The Life Of Laura

I have an education presentation tomorrow. Our tutor suggested that we make it interesting and different so -- stupidly -- our group has decided to do a role play. I can't remember the last time I acted but I'd guess that it was at least 7 years ago. I can't wait til this time tomorrow night.

I'm having so much trouble writing this essay. I swear, normally I can write an essay in a day but this is the most trouble I've ever had. I wish I could just skip to this time tomorrow night when it's all over.

On the upside, this is the last time I'll have to complain about this essay on here. Hopefully.

Ugh, I still haven't started my P-C essay.

I have to write a 2000 word essay on post-colonial literature. 2000 words wouldn't be too bad if I understood anything about post-colonial lit. But I don't. It's the end of the semester and I feel like I've been asleep in English for the lest 3 months.

I cannot wait until the 19th of November. I will be halfway through two degrees (why can't that equal one complete degree?). I've already started my to-do list. It's already massive.

I'm thinking of starting a project like '101 things in 1001 days'. Except I think I might do 50 things from Dec 2008-Dec 2009. I think it will be good to have something else to focus on other than uni etc. Something fun and different. And something which will hopefully put me outside of my very cosy comfort zone.

It's warm today and I'm so sleepy. I just need a nap.

Today at uni, we discussed motivation + education, including motivation styles. I 'learnt' what I've always known: that I know I'm capable and only try when I really want to. This is a habit that I need to get out of.

Last night, I got dragged to a Music and Movement course for the early learning years by my mum a lady that she works with. We danced, played instruments and sang for two straight hours. The lecturer was so passionate about her work. It was very inspiring. Of late, everything I've been doing has affirmed or re-affirmed my teaching plans. The thought of being a teacher is so exciting, scary and confusing which makes me know that I am doing the right thing.

I'm having one of those moments where everyone I look at makes me want to be someone else. Everything I look at makes me want to be anywhere but here.

As part of a new resolution, I'm going to be posting more often.

I've started to make small changes to my life and I'm feeling really good about it. I'm eating better and exercising more. I've decided to try to add or do one extra thing each week in order to keep moving forward. Next week I'm going to start doing tai chi and study (a bit) harder.

I know that is my chance to get everything that I've wanted for so long.

I've started a blog. Add it to your google reader. Start a google reader  account if you don't already have one. http://wedrewourownconstellations.blogspot.com/. It will hopefully be better than this LJ has ever been.

I haven't updated in 6 weeks -- that time goes so fast but it doesn't seem like much has happened. I guess it has though. I've been busy at uni (mostly because my terrible procrastination habit makes me leave everything to the last minute), working, doing my school placement, spending time with the family and we've started the rehersals for the school musical. 

We are doing this musical which should be fun. The music list is pretty decent. 

Sad to say that I haven't been to a single meditation class yet, which I find annoying and slightly stressful in itself. I will try my best to go this Thursday though. I need to do something that surprises myself and actually going would certainly surprise me.

Also, my mum bought a block of land and we should be moving there at the end of the year which is pretty exciting. 

I've been seriously thinking about starting a 'real' blog, inspired by this young lady. But then I stop to think about how (not) often I update my LJ... and how I'm a terrible writer when writing something 'candid' and don't pretend to be anything else. See how crap that sentence was? Exactly.

i've got so much homework to do. at the start of every semester i say that i'm not going to get behind and that i won't procrastinate but i do it every time. 

happily, i'm going to my first meditation class tomorrow night. i'm putting all my faith in this class -- i really hope it helps me. i don't know how else to help myself... i really have no idea.

oh and to top it off, i have another bald spot. i think i visit the busiest dermatologist in adelaide because my appointment is on the 27th of may. 

one last thing -- it's my birthday on monday. i think this is the least i've ever been excited about a birthday :)

When I updated, I forgot to say that Jack Johnson played my favourite song 'Banana Pancakes'! I wasn't expecting it and I was so happy.

Today I caught up with Veronica, my Swedish exchange student friend. She said she's hoping to stay in Australia longer, maybe another year or more which would be good. She's going travelling and working in other places but it would be fun if I could meet up with her somewhere on the road. I had the best soy hot chocolate I've ever had. Soy because of my lactose intolerance and all.

I have an opportunity to buy a good camera. However, I have so many bills at the moment that I don't know if I can afford it. I don't know what I'd do without my jobs now because I have so much to buy.

It's my birthday soon. Like 12 days. I'm turning 20. I think this is the least excited I've ever been about a birthday. I don't even think I'll do anything for it. How sad. 

The new book came out from my favourite author, Jodi Picoult. She's going on a tour here in May. I really want to go and see her but I can't work out if that's too sad to actually do.

Tomorrow is the first day of my new motivation! I know I've said it before but I really mean it -- I need to make a change.

I went to see Jack Johnson on Thursday night. Oh my, he's amazing. It was held outdoors and it was freezing but I didn't even notice while he was singing. His voice was exactly the same as it is on his albums. Ugh, I'd marry him if I could!

Uni's going well. I've started my school teaching experience, only been 1 day so far but I'm going back tomorrow. It's enlightening, to say the least.

I'm loving this song, although channel 7 will do it to death before Sally actually leaves Summer Bay.

I have another job. I've gone from never having a job in my life to having two. It's good though, they're both cash in hand and they both pay pretty well. So I am now a gourmet pie maker like Sweeney Todd and that creepy woman... No, we make normal pies like lentil, spinach and pumpkin, and kangaroo. Seriously, kangaroo pies? They smell and look like cat food.

This afternoon, I'm gont to visit the school where I'll be a student teacher and I am beyond nervous. I spoke to my teacher/mentor on the phone and she was really nice. I also know one of the other girls who will be a student teacher there -- I've known her since I was 8 or 9! We used to play tennis together, our brothers are friends and her mum is working with my mum at the moment. 

On another note, Jack Johnson is coming here in less that 2 months and I can't wait to see him! And yesterday I booked tickets for mum and I to go to Michael Buble in June for her birthday (even though her birthday is in 3 weeks). Can't wait!

 This is my newest blog find. Gorgeous and a bit scary.