daily rants and useless thoughts

_lostintheplot_ @ 2006-09-17T23:17:00

2006-09-18T03:23:53Z

so this weekend i was supposed to catch up on readings...instead i discovered Facebook:

http://yorku.facebook.com/profile.php?id=48914881

lol. anyway...ya chilled w/ iris after class on fri, go bussed it back to sauga and chilled w/ simsums, yummy yummy fun. lots of cri-zazy jokes (the wonderful server lady @ sushi tei, watching aggie suffer, funtimes getting stalked on mississauga road, condom extravaganza @ jane's rez, uber-chilling it like how we do in the lobby of jane's rez (without jane))....good to see the pplz once again and do what we do how we do when we did it. haha.

so ya we talked about the super ultimate cross-campus plan which will HOPEFULLY work out aka UTMers come up to York, stay a night, then Non-Loo-ers head up to Loo, stay a night, attack WLU and Loo, and head back down. Planning to do it the first weekend of Oct...so hopefully everyone can, and not be super lame and Loo-like and be all like "zomg i haff to study insted @!" SHOW US A GOOD TIME...DO JUSTICE TO YOUR CRAPPY SCHOOLS! RAA its a challenge!!!

Anyway, ya. lots of readings, lots of chillings, lots of being amazed at facebook => WHICH YOU SHOULD ALL GET. becoz u can meet ppl in your uni...and becoz then i can have more friends. hahaha.

Also this week, i got my microwave and tv, so in addition to our rice cooker and 2 fridges, we are the masters of the ultimate universe and chillin' like villians. no wonder we never want to leave our rez room => AND NO WONDER YOU NON YORKERS WANT TO VISIT AND BUM IT at my rez for 3 nights (the limit) !!

_lostintheplot_ @ 2006-08-31T18:23:00

2006-08-31T22:39:18Z

RAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!! ALYSSA BACK FROM TEH DED ZOMGZZZZZZZZZZZZ!!!!!!!!~!!!!!!@!@!!!!111ONE

hahah HI everyone~ so this is my life @ rez so far:

- going to cheesy/good/eh frosh events: even if they are kinda blah sometimes, there were fun ones: foam party, waterfight, trojan (condom) wars! hahaha. yes. imagine it. ALSO really good for meeting people~
- MEETING PEOPLE: omg its actually *DIVERSE* making friends with all kinds of people...people on my floor...people in my college...random commuter people...super good and nice
- REZ FOLKS: my floor is kind of dead, coz we have the DON on our floor, but when we wanna party can just go UPSTAIRS (which is good coz then we dun getscrewed when we r trying to study during exam time etc); meeting people like these asian girls upstairs...some white girls that i went to parties with...some azn/brown commuter girls...random white guys i keep meeting in the washroom unintentionally...other two girls who are *OC obsessed* ~yey~...this guy who makes *DRINKS* for people n has lil parties in his room...good thing is that i get free drinks..bad thing is that he's next door to me *says hi to him thru the wall coz u can hear EVERYTHING*
- LOCATION: rez is FAR ENUF that i am AWAY from parents *SIGH OF INTENSE HAPPY*...but close enuf that i can go home/get shit/ grab free food/ see you sauga losers!<3 oh yeah and BUS RIDE to close places like the malls, T&T, MARKHAM!, and ttc busses downtown ! *love*
- PRETTINESS: as my friend put it nicely: "why are these people all so SEXY!??" hahahah. yes very pretty ppl in rez ...prolly coz i'm racist and there are only whitewashed ppl in rez *__* *happy~*...as i said, guy next door...he is pretty..but he is as gay as a rainbow flag *darnit* (he listens to s club 7. doesn't get along with guys. tap dances.)...OH AND
- CO -ED washrooms: at first i was like eh alrite whatever..its actually not that bad...but continuing what i was saying about pretty ppl..there is this other guy on my floor who is super ~mysterious~ coz he doesn't talk to ppl, but not coz he seems creepy/loserish...just coz he's too COOL. hahahah....anyway so i was @ sink and then behind he goes into shower....and all i see is piece by piece his CLOTHES getting thrown over the washroom door...i was just like..."if only i had xray vision rite now..." bahahaha so ya that's rez.

OH YA and shortage of FOOD..until they start stupid meal plan..went with roomate yesterday to buy grocery...we almost cried with joywhen we saw microwave packages of rice hahaha....anyway...ya...this week made me decide to get a rice cooker so we're gonna go to T&T and get one!! yey.....oh ya and the tv in the common room is pretty sucky, at first i was like "wow the channels go up to 63" theni realized they are REPEATED TWICEso theres like 30 something....and they are all crap...for some reason there is a kids channel wtf...anyway me and roomate gonna get a tv too..then.itll be perfect paradise...which leads me to...

REALIZING THE MEANING OF REZ: *time to write passionately*

As i stared out the darkened window to the grey path below, seeing dark bodies gliding through the orange-tinged light in the wee hours of the quiet morning...i came to the realization...that i AM LIVING ALONE. practically like an APARTMENT. actually it IS. and there's no rules....and i can go out forever and come back whenever and it DOESN'T MATTER. it was...so..magical....so now i gotta take advantage of this, HAHA.

o ya and if i dun respond to u thru msn/lj/ whatever....its not coz im a bitch (well..not in this case) its coz my internet isn't set up rite so i'm stealing thus...the connection sucks...hahah...ok gl to everyone rez-ing/ uni-ing..have fun, don't drink too much and SLEEP COZ IT SAVES U

_lostintheplot_ @ 2006-08-26T01:06:00

2006-08-26T05:35:37Z

summer 2006...so many memories, new experiences...learning a lot about myself as a person and realizing a lot about others (for the good/bad)....of course i think you guys know me as the type of person who will say what they are thinking....so just a few anonymous words to various people (not naming names coz i'm SCURREEDD ha ha or i like mystery~~)

to YOU: this summer/year i've seen you grow so much as a person and do things nobody ever saw coming, even you...so proud of you *_*...there's another side of you that ignorant people can't see, but you've been bringing it out, i dunno whether its becoz u have found your confidence or your balls (haha) or whatever it is...but i know this new trend in your life will hopefully go on...you've definately proved that you can whip out some heavy unknown artillery and send a SHOCK/AWE bullet into ppl's asses....i don't need to wish you good luck in your future because you've already managed to blow away the competition and we all know you'll continue to do so. our younger days will always be fond memories, even if we have somewhat become distanced now our bond is something that can never be broke or shaken~

to yOU: sometimes your differences make me want to just grab you and shake you angrily...but then i also remember our similarities and the fact that no matter where our separate and oh-so different paths take us in life, we'll always be friends....i've just had to learn to deal with the fact that you are different from me, with a different personality and own wants and needs...but you'll always be a close friend to me because of all the odd moments and times that we've managed to share together...even if all the things we don't have in common fill up the space between us, we can still talk like old times...that is something unique.

and you: what can i say. we are like total opposites but have managed to be good friends for so long. you always make me smile and i just want to say to you, NEVER DOUBT YOURSELF...even if you don't come right out and say it, sometimes i can get a feeling from what you say and don't say that you don't always believe you are something or can do something...but you are a person in this world who has a good heart and good intentions and always cares for others...it is so rare in this world that i hope you realize it and cherish who you are...i can never thank you enough for what you've given me ..

you too: i don't even need to say anything, becoz i know i'm always giving you a piece of my mind (whether you want it or not). sometimes i don't really get why you act the way you are...and get down and etc. because in the end, what really matters is that you've got some UNKNOWN UNCAPTURABLE quality about you and being the person you are, you can go anywhere in life...plz remember not to regret the choices and things you've done, because everything is a learning experience in the end and a change to grow as a person...there are so few people with whom i know our relationships will stay strong and the same...but i think we both know ours will stay strong and hopefully NOT the same, as we go through all the new changes in life (or as you change and i make commentary/enjoy the drama)

(its not in any order so...don't..worry urself)

eh ya. so even with any few little regrets i may have from time to time or disappointments in my life...and all the negatives that occasionally may have blinded me and made me forgot the positives....i am glad that my 17 years thus far (ok well 14 minus the strange brampton period) played out the way they did.

on the other time...it's time to turn the page, start a new chapter and all that jazz. and i can't WAIT to finally begin my life my way and change everything i hated and keep everything i loved. for like almost two years i've always known i wanted to end up right where i'm going and i am so glad that shit is working out my way and that i'm turning out the way i am. this is IT! finally on the road ...wherever it may lead me, to grad school, exchange in greece, law school, journalism, hell, even teaching english in freakin hong kong for who KNOWS what could happen...on my way to making CRAZY CHEDDAA $$ and contacts fo LYFE (uni ppl THANK NONJESUS FO YA) and yeah, everlasting happiness anda pure heart and good soul and all that too.

p.s do you KNOW how good it feels to walk past certain people andjust think to myself "HELLS YA! NO MORE OF THIS SHIT" ? coz i wish i could bottle this feeling up and snort it with a straw made of shiny sugar

p.s its time to *shine* y'all thought u knew bout me, but u was only getin 50% of ALYSSA! OH YES CHILDREN...THERE IS MORE *breakin out like a gangstarr butterfly*

so in summation: FUK Y'ALL BIZATCHES, A.TEE IS OUTTTTTTTTTTTT =D

"flying on planes to exotic locations won't teach you how you really feel..."

2006-08-07T16:16:56Z

july 2006: spent in hong kong!

it was an AMAZING experience! my first time ever on a plane, first real 'vacation' out of the country...wouldn't have happened without the super generosity of may! THANK YOU so freaking much once again!!

what i can i say really...went from the only place i knew for most of my life: the definition of suburbia to this crazy new place with MOUNTAINS...ocean...swervy roads that made me wanna barf but were a nice change...can't even attempt to describe what it was like living in hong kong and spending an entire month in a completely different lifestyle and atmosphere. highlights: of course have to talk about the SHOPPING in hong kong. holy crap so cheap $-$ 7:1 exchange rate what else do i gotta say! malls left right and center. awesome stuff ahh such nice fashion hahah.

and then seeing a place that has roots centuries old...seeing temples, landmarks, getting to go to museum of history which was AMAZING (oh shut up) and a prequel to my asian history course this sept =)/x-x...one thing you really notice about hong kong is that there's such a presence of old and new...you can have these old, crumbling temples where people still follow rituals from thousands of years ago and then a MALL right behind them....can have people doing tai chi in serene parks right next to highways and bustling city centers...can have GRANDMAS with CELLPHONES (EVERY freaking person had a cellphone!!! even CLEANING ladies, WHILE they are working!!)

plus being completely submerged in an alien and new culture...a totally different way of life, so fast paced and advanced...it was so fun to discover new things about the world and see life through a different set of eyes so to speak....aah i'll never forget it, itopened up my mind and really makes you wonder about the world~ so glad and grateful to those people who helped make it possible...

but on the other hand, back at home! sigh very happy to return...except now i gotta UNPACK*gah* even though...in about a month i'll be re-packing up once again? yeeeesh. oh well, now it's time to stuff in AS MUCH FUN AS POSSIBLE before you-know-what.

eh...i'll put pictures up when my internet is un-crapped

june 2006!

2006-06-30T06:17:29Z

hi! this week has been very eventful...lots of firsts -> first concert, first clubbing xperience, first laptop (of..my own..), first camera (of my own...), etc.
Highlights:

Friday went to Pmall: fob guy checking out aggie on bus (+aggie giving him death stare haha), iris + jen running after supposedly hot fob guys (+ taking pics of them haha)
SAT went to first concert at Olympic Island in the Toronto Islands...went w/ diana, vince + his friends kelvin/aakash...took subway, caught ferry, etc. SO FREAKING HOT >.< sat around in the sun for a couple hrs, watched some good-ish bands, and then BLOC PARTY!!! yeeeee *happiness*. They were so good...and played my fav songs, 'She's Hearing Voices" omg craziness..;_; *tears of joy*
Tue went and bought my Sony laptop + cheap camera, yey!

So yesterday Angie, Jane and I went to go CLUBBING. But the 'safe' kind, coz it was an all ages event (even tho everyone says "what?? so lil kids could go?? think about it this way...do lil kids stay out all night and go downtown....er...don't answer that..It was @ GUVERNMENT, so so so nice club + really big, good effects with the light and smoke machines n everything!

Met up with them around 6:30, got to subway and then to Union Station. Then we took TTC bus to Guvernment...waited in line for a long time...it rained crazy hard for like 10 minutes, I worried that the ginos' hair would start to melt and make a gel river...got inside. At first we were like "...wtf." because everyone was standing around or walking hurriedly to different areas instead of freaking DANCING. We were like "why would u pay money to walk around and stare like youre looking for important people??" but then after about an hour or so things started to pick up.

There were less rooms/music styles than we thought *they lied to us!* but it's ok, coz it's not like we'd wanna be in most of those rooms anyway with that crappy music...so most people were in the one big area, it was crazy crowded and they turned the music up and it was really nice.

Strangeness began however...because apparently, the way guys like to dance is to SNEAK UP on people and launch a physical attack. For the most part it was good, because the advantage is that you can't see their faces if they are behind you...however, I have to see the faces of the guys that sneak up on Angie and Jane....the many many guys, poor Jane's ass. So jokes, at one point the same couple of guys kept returning and like...taking shifts ha ha ha.

Funniness: one guy was trying to dance w/ Jane, i dunno what the hell he was doing...but he was like..tryin to lift her up with his chest and make her like horizontal in the air? Her face was like "wtf?!" hahah. Then some other guy danced w/ her and @ the end he was like "here" and he had TAKEN HER DRIVER'S LICENSE...or it came outta her pocket or somethin...but..damn. o_o Then personally my favest thing: some guy who Angie said was very 'curteous' (well at least at first) coz he asked her to dance...then @ one point he asked her to turn around and he was like "can I see your boob?" HAHAHAH wtf. Weird part was these couple of guys who thought that 'dancing' involves ATTEMPING TO KISS PEOPLE?! WTF....yyuck.

We mostly danced like fucking crazy from 9 to 2...and take like 15 minute breaks to buy $4 water/wipe sweat/sit somewhere haha. We were very methodical...managed to last for that entire time. Then we took a taxi to 7 West Cafe..apparently voted "Best First Date" place in T.O, haha (in case anyone needed ideas~!). It was so nice and very calming, coz it's like...3 levels in this old house, 'ambient'/dark lighting. The bad part is that our ears were shot, like we can hear background noise but not people TALKING, from the intense music @ club...and the cafe was playing this music with intense bass so we're like "...-_- aiya" But damn...it was nice and classy in a not snob way...

After...we left coz our original plan was to chill there until the subway opened (which was like...3 hours..haha) but then the waitress lady kept making signs that are saying 'get the hell outta here!' so then we went outside...my god, entire downtown is SO BRIGHT even tho it's like 3 in the morning...stores/streetlights. So it makes it very nice and safe coz u can see every damn thing...

We saw a Mcdonald's and we were like OMG SWEET RELIEF coz the sign said 'Open'...however..that was not true. Chilled on Mcdonald's steps for like 1/2 hour..haha...a lot of hobos kept passing us...then we felt like hobos/prostitutes...so we walked a bit and saw a 24 hr Rabba near some UOFT rez buildings...so we went and chilled there until like 5 AM haha....it was really peaceful, get to watch the sky change colour from between those big buildings...just sat and talked...this one crazy guy came up to us and was muttering something about the hospital breaking his bones (...) but it was like he was TALKING to us but NOT looking @ us...so we were like......and started to walk away, hoping he wouldn't follow us.hahah. got lucky.

Then got to subway on Bloor St...everyone was waking up/going to work...even the hot dog vendors haha. (who the hell buys hot dogs @ 6 am...) Went underground to that subway/mall thingy and chilled in the food court...our happy moment was when we found the washroom and the door was OPEN (score!). Then subwayed/bussed home. Angie and Jane went home...and I walked to school for exam review...hahaha...my rationale: "well i have to meet ppl after anyway..." but SCORE, got to Sauga at like 7:30 and got to school @ like 8:06, hahah...one of the first times I am early and I wasn't even in town/awake >_<

let's hope this works.

chilling in the intense heat @ concert

pure, undistilled unhappiness @ the sun
i kinda wanna throw myself into this crowd and surf around never seen so many white ppl in my life...so this is where they all ran off to lining up for $2 water and $5 hamburgers o___o
purdy, innit =D
i like shadows of ppl...coz u dun have to see their face (even tho this isn't a pic of diana)
Union to lil square across from Redpath Sugar...route to Guvernment
my new camera! cheap cheap for you!

comfiest shoes EVER! and on sale too!

ZOMG so-pretty-you-could die skateshoes from Stance =O

<= multiplythis by like...10..and 2 diff floors =D
dirty dancer =O
*wrings angie out into a pool of sweat*
@ 7 West Cafe on Charles St.
Mcdonald's with its LYING sign
chillin like hobos

And now..the most beautifulest thing in the world....

taken @ york house on patio =D

what a freakin long post

_lostintheplot_ @ 2006-06-18T16:18:00

2006-06-18T20:21:42Z

GAHHHHHH.

can't study!!! EVERYTHING is more interesting than studying. the only thing that keeps me studying is like..fear that when i write exams, they'll all be like " DEFINE THE TERM WEOFISDF AND RELATE IT TO THE SDOFPSFKDL_______________" and i'll be like WTF?! and then i'll fail.

Gah. too much stuff...too little attention span...too little time.

Yesterday I looked out the window and I was like "what!" and then i went OUTSIDE and then it was sooooooooooooo niiiice weather @ night man. I was like wtf, I've been studying and summer already started without me knowing. augh just want it to be over so we can start SUMMER 06 raaa!

sometimes the way that you act makes me wonder what i am to you

2006-06-16T02:21:33Z

argh. you make me mad.

you don't know and you don't care and you aren't even around and you never are around when i THINK you're around and you're never really there. i don't know what happened although i suppose it can just be chalked up to some years of distance, but maybe it could also be changing and becoming two different people or maybe we outgrew each other. well i tried to fix it but it wasn't like you were even AVAILIBLE. and then you practically have no reaction at all to things, so i'm left thinking "well i guess it doesn't matter much to you". well i don't WANT it to matter to me either, but what am i supposed to say when all those years of friendship are slowly going down the drain. you don't seem to care, and you won't get that this is about YOU and you just don't get it and that makes me mad too. whatever. i got replaced, clearly, by more than one person, more than one type of 'friend' at that too. you complain about some things but it's you who made the choices you made so how can you wish for anything different. you picked what was most important to you and you'll get that, by way of sacrificing other things.

So many years of knowing you and thinking there was a connection. So much for that, i hope you have a nice life, thanks for leaving me hanging

Last Weeks...

2006-06-14T20:49:37Z

Aw man. I didn't even think of how sad grad is (since basically all I'm thinking about is how GOOD AND GREAT it is to be done), especially since there's a lot of people I most likely may never see again. Like people who aren't really in the immediate circle of friends, but people I'll still remember. There are some friends, however, that I am glad to say goodbye to, regardless of how rude that may sound. I've had it with certain types of people and I'm glad to be getting out of here and moving on and hopefully never having to deal with these types again.

I found an ant trying to bite my foot...and now I feel very itchy like ants are crawling on me >_>

Anyway...basically my days are summed up like a-so:

Fri 23 -> PMALL (training for HK, haha)
Sat 24 -> Olympic Island Concert
Sun 25 -> Family Day (so little time left..I've gotta designate certain days to see family since when i get back..basically 3 weeks till uni)
Mon 26-> Hepatitus A shot/Buy laptop
Tue 27 -> Family Day/Pack
Wed 28 -> Guvernment All-Ages event (aka.."sleepover" at somebody's house)
Thur 29 -> Exam Review/Grocery shop for
Fri 30 -> Simsum Picnic
Sat 1 -> Canada Day/Hopefully party?
Sun 2 -> Family Day/Pack
Mon 3 -> Family Day/Pack
Tue 4 -> Flight to Hong Kong!

And in between I've gotta go borrow an ass load of books for summertime reading...buy my ANCIENT ASIAN HISTORY txtbook for reading over summer...get a cheap but good digicam...get a stupid DVD DRIVE so i can burn stuff to watch in HK...etc. etc. etc....and of course..say goodbye to people.

It's freaking me out how close we are to STARTING..everything o_o but anyway...every morning z1035 plays like 10 seconds of the graduation song..it is a very sad 10 seconds...

go watch this => http://www.dailysixer.com/famguyharvard.shtml family guy creator gives harvard grads speech...funny funny

_lostintheplot_ @ 2006-06-10T19:04:00

2006-06-10T23:09:33Z

augh. it's finally begun...EXAM STUDYING TIME. actually, i'm like in pre-mode coz i'm trying to study for a philo test on monday. I know that I'm studying...when I find myself trying to do anything else instead of actually lookin @ my books...

For example....for the last half hour I have been trying to teach myself (with online help of course) how to speak canto. At first it was good, coz I was learning stuff and working on the those damn confusing tones ("fan. fun. fan. fun.")....but now all I remember is that yam is called 'barbarian' something, how to call someone a transsexual, and that girls who are flat chested are like airports..which i assume means like airport landing strips.

....Go study, you ham sp lou! (omg..does it make sense? did i do it rite?)

_lostintheplot_ @ 2006-06-04T21:38:00

2006-06-05T01:45:40Z

whooaaa. Do you guys realize there are TEN DAYS OF SCHOOL LEFT!?! I'm very shocked and mindblown becoz of everything moving so fast. Like....seems like not so long ago we were running around near that hill in edenrose and picking stuff from the tree and etc...and all of a sudden everything is on fast forward and stop! - we're at the end of high school.

I'm not so much sad or glad as I am just..shocked..and wondering..how the hell did we get here so fast? Haha. Not to mention..other events..recently..have made me go...whoa, we're really old and stuff. Hahahh.

Basically...my life is now chalked up to STUDYING FOR EXAMS, EXAM WEEK, WEEK OF INTENSE FUN, then a month in Hong Kong, two weeks with friends and family, and then off to res @ York. Everything's moving so slow, but fast at the same time...Where did the time go?

_lostintheplot_ @ 2006-05-25T01:24:00

2006-05-25T05:28:21Z

yaaaaaaaaaaay!!!

after centuries of trying to figure out, assloads of failed plans, and wanting to DIE AND RIP OUT EVERYONE'S HAIR, prom is finally planned!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~friday~
12 PM haircut (damn steven tryin to get me to go see xmen ;_; now i wanna....)
3:45 PPL come my house
4:00 Limo leaves~
Pictures and etc.
12:00 Prom ends
1:00 Back to my house - change etc, GO demetres~
Sometime before 3 Back to my house~
Then Super cool elite Drinking time
Sleep for like 1 hour? hahah
Dennys w/everyone in the morning (which..will mostly likely be like 1 or somethin in the afternoon haha)

yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay

_lostintheplot_ @ 2006-05-22T22:56:00

2006-05-23T03:00:14Z

i hate everyone and everything. argh. i can't say nothin about anything and its killin me. wish circumstances were diff...i hate this. wish everything was diff instead of wat it is. and nobody is ever gonna know...all i do is keep it all inside , smile for these bitches

_lostintheplot_ @ 2006-05-21T19:44:00

2006-05-22T00:01:30Z

sssssssssssssssssso yeah!
this week and next are SO HORRIBLEy good haha. On the one hand, it's the worst struggle in LIFE because it's ISU DEATH WEEK, yet at the same time...so many opportunities to just go out n have fun instead. Attempting to work on my ISU is NOT working out...esp. when there is so much stuff i've dled but haven't watched yet...and steven is now talkin about goin to watch da vinci code--which i heard is good if u haven't read the book hahah.

Can't do any hmwk >__> this wknd i've come home late + slept late...it is not workin out...

Yesterday was fun... went to Markham w/dainah, eric n, vince, will, and bday boy steven...ate @ "Yang's" sushi buffet (yumm...) which was goood and SO FILLING >.<...then randomly chilling all over the damn place...(Markville mall..has...a really really nice parking lot lol)...and then went to "Go For Tea!" teahouse lol...which was SO SO FANCY AND NICE AND OMG can't believe this is somwhere near where we live level of niceness...it looks so fancy and chic..but the prices are still normal, the waitress ladies look like robot-zoids with their headsets...So funny because they couldn't speak eng (which was not funny but i felt bad for them) but funny when steven orders "green apple (a-po) with aloe (a-lo)"
and they are like "A-LO?" us: "A-PO" them: "A-LO?" us: "A-LO AN A-PO!" then steven's like..whats this stuff floating in my drink? and the girl had no honest freakin idea haha shes like "umm...is like.....meelk (milk)....pow..da? haha...it was so awkward coz vince kept making motions coz the waitress' butt was right in his face

Honestly fuck school now...I have given up trying to get a freakin 85% average overall for grade 12 (esp. since philo and law is like SO HARD to get marks in) because I fucked up last semester....now i'll just settle for like...84.9% hahah

COUNTDOWNnnnn....nothin comin up but fun and good changes

Monday: Day Off~ (fireworks i think is scrapped..coz there isn't even any fireworks happening in sauga at least)
Tuesday: C+C ISU DUE (not gonna bother changing rough draft...fuck that)
Wednesday: PHILO PEER EDIT DRAFT (haven't..really..started...)
Thursday: C+C Assignment Due (I don't..really know what this assignment is or have started it haha, but its GROUP so i have an excuse!)
Friday: PROM!
Sometime during the week: Dinner with Michie+ le family tai...dye hair purple...buy prom bag...get stevens bday present...figure out how to do hair for prom...
Saturday: Denny's the morningafter
Sunday: Do hmwk? lol
Monday:
Tuesday: Law ISU presentations start..or something...
Wednesday: Work on PHILO Isu
Thurs: PHILO isu due/watch "bye bye birdie"
Fri: Grad Reception
Sun: Mommas bday//ONE MONTH TO HK!
Sometime after exams: YORK HOUSE SUPER PARTY FO REALS!
raaar...so much stuff to do..so little time.... =D so much excitement in the air...i can eat it with a spoon....

_lostintheplot_ @ 2006-05-16T22:11:00

2006-05-17T02:16:31Z

Freaky, freaky things are happening. Today my teacher mentioned "Ms. Maata" and then for some reason it was like a MOVIE where everything pauses and all these random images start wooshing at you?

She was my grd. 9 teacher for math..and even tho that isn't significant...it freaked me out because it took me awhile to realize that fact: "how do i know who that is?". And then all these random memories and bits from past grades came back. I dont' really get it, it's like i subconsciously BLOCKED out the first 2 years of high school. It kinda scares me that I completely erased (or..kinda) any memory of those years; when people talk about those times, I kinda have a hard time remembering anything that happened. Did I hate it that much that I tried to stomp it out? Or is there some other reason I CHOSE not to remember two entire years of my life? When he said her name I was like "whoa", coz it was like I forgot a little part of myself.

Eek. Is this what it's gonna be like later on, forgetting everything that happened before? Only to have little random infos jog your memory back..and you realized you left out a part of your life on purpose (or not)

_lostintheplot_ @ 2006-05-12T21:24:00

2006-05-13T03:30:13Z

So much is happening + it's like someone put our lives on fast forward...no time to stop and think/act, just rushing through in some random blur.

Today went to York to enroll and choose my courses and basically make my first year calendar, which looks a lil somethin like this:

Sched for fall term

Sched for winter term

Courses:
Humanity -> Myths + Imagination in Greece
History -> Imperalism in Modern Asia
Linguistics -> Language of Power
Natural Science -> Technology and Society
Psychology -> Intro to Psych

~yay~, it was such a PAIN IN THE FUCKIN ASS to make my schedule yesterday, honestly because EVERY FUCKIN CLASS was on WEDNESDAY, so then i'd have overlaps and like, class from 11 30 till 7 30 straight, hah. so I couldn't pick my top choices...but that's how uni goes~

but best thing is, dun have to go to class till like 11 30 BITCHES! and 4 30 on mon! wuhahah!

Yeah...pretty preoccupied w/the whole paul and alan thing like everyone else. usually when you hear about like "two 18 year olds in toronto..." stories where someone gets hurt and someone did it, doesn't really affect you that much, but it's hard to RE-focus when you can put faces to the description, on both the victim and perpetrator side. It makes me so disguted to see these teens who grow up in 3 bedroom homes with two parents, family, and stable income pretending to be someone else. Maybe their parents are abusive or there are other underlying problems, but when you are so lavished, how can you act as though you live in the projects in Harlem or the Bronx or something? There's a victim mentality and years of abuse for people in those areas and its understandable why they fall into the places they do, esp. when there is an ongoing cycle throughout the generations. But when your parents come from another country just to give you a better future? You have the opportunity to do so much, you have enough money and opportunity, and ther are so many people everywhere who would die for that chance. These kids are a joke, it's not even just about trying to be in the culture where you wear your pants low and smoke blunts to fit in, I can't believe it would get to the point where you are so deluded that you start to commit violent acts like this.

It's not even just stupid, sad, etc...its so ridiculous. I hope these kids get jail time, but i know inside they will get probation or lenient sentences because they are "just kids" and can redeem themselves. I hate that our legal system has to be about re-entry...it's not just about that, sometimes law HAS to be about punishment, to make up for what has happened to society. It's too fucked up that in our system, the rights of the criminal, in reality, overweigh that of society's and the victims. Even though nothing is going to fix how their parents feel, how their friends and everyone who knew or knows them feels, and how they will feel obviously. And on Monday I'll go to class and sit and stare at the person or empty desk (if we're lucky) across from me and think that this person, who seems to defy assumptions based on looks, who seems to have intelligent things to say and acknowledge the faults of his peers, is actually everything one would assume him to be and is no better than the friends he says are foolish because they dropped out of school. So disgusted.

_lostintheplot_ @ 2006-04-22T23:01:00

2006-04-23T03:16:47Z

wee haven't updated for a loong time.
-> last week was beautiful ~long wknd~,
on THURS chilled @ erin mills w/ kat, aggieh, may + then watched OC!!! @ may's w/ ben..will..diana..aggieh..may. On FRI stayed home + did hmwk @_@ . on SAT went to a graydon party..with very interesting strange memories. SUN went to pmall w aggieh, teddy, angie, iris, MON moviefested to the extreme (stayin up till 4 am talkin about sailor moon enemies and etc. haha).
-> average week, skipped a lot due to EXTREME boredom.

countdown: only TWO MONTHS LEFT!! HK and etc, fun fun summer + new times~

you guys should look @ adayinmylife it's pretty cooolios to see so many diff kinda ppl + what they do/where they live...

since we have no place to have prom after party, i started lookin @ CLUB sites lol. if we hadn't paid for prom, or was like, rich, i bet we could afford one @ the guvernment (http://www.theguvernment.com/) the rooms are so niiiiiice lookin. I think i'll pretend to be doin a business project n just call them to find out the prices lol. coz one of the rooms is designed for like 40 ppl, so its small, so we could just like, overcrowd it up and use it~ aw aw

OC has only three episodes left! illegitimate babies! future deaths! prom + grad! aww...oc u is the bestest.

kay everyone, gets ready for the final showdown n PARTY TIME

oh ya and i forgot. DJ TIESTO IS FREAKIN COMING TO TORONTO!!!!! at some new club called 'circa'. tickets are $75 which is pretty good for such a show. only problem is its 19+..which..i will attempt to 'become'. and can it get any better, it's on MAY two four weekend, sunday may 21st or 22nd i forgot....awwwww man that week would be the best ever..now i just gotta get someone to go with me ! damn you!

_lostintheplot_ @ 2006-04-02T23:14:00

2006-04-03T03:21:18Z

RAAA! So pumped about the rest of the year now that APRIL IS HERE IN FULL FORCE..U CAN ALMOST SEE OVER THE CLIFF INTO THE OCEAN...of..the..FUTURE...

April~: it means -
-> LONG WEEKEND!
-> DOUBLE HALFDAYS!
-> HAPPY BUNNIES AND FUN CANDY!

It also means the coming of May, which means -
-> PROM! (YAY/BOO)
-> SUPER ULTIMATE WEEK!
-> THE COMING OF JUNE! which means -

-> DEATH!/FINAL AVERAGE TO DETERMINE HOW MUCH FREE MONEYS WE GETS
-> SCHOOL ENDS EARLY!
-> SUMMER O6! which means -

-> FIRST TIME ON A PLANE! *_* yeeey
-> HK TRIP!
-> SUMMER BEFORE UNI!
-> MOVING INTO REZ!
-> STARTIN UNI!

Now that Iris finally got accepted into Seneca (even tho we knew she would anyway...) it's made uni more..reachable..coz that means moving into rez...so excited about uni...it's so....supercalifragilisticexpiallydocious...yaaay

Just want this year to be over, SO BORED of classes, and now I just wanna get into summer and go go goo

Laziest weekend ever, but i FINALLY watched my DLED Brokeback Mountain + King Kong. BBM was so, so sad. Damn Jake Gyllenhaal's movies always make me depressed (EVEN FREAKIN BUBBLE BOY WAS SAD). But in the end I guess the message was nice..."everlastin love" or whatever.

King Kong was weird, u can tell it's by the Lord ofthe Rings guy coz it's soooooo drawn-out and bad stuff KEEPS HAPPENING (OHNO GOT ATTACKED BY NATIVES OH NO NOW ITS EXTINCT DINOSAURS OH NO NOW IT'S BUGS) god_dang. It was kinda strange, I kept thinking..why is she acting like that? it's just a freakin monkey. Then I started thinking about how it's not even POSSIBLE for King Kong to exist...but oh well, the action/movie was really good, coz so much stuff happens and ur like "whoa", the animation is good too.

OKAY

AHH march break half over !!

2006-03-16T20:06:54Z

Yeah, so, MARCH BREAK is half over. Don't be sad! I'm just thinking of it as, at least we got a free week~ And next month is teh pwnz too, becoz we get FOUR DAY WEEKEND~ plus like one or two half days or something. And then May has supersuper week (Victoria Day long weekend, half day, PROM = no school) so yeah ! *thumbs up*

Had a pretty eventful and gangster break, coz even when I didn't go out...got to loaft around home...usually NO time to do that, so..feel so so nice. Plus, got to sleep so much....sigh...so wonderful...

Let's see...Break started eventfully o__O Friday was ABOUT to go mall and etc, instead got into a car accidenty...sucks ass...but no one was hurt significantly so, yay. Got haircut...met up w/ppl @ mall...is that the day when we went BR? I dunno, let's say it was. Then after malling, went to BR with everyone~. After we were gonna eat...but then no longer hungry, so just went to chill a lil bit w/ Steven, Angie, Aggie, Teddy at Timmy's. Fun day~ BR was jokes "PORK CHOP? PORK CHOP MAY?" ahahah *love to piss off may

Saturday was ultimate funtimes, and probably the LONGEST DAY OF MY FUCKIN LIFE! Woke up at like frikin 8 something, rushed like a mofo to York U for "Circle of Scholars Breakfast". Yeah! My momma was true when she was like..."see, when you work hard what u get" becoz got free breakfast buffet and lots of York stuff too (WATERBOTTLE! IT'S ACTUALLY WORTH MONEY YO..I CHECKED ALL THE YORK STORES). Even got this thing that is shaped like a house, it's a mints holder...but it has REZ info on it! I was just marvelling at the marketing genius of that. So at the breakfast, met other future York-ians, then after went all around campus *such a nice day for walking*, talked to profs and students from arts and history/humanities *yeyeyey*, got a rez tour of my hopeful residence *so nice*. Had a good feelin about it as soon as I saw one rez room with like Final Fantasy (yes..and cloud) posters all over the place, coz I guess it's familiar~

After rushed like a mofo back to Sauga, met up w/ whole group @ Timmy's. My dad was like 0_0 "woh" becoz we looked like some swarming gang outside of tim's hahah. Then we all drove off to Markham~ was in Eric ngo's car, RACED ben! Everytime we pass them...I give some "YEAH WHAT" sign to them, everytime they passed us, may and baik wave so nicely...it was so dry. *TY eric again for drives. Got to Metro...but we didn't wanna stay...so got to go Pmall *yes* and made SURE to get a pic of the girl-group. Chilled, then headed over BACK to Metro area to Sushi Hut. Fun fun and the food was pretty good. Me and Becka had to go pee STAT, cept the women's washrooms BOTH locked..so we went to men's...so I was in stall, she was washing hands, then this guy (who was a server) opens door, and all he says, with like super contorted face of shock and suprise, "WAIIIIIIIIII!!?!?" So damn funny, coz when we went back to table, kept going WAIIII and then the server guy passed, so kept laughing. Me: Kay, before we leave we gotta go up to that guy and go WAIIII becoz it's not like we'll ever see him again! Jen: But what if u see him again, like at Pmall or something? Me: ....WAIIIIIII!? Hahahah. Then at the END, had to go washroom again....but then women's was all locked *sigh so then I opened the men's...and I was like oh ok becoz the stall door was open so it's free...cept...I look in the corner, and there's some GUY...all i can see is his side profile, and his hand down THERE...luckily there is a wall blocking anything...so I was like AHH and closed door ahahahah. Man...some day.

Then we all drove back to Sauga...nothin like blastin TIESTO on pretty warm night in the car! Mumbled around...end up goin to Eric nguyens's house. So nice of him coz it was like 11 something, there's like...well i dunno, a lot of us. All chilled + goofed around, played that damn slapping-hand game, watched Eric hon get pwned by Mandy in fighting...etc...me, Aggie, Becka, Hon, n Ben hsu ended up chillin there till like 3...*damn leather chairs so comfy* jked around and stuff, nice time~

Sunday...slept the whole day, woke up at 8 PM *RECORDDDD WHAT* coz I went to sleep at like 4 AM so..whatever. So tired....just loafted...sigh, what a good day.

Monday...woke up late, HAD URGE FOR SHOPPING! So I went to Square all by my lonesome...mostly coz its hard to actually SHOP when there's ppl around. Got a CHEAPCHEAP jacket from Old Navy + a green skirt. Went to H+M, got a cheapcheap bag + wallet, shirt, and two gangster skirts, one is POLKA DOT and one is STRIPED yo. Then went to "Bittersweet" and finally bought these earrings that I ALWAYS pass and never buy. On sale too! *Yayy* Called up Dainah beforehand...was gonna watch BROKEBACK (I AM GONNA WATCH IT DUN WORRY) but then ended up chillin...went to dainah's house for awhile (pretended to be diana and talked to tim..very..hornily HAHAH SO FUNNY) and then headed over to Eric ngo's house after stupid steven finished talking on msn to ppl and picked us up....watched Prison Break and chilled *ty eric~ and then got home around 12:30 or something...man, I was so proud of my early hours...my momma was like "...!" suprised at me being home so early *yeah score*

Tuesday...loafted and got LAURIER ACCEPTANCE! hooray...

Wednesday...went downtown w/ dainah, iris, angie, aggie, may~ Did the usual eaton centre + queen st...blah, didn't find anything to buy but oh well. Had to hold back self SO BADLY @ ultimate shoe store wen I found out the converse's were on sale. just keep thinking *HONG KONG HONG KONG BUY IT IN HONG KONG*! x_x Ate at "Ho Su" yummy yummy sushi and green tea ice cream~! pretty good prices. May got her super nice blue-stripe Adidas shoes *thumbs up Came back to Sauga, went to chill @ Iris' house...watched Date Movie *sooo disturbing* + got home at like 11 something. So tired, fell right asleep..at like 1. Talked to my paw + just farted around. Good good.

Today is Thursday. Today I clean. Today is ultimate TV holy day. Hooray time for life~!

P.S. GO GO MAY! I am very proud of you for getting accepted into Laurier, good job and I know you worked very hard for it. Yea!

_lostintheplot_ @ 2006-02-26T14:49:00

2006-02-26T20:00:25Z

MAN. I dunno wtf is goin on but I have been having some WEIRD ASS dreams. ok see:

1) I walk into a candy store and then I see all these boxes piled up on those things with wheels that people wheel boxes out on and then i say to one of the store dudes, what's going on? And the guy says,

"they've recalled/banned every item with grapes in it because something bad is in the spray that they use on grapes."

And then I say but why does that matter, grape candy is artificial anyway? And then the guy goes "I..uh...." and then has this really shifty look and keeps moving boxes. AND THATSIT

2) It's like a really dark room, looks like banquet room but kinda smaller. And I'm eatin some dinner and then i gotta go pee, so then i go down this hallway and find the washroom. Except the door is like swung back so then u can't see the woman sign, but i know this becoz i check the sign. and then once u go IN, to your left is a door. and that door is swung back but it has the man sign on it ! so then anyway i look at like an entire row of washrooms and they are ALL DIRTY and then im like eff, so i keep going like into a maze of washrooms. and then they are still dirty and i'm wtf. then i find one in a corner but then suzin skinner is like "ya, sorry i'm using this one" and starts going into this story about her boyfriend and how she has to go blah blah blah and then i was like ok that's alright, have fun bye. and then i'm like screw it! and i go into the men's bathroom and THE FIRST ONE is clean. and then i'm sittin there and then all of a sudden the walls are like shakin around like someone is shakin them.

Only i'm not scared or nothin im just like wtf? and then windshield whipers are above the door and some ppl are moving them back and forth and i can see them (like their faces are above the door) so i'm like what the hell? and they are like DON'T YOU KNOW, this is the FENDER BENDER washroom stall!

And i was like....wha....so then i leave it and something and i'm back in the hall again to the dark room EVERYTHING is kinda weird and halloween theme btw. Like fake skeletons hanging and stuff. Then I saw Diana sitting on a bench on the side of the hall and she had this alien gummy it was like an alien or a lizard or something on her hand and she was eating it and for some reason it grossed me out, but then had somethin to do with will? I dunno. Maybe that was her corsage or something. And then next to her is Chanique, and Chanique throws fake blood at me coz she's doin that to everyone and then i try to PICK it up? even tho its not a solid? and then THATS THE DREAM

WTF?

And last night I HAD ANOTHER DREAM AGAIN

So then I can see a schoolbus parked outside my house and it's like FIELD TRIP rite so then instead of just gettin into teh bus for some reason My mom drives me around in some circle and then we drive near the bus and then i get on. and then when i get on it changes into a van and then there's like 6 people and im' like wtf kind of small trip? but it's like "hahah" ok.

And then we're driving and i know it's a 2 day trip so i'm like, where are we going? and someone is like HONG KONG! and i was like wtf! i thought we were going to feed the birds on a trail or something!
And then we drive around for two days and then on the second day i ask Diana, but school is still on right, so then how long is this trip? and Diana goes "It's 3 weeks, so that means missing 28 days of school." and then I rethink it and after the second day I get off the bus and that's it.

WHAT THE HELL!?

_lostintheplot_ @ 2006-02-17T22:23:00

2006-02-18T03:55:23Z

Three names you go by: (I HAVE NONE..IM SO...UNCOOL..)
1) alyssa..ahahah
2) alyssa SUNSHINE teeekah (according to birth certy) wahahHAHAHA ahahah XD no, its not a lie
3)

Three things you like about yourself:
1) i'm cool
2) easy-goin~
3) i have very good taste (e.g....i made friends with u guys, rite? HAHA WHAT A LIE)

Three things you hate about yourself: (hates such a STRONGG word, im replacing with dislike)
1) lazy
2) THAT MY SKIN + LAST NAME LIEESSSS
3) omg liek 3 entire things?? how can u dislike whats perfect o-o

Three parts of your heritage: (sigh..hate these kinda questions ahah...)
1) guyanese from dad
2) africa migrated from india migrated from persia from momma
3) rotten banana?

Three things you are afraid of
1) dull life
2) little people standing behind me and then i turn around and get shocked
3) slow death

Three of your everyday essentials:
1) MUSIC
2) happy colours
3) chocolate milk

Three things you are wearing right now:
1) hair dye
2) funky dragon fuzzy slippers
3) a...shirt.

Three of your favorite bands/artists:
1) the strokes
2) dj tiesto
3) sean paul! wahah fo reals, homies

Three of your currently favorite songs:
1) fire - ferry corsten
2) be without you - mary j blige
3) castles in the sand - philosopher kings

Three things you want to accomplish in the next 12 months: (wow..thats like..a year 0_0 BOGGLING MA MIND)
1) pwn gr 12
2) pwn 1st year uni
3) pwn vacationings and fun fun times

Three things you want in a relationship: (........can i say friend relationship instead? i feel unfortable with the question ahah OKAY this applies to like, PEOPLE relationship)
1) understanding (e.g....you don't have to say anything to know and they know u know just becoz)
2) funniness (if u aren't funny, you suck)
3) simplicity~

Two truths and One Lie:
1) black licorice is ultimate
2) sometimes i cry myself to sleep
3) i'm BROWN (in..skin) (hopefully, people forget)

Three attractive, physical things about the opposite sex: o.O
1) posture (ahaha sounds queer..but its true..u can tell if a person is confident or annoying or wat)
2) facial expression (if you look stupid, well, then...)
3) use of self as a canvas (e.g. piercings, type of clothes..etc...) which means...not dressed like a sack of crap that just rolled out of a ditch

Three things you just can't do:
1) like sue banerjee
2) submit myself to some thing called "emotions" (besides happy and etc)(waste of time + life)
3) give ppl advice/listen to them without being blunt

Three of your Favorite Hobbies:
1) listening to music/finding new stuff
2) shopping. ITS NOT A CRIME
3) just chillin w/ma PEOPLESSS

Three Things you Want to do Right Now:
1) force myself to practise DECA presentation
2) SLEEP!! <3 *~ <3 ~~~ **
3) watch BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN! goddammit >_<

Three Careers You're Considering
1) law
2) random travelling journalist
3) PARTY PLANNER (im totally serious)

Three Places You Want to go on Vacation to:
1) ROMEEEEEEE + GREEEECE <3 *_*
2) Japan
3) HK...oh WAIT! ITS GONN HAPPEN, MUAHAHAHA

Three Kids Names: IF i were, which, is not going to happen
1) starshine sunbright
2) captain spartacus
3) BO - LING! XD

Three Things You Want to do Before You Die
1) befriend a hooker
2) shoe shop with a flaming gay guy
3) swim in a chocolate-filled pool..or just..float there

Three Ways You're a Stereotypical Boy
1) lazy
2) hate stupid romance movies + <3 the godfather *trying to get theme song for ringtone*
3) insensitive e.g. "your boyfriend probably didn't call you becoz he was busy with another girl" wuhhaah

Three Ways You're a Stereotypical Girl
1) genetically?
2) umm...
3)

Three People who must take this survey or painfully die:
1) miiiea
2) randompocky
3) michybee

_lostintheplot_ @ 2006-02-13T22:11:00

2006-02-14T03:26:14Z

Yeah~! This week has been a barrel of happy joy smile fun times.

Friday -> Went to McDonald's to FINALLY USE COUPONS....which are now useless ;_; and then went to IRIS's house. So fun~ Watched "Appleseed" and "Howl's Moving Castle". Castle movie was actually good...freaky scarecrow...and Appleseed was so jkz. After just kinda farted around, played our messed up nonsensible game where we have scenarios "okay you are the shopper and im the cash lady" and act em out ..voice-ically. SO DAMN FUNNY...afterwards, like always, we are like OMG SHOULD HAVE RECORDED...and then we do, and then we can't think of nothin. I dun even know, it was just so random it was funny. "EVERYFING IN STORE BUY ONE GET TWO FEE" "AH I NEED AH SHIRT FO MA SON AH PO" "THEN WHY U LOOK AT SLIPPA" "THIS SLIPPA BUY ONE GET TWO FEE?" "THIS SLIPPA BUY ONE GET ONE." XD and etc. Ate dinner + came home around 11 something. Ty IRIS!

Saturday -> loafted around like unbelieveable u wouldn't believe. Woke up at like 4 PM hah. Did not much until like 12:30 in the morn when i FOUND OUT I GOT ACCEPTANCE to #1 school *thumbs up and joy dance* So happy lots of other ppl got into their schools too ! *good job everyone* and Good luck to everyone waiting for acceptances!

Sunday -> Woke up FREAKIN early (i.e....10:30...) and met Coral, May, Michelle + their families @ travel agency. RESERVED TICKETS! + picked seating and etc:

04 JULY 06 - TUESDAY AIR CATHAY PACIFIC TORONTO ON DEPART: TERMINAL 3 FLT: 829 Leaving at 23:40

06 JULY 06 - THURSDAY HONG KONG Arrive 06:50 1-Stop

14 AUG 06 - MONDAY Leaving HONG KONG 16:20 Arrive TORONTO 21:55

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! SO EXCITED!!! Can't believe it's happening, I have a paper for proof n everything. First time leaving 6 hour radius! (Montreal only place I been....) First time leaving country! FIRST TIME ON A FREAKIN PLANE! So funny that the first time I leave it's to the other side of the world. But how appropriate my first real trip would to be to HK eh. Got so excited, was searching videos of travelling and surfing HK websites during exam period. Staring off into the videos of like, ocean and stuff, can't believe I've never really seen ocean or water or like MOUNTAINS or anything like that.

Waited so long for an opportunity like this~ Every year or two my dad will say "oh we'll go on vacation" and of course that never happens since summer is busiest time for real estate, and besides that my parents are too different, it's like superlaidbackman vs. paranoidplannerfreakwoman. Always look @ pictures of foreign places and stuff and hear about journeys and wanna go, especially when we learn about places in History class becoz they seem so far away and unreachable. FINALLY feels like I'm starting life this year and getting a taste of it -> university, travelling, so much freedom. <3 it, Finally getting to be who I am. ~~Daydreams off

_lostintheplot_ @ 2006-02-12T01:18:00

2006-02-12T06:26:08Z

UJSOIZDFIJSZDF!!!
A'SGFISDFGPO!!

GJWSDUVNIERSTY!!!!!!!!

ergaewrgpqEGHHQipoq!! IGOTACCEPTDT O YORK UNVIERISTY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You are being made an offer of admission to the program listed below. Indicate whether you accept or decline the offer of admission by selecting the appropriate response and clicking on the 'Continue' button. Your response will not be fully processed until you complete the 'Submit' step.

Date Offer Expires 2006-05-12
Response I wish to accept the offer and agree to all the terms and conditions outlined in the offer of admission letter.
I wish to decline the offer and understand that this will invalidate the offer.

AHAHAHAHAH HA HA HAHAHAHA HAAH AHA HAHA AHAH

apparently the offer existed since the 7th. and this monday or something i got mail from YORK. and i was like OH LOOK PAGE-SIZED ENVELOPE. this should be an offer, grr. and inside was two pamphelets with information on both of my programs, history and professional writing. but the letter said something like "Thank you for taking an interest in York! Here is some additional information!" so then i was like WTF WHY ARE U TORTURING ME becoz it never said the words YOU ARE ACCEPTED right.
but then iw as like, if they DIDNT' want me, why would they spend the time putting pamphelets into envelopes for EVERYONE who applied? *image of an old foreign lady in factory feebly putting pamphelets into envelope*

AHAHA HA HA AHAHAHAHSAAHAHAHAHAHAHAA
DREAM UNIVERSITY!!! today i woke up and thought "well, so even if i fail in university, i guess i can go to college or something and travel around like a bag hobo"
I GUESS NOT, BIATCH

AOMGFOMFGOFGMFOGFOGOSMGSDGAPOGDFGDFG98W0235O4WTKRLGSOSIEROPFDKSAFOGMFGOMFGOMAFA0[SPFKSPMDGJSDG HAPPIEST DAY OF LIFE

I LOVE YOU GRADE 11! and today too my dad was like blah blah blah calculating averages for stuff becoz of fresh report card and he's like 87 average gr 11 and i freaked out becoz i thought it was 89 but it wans't but HAHAHAFOUISJDF09Q2P3ORWERKPGF-[P;.,;./

_lostintheplot_ @ 2006-02-02T22:18:00

2006-02-03T03:25:54Z

hidinnnnn out in the washrooom
coz crazy mommas can't drive u insaneee if
they think ur on the toilettt

-_- everyone is so emotional these days, i can't take it. getting smacked up in the face by ocean of emotion. my paw is all like "waaaa pay attention to meeehh" and my mom is like RAARIAMGODZILLAISUCKBLOODMENOPAUSEWOMAN one sec and "tralalala happy and joy" the next, and everyone ELSE has like 1) self problems 2) parent problems 3) gfbf problems 4) SELF PROBLEMS. not trying to say that their problems aren't real or that they dun matter or something
i'm just walking around with this choking feeling like hands gripping around my neck slowly pushing the air out of my lungs so i am forced to grasp and hold on to any last air before it escapes from my brain and my heart stops pounding and i implode -
so many people wasting their time waiting for something that isn't coming. so many people drowning in a pool, slowly slipping away into this abyss created by everything you did and didn't do and your failures and the things you couldn't control. so many people idling, i am running out of things to say to you and you and you. why don't people just stop it and change, i'm so frustrated

_lostintheplot_ @ 2006-01-26T04:53:00

2006-01-26T09:57:13Z

ah man lookin @ what pictures i HAVE (ONLY TWO OUTINGS BECOZ U PPL DUN SEND MEEEEH PICS)..so many memories...

remember

agnes' bday party -> summer chillin + WATER FIGHT!
may/coral bday =) May: "IM GONNA CRY GUYS" Us: cry, cry *chant so we'll get a good video*
my bday party o_o so much asian flushed faces
xmas w/ coral, iris + may =D sleepover and kareoking, TOPMODELing hahah
linda's bday party -> funny/messed up movies + HOTPOTTT!! + coral: "watch out guys, there's black ice! watch out, there's ice! walk slowly, there's ice! ....*coral falls on her ass* XD priceless

AHHH January 2006: only half a year left to make MEMORIES! capture them, even tho they are rememorable, our old abused fried brains can remember easier with pictures x_x

Let's go~ time to have fun + make memories to remember forever =D

it's like a collage of our life~

You scored as Linguistics. You should be a Linguistics major!

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Mathematics

83%

Linguistics

83%

Journalism

75%

Anthropology

67%

Sociology

58%

Philosophy

58%

Theater

58%

Art

42%

Psychology

42%

Dance

33%

English

33%

Biology

Engineering

Chemistry

What is your Perfect Major? (PLEASE RATE ME!!<3)
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HAHAHHA WTF @ math "i like rationality"

You scored as Sloth.

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Sloth

63%

Wrath

44%

Greed

38%

Pride

38%

Gluttony

31%

Envy

19%

Lust

Seven deadly sins
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_lostintheplot_ @ 2006-01-21T18:11:00

2006-01-21T23:16:54Z

AHH. can't study! it's so hard man, gah dsopfksdf;;;;;

this link FUCKS up ur mind but..it's good: http://youtube.com/w/Where-MS-got-the-Xbox360-Shooting-Ad?v=y_FjWNKulNc&search=xbox360%20commercial

anyway, yeah. exams are always the worst becoz u can get distracted so easily by like...a light...the wall...your socks...tissue...anything..not..related...to...notes...

+++countin down the days till sweet sweet freedom [wed @ 10:00] gonna put down pen, hand in exam, leave room and do a jig all the way home...collapse into bed and sleep until friday.

ppl with friday 12:30's...wait outside after...let's go do some chillingness and see a crappy movie.

in other news..meg ryan has adopted a chinese baby girl...

ok bye everyone, good lucks to you

edit: MY HISTORY MARK WENT UP %4!!! AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH AHAHA AHAHHA HA HA HA AHA AH AHA HA *falls down in happy joy and writhes around in seizures* now, the question is, can a unit test in which i did not study at ALL bring this down significantly? please tell me no