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[27 Aug 2005|01:02am] |
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elliott smith |
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i hate it here so much.
i hate my room.
i hate the campus.
i hate small talk.
i hate having to be friendly with people i have nothing in common with.
i hate not being able to turn off lights/sew/sleep whenever i want.
i hate the showers.
i hate how i can't sleep.
i hate knowing that i won't see my friends for at least a month, maybe more.
i hate being hungry but not able to eat.
i hate how i'm always sad.
i hate crying all the time.
i hate hiding that i'm crying all the time.
i miss real food, and being able to eat.
i miss my bed.
i miss my family.
i miss my friends.
i miss sitting outside my house with my friends.
i miss sean.
i miss sean so much it hurts.
i can't imagine being here for longer than 3 days.
i want to come home right now.
*edit -- i am exhausted and was about to fall asleep when one of my drunken roommates came in with 3 boys and yelled for everyone to wake up because it's too early. yeah, it's only 2:30, but three of your roommates were in bed.
i fucking HATE this.
i can't say it enough.
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