hi
this weekend i went down the shore. it was pretty okay. i got tan that is good. i got a million big bites that is NOT good. i've counted 21. but i can't count the ones on my back and i think i missed a few on my neck. it is disgusting. i bought anti-itch stuff and it isn't working. right now i am pretty miserable, i wanted to stay at home tonight because i hate drexel right now but i forgot to bring home everything i needed to do my homework so i had to come back to school. no one is around tonight and i wish i had some company i am feeling pretty lonely. everything has been annoying me lately. i feel like i'm in the middle of everything i guess, but not fully in anything which is kind of scary and confusing. i don't know how i feel about how things are going either, i usually have a feeling about certain things and this time i don't. one minute i am really sad and thinking this is the most wrong thing ever and the next minute i remember how you've been acting like an ass who has no respect for me and i feel like it's the right thing. and i feel like i'm missing out on things but then someitmes i feel like maybe i don't want to be a part of it. i've had two weeks to think about it with no distractions and i still haven't come up with an answer. drexel has too many memories and i wish i could leave for awhile so i'll be glad when this semester is over, like how in design class i stood up to leave and saw your writing on the wall from the first trimester and went home and got sad for awhile. oh well. i was supposed to have people over on friday when i move into my apartment but none of my friends can come so i guess i'll just go somewhere else maybe or go to sleep at 10. i don't think anyone will come visit this summer which is kind of sad but i'll get over it. oh well, again. i should go do homework now, sorry for anyone who reads this which i dont think anyone does but whatever.