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[21 Jul 2004|05:43pm] |
i'm leaving live journal
i might be back with a different username later
we'll see
<3
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[20 Jul 2004|05:11am] |
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yea i'm still up and it's getting bright out!
i kinda like staying up all night,
it might be nicer if i had someone to stay up with though.
..anyways this looked fun so read! :P
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[20 Jul 2004|04:17am] |
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yup, i'm still up
i think i'm going to stay up all night
seeing as how i'm grounded tomorrow anyways
and i can sleep all day if i want to
i think it would be so wonderful to see the sun rise
i've been thinking so much tonight
kind of because no one in their right mind would be up this late
but i am, and i'm not in my right mind
i'm so confused, about love and life
everything i do lately seems to get me in trouble
or it's immature, wow do i hate that word
what do my parents want from me
i'm sorry i'm not perfect
and i am going to go out and have fun
you're only a teenager once
you've gotta live it up
so, get over it
..love
something i long for
and seem to screw up a lot
i miss the feeling
you know, to love and be loved in return
wow this is kind of deep
scary
i try not to show this side of me
i have a feeling i'll regret writing this entry later
but this is my journal and i should see free to say whatever i want
and i'll have to admit
it's hard trying to hold up a smile
even when you feel like crying
but i do love my friends
what would i do with out them
they make me smile :)
and they are the reason i stay sane
it's almost 4:30 now
i wonder what time the sun will rise
hopefully i don't accidentally fall asleep
i think i expressed all that was on my mind
well almost, but that will do
i'll update again after i get some rest
i think i need it
i'm stressed
<3
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[20 Jul 2004|12:09am] |
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yeah so i'm grounded again.. i had the boys over.. well chad.. and these two other guys i just met today.. but yeah my parents are so stupid! after we left my house we went to taco bell. wow that was so much fun.. sniffing sugar and acting crazy.. haha wow i love my friends! then we went to the movies, chad and the guys were there too. but i ended up being out past curfew. so yeah. i'm grounded from the phone, computer (which i snuck on to write this.. even though it's in my room) and friends. that sucks too because cole invited me to sun splash with him and the amc workers on wed. :( grr. oh well.. there's nothing i could do. i'm out. i'll try to talk to you later before i get caught and i'm grounded again! ..<3
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[18 Jul 2004|07:04pm] |
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[18 Jul 2004|12:02am] |
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thanks for waiting this long to show yourself
because now that i can see you
i don't think you're worth a second glance
so much for your enduring sence of charm
it served well and now it's gone
wasted on me
fuckk you, i'm over you and it.
i've had a long week
and it's midnight, i'm going to bed.
sweet dreams <3
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[17 Jul 2004|06:41pm] |
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sorry guys i know i said i was coming home on the 19th but i messed up.. so i'm home! haha tahoe was amazing! i did so many things in the last week it was crazy! I went horse back riding, boating, tubing, river rafting, jet skiing, hiking, and of course laid out on the beach, the water is b-e-a-u-tiful! but there wasn't much for me and my brother to do at night, so every other night we went to the arcades! where i actually met some really cute guys and their cousins. i mostly hung out with these two guys bobby, who turned 16 on thursday and bryan, who is 17. we all had so much fun! hopefully i'll see them again sometime! anyways, i didn't want to bore you and tell you every detail that happened last week but lets just say it was a lot of fun! anyone who hasn't been to lake tahoe NEEDS to go! i am so happy to be home though.. i don't think i could take another minute hanging out with my little brother. sorry erick but enough is enough! :P so now i'm catching up on some grounding i didn't have before i left, which totally sucks! but oh well it's only til monday.. so what like a day! haha alright well i missed everyone!
p.s. i wish i could go to the movies with kyeara and cole :(.. have fun guys!
p.s.s. he's not fucking worth my time.. i thought i messed up but forget him. i'm over it and him.
♥always, ME
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[09 Jul 2004|01:20pm] |
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i leave for tahoe today. we leave today at 7pm! lol i'm grounded when i come back so i don't think i'll be seeing anyone real soon lol. but if anyone wanted to know i come back the 19th. anyways i still have to pack so i think i might want to start on that hehe. ohh and i'll have my cell phone so if you want to call or text me while i'm there! i wouldn't mind that at all! lol 480.203.5192
♥always, ME
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[08 Jul 2004|04:56pm] |
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i was supposed to be grounded today but i had people over. shh my mom doesn't know. haha cole and sarah. we had fun today watching peter pan. oh my gosh i like the other ending better, they picked the wrong one. after sarah went home me and cole had wrestling matches. haha i kicked his butt and he knows it! now i'm bored, i have to start packing for tomorrow. i leave at 7pm if you want to stop by and say byee. alright well i think thats it. i'm out<3
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[07 Jul 2004|11:59am] |
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grounded again :(
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[05 Jul 2004|01:29pm] |
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Yesterday was pretty cool. My dad, brother and I went over to the Avila's for a bbq. Then Kyeara and I had Cole come over because we were kinda bored. Haha that kid makes me laugh. We didn't really do anything too exciting though. Then we went over to my house so I could make myself look like an actual girl! Then we headed over to the fireworks. Steven's back from vaca. Wow, I missed that kid! .. Well maybe not all the picking on me stuff.. But other than that I did! I know he does it out of love ahah! ;) Mr. Hilgers was there too. Haha I really hope I have lunch with them all next year! If I don't I think I'll cry! So yeah, anyways, we hung out with those boys for awhile. And the fireworks started to go off. so we laid down in the grass! Then I looked up and I saw Chad, Clint, Tim, and Aj. I jumped up and said hey! Aw I love those boys. How could I not?! Then they left and we finished watching the fireworks. After the fireworks we walked around and Logan showed up with his little brother. There's not much to do when you're 15 and it's almost curfew so we just hung out in the grass. It started getting late so we started walking home, we saw Tim, Clint, and Chad across the street so we tried to get to them across the cross walk. Haha you would never expect it to be that hard to get across the street but it was. Finally we met up with them and they were going to a party. There was no way I was going to that though because just the other day I got in trouble for trying to go out with them. So yea we left and walked to Kyeara's mom's car. She gave the boys a ride home. I ended up spending the night at Kyeara's.. but we didn't really do anything because I was so tired I went to bed.
Today I'm not sure what I'm doing because Kyeara's still grounded. Although I'm still here haha but i'm and exception! Alright I'll update tomorrow and let you know if anything exciting happened today! <3
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</font>Happy Fourth of July Everyone!
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[03 Jul 2004|06:42pm] |
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i don't understand why i'm not happy.
everything is going great.
i mean i did get introuble last night, but i mean i got off easy.
everything thing with my family is good.
everything with my friends are fine.
i mean relationships wise i'm a bit confused.
me and my boyfriend broke up a little bit ago.
i've got this one guy on my mind.
but he wants something serious.
do i?
i don't think so, i just got out of a serious relationship.
having boyfriends can be so stressful.
do i want that?
but then again it can be so great,
having someone there for you all the time.
i really don't know what i want anymore.
uhh i think when i'm alone all day like this i get depressed.
this isn't good.
someone call me. :(
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[02 Jul 2004|11:16pm] |
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wow yea tonight sucked. kyeara, janelle, and me are waiting for me and janelle's mom's to stop talking about what are punishment will be. kyeara's mom doesn't even know yet. and to think we almost got away with it. dang it we never get caught. grr oh well. being 15 sucks, you can't drive but you want to, you're not even close to the legal drinking age, and parents still give a fuck. sorry for my language. lol. i'm kinda mad. if anyone knows about a party on july 4th let me know please. maybe i could go.. if i'm not grounded. haha. alright i'll update later. hopefully my punishment isn't too bad.
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[02 Jul 2004|12:12pm] |
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haha wow last week was filled with lazy days and crazy nights! haha way too crazy to tell on here! but yeaa i don't have much to sayy i just wanted to update! maybe i'll update more laterrr. have fun guys!! :D
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