___________when we laugh indoors

Tue, 13 May 2008 04:33:00 GMT

i hope we dont actually end up watching the movie tomorrow night
.........................

Sun, 11 May 2008 15:08:57 GMT

you look good and you smell nice and you make me laugh, a lot.
last night was perfect so make your move!

Thu, 08 May 2008 23:43:53 GMT

he MIGHT not tell me he lieks me, even tho i know he does
i want this weekend to be FUN even though i have disgusting amounts of homework (what else is new, right?)

Mon, 05 May 2008 20:57:41 GMT

childresnwear is over! :)
fakest crit ever.
this weekend should be fun bc sarah and kate are coming home, and saturday is chelseys surprise partyyyy and im gonna try and see the boyyy saturday as well.

this weekend should also be hell bc i have an insane amount of hw. but what else is new? im getting better at doing my work AND going out.

yeeeaahhh!

Sat, 03 May 2008 02:23:35 GMT

childrenswear is stupid
all those patternmaking adn sewing classes didnt do shit for me bc i still dont know how to do thisssss ahhhh

sadlkjsdalkjakds homeworky weekends are so lame

i want a milkshaek!

Wed, 30 Apr 2008 04:52:39 GMT

hm
after thinkign about this a bit more
i realize hes alot out ofmy class
hes up a class
liek
hes not just cute, cute to me

he is very very goodlooking

eveyr one of my friends that has met him has said he is "super attractive"

ohhhh man

Tue, 29 Apr 2008 04:59:48 GMT

oh gosssh i feel liek im 15 again bc i have a big crush on this cute boy
i think we're just friends though
????

oh i want to hang out at his house more!
hm todya with him was lovely.

Sat, 19 Apr 2008 17:58:46 GMT

im tired
im tired

i want to be outside enjoying the weater
but i have lots of dumb hw
school is a life ruiner

.........................

this weatehr makes me miss things and people

lets sit on an orange bench in between classes

Tue, 15 Apr 2008 23:38:19 GMT

i am going to penn state this weekend and it'll be the first time i'm there since i dropped out....weeeeeeird. it should be fun though?

Tue, 15 Apr 2008 03:54:59 GMT

http://www.eastfallsglass.com/classes.php#intro1

Wed, 02 Apr 2008 02:46:53 GMT

i am very much enjoying being a redhead, even if it is fading fast and i'll have to redye soon.
:)

hhhmmm lovvverly.

Tue, 01 Apr 2008 01:46:26 GMT

the she & him cd is sosososososso good.
its so nice
i was so excited about this and im glad i wasnt let down
zooeys voice is so nice and all the songs are super mellow
my favorite songs are "why do you let me stay here" and the one where m.ward sings more than the other songs, it's called "you really got a hold on me"
i dont know how this came out without me knowing! but im glad it's out and i have it now

school today was meh. 1st day commuting wasnt fun, im not going to liek that. but w/e.
i eat better at home so thats good (look on the bright side)
i cant say much about my classes bc 1 was art history and that seemed ok, the teacher seemed pretty chill, but my teacher for fashion design 2 never showed up. shes kinda out of it all the time but somone in her familyi s also sick so we're not sure if she was just being forgetful as usaual or if somehting happend...no one could reach her

i figured out my workstudy schedule for this term toay. it will be nice to do that again. i <3 my job so somuch.

goodnightish, long day tomorrow!

Sun, 30 Mar 2008 03:41:56 GMT

ive filled 10+ pages in my notebook in the past 2 days.
i read 2 books. hoping to finish 3 by tomorrow.

i feel good about that.

new semester on monday.
new classes new people new things.

i feel good about that.

living with maria next year.
in a pretty cute apartment.

i feel good about that.

Fri, 28 Mar 2008 02:14:54 GMT

every once in awhile i get the incredible urge to rip out the bitter pages from my notebook and fold them all up along with the other random things i've collected explaining how i feel and put them in a box or a huge envelope and send them to you because i'm so disappointed lately but then i realize it wouldn't make one bit of a difference because you'll still be you and not the old you no matter what. i guess i just miss when things weren't always about drinking or smoking or parties. when it was still fun to just sit around and do nothing. every once in awhilei get a tiny sense of that person but not usually. i hope you are having fun "living your life" and that it is everything you hoped it would be, only not really, because the whole thing seems meaningless and stupid and i would hope that that is not what you want, in the end.

i can't wait for spring break to be over. the only thing getting me by these days is having a schedule and having specific things that i have to do and the lack of schedule is making me anxious and aimless. i went to the used bookstore on 40th st today and bought 3 books so hopefully they will keep me occupied the rest of break, along with organizing my room (again). i hope i can focus enough to read them, i've been so restless lately. plus, organizing my room in my parents house is full of setbacks. i keep finding old stuff which in turn makes me sad because i'm an emotional idiot lately. bllalahahhhh.

alright. time to (try) to organize.

<3
laura

Wed, 26 Mar 2008 20:50:13 GMT

georgia was funnn. athens is a really cool place. it kinda reminds me of penn state in that it's a big college town only it had a little more diversity (all the people are fraternity/sorority kids). it's kinda hippiesh and laidback, i loved it. i wish i had a camera bc there were so many awesome things i wanted to take pictures of.

now im back in philly and its kinda depressing. i have to reorganize all my stuff/figure out where to put it and it's a little overwhelming bc im not too happy about being here. blahhhhh oh well.

i dyed my hair last night and it was supposed to be a brightish red but instead its like...barely any different from my regular color. it's still nice though, i like it. i might buy another box tonight and try again :)

hey guys! recommend me some books and music. i'm in need of some new things and i have time to buy/download stuff because it's break!

Sat, 15 Mar 2008 02:38:24 GMT

i really really really miss having my friends around.
not just people i hang out with sometimes.

i really miss having people around that i can hang out with even when there's NOT anything going on. i miss it so much.

i miss having a places to escape to when i just can't be by myself. i miss having someone that can just easily come over if i'm bored or lonely, i miss hanging out and not just going out. i want to have people around that wouldnt mind just sitting around with me. back in hgih school i knew i could always see sarah if i wanted. last year at drexel i knew i could see sean if i wanted. half the reason i was so depressed at penn state is because i felt like i DIDNT have something like that. and now even though i'm back in philly, i feel like that again.

i'm just so bored with my stupid life but there's ntohing reall i can do about it rihgt now.

whatever. probably just in a bad mood and overreacting because of finals next week and lack of sleep.

reading old entries

Tue, 11 Mar 2008 07:33:04 GMT

i cant sleep so i was reading some of my old entries and i found this survey so heeeere

1. How tall are you barefoot?: 5'3 i think

2. Have you ever smoked pot?: have you?

3. Do you own a gun?: no

5. Do you get nervous before "meeting the parents"?: no i just dont liek it

6. What do hot dogs make you think of?: ew

7. What's your favorite Christmas song?: that mariah carey one

8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?: coffee or water or both

9. Can you do push ups?: idk im not too strong

10. Do you consider Pluto a planet?: its NOT i beleive it is now a PLANETOID which is way cool bc that word is badass

11. What's your favourite piece of jewellery?: leather cuff from sarah. pendant from sean. they're tied.

12. Do you like painkillers?: idk never used them except with wison teeth

13. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex?: hmmm i should work on that

14. Do you own a knife?: nope. not even kitchen ones right now actually

15. Do you have A.D.D?: no

17. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment: i wish i could fall sleep. i have to get up in 4 hours. i'm tired!

18. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink?: coffee, water, water

19. Name 3 people you would like to kiss: i wont tell. yet?

20. What time did you wake up today?: 10ish

21. Who are you most looking forward to seeing next?: !!!!!!!!!! :)

22. Current worry?: oh man

23. Current hate?: that i lost my water bottle

24. Favorite place to be?: outside when its sunny, or in a bed with my flannell sheets

25. Least favorite place to be?: nesbitt hall. jk i kinda like it theres always someone arount that i know. ummm...maybe the dentist?

26. Where would you like to go?: everywhere

27. Do you own slippers?: yeah ym brother bought them for me for chirstmas two christmases ago

28. What shirt are you wearing?: a beater

29. Do you burn or tan?: tna

30. Favorite color(s)?: darker teal and eggplant

31. Would you be a pirate?: no but my boss's uncle is one of the guys that invented "talk likea pirate day"!

32. Favorite alcoholic drink you've had?: skippy. lets make some

33. What is the last song you listened to?: a beatles song i think.

34. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child?: idk

35. What's in your pockets right now?: i dont haev pockets im wearing italian comic pj pants

36. What's your natural hair colour?: brown

37. Best bed sheets you had as a child?: beauty and the beast!

38. Worst injury you've ever had?: nothing i dotn ever get injured.

39. What's your favourite TV show?: scrubs, gilmore girls, ace of cakes, good eats!

40. How many TVs do you have in your house?: idk. all my roommates have one except me so i guess thats 4. pls the one in the living room...6

41. Who is your loudest friend?: k fitz. i <3 it

42. Who is your most quiet friend?: i dont know, no one is particaly quiet we are all jsut normal

43. Does someone have a crush on you?: idk i think maybe. not sure though? i hope so...boys are weiiird.

44. Do you wish on shooting stars?: i dont think ive ever seen one

45. What is your favourite book?: so many

46. What is your favourite sweet?: not too much

47. What song do you want played at your wedding?: white wedding

48. What song do you want played at your funeral?: idont know

49. What were you doing at 12:00 AM last night?: ummm....reading probbaly

50. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?: ouch. headache. skipping art history

procrastination is beautiful

Tue, 11 Mar 2008 03:11:12 GMT

i think the fan on my computer needs to get cleaned. it's been whirring really really loudly and my computer has been really hot lately (and SLOW). blah. i'm currently backing up some stuff on my external hard drive in case my computer dies. i don't think it will but just in case.

i have to write a paper and since i haven't done that in 2ish years it is hard to get started. i wrote the introduction and a paragraph so far haha. i wanted to finish a page before bed tonight but i doubt that will happen. it's not due til friday though and only needs to be 3 pages, so i'm not worried.

i left my water bottle AND my favorite gloves in the sewing lab today. i'm so sad about it. i hope they will both be there when i check tomorrow but i doubt it :( ugh.

Mon, 10 Mar 2008 04:14:08 GMT

BOYS
are weird
and confusing!

hangout 3 times in 4 days and then...
nothing?
wtf
wtf

oy witht he poodles already!

school sucks
i get to be reunited with a 720 bitch on wednedayish
yay!!

so excited for spring break

<3

"make art!"

Wed, 05 Mar 2008 04:17:45 GMT

The "Never-Been-Asked-Before" Survey

1. Do you sleep with socks on or off?
off

2. Do you flip your pillow to the cold side?
in the summer

3. Do you like to hold or be held?
w/e botha re nice

4. What do you do most when drunk?
hang out

5. Do you want a small or big wedding?
none

6. What type of guys/girls do you usually go for?
tall ones

7. Would you rather be rich and unhappy or poor and happy?
rich and happy

8. What are 3 things you want to do before you die?
design cool fashunz , sleep a lot, travel

9. Have you ever churned Butter?
no

10. Are you trusting of new people?
yeah but it always kicks me in the ass

11. If you could rate yourself as a good or bad friend on a scale from 1-10
im pretty okay i think

15. If your dream was to be a model and a big opportunity came up but you had to be nude, would you take it?
sure unless it was trashy. if it was a bigg opportunity it prob would be classy tho

16. You and your friends are going to do a senior prank. What would it be?
im too lazy for that

17. What is the most money you would spend on a pair of shoes?
not very much

18. What if you found out a loved one had cancer and had 5 days to live?
dont say that

19. If you were a crayon, what color would you be?
idk

21. Do you have more friends or more acquaintances?
acquaintances, for sure

22. If you could win a couple front row tickets to a game, any sport any team, what would it be?
i dont know something good and id sell them for a lot

23. Would you rather help someone out or be helped out?
i hate when people help me

24. If you had to choose to be a different religion than what you are now, which would you choose & why?
uh

25. If you found out you couldn't have kids, would you adopt?
no

26. Who were you with last night?
my roommate and i did hw together?

27. What woke you up this morning?
phone alarm

28. Where are you?
my house

29. How was your weekend?
it was really good actually

30. Did you kiss or hug anyone today?
hugs

31. When's the last time you cried?
idk

The PAST

32. Ever thrown up in public?
yah

33. Passed out because of alcohol?
sort of

34. What's on your mind RIGHT NOW?
sleep

The FUTURE

35. Would you take a bullet for anyone?
depends on who it is

36. Where would you like to live?
no idea

37. What kind of house would you like?
badass

38. What do you want to be when you grow up?
awesome

39 Where do you see yourself in 5 years?
i have no idea.. i don't really like to think that far in the future

IN GENERAL

46. Do you like candy necklaces?
yeah gimme

47. When is the last time you fell or ran into something?
today i think

48. You still go trick or treating?
naahh

49. What was the last thing you drank?
water

50. Who do you miss?
a lot of people

51. About how many people have you driven with?
a lot.

52. What are you doing this weekend?
seeing sarah, seeing kate o, seeing drexel friends, etc

53. What’s your favorite kind of soda?
mountain dewwwww

54. Last kiss?
idk im lame

55. Last hug?
today

56. How many times have you eaten sushi?
a few

57. What do you want to do right now?
sleep

58. Are you listening to music right now?
no i want quiet

59. Are you with someone right now?
no if i was why would i be doing this shit?

60. How long until your birthday?
awhile

61. When were you the saddest in your whole life?
idk

62. What time is it now?
shower and hw time

63. Do you think anyone will repost to this?
dont know, don't care

64. What makes you pissed off?
idk

65. Have you ever had a song written about you?
nahh

66. What song makes you cry?
beach boys

67. What songs make you happy?
lots, currently mark ronsons version cd

68. What do you like to listen to before you go to bed?
nothing

69. Do you have a job?
work study

70. What does your CD player have in it right now?
i dont have a cd player

71. What makes you happy?
see list below

72. Height?
5'3

73. Hair?
brown

74. Piercings?
ears belly button lip

75. Tattoos?
i want the bees kneees

76. What are you wearing?
pjs

77. What taste is in your mouth?
idk nothing

78. Do you have a bad habit?
sure

awesome article

Fri, 29 Feb 2008 21:08:53 GMT

i want to do this. maybe with purple or green, although i love the idea of the blue.

http://nymag.com/fashion/08/spring/44210/

2 in 1 day, i have no life

Wed, 27 Feb 2008 03:04:55 GMT

i hate that my phone doesnt ever ring, and when it does it's never anyone that i want it to be
im sick of hearing im sorry all the time, or people trying to make up for things they've done to me that are shitty.
i really really need to learn to not depend on anyone. as soon as i do, they usually back out or fuck up.
no one can be trusted, really.
when will i learn?

in other news
kate comes home this weekend, and i'm excited. too bad the very few people i CAN depend on are away all the damn time. but it will be okay bc she comes home this weekend, and we'll go to bubble house and proabbly take a spontaneous trip, and hmm.

there is also someone i really want to see this weekend, bc i miss him, but we'll see...he asked if i wanted to hang out, but....things always get messed up with us?

i really should be doing more homework. oops

Wed, 27 Feb 2008 01:20:35 GMT

i registered for my classes for next term and i'm kinda excited but definitely scared too.

i have a photography class, and screenprinting! i'm very excited for those two because i think they'll be fun. at least i hope so. i've wanted to take screenprinting for awhile now so i'm glad i could finally fit it into my schedule.

i also have drawing for industry, which i'm scared to death of because it's insanely intricate. i heard the teacher for that is pretty decent though, so that's good.

FD2 is next term, which is half swimwear and half children's wear. ick to both. ick to swimwear because we need to learn how to use the different sewing machines and i think it'll be complicated working with swimwear fabric/thread/etc. and ick to children's wear because...well...i am not a huge fan of children, or their clothes. w/e. i'll make some cutesey lame things and get by.

hmmm i also have art history 2, which sucks because it makes me have class on fridays...grrr. if it werent for art history i'd have free fridays!!

my schedule kinda sucks because of the times of everything, but i figure i can just fill in the free hours with work.

anyway, i'm excited to be through with this semester. except textile design, i dislike all my classes and not a huge fan of my teachers either. this term flew by though, i feel like i'm still getting started...only it's ending in 2-3 weeks.

i miss sarah so much, blech. i hate not having any good friends here. i wish someone had stayed in philly haha. i won't even get to see sarah til like easter or something either bc she's going on a cruise (I think) over her spring break. ugh i want my best friend around!

Mon, 25 Feb 2008 06:07:49 GMT

THE INCREDIBLE LIST OF THINGS THAT MAKE ME HAPPY
(because maybe thinking of them will make me less sad)
1. the <3 on gchat
2. garnier fructis shampoo & conditioner
3. chocolate covered pretzels
4. the part of 95 that makes the car bouncy
5. thursday nights with my family
6. fabric stores
7. coffee
8. obscene amounts of chinese food
9. picnics on my floor
10. couture fashion shows
11. my flannel sheets
12. gilmore girls
13. being wished happy valentine's day by the boy i think is cute
14. visiting various colleges to see friends
15. my "fashion bitties"
16. textile design
17. my job/my bosses
18. harry potter
19. my water bottle
20. gchatting with my dad
21. my tshirt blanket
22. arts and crafts of all types
23. my ipod
24. sleeping until whenever
25. diners
26. infinite
27. bridges
28. singing in the car
29. my sexy sewing machine
30. text messaging
31. mix cds from friends
32. my self portrait that i drew
33. bubble house
34. double sided tape
35. nintendo case
36. n64
37. trains
38. cooking with sarah
39. prisma markers
40. my leather cuff from sarah
41. "jan, you look delicious today!"
42. burts bees chapstick
43. sarah's car
44. my giant paperclip
45. the mark ronson version of "toxic"
46. actually, the entire mark ronson album
47. chelsey's imitation of vickey
48. poupeegirl
49. the scarf my aunt gave me
50. the wool i'm using for FD1
51. ketchup
52. pretzels with cream cheese
53. mario kart/a MK day with matt
54. my jeans that don't stretch out

.........tbc

Sun, 24 Feb 2008 12:58:10 GMT

i miss my best friend
i want to hibernate and not do anything but sew and sleep and drink and eat
i wish she was here, damn CT
i used up my dropout already, i want anther one
college? who needs it?

back to the start.