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[17 May 2007|10:28am] |
i'm so tired
i slept terribly last night. i couldn't fall asleep for awhile, then i kept having weird dreams, and i kept waking up. then i woke up around 7 and couldn't fall back asleep so i just got up. i have the worst headache now and i'm so tiredddd. i took some medicine for my headache earlier but it hasn't started working so i doubt it's going to. i have a math quiz soon. i should get ready for class but my head hurts. i'm ready for school to be over because i'm tired of everything. tired of: my bed, my apartment, my never-here roommate, classes, building stupid things for design, etc.
i want to go visit lizzie in pittsburgh before school lets out, but i doubt i'll be able to. i'll probably have too much homework on the weekend i can go.
it's supposed to rain all weekend. i wish it wouldn't. it was nice on the days i was in class all day and every time i went to a different one people were outside sitting on the lawn and stuff. i wish that'd been me. oh well.
i'm starting to think maybe i made the wrong decision yesterday, but i can't change it now, and i shouldn't fix it today because i need to do this.
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[17 May 2007|03:22pm] |
2 lj entries in one day, i dont care.
im in th worst mood. my headache still hasnt gone away even though i took more medicine. i'm ridiculously behind in my patternmaking class because of a mistake that my teacher made. i have so much homework this weekend that i know i won't be able to focus on. i'm starving but i have no food in my apt and i don't feel like going out to eat by myself because that's annoying and depressing especially since i've done that for the past week almost. i need someone to talk to, but let's think about this. who do i usually talk to? sarah -- in utah. sean -- basically nonexistant. and then there's other people that i used to talk to but don't anymore. and i'm sick of acting like everything is fine and sick of feeling stupid for being upset. because i've lost so many friends this year, CLOSE friends, and i'm allowed to be fucking upset about that. i'm allowed to feel lonely. i'm so mad thatyou made me feel like me being upset was trivial and stupid. out of the four people i talk to most, only one is left, and i think it's pretty damn okay that i'm upset about that.
i'm so sick of everyone. i wish sarah was back because i need someone like that around. even my drexel friends, while not annoying me, don't know me as well as she does and i just need someone that knows me really well to hang out with. i'm tired.
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