You Have Just Begun

One Year Later

Mon, 07 Jan 2008 22:15:45 GMT

lets see..
I've gotten a license,
and a car,
went on my 1st trip to the dominican republic,
moved out of the house
into a loft appatment with my sister,
finished CDA classes at pretend college,
applied to real college,
got into real college,
left my job that i stayed at for a year,
went on my 4th trip to mexico,

Lets see,
I survived roomates and hurley food,
I have made new great friends and stayed close to old ones.
I passed all of my classes with flying colors and..
I have a solid 4 year plan.

This is good.

There will be peace in the world

Sun, 28 Jan 2007 04:39:22 GMT

Today was the day I needed.
It's been a solidly bad week,
not just bad but overwhelmingly horrible.
so i needed this weekend to give me back
some pizzaz, some life, some of the happy.
and ya know what, I got all my basses covered.
Got a new phone with new service and stuff.
now i can talk to kim fo free.
i went on a college tour that made me
feel like its finally real and at the same
time i am remembering not to get my hopes and
expectations up so high, cause i know that no
matter what its not over.
i got to chill with my sister who got her first
car which means i get a car- the one shes been
driving.. it wont be mine but it will be.
AND my Sarah came home last night and I got to
spend time with her and Mel like I wanted to.
movie, food, and lots of overdue chat time.
I love my life. and I have everything.

happy happy taco taco.

Class Work

Fri, 26 Jan 2007 03:31:02 GMT

They told me to write a parabole..
This is for my Child Development Associate.

This is what they gave me to work with:
One Dog barks because it sees something;
A hundred dogs bark because they heard the first dog bark.

So naturally I decided to make the story about mass suicide.
Wait till you find out what the moral is.. its a good one.

One Dog Barks
by: Lauryn

One dog barked because he saw a light
he walked into the light because it was warm and bright
A hundred dogs heard the bark and didnt know where it came from
They barked as well, then saw the light, and followed the first dog.

The next day one hundred and one dogs were found dead on the train tracks.

Just because the first dog barked
not knowing what it saw,
the other dogs barked as well
and followed blindly behind.

so what do you think?

Tue, 31 Oct 2006 23:38:01 GMT

What I am afraid of...

Citizens walk between a burned bus and Mexican federal officers in downtown Oaxaca City, Tuesday, Oct. 31, 2006, in Mexico. Several thousand angry protesters marched to the center of Oaxaca's capital on Monday, vowing to retake the city from federal police sent to restore order after months of protests demanding the ouster of the southern state's governor.

Commuters fought to maneuver around protest barricades of trash, cars and trees, and the Zocalo was guarded on all sides by police with water cannons.

Just a few blocks away, demonstrators hijacked a small bulldozer, doused it with gasoline and set it ablaze, then hurled rocks at police officers who left the Zocalo to extinguish the fire. Others climbed onto roofs to monitor police movements, or helped maintain a blockade of the main highway to Mexico City. The actions came a day after the protesters transferred their operations center to a plaza away from the Zocalo.

On Monday, the U.S. Embassy released a statement advising Americans against all travel to one of Mexico's top tourist destinations "due to this increase in violence."

I am so worried that I wont be able to see those kids or my church family, my friends and all the people I love. I'm afraid. Afraid that something will go terribly wrong and someone I care about will get hurt and I will never see them again. I have spent so much time in that very city that now is completely out of order, I am SO ANGRY that those children are not able to go to school becasue the teachers are striking. That they have to go through their day hearing gunshots. Some of these kids live at casa hogar because their parents love them and want what is best for them, for them to have things they cant provide them. And this is what happens.

OH GOD, please take care of them for me. I love them ::tears::

Wed, 27 Sep 2006 02:43:14 GMT

tuesday: be so tired that the whole day is a blur from work to class
to being disgusted that I own two bikinis in brown and turquoise that
"Boots" on that dumb reality Flavor of Love wears (in pink)in the latest
episode. I've sunken to a new low on that one.

Tue, 26 Sep 2006 01:32:51 GMT

Monday:
8:30am feed cats
9:15am be at work
5:30pm out of work
5:40pm dinner
6:00pm leave for school
6:30pm class
9:00pm home early
Heros channel 5
Laundry
check email

If you are a laker..

Mon, 25 Sep 2006 03:02:22 GMT

http://community.livejournal.com/birls/4340681.html?view=56366281#t56366281

I was going through some birls posts and found this.
you have to look at all the pictures, you'll know
what I mean at the end.

Kim this means you.

ha
I love it!!!

Sat, 16 Sep 2006 02:18:24 GMT

SO.. now Not only do I have a great full time job, I am also taking night classes three nights a week. SCHOOL! I Like school. It makes me feel like I'm moving forward.. like I'm doing something important for my future.. I dont do a lot of things thinking about my future. I pay a lot of attention to what is going on now and next week. and at that.. mostly the fun things.

I have been feeling a bit strange even now that I have all this time being taken up by things that are important. My friends being so far away after a summer of fun, not working or having anything really that I had to do.. or rather wanted to get out of. On top of that, I have just gotten to a place where I'm not thinking about being with someone that I couldnt possibly have had a romantic relationship with. I'm single and I cant even tell if I'm lonely because I am so busy.

or something.

Tue, 22 Aug 2006 03:32:34 GMT

who the fuck do you think you are?

Sun, 20 Aug 2006 18:03:57 GMT

GRYFFINDOR:

[] You've never done drugs
[x] You have a lot of friends
[X] You get along with everyone
[] You haven't made fun of someone for at least two months
[x] You love soccer
[] You love baseball/softball
[x] You're into writing and art
[] Favorite music genre is pop rock
[x] You believe in "innocent until proven guilty" theory
[] Abortion is wrong
[x] The war against Iraq is unneeded
[] One of your favorite colors is green
[x] Good grades at school
[x] One of the worst things you can do is lie
[x] You plan on going to college

TOTAL: 9

HUFFLEPUFF:

[X] You're content with mostly everything in your life right now.
[x] You laugh a lot.
[] You like to follow trends.
[X] Politics suck.
[x] You love to swim
[ ] Water polo is awesome
[] Pink is one of your favorite colors
[] Black is morbid & depressing
[X] Michael Jackson is talented as a musical artist.
[x] You're an optimist.
[] You're completely straight-edge.
[x] You're very emotional
[] Rap, R&B, & hip-hop is your favorite music genre
[] You don't believe in going steady at a young age
[x] You've made fun of at least one person this week.

TOTAL:8

RAVENCLAW:

[] You're depressed to a certain extent.
[x] You love to read.
[x] You appreciate theatre & arts.
[] Sports suck.
[] You're shy.
[] Bush is trying his hardest
[x] You've been in love before.
[x] You're smart
[x] Hate is completely unneeded.
[] Loyalty is the MOST important thing in a relationship
[] Emo/screamo/indie is your favorite genre of music.
[x] Every once in awhile you have little anger outbursts.
[x] Lying is sometimes okay
[] Red is one of your favorite colors.
[] Serious is better than funny.

TOTAL: 7

SLYTHERIN:

[x] There's at least one person you hate.
[] Basketball is a good sport.
[x] Football is better then most
[x] Black is a cool color.
[x] You've lied about something serious.
[x] You're a very deep person.
[] You have considered suicide.
[x] Very loyal.
[] Favorite music genre is metal.
[] They make school seem more important than it is.
[] You're scared to grow up.
[] You've done drugs in the past month.
[] Anger is one of your primary feelings.
[X] You have trust issues.
[] Guilty until proven innocent.

TOTAL: 7

I guess I should expect that.. but a couple of months ago I totally would have been SLYTHERIN

Sun, 13 Aug 2006 22:14:21 GMT

LAURYN's Past Lives

117 BC: A fisher

152 AD: A cartographer

1912 AD: A pirate

'What were you in your past lives?' at QuizGalaxy.com

sweet, i LOVE maps

well HELLO

Sat, 12 Aug 2006 22:36:43 GMT

So, I'm home from camp. It was a little crazy (the kim and lauryn show continues)
last week Kate and Kyle were guest staring. I think I might have damaged some vital
organs on the larger than life slip and slide.. but I'll heal. It was one of those great weeks that you never want to end but then, at the same time.. I couldnt wait to get out of there. I LOVE camp.. but it got a little outta control. Kim and I had to detox today.
bleh, i feel like throwing up a little. or something.

I GOT A JOB!!!

Thu, 27 Jul 2006 16:47:26 GMT

I was hired today for full time, with benefits, no nights no weekends no holidays,
and I'm REALLY really really excited, I start monday and theyre letting me take a week
to go to camp on the 5th. Cannot get better than this, now I gotta go to school.

Fri, 21 Jul 2006 23:30:57 GMT

I just ate more sushi than i have eaten in the past year and a half all put together..

and it was so good.

:)

Fri, 21 Jul 2006 20:05:22 GMT

it means
you saw me when noone saw me
and
you loved me when noone loved me

Fri, 21 Jul 2006 02:46:41 GMT

Took a train out to New York City on tuesday night
with shan and raymie and pears. we then took a taxi
to 6th street not to be confused with 6th ave.
To the Side Walk Cafe where I got to see Jenny Owen Youngs
and the lovely Carabeth. they were wonderful.
it was all very wonderful, I even wrote some on the train
ride home in between falling asleep.
My sister is helping me fix my layout the way i want it.
That only half worked so far.
It's suposed to say

Tu me viste a mi cuando nadie me vio
Tu me amaste a mi cuando nadie me amo

Its from a song I learned in church my third
trip to oaxaca.
I miss it so much I could just scream some days.

Tue, 18 Jul 2006 03:59:56 GMT

Went in the pool tonight with Shan and Raymie
then I decided to sit down to a cup of hot cocoa.
came home from camping all weekend for my mothers
birthday, I swam across a lake out by Nikerson park
the fish were biting at my anklets.
I have a job interview tomorrow, nothing huge but
something at the hospital.. whatev.
night

Wed, 05 Jul 2006 16:43:20 GMT

this is a problem.
I KNOW BETTER THAN THIS.
I know better than to let
what other people do or
dont do change how I live.
even just a little bit.
Theres just so much and so little going on all at once that I cant stop spinning. All I see is the rush of all these worlds flowing together in one big MESS. It's all one big mess and I cant let it be all mine to clean up. I wont clean it all up this time. I'm too tired of everyone saying hurry up and wait. I'm tired of being upset for other people and because of other people. Thank God it hasnt made me sick. With all the strength I have left I need to convince myself to jump out of the mess I'm in (because it isnt a mess that I have created) and letting only my issues be mine and noone elses. Otherwise I will always be stuck here.
upset and ANGRY.

I'm angry.

and I need you to let me be angry.

The Craft on TBS

Wed, 28 Jun 2006 14:59:04 GMT

Monday was Boston day.
The Kim and Lauryn Show.
We got an early start and didnt get lost once
driving in the city. I'm so proud of Kim.
That was the first time, and we go to Boston often.
We made good time on the freedom trail stops.
New England clam chowder for lunch and lots more to do.
I got my mothers birthday present, and Kim and I
got to visit our friend Casey who just got her really rare
brain tumor removed. Shes doing really well.
Then we hit all of Newbury street, and took the T to the
Aquarium. The day could not have been more perfect.
The breeze and the ocean.. aside from unintentionally
walking through chinatown, we did good.
Then we found a great Pub for dinner with
almond encrusted salmon and VERY key lime pie.

Tue, 27 Jun 2006 16:12:27 GMT

Hello

My name is

Lauryn

I am

active, adult, aggressive, angel, animal lover, artsy, beautiful, bent, bitch, blessed, bottom, brunette, butch-liking, chapstick lesbian, chick, chubby, counselor, creative, cuddly, curious, cute, different, dork, dreamer, dyke, eclectic, female, feminist, flirt, free, friend, friendly, full of love, gay, gay-friendly, gender defender, gender expressive, gender pirate, girl, girly, happy, heterosexual, hippychick, homo, homoflexible, homosexual, huggy, human, indecisive, individual, interested, LGBT, lady, lesbian, lovely, lover, loving, macho, mama's girl, miss, misunderstood, odd, open, out, outgoing, outspoken, pansexual, passionate, princess, queer, queer-friendly, quirky, romantic, sensitive, sister, spiritual, survivor, sweet, the gay, tomboy, tomboy femme, top, trannychaser, trans-friendly, trans-loving, trustworthy, undeclared, undefined, understanding, unique, versatile, woman, working class, YES!

Who are you?

is all that true?

Sat, 24 Jun 2006 18:03:02 GMT

I went to the gym for over an hour yesturday.. but
I also ate some chocolate ice cream yesturday..
Last night it was raining, not a lot just a little.
but I went outside anyways, and I watched the fireflies.
Then I had strawberries and raspberries with my sister
and we watched a glam rock movie about the 60's/70's
" Velvet Goldmine"
This morning my mother woke me up which never happens.
and she had made me breakfast in bed. Pancakes, juice,
the works. She is so sweet.
I'm wearing red today.
And I'm going to get new glasses.
I hope... I tend to get picky with eyewear.

Thu, 22 Jun 2006 01:37:27 GMT

I just bought a ton of underwear
and that makes me really happy.
buy three get three free :)
pink and blue and black

I had to do something to make me smile today.

Wed, 21 Jun 2006 03:42:50 GMT

I was really bored and had no other place to turn.
So I decided to fish through ikissgirls and found
a rather interesting thing.
I love jewlery.. i make it, i used to sell it.
It makes me happy.
so here, check it out.

Also...

Sat, 17 Jun 2006 05:36:38 GMT

Tonight was one of those looking for something to do after a birthday party kinda nights, and driving down the creepiest road in the city was first, and after being so tense.. getting on the highway to go home.. not 20 minutes in and there was dead traffic.
three ambulances
four fire trucks
two flat beds
a shitload of cops
and peramedics
After about a half hour when everyone had turned their cars off we got out and made friends with the chick on her motor cycle behind us. We had communion with an action figure of Jesus. (we broke a frosted mini wheat in half and finished the last of the diet coke..) it was a little gross, but still a good plan.
And now.. more Queer as Folk.
onto season 4

Love

Sat, 17 Jun 2006 05:17:59 GMT

It has come to my attention that I have been a lazy shit for a while now.
But ya know what, with a lil help from my friend, with whom I have a best friend
marble, best friend fake pearls, and a best friend McDonalds build a bear...
I have become a normal motivated and somewhat stylish person.
well that last one still needs some work, but I have every hope that one day
i wont look like a bum. One day I'll write a book with all my secrets in it.
but that wont be until one, if not both of my parents have.. respectivly.. moved on.

I'm so happy I could just throw a party.
more on that later.

kthanks
Lauryn