Current mood:

depressed

i've been either wanting to cry or actually crying for the past three days. i thought i was done crying every night but no, im doing it again

last night and today i wanted to talk to someone so bad. but sarah and mary and allison were sleeping last night and busy today. and sean was drunk last night and out today. and i hate being alone

and tonight i just want to go out and have a really fun time because im fucking sad but i know no matter where i go i wont have fun i am sick of going out with other people's friends and trying to fit in im sick of meeting new people that wont remember the next day im sick of trying to fit in with people who dont give a shit about me

mmm i pretty much suck at life and all i want to do right now is sit outside my house/in my basement with my best friends and talk and laugh and be awesome. or maybe sit in my basement with sean and have him hug me and tell me things are going to be okay and that we're awesome.

i dont know