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[Feb. 28th, 2004|11:19 am]
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Gooood morning, everyone!! =o)Haha..ok, so it's like...11:30 in the morning, and I've gotta get up and go to work at 12..lovely, right? Right. Yeah, so..tonight..Moe's coming over with Elvin, and all of us, plus Nancy, are gonna go see that Passion Of The Christ Movie. Wonderful, right? Right. Yeah..great.
So, yesterday wasn't the best of my days. Moe and I got into another fight. It kinda sucked though, because I hadda work until 9 last night when I was suposed to get off at 7:30, and..and I don't know. But I ended up crying my eyes out in front of my manager, and four of the girls that work there; Christina, Tiffney, Jocelyn, and Charmayne. But my manager, Nakia, told me to go outside and scream at him, which, somehow, was supposed to make me feel better...it didn't. You know what we fought about?...him going to a strip club. He thinks he should be allowed to go, and honestly, I don't. But he turned it into this whole big thing where I said he shouldn't hang out with his best friend anymore because I hate him. Alright, honestly, that didn't happen. I never said anything about Jay..well, I mean, last night I didn't. But I neverbsaid that I hated Jay, ever...the worst that I may have said was prolly something along the lines of me not being too fond of him, but that doesn't mean anything; I don't have to like him, he's not my best friend. But yeah...when Moe realized that I was crying, he kinda eased up a bit and tried to fix everything.
You know what's really pathetic? The past few entries in here..they're all about my boyfriend. Whatever..I'm pathetic and I have no life. Oh, well.
So, I just put the link to this thingy back in my profile..coz honestly, I figure...only a few people will actually take the time to read it, you kno?
Alright..so let's chat about Junior Prom. =o) It's on March 27th, and we rented the Escalade. Who's we?...Jessica, Michelle, Donna, Stephanie, Lisa, Jenn, Angie, Donna's boyfriend Nick, me, and Sonia. We're all..well, except for Jenny, coz she doesn't wanna go to the actual Prom, jus the after party...meetin at my house at like 6ish, and yeah..that's that. That's all we know so far..lol. =o) Pathetic, I know.
Ohhhh...I just remembered something that I was meaning to write in here about...it has to do with like..my friends nd my family and just my life in general, so hopefully, I'll get a chance to write tomorrow...coz I've gotta go to work now. Byyye =o) |
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[Feb. 26th, 2004|08:16 pm]
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| | Ruben Studdard - Sorry 2004 | ] |
Alright, so, I think it was last night...yeah, last night, my boyfriend called me around like 9:30pm ish..which is actually really weird because he's like addicted to like Smallville and Angel..and they're on from 8-10 every Wednesday night, so we never talk between those times..or, hardly ever. Ok, yeah..so, he called me last night at 9:30..and the first thing I said to his was "ok, what's up..why are u callin me now?" Honestly, like, I know something was up, I just wasn't sure what it was. Ok, well..here...he was on the phone with Ericca, his ex girlfriend, again. And I mean, I know it's not like a huge big ordeal, but it bothers the fuck out of me for some reason. No, not some reason. It bothers me because he loved her..and I mean really loved her. Like, he loved her the way I loved Vinny. Nd no, it's not like..it's not like I'm worried about him still loving her because I still love Vinny. I've heard that before from more than one person, and it's just not like that. I guess..I don't know what it is, honestly, but it really bothers me. Like, I don't see why he has to talk to her, you know? And it's not even like they broke up on good terms..they both cheated on each other more than once, and they..well, she...finally got sick of it. I don't know..but like..it just seems like it's a new girl all the time with him. But I can understand it, you know? Like, I've had a thing for him for years...years. There's just something about him thats really attractive, and it sort of draws people to him. But yeah...that's that. I kinda got mad about it, which made him mad...yeah, he tends to get angry with me when I get upset with him. I personally don't think it makes sense, but he does. Whatever..the fight didn't last long. I went to bed early so I didn't have to stay up and fight with him, and I heard about that this morning..I called him just to say hi and he had an attitude, so when I asked him about, he shot back with "well, you did it last night." Whateverrrr...
Nancy and I made up today. =o) yay!!! =o) Ok, yeah..so we're gonna go see Passion Of The Christ on Saturday night at 10 with Moe and probably Elvin. I dono, I'm kinda nervous about the movie. I heard some lady actually died while watching it last night; she had a heart attack when they were nailing him to the Cross. I know that I'm definitely gonna cry some time throughout the movie..I'm just hoping I don't throw up or start freaking out in the theater.
So, yeah..as you can tell, my life really isn't that amazing. Sorry if I bore you..don't bother reading, then. |
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[Feb. 25th, 2004|05:20 pm]
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| | Eamon - Get Off My Dick | ] |
Hiiii everyone. Ok, so I had a link to this little thingy in my AIM profile..but then I figured...that's kinda stupid, because there are a whole lot of people that I really don't need reading this. Not because there's anything I have to hide or whatever, but just because..I don't know. I guess if I wanted THEM specifically to know how I was feeling, I'd tell them myself instead of having them read it here, right? Right.
Ok...so this song...Eamon-Get Off My Dick...is sooo fucking stupid. Don't even bother downloading it. It's like a waste of freaking space on your computer. But yeah..
Anyway...I'm so tired, it's kinda abnormal. I was up till like 12:30 last night on the phone with Moe..just..I don't know. We weren't even really talking about anything specific..we were just getting along...and it was so freakin nice, I guess..I guess we just didn't want it to end. We hardly ever get along for more than an hour anymore...we always seem to find something to fight about. I'm telling you, the fights vary from friends to family to respect to trust to drugs to school work. It kinda gets old after a while, but I wouldn't trade it for anything. He's a sweetheart..and I guess that when he picks up that I'm actually upset, like I was like night, he's different. He's..an angel. =o) I was...well, I still am...fighting with Nancy last night. I can't even remember what it was about, but I do know that it was really fucking stupid, and I said something to her that I shouldn't have, and I felt...terrible, actually. But yeah. So..we're still fighting, and...and I mean, we always argue...so it's not a big deal...but we NEVER..or, hardly ever really fight. ugh..I don't know. I love her. That's it. She's my bestestest friend and I feel like shit. I was a dick..I was stupid. I'm sorry, Nanc..I lov you!!!
But, yeah...I'm kinda in like a shitty mood. Not like a bad mood, but I'm just upset..you know? Just thinkin about a whole lot of CRAP..mostly about Nick. You remember Nick..he's my friend who committed suicide on April 25th of last year..and today's the 25th..and..and the 25th always sucks now. It just doesn't seem like..ahh it just sucks.
Ok..so..I think I'm done for now. Bye everyone |
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[Feb. 23rd, 2004|04:08 pm]
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Hey, guys!! =o) Ok..so, I figured I'd write a little bit while I had a few free minutes. Can't stay long, though..I have to go to a religion class at 4:30. I'm kinda helping my Aunt teach it, because my guidance guy thing thinks I need more volunteer activities. But it's cool..I actually look forward to it throughout the day. Is that weird? It's just..I don't know, I like the kids..oh, yeah..they're thirds graders. They're just...real, you know? They don't try to put up a front and act different; they're still young, and they've got that sort of innocent vide about them. Whatever... Ok, so, just to clear it up, I picked the song I did because..I dont know, for some reason, I'm been thinking about an old ex boyfriend lately..NOT like in a romantic sort of way..more of like an "oh-my-god-you're-disgusting-what-was-i-think" sort of way, you know? yeah..and I was looking through the songs I had on this computer, and I dono...it kinda describes what I feel perfectly, which, actually, is pathetic..because it kinda means I'm still angry, right? But I'm not. I'm over it. I mean, I'm a little disappointed in how everything turned out...not the fact that we're not together anymore, just the fact that we can't even talk anymore because we can't stand being around eachother for more than, at the most, fifteen seconds.
Mm-hmm..sooo...I got into a fight with my boyfriend last night. =*( It was so freakin silly..I had just finished watching a movie that he got me for Valentine's Day...Untamed Heart...and I was in like, a great mood..and I don't know. We started gettin like touchy over nothing..no, it wasn't over nothing, but whatever. That's not the point. The point is, we got into like a really big fight outta nowhere, and I ended up going to sleep realllly mad at him, and saying stuff to him that I didn't mean..but as sad and as pathetic as this sounds, I'm sure he's used to it by now, because whenever we fight, I have this terrible habbit of saying things that I know are gonna hurt him...not even because I mean them, but just because I know it's gonna piss him off, and as sick as it is, I kinda want that sometimes, you know? I just wanna make sure that I have the power to get under his skin the same way he has the power to get under mine. But I don't know..we made up. This morning, actually. He was the better person this time, and he called me and left me a voicemail that I checked around like 7 am. Yeah..I love him, though. And as pathetic as it is, I kinda get some sick enjoyment out of these fights that we have. I mean, not because I like fighting with him..but just because I know that we both care enough to fight, you know? Make sense?
I guess that's it for all. Boring stuff, right? My life isn't too exciting, sorry to disappoint you. Maybe it'll get a bit better as the week goes on. Oh..I get to see my boyfriend this weekend. Yay! |
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| I'm backkkk... |
[Feb. 21st, 2004|09:58 pm]
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Yay! Look...I remembered that I still had you. =o) Haha..sorry I've been away for so long. I honestly forgot all about this website until a few days ago, and I spent some time tryin to pretty it up and all before I started writing again. I'm such a loser, I know. =o) But yeah..so, what's new in my life..honestly...everything. =o) I've actually kept my grades up this year, with the exception of Italian and Gym..but if you know me, you can understand that completely. I've kinda drifted away from most of my old girlfriends..the ones I used to spend every waking moment with. I dono, after a while, drinking every night kinda got boring, along with the running from the cops and all the other bullshit that went along with it. Uhm..what else...I finished my lifeguarding and CPR class like two months ago, so I'm not a certified lifeguard...yay! lol. =o) Yeahhh...Nancy Esposito is fucking amazing. I love her. She's my bestest friend ever...and I love her. And you know what else? That fuck that killed that little Carlie Brucia girl...he should fucking die. I hate people like that. How fucking pathetic is he to kill an eleven year old girl, AFTER people saw his ugly ass face on the television. Fucking morons should be shot.
Oh, yeah..and on a lighter, happier note...I'm in love with my boyfriend..Mr. Moises Renta...lol. He's my lil angel. We've been together since September 7, 2003...and I love him. He's, probably, the best addition to my life in a really long time, although I can't really classify him as an addition because I've known him for a really long time. Like, six or so years. Yeah, but, uhm..he's definitely the coolest person in the entire world. =o) Wanna see a picture? I know you do..here ya go.
My boyfriend is the one of the left...the guy on the right is Will, whos like..the funniest person in the whole world. But yeah...that's all for now. Ciao =o) |
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[Nov. 15th, 2003|09:31 am]
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Look at that..I'm back, again. =o) I dono, I guess I got bored this morning and had nothing better to do..haha. Yeah, so..sorry I've been gone for so long..I've been so busy with school and work..it's kinda insane. I just got back from Florida a few days ago..without a tan, let me add. Wonderful, right? =o)
So, as far as my life goes...things are kinda looking up. I'm with the most amazing person in this entire world..=o) His name is Moe..and he's so perfect, I can't begin to tell you. It's kinda weird..I've had like a "thing" for him so so long..and now that I'm with him, and it's just like..oh, I don't know. I can't explain it. It's just like...everything that I hoped it would be life for us..it is..only, better, you know? I'm so happy with him, it's almost scary. And, I mean, you guys know how fast I get sick of people..but it's not like that with him. There are so many things about him that just amaze me, and it's like..wow, you know? =o) Yeah, but uhm...I guess that's enough about him, right?
But uhm..I gotta go get ready for work. Hopefully, I'll get a chance to write again before I go out tonight. Bye, guys. |
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| I'm back!! |
[Aug. 12th, 2003|10:05 pm]
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Haven't written in forever, once again. Sorry about that....things just got too crazy too fast in my life. Lot's changed, though..as it should be expected, for anyone who knows me. Mike and I broke up..but we still talk..more often lately. The summer has been flying by way too quickly..so much bullshit, though. I guess everyone is Elmont is bored, so they decide to fight each other. Pretty good idea, rite? =/ lol. Yeah, but uhm..as of right now, I'm sick. I have pink eye and a sore throat..fun stuff, I know. But yeah, I'll update again with more detail tomorrow. Nighty night =* |
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[May. 15th, 2003|02:34 pm]
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I've been too busy..and too tired..to update. Expect a really long entry possibly Saturday, or Sunday.
Monday was great =o) |
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[May. 13th, 2003|02:49 pm]
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My life is perfect =o) |
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[May. 10th, 2003|11:16 pm]
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| | 3 Doors Down - When I'm Gone | ] |
Ok, well..my life did lighten up a bit. =o) My cousin, Alan, came up here from Florida...so, he was here for the past couple of days. But, he came here with a friend..Mike. =o) He's so great. We kinda have a song....lol it's perfect! 3 Doors Down - When I'm Gone. Yeah. He's gonna forget me when he leaves, though. =o) I dono, he says he's gonna keep it touch. We'll see. <3<3 I'm glad I met him..he's pretty cool. He's gonna take me out when I go to Florida and show me a good time lol. Alan got madddd tho...ughhh
Ryan's hott!! =o) I was on the phone with him for a while last night. Actually, this morning. Like 1am. He's great. We're "meant to be." =o) Lovely!
Jessica...Happy Birthday, darling!! Sweet sixteen, finally. I love you!!! MWAH<3 |
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