9. Do you make your bed daily? yeah right.

--CLOTHES--
10. Which shoe goes on first? umm I have alot of shoes. it changes all the time.
11. Speaking of shoes, have you ever thrown one at anyone? duhhhhh
12. On the average, how much money do you carry in your purse/wallet? depends on how nice my parents were feeling on that particular day
13. What jewelry do you wear 24/7? earings, necklace, braclets

14. Favorite piece of clothing? black hoodie and leftover crack patch jeans

--FOOD--
15. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?twirl
16. Have you ever eaten Spam? yes
17. Favorite ice cream flavor? rum raisin, or cookie dough
18. How many cereals in your cabinet? about 10 I guess?
19. What's your favorite beverage? cream soda
20. What's your favorite restaurant? applebees
21. Do you cook? I sure dooo!

--GROOMING--
22. How often do you brush your teeth? like a million times a day, and I floss too
23. Hair drying method? I blow dry it
24. Have you ever colored/highlighted your hair? yeah alot

--MANNERS--
25. Do you swear? what kind of question is that?
26. Do you ever spit? yes

--WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE--
27. Animal? ducks
28. Food? stew
29. Month? end of september-beginning of october.
30. Day? friday or saturday
31. Cartoon? spongebob
32. Shoe Brand? alot
33. Subject in school? art
34. Color? green
35. Sport? DDR, ahahahh
36. TV show? TRAUMA LIFE IN THE ER, (anything on the discovery channel or TLC)
37. Thing to do in the spring? lay in the grass
38. Thing to do in the summer? stay cold
39. Thing to do in the fall? go for walks, rake leaves, take pictures, wear cosy clothing, and sleep
40. Thing to do in the winter? freeze to death, sleep, play in the snow, make snow men

--IN AND AROUND--
41. The CD player? a mix
42. Person you talk most on the phone with? lexi
43. Ever taken a cab? yup
44. Do you regularly check yourself out in store windows and mirrors? I guess?
45. What color is your bedroom? purple
46. Do you use an alarm clock? no, but I use a snooze button
47. Window seat or aisle? window

--LA LA LAND--
48. What's your sleeping position? on my tummmyyyyy
49. Even in hot weather do you use a blanket? yes , I need it for comfort
50. Do you snore? I don't think so
51. Do you sleepwalk? not that I know
52. Do you talk in your sleep? apparently I talk alot in my sleep
53. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? I used to but not anymore
54. How about with the light on? nope
55. Do you fall asleep with the TV or radio on? sometimes music

TEN FIRSTS
1. First Best Friend: I don't remember
2. First Screen Name: don't remember
3. First Pet: a bunny rabbit and his name was frisco
4. First Crush: idk
5. First Record: lol i dunno I listened to all my parents stuff
6. First Car: will be my moms mini cooper ^_^
7. First Love:mmhfff
8. First stuffed animal: floppy dog
9. First Movie: don't know
10. First Job: babysitting

NINE LASTS
1. Last Alcoholic Beverage: captain morgans spiced rum!
2. Last Car ride: my mom took me to guitar and the chiropractor
3. Last Movie Saw: SLC punk, because I love that movie.
4. Last Phone Call made: lexi
5. Last CD Played: against me
6. Last Bubble bath: a long time ago
7. Last time you Cried: yesterday
8. Last Vacation: florida over the summer
9. Last Date: no idea

EIGHT HAVE YOU EVERS
1. Have you ever dated one of your friends: yes
2. Have you ever been arrested: not yet
3. Have you ever skinny dipped: no, but I want to
4. Have you ever been on tv: not that I know of
5. Have you ever kissed someone, and regretted it: I dunno
6. Have you ever had a sex dream about someone: haha yes.
7. Have you ever had sex? yup
8. Have you ever fought someone: probably

SEVEN THINGS YOU ARE WEARING
1. hoodie
2. the most comfortable sweatpants ever
3. green shirt
4. pooka dot underwear!
5. socks
6. bra
7. hemt necklace

SIX THINGS YOU'VE DONE TODAY
1. woke up
2. fought with my dad
3. went to school
4. made a bowl out of clay in art class
5. guitar lesson
6. chiropractor

FIVE FAVOURITE THINGS IN NO ORDER
1. ska
2. dancing
3. sleeping
4. friends
5. cream soda

FOUR PEOPLE YOU CAN TELL ALMOST ANYTHING TO
1. lexi
2. kristian
3. my mom
4. corinne

nah, there are a few, but i'm not saying. they know who they are.

THREE CHOICES
1. Black or White: black
2. Hot or Cold: hot
3. Chocolate or Vanilla: vanilla

TWO THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1. learn how to swing dance and salsa dance
2. have alot of good times

ONE THING YOU REGRET
1. I can't really think of anything I regret. I try not to regret.

Tue, 08 Nov 2005 00:53:09 GMT

my bestfriend is a five year old. I just read her a big chunk of her book and she wouldn't let me stop until she fell asleep. and now she's sleeping like a baby. ♥

IDIOT. day 3.

Thu, 27 Oct 2005 00:51:37 GMT

the effects of being grounded.

I cut my hair. because I'm fucking dumb and I can't go more than about 3 weeks without changing my hair. I'm going blonde sometime in the future.haha.

I love my life.

Mon, 17 Oct 2005 13:49:35 GMT

Everyone would leave with the memory that there was no place else in the world
And this was where they always belonged
We would dance like no one was watching
With one fist in the air!

Mon, 17 Oct 2005 13:18:23 GMT

I cant keep my eyes open. need sleep.

Sun, 09 Oct 2005 21:31:44 GMT

so I've decided that life is pretty much just what you make of it. so many people waste their life just being miserable. being happy is a choice. when life gives you lemons, make some fucking lemonade and stop complaining. just because something bad happens to you doesn't mean you have to sit there and keep crying about it. I mean everyone deserves their time to be grumpy and be upset, but you get over stuff. theres no use in sitting there and being an emo fuck for the rest of your life. trust me it's much more fun being happy.

anyway yesterday was fun. Brian drove me to streetlight and we met lexi and kristian there. There were lots and lots of friends there. all the bands were good but it was really just too crowded, I hung out with joshy for most of the night because he's awesome and it was too hard to get into the crowd. then after me and lexi spent the night at monmouth with kristian and now I'm back again.:]

sippin' on gin and juice

Mon, 03 Oct 2005 19:28:04 GMT

I really love life and the people that make it so great.

Mon, 26 Sep 2005 02:37:50 GMT

100 things about me...

1. First grade teacher's name: Mrs. degregorio

2. Last person you kissed: my puppy. and yes she is a person.

3. Last word you said: "woops"

4. Last song you sang: UB40- red whine. yeah I know I'm a loser.

5. Last person you hugged: my grandma

6. Last thing you laughed at: people being dumb online

8. What's in your CD player: I really only use my ipod

9. What socks are you wearing: none

10. What's under your bed: a subwuffer and a box

12. Current taste: haha umm toothpaste?

13. Current hair style: longish with bangs

14. Current clothes: pajamas.

15. Current Job: unemployed at the moment

16. Current lodging: my house

17. Current desktop picture: a picture of the shore. because it's my favorite place ever.

18. Current worry: none.

19. Current hate: people who whine about their lives but do nothing about it

20. Story behind your username: I don't remember because it's a really old username

21. Current favorite article of clothing: my grey hoody

22. Favorite physical feature(s) of the opposite sex: eyes, hair, height, and BACKKK DIMPLES

23. Last CD that you bought: ahh I haven't bought a cd in a really long time so I don't really remember

24. Favorite place to be: the beach/ boardwalk, someone elses house, or a show

25. Least favorite place: school

26. Time you wake up in the morning: weekdays 6:50 and weekends never

27. If you could play a new instrument, what would it be? the drums

29. Current favorite word/saying: shithead

30. Favorite book: "valiant" by holly black

31. Favorite Movie: ferris buelers day off or fly away home hahaha

32. Favorite Song: as of now, it's "julia" by horrorpops

34. One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: I don't really think there's anyone

35. Favorite day: I like Friday's the best

36. Where do you want to go: california. I haven't been there yet.

37. What is your career going to be: I have no idea, hope to figure it out soon though.

39. What kind of car will you have: haha any piece of shit that can get me from place to place

40. where is 40? ..................................

41. A random lyric:

42. Eye Color: green

43. Hair Color: red right now

44. Righty or Lefty: righty

45. Zodiac Sign: taurus

46.Innie or Outtie: Innie

DESCRIBE...

47. Your heritage: dutch, hungarian, and english

48. The shoes you wore today: creepers

49. Your hair: red

50. Your weakness: back dimples. but only on guys.

51. Your fears: never having anyone to cuddle with

53. Your most recent secret? pshhht

54. Your thoughts first waking up : I want to go back to sleep

55. The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: eyes or hair

56. Your bedtime: changes all the time

57. Your most missed companion: ................

58. Your perfect pizza: cheese

59. Sweet and Chewy or Salty and Crunchy: sweet and chewy

60. Single or group dates: it depends

61. Dogs or Cats: dogs

62. Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: lipton. nestea leaves a weird aftertaste.

63. Chocolate or vanilla: vanillllllllaaaaa

64. Cappuccino or Coffee: both

DO YOU...

65. Smoke: Not cigarettes

66. Curse: yup

67. Sing: sometimes

68. Take a shower everyday: yurp

69. Have a crush:

71. Think you want kids: not sure. maybe.

72. Want to go to college: yeah

73. Want more than what you got: I guess?

74. Want to get married: someday

75. Type w/ your fingers on the right keys: yes. I'm a good typer :D

76. Think you're attractive: idk I guess maybe. who knows..

77. Think you're a health freak: not at all

78. Get along with your parents: sometimes

79. Play an instrument: 2

IN THE PAST 3 months

80. Cried: yes

81. Smoke: yes

82. Done a drug: lol lots of advil

83. Made Out: yup

84. Go on a date: do people actually go on dates anymore?

85. Eaten an entire box of Oreos: nope

86. Eaten sushi: yupppp

87. Been dumped: no

88. Made homemade cookies: yeah

89. Got in a fight: yeah

90. Gone skinny dipping: I have yet to do that

91. Dyed your hair: yes

92. Stolen anything: no

Fri, 23 Sep 2005 02:35:04 GMT

I look like a 5 year old. one more day until the glorious weekend.and people should go to the ska is dead on saturday in asbury. because thats the one that I'm going to. and I have the sneezles and I hate it very much.

you are the smell before rain, you are the blood in my veins

Wed, 14 Sep 2005 03:02:15 GMT

even though I've had alot on my mind and I've been stressing quite a bit lately, I'm doing alright. everything seems to be ok, I'm returning to my old self again slowly but surely.I'm not worried about much, just getting my school work done and getting decent grades. school is exhausting me but thats just because I haven't been getting to bed until about 1 every morning haha. I'm pretty much happy to let things happen how they want to happen for now.

ob-la-di ob-la-da life goes on

Sun, 11 Sep 2005 17:51:08 GMT

I've had so fucking much on my mind lately, and my stomache has just been so upset lately from it that I can barely eat at all. I've lost about 8 or 9 pounds within the last week and a half. blah. and my pants that were too tight on me a month ago are falling off now and its weird. I get really crazy just sitting here so ~~I think I'm just gonna go run~~ and excercise to get some of my agression out. haha that sounds so lame.

EDIT

yeah umm I died running, my stupid rib that always pops out started to kill, and that was the reason I stopped running to begin with.it sucks alot. oh well.

Sun, 11 Sep 2005 05:12:02 GMT

it's so weird how much life can change in just a little more than a week

Thu, 08 Sep 2005 21:55:33 GMT

school is fine. it just makes me really tired and anzy. tomorrow is friday anyway so its fine. I actually did my homework tonight, which is amazing.seeing catch tomorrow and that should be fun. I'm so exhausted so I think I might take a nap and after that I should take a shower because I'm stinky and I haven't shaved my legs for a while
hhahaa.
later

Tue, 06 Sep 2005 05:13:18 GMT

happy birthday to my leximouse who I love love love so much ♥ ♥ ♥

Mon, 05 Sep 2005 19:13:08 GMT

damn my tummy for always acheing and damn my nose for always sneezing and itching