And the sky was made of amethyst

Tue, 07 Oct 2008 15:16:42 GMT

Streeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeesssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

Fri, 07 Mar 2008 20:47:33 GMT

- September 5 -
You are very clever and knowledgeable. You are very calm and cool in social situations. You are kind and sympathetic to people, although you like to choose your friends carefully.
Positive Traits: cooperative, versatile, curious, clever, analytical
Negative Traits: flippancy, sarcastic, restless, irresponsibility, passive-aggressive
'What does your Birthdate mean?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Tue, 04 Mar 2008 10:32:12 GMT

SO STRESSEEDDDDDDDDDD FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

Tue, 26 Feb 2008 13:15:32 GMT

I hope I can do all of this. I know that I can, I just have to push myself. Sometimes I just feel so overwhelmed by all I that I have to do, that I feel that I cannot possibly do it. Even though I always pull through and do exceedingly well. I am a success. I will be a success. I don't have anything to prove to anyone but myself.
I just have to push myself so hard to get to where I need to be. But I know, I know in my heart of hearts that I can get all of this done. I know that I am very intelligent. It's just a matter of finishing it all and ending up with a product I feel is something to be proud of.

Sat, 27 Oct 2007 22:33:50 GMT

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Travel the world, including third world countries
2. Make some sort of difference in the world
3. Have a job that I love

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Randee
2. ...
3. ...

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. blackendedskies95
2. losingtouch43
3. sweetpeach776

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. Butt
2. Eyes
3. hair

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. German
2. Hungarian
3. Jewish??

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. losing the people that I love
2. clowns
3. dying lonely and sad

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Sleep
2. Water
3. Food

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. The necklace I got for my birthday that I never take off
2. SJSU Sweatpants and a UCLA shirt
3. Slippers

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS (in no particular order):
1. Flickerstick- "beautiful"
2. Ani Difranco- "untouchable face"
3. Elliott Smith - "twilight"

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. Laughter
2. Conversation
3. Honesty

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in no particular order):
1. ......
2. .......
3. ........

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. face
2. height/build
3. hair

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Writing
2. Talking
3. Being outdoors

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Go to sleep
2. Cuddle
3. Call him (but I won't)

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING/YOU'VE CONSIDERED:
1. Advertising executive
2. Public Relations Consultant (for an environmental rights organization or an organization that raises money for social or health issues)
3. Writer

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Australia
2. Amsterdam
3. Hawaii

THREE KID'S NAMES YOU LIKE:
1. Don't
2. give
3. a shit

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:
1. I love makeup
2. I like to dress up
3. I get giddy over crushes on boys and I love talking about boys with my girls

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY:
1. I like to go out and get dirty at times (ie soccer in the mud, camping, hiking, etc.)
2. I think women are really sexy
3. never say no to a beer

Sat, 11 Aug 2007 05:31:30 GMT

Recommend music. Any music. Any genre. Album. Songs. Artists. Please.
I am sick of most of my stuff.

Sun, 01 Apr 2007 21:03:37 GMT

There's meaning in it all.
I can't write poetry anymore. Maybe it's because I'm just not dwelling in despair anymore. Maybe it's the sadness that writes the poems, not the person.
More than anything, I have always been trying to find my talent. The gift that makes me unique. The gift that makes me who I am. The same thing always comes to the surface. The same thing always comes to mind.
They say you're a writer and a damn good one at that.
I first heard the words in second grade. "You're a writer." Yes, I know. I'm a writer. Aren't we all? No. You are A WRITER.
Do you mean that I actually am something?
I always dismissed the comments throughout the years. I never acknowledged that I could actually be great at something.
It has followed me though. I look through old writings of mine. I remember different comments that have been made regarding my words. The words that I spent hours and hours perfecting. I remember back to times where I would have just given up had it not been for the words. The words that are etched forever. You write them and they are permanent. You are part of something big.
If it makes you feel alive, then is it not worth it? If it makes you feel better than your usual state of being that how can it not be worth it? Isn't life about being alive?
I have never claimed to be anything remarkable or special.
I keep thinking about his words and how they have affected me all of these years. Lately, I have been thinking about it more and more. I hear people talk about their fathers and their lives and I feel an empty hole in my heart for my lost father. No one understands. Sometimes his words eat at me. His words from years ago still affect me today. Sometimes I'll be speeding along the freeway and just start thinking about him and I will just start bawling. I don't know why now all of a sudden it's hitting harder than before. I guess I am finally recognizing that I will never win his affection. He will never be proud of me. He will always think I am a loser. Instead, I need to work on doing things that make me proud of me. I cannot let this eat away at me. I think it affects my relationships more than I let on.
The everybody leaves fear is quite prominent and it easily traces back to my relationship with my father.

Touching.

Wed, 26 Jul 2006 03:27:14 GMT

GOOD DAY.
Your words meant a lot. I just wanted to say that. I don't know if you really meant it, but it made me feel better about being me.
I want to give you a hug but I know that I am not allowed to do that. I just wanted to say that it meant something. Some compliments mean absolutely nothing to me but yours did. In fact, you always make me feel like I actually matter. For once. And it's an absolutely beautiful feeling. I will miss you. I will miss you very much. Seeing you always puts a smile on my face. You are an amazing person. I hope you get the credit you deserve. I wish you happiness.
If I were older or you were younger, I'd want to be with you. That's how people should make others they care about feel. If someone could make me feel that way all of the time, I'd be floating on stars.
I'm going to remember that for some time. I'm going to carry your words with me. I will not forget you.
Thank you. Thank you for being you. Thank you for making me feel like someone who has the potential to be something great. I wish you all the happiness in the world.
♥

Absolutely beautiful.

Sat, 01 Apr 2006 08:14:11 GMT

Meet me in outerspace
We could spend the night, watch the earth come up
I’ve grown tired of that place, won't you come with me?
We could start again
How do you do it, make me feel like I do?
How do you do it? It’s better than I ever knew
Meet me in outerspace.
I will hold you close, if you're afraid of heights.
I need you to see this place, it might be the only way
That I can show you how, it feels to be inside of you
You are stellar
You are stellar

Friends only.

Wed, 20 Jul 2005 23:40:50 GMT

♥ FRIENDS ONLY ♥