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[24 Dec 2007|10:37pm] |
ive eben watchign gilmroe girls nonstop its ridiculosu. i hope i get season 2 from my mom tomrow.
i hate christmas this year, mmore than usual
im dreading new years eve, more than usual
the more im wiht /around other boys the more i like you, i thoguht it was suppsoe to be the opposite , its been almsot a year. it feels realy weird thah youre not goign to com over tomorrow night,, or that i wont stop by your familys house, it feels wierd that we have diffenrt plans for new years eve,it makes me feel awful and nto just weird. i stil have more fun wiht you than with most other peopel, i hate that i dont knwo some of your friends that i never heard abotu your trip(s) that i hav no idea of the thigns going on in your life that i dont know abotu wha you do on the weekends and iny our spare time who youre with where you go ..anything. i toghout id get use to it but i really havent, i think im pretty riediculous. i think im embarassed to post this but whatever.
i watched holes last ngiht and it was so awesome, i love that book so so much and the movie did not dissappoint. i think im gona watch it againt onight. it was kinda crreepy for a kids movie i thgouht, maybe im just weird and a baby haha. but anyways i lvoed it. i also broght my brother superbad for xmas and im realy hoping hell let me borrow it a lto haha. ive been wtahcing a lot of movies over break and its weird, i never watch movies.
i have a messy situation goign with someone who was a freind, then more than a friend,and now kidn of in between and not sure whast going on, and i think he hates me now, whcih is depressing to me not only becuase ive lsot him as a friend, and he was a goodone,but becuase ther are probably a lot fo other peopel im lsoing as friends because they liek him better than me .that alwyas seems to happen. ugh. i wihs he didnt hate me, and i know i probably made some mistakesalong teh way, but i really relaly believe that it wasnt me that fucked up this time. its hard alwyas comign in last and not being able to be around. i duno.
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