[30 Sep 2008|10:46pm] __veritas__ [ mood | tired ] Haven't been sleeping well lately. I'm tired, but I just can't sleep. Of course being woken up at 4am this morning by my neighbors fucking didn't help. And since I'm not sleeping well, I can barely keep my eyes open at work. Ugh. I've been working overtime every day (unless I have an appointment or something), but I still can't seem to catch up. It's extremely stressful, and having to listen to my co-workers bitch ALL DAY is making it so much worse. But before I go to my supervisor, I'm going to try to talk to Mom. It's just so hard to find time to do it. But I really need to. I'm going to attempt to fall asleep now. My fingers are crossed. & 5 CMNT

[28 Sep 2008|01:46pm] __veritas__ So, uh, hey LJ. Been a while. Haven't updated because there isn't much going on. I hadn't really noticed until recently how stressed out I actually am (mostly at work). My breathing is very shallow and I've noticed that my jaw is always clenched. Need to talk to Mom about it but she's always so busy. Will have to find time to talk to her tomorrow at work. Uh, what else.. Spent $512 fucking dollars for six months worth of contacts. Do not want to check my bank account. Uh, yeah. Pretty much back to my regular routine of going to work, coming home and vegging out, then going to bed. Really out of it today. Everything is hazy and muted. I wonder if this is what it feels like to be on Lithium? Am glad I chose not to try that one. I'm sweating in my apartment right now. It's almost October. It shouldn't be hot and sunny, damn it. I need to start exercising. I think about it day and night. I should really bring my walking shoes to work and actually take my two 15 minute breaks and go walking, like Mom and Reva do. That would also help with my stress a little since I'd be away from the office. Anyway.. I should go grab my laundry. [/pointless entry] & 17 CMNT

up to date. [26 Sep 2008|04:52pm] oliviarae [ mood | accomplished ] [ music | Lemon Jelly ] so things, have been pretty great. i'm so happy to say it. i finally found someone who treats me amazing. he say's things like "i was thinking about you all day" and "i couldnt wait to see you" and just so many things he says that i haven't heard in forever. makes me feel so good. he always just looks at me and smiles. i love his voice. he's tall and has curly brown hair. he's only nineteen. he doesn't drink every night, and he drives forty minutes in traffic everyday to see me. calls me when he gets home, i hear from him every morning. he works everyday and i go to school. works so well. I GOT A JOB at the Cold Stone in Waikiki. now i get to take my breaks on the beach like i wanted. so fucking happy. & 4 CMNT

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