| and i swear, i swear i cant do it |
[07 Aug 2005|07:07pm] |
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i really cant
im just really...
...tired.
how can summer be almost over, i still feel like it didnt even get started yet
and everyone's making end of the summer parties and going away parties and i dont want to do it
and i swear, i swear, i will be a mess the week of august 21-27
and then i wont be a mess i'll just be miserable
but now im in trouble because im being pessimisstic and sad
...you know, cause i can control it and stuff
cause i just DECIDE how i want to feel
and i can decide those things, remember?
and apparentaly i have to "grow up"
but who says i wanted to "grow up"?
i dont remember anyone ever asking
or caring
cause i dont want to
i'd rather just be a kid still
im 17, i dont want to deal with loans
and money
and roommates
and leaving
i'd rather have punknics
and sing in cars
and hang out in basements
and swing on swings
i think im getting too old to swing on swings
i think 18 is probably the cutoff
parents dont want to see 20 year olds swinging on swings at a playground
and stealing the swings from their babies
and where did summer go>
and theres so many people i want to see
but my weeks/days are so scheduled
work. work. shore. shore. shore. shore/free. free.
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