Mandy

Sat, 28 Feb 2004 16:28:10 GMT

Gooood morning, everyone!! =o)Haha..ok, so it's like...11:30 in the morning, and I've gotta get up and go to work at 12..lovely, right? Right. Yeah, so..tonight..Moe's coming over with Elvin, and all of us, plus Nancy, are gonna go see that Passion Of The Christ Movie. Wonderful, right? Right. Yeah..great.
So, yesterday wasn't the best of my days. Moe and I got into another fight. It kinda sucked though, because I hadda work until 9 last night when I was suposed to get off at 7:30, and..and I don't know. But I ended up crying my eyes out in front of my manager, and four of the girls that work there; Christina, Tiffney, Jocelyn, and Charmayne. But my manager, Nakia, told me to go outside and scream at him, which, somehow, was supposed to make me feel better...it didn't. You know what we fought about?...him going to a strip club. He thinks he should be allowed to go, and honestly, I don't. But he turned it into this whole big thing where I said he shouldn't hang out with his best friend anymore because I hate him. Alright, honestly, that didn't happen. I never said anything about Jay..well, I mean, last night I didn't. But I neverbsaid that I hated Jay, ever...the worst that I may have said was prolly something along the lines of me not being too fond of him, but that doesn't mean anything; I don't have to like him, he's not my best friend. But yeah...when Moe realized that I was crying, he kinda eased up a bit and tried to fix everything.
You know what's really pathetic? The past few entries in here..they're all about my boyfriend. Whatever..I'm pathetic and I have no life. Oh, well.
So, I just put the link to this thingy back in my profile..coz honestly, I figure...only a few people will actually take the time to read it, you kno?
Alright..so let's chat about Junior Prom. =o) It's on March 27th, and we rented the Escalade. Who's we?...Jessica, Michelle, Donna, Stephanie, Lisa, Jenn, Angie, Donna's boyfriend Nick, me, and Sonia. We're all..well, except for Jenny, coz she doesn't wanna go to the actual Prom, jus the after party...meetin at my house at like 6ish, and yeah..that's that. That's all we know so far..lol. =o) Pathetic, I know.
Ohhhh...I just remembered something that I was meaning to write in here about...it has to do with like..my friends nd my family and just my life in general, so hopefully, I'll get a chance to write tomorrow...coz I've gotta go to work now. Byyye =o)

Fri, 27 Feb 2004 01:27:29 GMT

Alright, so, I think it was last night...yeah, last night, my boyfriend called me around like 9:30pm ish..which is actually really weird because he's like addicted to like Smallville and Angel..and they're on from 8-10 every Wednesday night, so we never talk between those times..or, hardly ever. Ok, yeah..so, he called me last night at 9:30..and the first thing I said to his was "ok, what's up..why are u callin me now?" Honestly, like, I know something was up, I just wasn't sure what it was. Ok, well..here...he was on the phone with Ericca, his ex girlfriend, again. And I mean, I know it's not like a huge big ordeal, but it bothers the fuck out of me for some reason. No, not some reason. It bothers me because he loved her..and I mean really loved her. Like, he loved her the way I loved Vinny. Nd no, it's not like..it's not like I'm worried about him still loving her because I still love Vinny. I've heard that before from more than one person, and it's just not like that. I guess..I don't know what it is, honestly, but it really bothers me. Like, I don't see why he has to talk to her, you know? And it's not even like they broke up on good terms..they both cheated on each other more than once, and they..well, she...finally got sick of it. I don't know..but like..it just seems like it's a new girl all the time with him. But I can understand it, you know? Like, I've had a thing for him for years...years. There's just something about him thats really attractive, and it sort of draws people to him. But yeah...that's that. I kinda got mad about it, which made him mad...yeah, he tends to get angry with me when I get upset with him. I personally don't think it makes sense, but he does. Whatever..the fight didn't last long. I went to bed early so I didn't have to stay up and fight with him, and I heard about that this morning..I called him just to say hi and he had an attitude, so when I asked him about, he shot back with "well, you did it last night." Whateverrrr...
Nancy and I made up today. =o) yay!!! =o) Ok, yeah..so we're gonna go see Passion Of The Christ on Saturday night at 10 with Moe and probably Elvin. I dono, I'm kinda nervous about the movie. I heard some lady actually died while watching it last night; she had a heart attack when they were nailing him to the Cross. I know that I'm definitely gonna cry some time throughout the movie..I'm just hoping I don't throw up or start freaking out in the theater.
So, yeah..as you can tell, my life really isn't that amazing. Sorry if I bore you..don't bother reading, then.

Wed, 25 Feb 2004 23:12:58 GMT

Hiiii everyone. Ok, so I had a link to this little thingy in my AIM profile..but then I figured...that's kinda stupid, because there are a whole lot of people that I really don't need reading this. Not because there's anything I have to hide or whatever, but just because..I don't know. I guess if I wanted THEM specifically to know how I was feeling, I'd tell them myself instead of having them read it here, right? Right.
Ok...so this song...Eamon-Get Off My Dick...is sooo fucking stupid. Don't even bother downloading it. It's like a waste of freaking space on your computer. But yeah..
Anyway...I'm so tired, it's kinda abnormal. I was up till like 12:30 last night on the phone with Moe..just..I don't know. We weren't even really talking about anything specific..we were just getting along...and it was so freakin nice, I guess..I guess we just didn't want it to end. We hardly ever get along for more than an hour anymore...we always seem to find something to fight about. I'm telling you, the fights vary from friends to family to respect to trust to drugs to school work. It kinda gets old after a while, but I wouldn't trade it for anything. He's a sweetheart..and I guess that when he picks up that I'm actually upset, like I was like night, he's different. He's..an angel. =o) I was...well, I still am...fighting with Nancy last night. I can't even remember what it was about, but I do know that it was really fucking stupid, and I said something to her that I shouldn't have, and I felt...terrible, actually. But yeah. So..we're still fighting, and...and I mean, we always argue...so it's not a big deal...but we NEVER..or, hardly ever really fight. ugh..I don't know. I love her. That's it. She's my bestestest friend and I feel like shit. I was a dick..I was stupid. I'm sorry, Nanc..I lov you!!!
But, yeah...I'm kinda in like a shitty mood. Not like a bad mood, but I'm just upset..you know? Just thinkin about a whole lot of CRAP..mostly about Nick. You remember Nick..he's my friend who committed suicide on April 25th of last year..and today's the 25th..and..and the 25th always sucks now. It just doesn't seem like..ahh it just sucks.
Ok..so..I think I'm done for now. Bye everyone

Mon, 23 Feb 2004 21:11:06 GMT

Hey, guys!! =o) Ok..so, I figured I'd write a little bit while I had a few free minutes. Can't stay long, though..I have to go to a religion class at 4:30. I'm kinda helping my Aunt teach it, because my guidance guy thing thinks I need more volunteer activities. But it's cool..I actually look forward to it throughout the day. Is that weird? It's just..I don't know, I like the kids..oh, yeah..they're thirds graders. They're just...real, you know? They don't try to put up a front and act different; they're still young, and they've got that sort of innocent vide about them. Whatever... Ok, so, just to clear it up, I picked the song I did because..I dont know, for some reason, I'm been thinking about an old ex boyfriend lately..NOT like in a romantic sort of way..more of like an "oh-my-god-you're-disgusting-what-was-i-think" sort of way, you know? yeah..and I was looking through the songs I had on this computer, and I dono...it kinda describes what I feel perfectly, which, actually, is pathetic..because it kinda means I'm still angry, right? But I'm not. I'm over it. I mean, I'm a little disappointed in how everything turned out...not the fact that we're not together anymore, just the fact that we can't even talk anymore because we can't stand being around eachother for more than, at the most, fifteen seconds.
Mm-hmm..sooo...I got into a fight with my boyfriend last night. =*( It was so freakin silly..I had just finished watching a movie that he got me for Valentine's Day...Untamed Heart...and I was in like, a great mood..and I don't know. We started gettin like touchy over nothing..no, it wasn't over nothing, but whatever. That's not the point. The point is, we got into like a really big fight outta nowhere, and I ended up going to sleep realllly mad at him, and saying stuff to him that I didn't mean..but as sad and as pathetic as this sounds, I'm sure he's used to it by now, because whenever we fight, I have this terrible habbit of saying things that I know are gonna hurt him...not even because I mean them, but just because I know it's gonna piss him off, and as sick as it is, I kinda want that sometimes, you know? I just wanna make sure that I have the power to get under his skin the same way he has the power to get under mine. But I don't know..we made up. This morning, actually. He was the better person this time, and he called me and left me a voicemail that I checked around like 7 am. Yeah..I love him, though. And as pathetic as it is, I kinda get some sick enjoyment out of these fights that we have. I mean, not because I like fighting with him..but just because I know that we both care enough to fight, you know? Make sense?
I guess that's it for all. Boring stuff, right? My life isn't too exciting, sorry to disappoint you. Maybe it'll get a bit better as the week goes on. Oh..I get to see my boyfriend this weekend. Yay!

I'm backkkk...

Sun, 22 Feb 2004 03:14:19 GMT

Yay! Look...I remembered that I still had you. =o) Haha..sorry I've been away for so long. I honestly forgot all about this website until a few days ago, and I spent some time tryin to pretty it up and all before I started writing again. I'm such a loser, I know. =o) But yeah..so, what's new in my life..honestly...everything. =o) I've actually kept my grades up this year, with the exception of Italian and Gym..but if you know me, you can understand that completely. I've kinda drifted away from most of my old girlfriends..the ones I used to spend every waking moment with. I dono, after a while, drinking every night kinda got boring, along with the running from the cops and all the other bullshit that went along with it. Uhm..what else...I finished my lifeguarding and CPR class like two months ago, so I'm not a certified lifeguard...yay! lol. =o) Yeahhh...Nancy Esposito is fucking amazing. I love her. She's my bestest friend ever...and I love her. And you know what else? That fuck that killed that little Carlie Brucia girl...he should fucking die. I hate people like that. How fucking pathetic is he to kill an eleven year old girl, AFTER people saw his ugly ass face on the television. Fucking morons should be shot.
Oh, yeah..and on a lighter, happier note...I'm in love with my boyfriend..Mr. Moises Renta...lol. He's my lil angel. We've been together since September 7, 2003...and I love him. He's, probably, the best addition to my life in a really long time, although I can't really classify him as an addition because I've known him for a really long time. Like, six or so years. Yeah, but, uhm..he's definitely the coolest person in the entire world. =o) Wanna see a picture? I know you do..here ya go.

My boyfriend is the one of the left...the guy on the right is Will, whos like..the funniest person in the whole world. But yeah...that's all for now. Ciao =o)

Sorrrrrrry..

Sat, 15 Nov 2003 14:43:34 GMT

Look at that..I'm back, again. =o) I dono, I guess I got bored this morning and had nothing better to do..haha. Yeah, so..sorry I've been gone for so long..I've been so busy with school and work..it's kinda insane. I just got back from Florida a few days ago..without a tan, let me add. Wonderful, right? =o)

So, as far as my life goes...things are kinda looking up. I'm with the most amazing person in this entire world..=o) His name is Moe..and he's so perfect, I can't begin to tell you. It's kinda weird..I've had like a "thing" for him so so long..and now that I'm with him, and it's just like..oh, I don't know. I can't explain it. It's just like...everything that I hoped it would be life for us..it is..only, better, you know? I'm so happy with him, it's almost scary. And, I mean, you guys know how fast I get sick of people..but it's not like that with him. There are so many things about him that just amaze me, and it's like..wow, you know? =o) Yeah, but uhm...I guess that's enough about him, right?

But uhm..I gotta go get ready for work. Hopefully, I'll get a chance to write again before I go out tonight. Bye, guys.

I'm back!!

Wed, 13 Aug 2003 02:08:22 GMT

Haven't written in forever, once again. Sorry about that....things just got too crazy too fast in my life. Lot's changed, though..as it should be expected, for anyone who knows me. Mike and I broke up..but we still talk..more often lately. The summer has been flying by way too quickly..so much bullshit, though. I guess everyone is Elmont is bored, so they decide to fight each other. Pretty good idea, rite? =/ lol. Yeah, but uhm..as of right now, I'm sick. I have pink eye and a sore throat..fun stuff, I know. But yeah, I'll update again with more detail tomorrow. Nighty night =*

Thu, 15 May 2003 18:35:21 GMT

I've been too busy..and too tired..to update. Expect a really long entry possibly Saturday, or Sunday.

Monday was great =o)

Tue, 13 May 2003 18:49:56 GMT

My life is perfect =o)

Sun, 11 May 2003 03:24:25 GMT

Ok, well..my life did lighten up a bit. =o) My cousin, Alan, came up here from Florida...so, he was here for the past couple of days. But, he came here with a friend..Mike. =o) He's so great. We kinda have a song....lol it's perfect! 3 Doors Down - When I'm Gone. Yeah. He's gonna forget me when he leaves, though. =o) I dono, he says he's gonna keep it touch. We'll see. <3<3 I'm glad I met him..he's pretty cool. He's gonna take me out when I go to Florida and show me a good time lol. Alan got madddd tho...ughhh

Ryan's hott!! =o) I was on the phone with him for a while last night. Actually, this morning. Like 1am. He's great. We're "meant to be." =o) Lovely!

Jessica...Happy Birthday, darling!! Sweet sixteen, finally. I love you!!! MWAH<3

Fri, 09 May 2003 18:39:21 GMT

Nobody knows what the fuck is going inside of my head anymore. But I'll tell you right now..I'm sick of putting on the happy face and always having to act like everything is fine, because it's not.

Mon, 05 May 2003 22:41:30 GMT

Got my pictures developed from Jenn's party. I was surprised, they actually came out pretty good. But, uhm, yeah. That's really all that's been happening lately. Maybe tomorrow shit will spice up?

Sun, 04 May 2003 02:05:48 GMT

Well, we ended up not going to Pennsylvania today. Family problems, I guess you can say, got in the way of that. So, I'm home..and able to write. =o)

I download this song today...Eminem - Rock Bottom...and it's weird, coz I kinda feel like it was written for me. I don't know. I dono what my problem is anymore. I get these mood swings where like one second, I'm the happiest person in the world..and the next, I just can't seem to get a smile on my face. I hate it!!

Anyways...I'm gonna talk about my love life for a little...or, lack of. haha! Anyways..yeah, so..it sucks, really. Well, no. I wouldn't exactly say that. I mean, sometimes it's cool not have to care about anything or anyone. I liked the fact that I could go to sleep at night and not worry about where my boyfriend is, and if he's ok, and who he's with. I liked being ok with everyone in the world, and not hating another girl because of some stupid reason like she looked at my guy the wrong way. You know what I mean? But then, on the other hand, there's that other part of me that just wants someone in my corner, you know? Ugh..I dono. Honestly? Ok, it's weird. There's this one guy..and I'm not gonna say it's anything serious, because it's really not. But, there's just something about him thats like...wow. You know what I mean? Like..this guy..he makes me feel safe...like, nothing bad could happen to me, just because I have him to turn to. I don't know. I don't know what I'm saying..maybe it's just like..I don't know, maybe my mind is just making me think I feel something that I really don't. Or, who knows..maybe I really do feel something for this guy...

Ok, on a lighter note...haha, my dad took me to look at this car today. It's a 88 Honda Accord...blah!! Lol I dono..it's old and whatever, but it's only like $1,000..so if I fuck it up and whatever, which I prolly will, just because I really can't drive well yet, I won't be like as upset as I would be if I had a realllly nice expensive car. It's just something for me to practice on, so whatever...I'm probably gonna get it. My dad already told the guy we'd take it, so I just gotta go back Monday and make sure it's cool..I dono, we'll see. I'll keep you updated. =o)

Yeah, so tonight was gay. I hate going out overhere..I swear, I'm like the fucking babysitter. People drink too much, and they can't handle it, so it becomes my problem to hold them up and keep them from falling down and cracking their head open. Like, seriously, after a couple of times of drinking the same thing and getting piss-ass drunk where you can't even walk, wouldn't you kinda tone it down a bit? But noooo..why should they? They have me to make sure they don't do anything stupid, right? Right...

Casey called me tonight, which was definitely weird, considering that I haven't really talked to him in a while. He's pretty cool, tho. Nd then Ryan called me a bit after that, which was really nice. I didn't think he was going to return my call, and when he did I was just like YES!! lol. Yeah, I'm a fag..I know, I know. =o) Nah..Ryan's the shit, people. I heart him. heheh!!

Yeah, so..Amanda's tired, and gonna get ready to go to bed, maybe. I dono. We'll see. If something good is on TV, I'll prolly be up for a while, which is stupid, because I have plans with Nancy and Justin tomorrow. Ehhh...the weekend is going by too fast.

Sat, 03 May 2003 02:31:41 GMT

Well...let's see.. I feel even worse than I did yesterday. I'm so completely drained. I have nothing left in me anymore. I spent most of the week crying and being upset and mad and tired all at the same time, and it finally caught up to me. Thank God the weekend is finally here. Time to relax...and be selfish, and think about myself for once.

I hadda do my oral presentation in English today. We hadda pick a song and a poem and compare them, and I picked "Don't Wanna Try" by Frankie J, and some love poem by some Mindie chick. I was actually expecting it to be a lot worse than it was, because we hadda be up there for five mintues..but the song took up like three minutes or so, and reading the poem took like another minute, so I really only hadda talk for like 30 seconds. I was shaking though..I hadda keep clearing my throat because I sounded like a frog. It was only like 11am and seeing as how I don't feel well, you can only imagine what I must have sounded and looked like. haha!!

Hmm..so, tomorrow I'm going back to Pennsylvania. That's actually not that bad though, because Chris doesn't know, so I doubt he's going to come. And, no, I'm not saying that's the good part. It's just that, only Chris and Tiffany are going to be up there, and Tiffany will probably chill with Tracy, and I'll be alone..which means I can sleep. Lovely, right? God, I can not wait!!

I spent the beginning of the night with Justine, Maria, Keith, Charlie, and Perry's cousin Rob. Then around 9, I met up with Nancy and she stayed over till 10ish..which was pretty nice. I got to see my favorite person, Nancy. Yay!! =o)

Well, Miss Christina got a job at Party City. God, now if only I can get a job. Oh, yeah, so Theresa showed me a picture Alena gave her of Nick..but it was from like three years ago. That's weird, though, because when he was 13, he looked the same as he did when he was 17. I dono..I'm gonna see if she can get me a picture..I don't have any.

Yeah..so, Ryan and I are on speaking terms again which is pretty cool, because I didn't like fighting with him. He's the best, I love talking to him. He makes me laugh..and he makes me feel good. Ryan..I didn't mean to make u mad =o) I still <3 ya...aww!!

Ok, so, everyone, if you get a chance..download Good Charlotte, Hold On. It's a reallllly reallllly good song and uhm..yeah, just like..listen to it? Think about it? Something along those terms. AND ONE MORE THING..people, please remember something... Pain is temporary...no matter what you're feeling at any certain point in your life, with time, it will pass. Time Heals All Wounds!!! Yeah, that's is really. Never make a permanent decision for a temporary feeling. And one more thing...no matter what you think, there are people in this world that care about you. Even though they may not show it until it's too late, there are so many people who think YOU are amazing. NEVER forget that!!

Thu, 01 May 2003 23:55:22 GMT

All these days of no sleep finally caught up to me..I'm sick. =o( Nuttin really to write..uhm...maybe my life will get a bit more exciting tomorrow or so.

Thu, 01 May 2003 01:27:58 GMT

Another bad day.

Nick..I love and miss you. You'll always be in my thoughts. You were one of a kind, and I'm never going to forget you. Thank you for everything you've helped me with, and for every smile you put on my face with your personality. You were a wonderful person.

Ryan..I'm sorry?..

Wed, 30 Apr 2003 11:20:26 GMT

I get myself soooo worked up..for what?..NOTHING

Yesterday..and today, so far

Tue, 29 Apr 2003 18:55:15 GMT

Didn't write yesterday. Sorry about that..I was so busy. I went to school, then on the boat with my father, then I came home, jumped in the shower, got ready, and went to Nick's funeral. =/

It..was an open casket. Wasn't as bad as I had imagined. He looked...good, actually. I mean..he just, he didn't look real. He was just laying there, not moving..perfectly fucking still. I wanted to shake him so badly and just scream, "Wake up, Nick! This isn't funny anymore!!!" I broke down yesterday...completely and totally. There's a picture of him on his dirt bike in the air..and he looks..like himself. He looked so happy and free and...alive. He made such a big mistake. I've never seen so many people crying before in my entire life. The three room inside were completely packed, and the line to get in was out the door and half way around the block. So many people cared about him..so many people could've helped him. There was no need for him to have done that.

But, uhm..I saw Will yesterday. And Will, if you read this..you looked great, hunni. =o) But yeah, he looked wonderful. He was holding up pretty well..I've definitely reached a whole different level of respect for him. But yeah...Will, I know I told you this like a zillion times, but if you need anything I'm here, sweety.

I'm going back to the funeral with Christina tonight. This is the last time I'm ever going to see him..so, I'm gonna stay the entire time. I got less than no sleep last night..I was up till 5ish just crying and crying about everything thats happening. I think it's really starting to kick in. I didn't even do my hair for school today..I just threw it up, and that was it. But anyways...I'll write later, if I'm not completely out of it...or tomorrow.

Oh, just one more thing..Ryan's great..=o)

Ryan's pic

Mon, 28 Apr 2003 00:28:28 GMT

Ok..I gotta show him off, coz he's sooo totally awesome. And..because I wanna show Nichole. =o)

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Stupid shit

Sun, 27 Apr 2003 17:09:31 GMT

I'm so tired...I haven't gotten a good night of sleep in such a long fucking time. Either I'm up on the phone with Ryan..=o)...or I'm at Justine's..or I'm hearing about Nick..it's fucking bullshit, and it's starting to take it's toll. I'm not ready for school to start again yet. This whole Nick situation is making me crazy..and as sick as it sounds, Nancy has made me a paranoid freak. Ask her about it, she'll tell you. Anyways..this is all you're getting for today. Well, this...and this->Ryan's AWESOME

~You Stuff~
001. What is your name? Amanda
002. Spell your name backwards. Adnama
003. Date of birth: 1/09/87
004. Male or female? Female
005. Astrological sign: Capricorn
006. Nicknames: Manda, Mandy
007. Occupation? Student
008. Height: 5' NOTHING =*(
009. Nationality: Italian/Rican
010. Hair color: Changes..right now, red.
011. Eye color: Brown
012. Where were you born? Mercy Hospital
013. Where do you reside now? Elmont, New York
014. Age: 16
015. Screen names: NYMandyGirl, Tainteclt
016. E-mail addy: Roxy14367@yahoo.com
017. What does your screen name stand for? Uhm..NY, where I live..Mandy, nickname..Girl..hello!
018. What is your LJ name? _lil_miss_
019. What does your diary name stand for? It was random.
020. Pets: A dog, Comet..and two sisters.
021. Number of candles you blew out on your last birthday cake? 17
022. Piercings? Two in each ear..
023. Tattoo's? Not yet
024. Shoe size: 6-7
025. Righty or lefty? Righty.
026. Wearing: Boxer shorts and a tank-top
027. Hearing: Simple Plan, Addicted
028. Feeling: Tired as fuck, sad, bored.
029. Eating/drinking: Chewing gum..does that count?

~Friends Stuff~
Which one of your friends is the....
030. Craziest? Heather D
031. Loudest? Jenn
032. Nicest? Nicole G
033. Bitchiest? Not even going there..
034. Life of the party? Jenn
035. Jock? Edwards
036. Prep? Ehh..
037. Rebel? Drew
038. Cutest? They're all cute
039. Best friend of the same sex? Justine and Nancy
040. Best friend of the opposite sex? Keith
041. Most popular? Matt
042. Rudest? Tiffany
043. Most shy? Nicole
044. Dumbest? Tiffany
045. Smartest? Prolly me
046. Weirdest? Me
047. Has the best hair? Everyone but me
048. Best personality? Nancy
049. Most talented? The boys
050. Most ghetto? My husband, Kev..<3 lol
051. Most spoiled? Prolly me
052. Drama queen/king? Ehh..
053. Pain in the ass? Ehh..
054. Funniest? Heather
055. Best advice giver? Jessica/Heather/Nichole
056. Druggie? Mike
057. Most likely to join a cult? lol!
058. Have you lost touch with a good friend recently? Nick...
059. Person you've been friends with the longest? Heather E, Nicole G
060. How many friends do you have on your buddy list? 37 + 51

~Guys/Love/Kissing/And Other Stuff~
061. Have you ever been in love? Yes
062. How many people have you told "I love you"? Two
063. How many people have you been in love with? Twice
064. How many people have you kissed? A lot
065. Have you ever kissed someone of the same sex? No
066. How many people have you dated? Only a few count
067. What do you look for in a guy/girl? Too many things..
068. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? EEyes
069. What type of guy/girl do you usually go for? Don't really have a type..
070. Do you have a bf/gf? Nope
071. If so where did you meet them? N/A
072. What do you like most about your bf/gf? N/A
073. Do you have a crush right now? I do...
074. If so who is it? "Guess" =o)
075. Do you believe in love at first sight? No
076. Do you remember your first love? Of course
077. Who is the first person you kissed? Will K
078. Do you believe in fate? Yeah
079. Do you believe in soul mates? Not sure
080. If so do you believe you'll ever find yours? Maybe?

~Family Stuff~
104. How many siblings do you have? Two
105. What are your parents names? Frank and JoAnn
106. What are your siblings names? Tracy and Francesca
107. How many siblings does your mother have? 4
108. How many siblings does your father have? 4
109. Where are your parents from? Mom-Queens Dad-FLA
110. Is your family close? Kinda..
111. Does your family get together for holidays? Yeah
112. Do you have a drunk uncle? Drunk Aunt AND uncle
113. Any medical problems run through your family? Not really
114. Does someone in your family wear a toupee? Not that I know of.
115. Do you have any nieces or nephews? No.
116. Are your parents divorced? No
117. Do you have step parents? No.
118. Has your family ever disowned another member of your family? Not getting into this
119. If so for what? Not getting into this
120. Did some of your family come to your current country of residence from another country? No

~Music Stuff~
121. What song do you swear was written about you or your life? Michelle Branch - Goodbye To You
122. What's the most embarrasing cd you own? Hanson lol
123. What's the best cd you own? The ones I burnt.
124. What song do you absolutely hate? Too many.
125. Do you sing in the shower? Not really
126. What song reminds you of that special someone? None yet..

~Okay, I Name An Artist And You Give A Lyric From Any One Of Their Songs!~
127. Pink: Get this party stared
128. Aerosmith: Jaded..
129. Madonna: Like a virgin
130. Korn: Got the life
131. Backstreet Boys: I don't care who you are..
132. The Beatles: ehh..
133. Sublime: ehh..
134. J.Lo: Since you've came into my life, I've been glad
135. *Nsync: God must have spent..
136. Limp Bizkit: It's just one of those days..
137. Britney Spears: Now I'm stronger..
138. Creed: Can you take me higher..
139. Enrique Iglesias: Ugh!
140. Good Charlotte: And I'll love you..I'll always love you
141. Christina Aguilera: Who is that girl I see..
142. Eminem: GAY!
143. New Found Glory: My friend's over you..
144. Kelly Clarkson: I've never lived before your love
145. Kelly Osbourne: Papa don't preach
146. Mandy Moore: Walk me home..
147. Eve: Gotta man that I think I'm gonna lov forever
148. Aaliyah: I miss you
149. Nelly: Take off all your clothes..
150. Alicia Keys: Fallin in and outta love..
151. Incubus: I wish you were here..

~Favorites~
152. Color: Pink
153. Food: Fruits
154. Song: Luz Devina, In Your Eyes
155. Show: Battle of the sexes
156. School subject: English
157. Band/singer: Lots..
158. Animal: All
159. Outfit: ugh
160. Radio station: Z100
161. Movie: Cinderella
162. Pair of shoes: None, really
163. Cartoon: I dono
164. Actor: Lots
165. Actress: Lotss
166. Potato chip: Salt & Vinegar
167. Drink: Iced Tea
168. Alcholic drink: I hardly drink..but LI Iced Teas are good
169. Holiday: My b-day
170. Perfume/cologne: Heavenly Angel, VS
171. Pizza topping: Nothing
172. Jello flavor: Cherry
173. Lunch meat: Ur kidding rite?
174. Board game: Pretty Pretty Princess
175. Video game: Grand Theft Auto, Vice City
176. Website: this and Facethejury
177. Book: The Language of Letting Go
178. Computer game: Sims
179. Number: 23
180. Cereal: I don't eat cereal anymore.
181. Comedian: I don't have a preference.
182. Dessert: Ice cream.
183. Disney character: Cinderelle
184. Clothing store: Express
185. Pasttime: Doing pointless shit like this.
186. Teacher: Papaccio
187. Childhood toy: Ryan knows
188. Carnival game/ride: I don't go on rides, too scared.
189. Candy bar: I dono
190. Magazine: YM
191. Salad dressing: Ranch.
192. Thing to do on the weekend: See la mia friends.
193. Hot drink: ehh
194. Season: Spring
195. Sport to watch: Eww
196. Person to talk to online: Nichole

~Your Bedroom/Sleeping Habits~
197. What color are your sheets? Blue or yellow
198. What color are your bedroom walls? Baby Blue
199. Do you have posters on your wall? Nope
200. If so of what? N/a
201. Do you have a tv in your bedroom? Yeah
202. How many pillows are on your bed? Two
203. What do you normally sleep in? Bra and boxers
204. Describe your favorite pair of pajamas: None
205. What size bed do you have? Twin
206. Do you have a waterbed/bunkbed/daybed? No
207. Do you have your own phone line in your bedroom? No
208. Do you listen to music while trying to fall asleep? Not anymore
209. Describe the last nightmare you had: I dont remember..
210. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? Yup
211. How many people can comfortably sleep in your bed? Two..kinda
212. Do you sleep in any unusual positions? Nope
213. Do you have to share your bedroom with a sibling? Nope
214. Do you snore? Nope
215. How about drool? Nope lol
216. Do you have an alarm clock in your room? Yeah, but I don't use it
217. What color is the carpet in your room? Blue
218. What's under your bed? My whole world

~This or that~
219. Coke/Pepsi: Coke
220. Doughnuts/bagels: Doughnuts
221. Day/night: Night
222. Wicked witch of the east/wicked witch of the west: East
223. Heaven/hell: Heaven
224. Make love/have sex: Both
225. Coffee/tea: Tea
226. Hamburgers/hotdogs: Hamburger
227. Rap/rock: Rock
228. Britney/Christina: Britney
229. Swiss cheese/american cheese: Yuck
230. Real World/Road Rules: Both
231. Backstreet Boys/*Nsync: Either
232. Silver/gold: Gold
233. Nike/Adidas: Nike
234. McDonalds/Taco Bell: Neither
235. Sweet/sour: Sweet
236. Punk/emo: Nope
237. Hot/cold: Hot
238. Winter/summer: Summer
239. Spring/fall: Spring
240. Operas/plays: Plays
241. Read/watch tv: Read
242. Cd's/tapes: CDs
243. Dvd's/vhs: Either.
244. Old/new: Both
245. Shorts/skirts: Skirts
246. Pink/red: Pink
247. Colored pictures/black and white photos: Colored
248. Meat/vegetables: Vegetables
249. Mexican food/chinese food: Chinese
250. Commercials/infomercials: Neither
251. Scary movies/comedies: Either
252. Bikinis/one piece bathing suits: Bikinis
253. Sandals/tennis shoes: Sandals
254. Dogs/cats: Dogs
255. Unicorns/fairies: Both
256. Water/land: Land
257. Sugar/spice: Spice
258. Black/white: Black
259. Ribbons/bows: Ribbons
260. Chicken/beef: Chicken
261. Colored christmas lights/regular white christmas lights: White
262. Cars/trucks: Cars
263. Austin Powers/James Bond: Austin Powers
264. Popcorn/pretzels: Pretzels
265. Hip/hop: Hip
266. Passionate kiss/peck: Passionate
267. WWE wrestling/ real wrestling: Neither
268. Back rub/foot massage: Back rub
269. Picture frames/photo albums: Both
270. Pens/pencils: Pens

~What Is Your Opinion Of The Following~
271. Eminem: Mean...
272. Virgins: Cool
273. God: Confusing
274. The Osbournes: Silly
275. Reality TV: Boring
276. J.Lo: Gorgeous
277. Religion: Comforting
278. Emo music: Sucks
279. Valentine's Day: Special
280. Christina Aguilera's comeback: Gay
281. Homosexuals: If it makes them happy
282. Abortion: Shouldn't be allowed
283. Inter-racial relationships: Fine
284. Murder: Not needed
285. Death: Sad
286. Obesity: Sad
287. Pre-marial sex: Depends..
288. Terrorism: Not needed
289. Pornography: Disgusting
290. Fortune tellers: Pathetic
291. Threesomes: Whatever..not for me tho
292. Prostitution: Not needed
293. Politics: Whatever
294. Country music: Watever
295. George W. Bush: Weird
296. Cloning: Whatever
297. Britney's boobs: I dont care
298. Gas prices in America: Pathetic

~Name Game~
What Do You Think Of When You Hear These Common Names?...
299. Jack: Days of Our Lives
300. Tiffany: Conti, liar
301. Ben: Stiller, Funny
302. Maria: from Carey...I <3 u =o)
303. Jennifer: Romeo..soo pretty
304. Nicole: Gallinaro, innocent
305. Amy: Slate, young
306. Adam: Morris..insane
307. Richard: Gloe..lol nothing to say
308. Justin: My cousin
309. Arnold: Hey Arnold
310. Tom: Toni's ex, skater
311. Melissa: Rodriguez, sooo pretty
312. Charlotte: Good
313. Harold: From Hey Arnold
314. John: Slate
315. Joel: Noel lol
316. Vanessa: Sooo pretty
317. Michelle: Branch..sad
318. Kevin: Brown, short
319. Brent: Hott
321. Billy: My uncle
322. Sarah: Jeff's ex
323. Natalie: Pretty
324. Christy: Snotty
325. Nick: Rest In Peace 4*25*03
326. Linda: Tiffany's mom
327. Taylor: Jonathan Taylor Thomas
328. Jordan: Jayser's little brother
329. Jaime: Snot
330. Adrian: Buns

Have you...
331. Mooned anyone? No
332. Been on a diet? Maybe in the past
333. Been to a foreign country? Nope
334. Broken a bone? My left pinkey
335. Swallowed a tooth/cap/filling? No
336. Swear at a teacher? Yes
337. Talked to an LJ member via e-mails or instant messages? Yeah
338. Got in a fight? Fuck yeah
339. Dated a teacher? Ew
340. Laughed so hard you peed your pants? No lol
341. Thought about killing your enemy? Ehh..
342. Gone skinny dipping? Nope
343. Met another LJ member in the flesh? Nope
344. Told a little white lie? Duh
345. Told a secret you swore not to tell? Sometimes..
347. Misused a swear word and it sounded absolutely stupid? Prolly lol
348. Been on tv? Nope
349. Been on the radio? No
350. Been in a mosh pit? No
351. Been to a concert? Nope
352. Dated one of your best friends? Yup
353. Loved someone so much it makes you cry? Yes
354. Decieved somebody close to you? Mm-hmm
355. Broken the law? Mm-hmm
356. Been to a rodeo? No
357. Been on a talk show? No
358. Been on a game show? No
359. Been on an airplane? Yeah
360. Got to ride on a firetruck? Yeah
361. Came close to dying? Prolly
362. Cheated on a bf/gf? Yeah
363. Gave someone a piggy back ride? Francesca, yeah
364. Terrorized a babysitter? Fuck yeah
365. Made a mud pie? No
366. Had a dream that your falling off a cliff? Maybe
367. Snuck out of the house at night? Yeah..once or twice
368. Been so drunk you don't remember your name? No
369. Had an eating disorder? Nah..
370. Felt like you didn't belong? Yeah..
371. Felt like the 3rd wheel? Mm-hmm
372. Smoked? Yeah
373. Done drugs? Yup
374. Stolen money from a poor person begging on the street? Wat? lol no
375. Had your tonsils removed? No
376. Gone to camp? Nope
377. Won a bet? Yes
378. Written a love letter? Many
379. Gone out of your way to be with the one you love? Of course
380. Written a love poem? Mm-hmm
381. Kissed in the rain? Of course..
382. Slow danced with someone you love? Yeah..
383. Participated in cyber sex? Eww
384. Faked an orgasm? No
385. Stolen a kiss? Of course =o)
386. Asked a friend for relationship advice? All the time
387. Had a friend steal your bf/gf? Becca you bitch
388. Watched the sunset/rise with someone you love? Never
389. Gotten a speeding ticket? Nope
390. Done jail time? Nope
391. Had to wear a uniform to work? Nope
392. Won a trophy? Swimming, yeah
393. Thrown up in public? Prolly
394. Bowled a perfect game? Fuck no
395. Failed/got held back? Never
396. Got perfect attendance in grade school? Lol! SYKE
397. Roasted pumpkin seeds? Yeah
398. Taken ballet lessons? For YEARS, yeah
399. Attempted suicide? No...
400. Cut yourself? For a while..

~Childhood Stuff~
401. Did you play with Barbies? Yes
402. Did you own Treasure Trolls? Yup
403. Did you watch Beverly Hills 90210? Yeah
404. Did you play Simon? Yeah
405. Did you watch Fraggle Rock? No
406. Did you wet the bed? I dono?
407. Did you believe there were monsters in your closet or under your bed? Still do
408. Did you wear the underwear with the days of the week on them? Lol prolly
409. Were you shy? No
410. Were you spoiled? A little
412. Did you go to the circus? Yeah
413. Did you go to the zoo? Yeah
414. Were you in a car accident? No
415. Did you build snowmen? Yeah
416. Did you cry when you scraped your knee? Of course
417. Were your older cousins mean to you? yeah lol
418. Did you think slinkies were cool? Duh
419. Did you think the Ninja Turtles really lived in the sewer? Ew
420. Were you afraid of the dark? Still
421. Did you have slumber parties? Nah
422. Did you have New Kids On The Block sheets, curtains, sleeping bags, dolls and pajamas? No
423. Did you tease your hair out like Tiffany? Who?
424. Did you believe in the Easter Bunny/Santa Claus/ and the Tooth Fairy? Only the Easter Bunny..

~Randomness~
425. Do you believe in aliens? I dont know
426. Name 3 things that are next to your computer: Dictionary, phone, radio
427. Do you have any hidden talents? Maybe
428. Do you wish MTV would play music videos? Lol
429. If you were to star in a movie, what kind of movie would it be? Porn..lol no, I dont know
430. What would your movie star name be? I dono
431. Do you play any sports? Swimming..is that a sport?
432. What's the scariest movie you've ever seen? OH MY GOD...Red Dragon, Ghost Ship, The Ring, The Signs, Hannibal..oh, GOD
433. What is the best movie you've seen in the theater or rented recently? Red Dragon
434. What is the dumbest movie you've ever seen? Jackass
435. Do you drive? Yea
436. What is your dream car? Altima
437. Do you think you're good looking? Sometimes
438. Do others think you are good looking? Some
439. Would you ever sky dive? Maybe
440. Do you believe in Bigfoot? No
441. How many rooms do you have in your house? A lot
442. Are you afraid of roller coasters? Yeah
443. Do you believe in God? Sometimes
444. Do you believe in Satan? Sometimes
445. Do you believe there is a heaven? I hope so
446. Do you believe there is a hell? I dont know
447. Do you own a pooltable? No
448. Do you have a pool? Yeah
449. Do you have a dishwasher in your kitchen? Yeah
450. Do you like chocolate? Ehh
451. Who/what is on your 2003 calendar? Dogs
452. How many U.S. states have you been to? A few
453. Ever wished on a shooting star? Of course
454. Best Halloween costume you ever wore? They all sucked
456. What is your weakness? Toooo many..
457. Name something you can't get enough of: Ryan..lol
458. Describe yourself in 3 adjectives: No
459. How many kids do you want to have? 7 or 9
460. Future daughters names: Alessia, Ana-Maria, Nadia, Nadine, Kelsie, Kaity...
461. Future sons names: Shawn, Patrick, Tracy..something weird
462. What is your ideal way to die? I dont wanna die
463. How do you release stress? Cry
464. Are you a trendy person? Kinda
465. Are you an artistic person? Not really
466. Are you a realistic person? ....
467. Do you un-tie your shoes every time you take them off? No
468. Are you a strong person? Physically or emotionally?
469. Are you a strong willed person? Yeah
470. Who is the last person to e-mail you? Laura
471. Who is the last person to IM you? Nancy
472. Do you hate chain e-mails? Not really
473. Are you a deep sleeper? Not at all
474. Are you a good story teller? Not really
475. What do you believe is your best quality? I dono
476. What is your greatest accomplishment? I dont know
477. Do you like to burn candles or incense? Candles
478. Do you do yoga? No
479. Do you have your own credit card? No
480. Let's say you win the lotto. What do you do with all that money? I dont know
481. Do you have a check book? No
482. Do you like your driver's license picture? Permit..it's ok
483. Do you tan easily? Yes
484. What color is your hair naturally? Dark brown
485. How many fillings do you have? Zero
486. How many cavities did you have at your last dentist visit? 0
487. Worst feeling in the world? Heart break..
488. Best feeling in the world? Being loved
489. Is the glass half empty or half full? Full.
490. Last thing you downloaded? Evanescene - Bring me bak to live
491. Do you catch yourself using online terms in your real life? I think so.
492. What do you think people think of you? I dont care
493. Are you a likeable person? Depends if I like the person
494. Do you need therapy? No..jus a boyfriend
495. Do you take medication for a chemical imbalance? ...
496. What the best way to be proposed to? I dono..
497. What kind of movie would you star in? I dono
498. If Fed Ex and UPS were to merge, would they call it Fed UP? Lol
499. When are you moving? August
500. What's your favorite phrase? I dont know

RIP Nick-42503

Sat, 26 Apr 2003 14:40:15 GMT

Jenn's Sweet 16 was wonderful. She looked so amazing, and I don't think I've ever seen her so happy in my entire life. It was great, and when I get the pictures developed, I'll put them up on here for all you lovely children to see...heheh. =o) I spent most of the night with Maria and Justine, dancing, crying over our ex-boyfriends and their new girlfriends. Lol..yeah, it was cool, though. Maria's cool as hell. =o) She better call me!!

Things in my life are actually starting to make sense once again. I think I may be interested in someone who seems really great. I don't know, we'll have to see how that goes. But uhm..Nancy and I have been getting along really well lately..=o) I <3 my life...and I <3 my friends. Aww!!

I haven't exactly told you guys about Pennsylvania yet, have I? No, I didn't think so. Anyways, it was nice. On Wed., I saw Chris and Rob a little while. It was totally freezing...it actually snowed in April! Lol..lovely. Anyways, Chris left for a while to pick up one of his friends because it was boring..but he came back Thursday for a little, and that was nice. I went out to lunch with Tiffany and Rob on Thursday. Yeah..it wasn't as much fun as I thought it would've been, but it was still worth the trip. I'm hardly going to be up there this summer anyhow, since I've got to work, so..yeah, I'm gonna go as much as I can before I start. Makes perfect sense, right? Oh, so, speaking of Chris..his girlfriend person, Nikki, IMed me before. My GOD, I honestly don't think I've ever met anyone as stupid as she is. But whatever, it's all good. She's the nasty one who has to live with her slut-self, not me. =o)

Ok..so, for those who don't know, Nick Farugia killed himself last night. He was driving his father's corvette, and he crashed it..and I guess he was really scared about his father's reaction..so, he took a gun into his garage and shot himself once in the head. He left a note, though....just apologizing for the car, and telling his dad that he wouldn't cause any more problems. His funeral is Monday and Tuesday and Franklin Funeral Home, 2-4, and 7-9. Nancy, me, Christina, and Christine are all going Monday and Tuesday 7-9. It's a closed casket though, obviously, because he shot himself in the head. And it's so sad, because Christina just informed me that his birthday was Wed., April 23. He had just turned 17.

This is going to be so hard on everyone. Honestly, I don't think it' really sunk in yet. I still can't believe that this happened. Not Nick..he'd never do something like that..right? =/ I cried a lot this morning..so did Nancy and Christina. Will is probably a wreck, considering that Nick was his best friend. I hope everyone gets through this okay and doesn't do anything irrational. Guys, remember..Time Heals All Wounds

You come from Heaven. You're the purest of pure, a
saint. You're probably an angel sent directly
from Heaven.

Ryan's great =o)

Fri, 25 Apr 2003 16:59:28 GMT

Looky what Ryan made...<3

zzzzz

Fri, 25 Apr 2003 15:12:33 GMT

Up from 1:30-4am with Ryan on the phone last night. He's definitely the coolest person I've met in a while..I'm glad I met someone like him. =o)

Anyways..Jenn's Sweet 16 is tonight..which means I won't get any sleep again, tonight. Ugh..I'm gonna start looking really bad..

But, uhm...when I wake up and snap out of the zombie stage that I'm in, I'll write about Pennsylvania.

Fri, 25 Apr 2003 03:04:42 GMT

Got back from Pennsylvania a little while ago...I got no fucking sleep at all..so many things went wrong. It was so pathetically bad..but I'm too tired to write about it now. I'll write tomorrow with the whole story. G'night..

Jason's awesome

Tue, 22 Apr 2003 21:13:56 GMT

Got back from the dentist a little while ago..and, as usual, I've got no cavities. I don't understand how people get so many sometimes...don't they believe in brushing their teeth every now and then?

So, we're definitely not going to Pennsylvania till tomorrow now. It's really fucking lovely, because Kevin left and is home already, so now my week is going to consist of Tiffany, Rob, and Chris, if Chris even decides to take some time out of his oh so busy schedule to come see me. =o) But I think he will. The only thing with Chris, is...he'll say he's coming at 6, and show up at 9. Lol =o) It's ok..I still <3 him.

Nancy is supposed to come over tonight to watch movies. La mia mamma said she'd take me to Blockbuster to rent a few movies, but she somehow expects me to pay for it. Yeah, sure..coz the job I've got pays so much money, right? =o) It's gonna be cool, though, because I haven't really hung out with Nancy in a while. And it's just going to be me and her, so I'm sure it'll be ok. =o)

Anyhow..Jason's God. =o) Heheh..no, but uhm..he's really freakin cool. I had like the best conversation ever with him before. He changed a lot..he's such a sweet person now. =o) He knows exactly what to say and when to say it. There's just something about him thats just so like..wow. He's definitely on my mind today..<3 Oh, and for those who are wondering about the song..Jay sent it to me so it's special. Heheh =o)