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[08 May 2008|07:39pm] |
he MIGHT not tell me he lieks me, even tho i know he does
i want this weekend to be FUN even though i have disgusting amounts of homework (what else is new, right?)
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[05 May 2008|04:56pm] |
childresnwear is over! :)
fakest crit ever.
this weekend should be fun bc sarah and kate are coming home, and saturday is chelseys surprise partyyyy and im gonna try and see the boyyy saturday as well.
this weekend should also be hell bc i have an insane amount of hw. but what else is new? im getting better at doing my work AND going out.
yeeeaahhh!
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[02 May 2008|10:22pm] |
childrenswear is stupid
all those patternmaking adn sewing classes didnt do shit for me bc i still dont know how to do thisssss ahhhh
sadlkjsdalkjakds homeworky weekends are so lame
i want a milkshaek!
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[30 Apr 2008|12:51am] |
hm
after thinkign about this a bit more
i realize hes alot out ofmy class
hes up a class
liek
hes not just cute, cute to me
he is very very goodlooking
eveyr one of my friends that has met him has said he is "super attractive"
ohhhh man
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[29 Apr 2008|12:58am] |
oh gosssh i feel liek im 15 again bc i have a big crush on this cute boy
i think we're just friends though
????
oh i want to hang out at his house more!
hm todya with him was lovely.
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[19 Apr 2008|01:54pm] |
im tired
im tired
i want to be outside enjoying the weater
but i have lots of dumb hw
school is a life ruiner
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this weatehr makes me miss things and people
lets sit on an orange bench in between classes
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[15 Apr 2008|07:37pm] |
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i am going to penn state this weekend and it'll be the first time i'm there since i dropped out....weeeeeeird. it should be fun though?
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[01 Apr 2008|10:46pm] |
i am very much enjoying being a redhead, even if it is fading fast and i'll have to redye soon.
:)
hhhmmm lovvverly.
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[31 Mar 2008|09:38pm] |
the she & him cd is sosososososso good.
its so nice
i was so excited about this and im glad i wasnt let down
zooeys voice is so nice and all the songs are super mellow
my favorite songs are "why do you let me stay here" and the one where m.ward sings more than the other songs, it's called "you really got a hold on me"
i dont know how this came out without me knowing! but im glad it's out and i have it now
school today was meh. 1st day commuting wasnt fun, im not going to liek that. but w/e.
i eat better at home so thats good (look on the bright side)
i cant say much about my classes bc 1 was art history and that seemed ok, the teacher seemed pretty chill, but my teacher for fashion design 2 never showed up. shes kinda out of it all the time but somone in her familyi s also sick so we're not sure if she was just being forgetful as usaual or if somehting happend...no one could reach her
i figured out my workstudy schedule for this term toay. it will be nice to do that again. i <3 my job so somuch.
goodnightish, long day tomorrow!
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[29 Mar 2008|11:35pm] |
ive filled 10+ pages in my notebook in the past 2 days.
i read 2 books. hoping to finish 3 by tomorrow.
i feel good about that.
new semester on monday.
new classes new people new things.
i feel good about that.
living with maria next year.
in a pretty cute apartment.
i feel good about that.
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[27 Mar 2008|09:51pm] |
every once in awhile i get the incredible urge to rip out the bitter pages from my notebook and fold them all up along with the other random things i've collected explaining how i feel and put them in a box or a huge envelope and send them to you because i'm so disappointed lately but then i realize it wouldn't make one bit of a difference because you'll still be you and not the old you no matter what. i guess i just miss when things weren't always about drinking or smoking or parties. when it was still fun to just sit around and do nothing. every once in awhilei get a tiny sense of that person but not usually. i hope you are having fun "living your life" and that it is everything you hoped it would be, only not really, because the whole thing seems meaningless and stupid and i would hope that that is not what you want, in the end.
i can't wait for spring break to be over. the only thing getting me by these days is having a schedule and having specific things that i have to do and the lack of schedule is making me anxious and aimless. i went to the used bookstore on 40th st today and bought 3 books so hopefully they will keep me occupied the rest of break, along with organizing my room (again). i hope i can focus enough to read them, i've been so restless lately. plus, organizing my room in my parents house is full of setbacks. i keep finding old stuff which in turn makes me sad because i'm an emotional idiot lately. bllalahahhhh.
alright. time to (try) to organize.
<3
laura
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[26 Mar 2008|04:44pm] |
georgia was funnn. athens is a really cool place. it kinda reminds me of penn state in that it's a big college town only it had a little more diversity (all the people are fraternity/sorority kids). it's kinda hippiesh and laidback, i loved it. i wish i had a camera bc there were so many awesome things i wanted to take pictures of.
now im back in philly and its kinda depressing. i have to reorganize all my stuff/figure out where to put it and it's a little overwhelming bc im not too happy about being here. blahhhhh oh well.
i dyed my hair last night and it was supposed to be a brightish red but instead its like...barely any different from my regular color. it's still nice though, i like it. i might buy another box tonight and try again :)
hey guys! recommend me some books and music. i'm in need of some new things and i have time to buy/download stuff because it's break!
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[14 Mar 2008|10:25pm] |
i really really really miss having my friends around.
not just people i hang out with sometimes.
i really miss having people around that i can hang out with even when there's NOT anything going on. i miss it so much.
i miss having a places to escape to when i just can't be by myself. i miss having someone that can just easily come over if i'm bored or lonely, i miss hanging out and not just going out. i want to have people around that wouldnt mind just sitting around with me. back in hgih school i knew i could always see sarah if i wanted. last year at drexel i knew i could see sean if i wanted. half the reason i was so depressed at penn state is because i felt like i DIDNT have something like that. and now even though i'm back in philly, i feel like that again.
i'm just so bored with my stupid life but there's ntohing reall i can do about it rihgt now.
whatever. probably just in a bad mood and overreacting because of finals next week and lack of sleep.
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[11 Mar 2008|03:24am] |
i cant sleep so i was reading some of my old entries and i found this survey so heeeere
( sleeping pillz?! )
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[10 Mar 2008|10:57pm] |
i think the fan on my computer needs to get cleaned. it's been whirring really really loudly and my computer has been really hot lately (and SLOW). blah. i'm currently backing up some stuff on my external hard drive in case my computer dies. i don't think it will but just in case.
i have to write a paper and since i haven't done that in 2ish years it is hard to get started. i wrote the introduction and a paragraph so far haha. i wanted to finish a page before bed tonight but i doubt that will happen. it's not due til friday though and only needs to be 3 pages, so i'm not worried.
i left my water bottle AND my favorite gloves in the sewing lab today. i'm so sad about it. i hope they will both be there when i check tomorrow but i doubt it :( ugh.
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[10 Mar 2008|12:05am] |
BOYS
are weird
and confusing!
hangout 3 times in 4 days and then...
nothing?
wtf
wtf
oy witht he poodles already!
school sucks
i get to be reunited with a 720 bitch on wednedayish
yay!!
so excited for spring break
<3
"make art!"
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[26 Feb 2008|09:49pm] |
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i hate that my phone doesnt ever ring, and when it does it's never anyone that i want it to be
im sick of hearing im sorry all the time, or people trying to make up for things they've done to me that are shitty.
i really really need to learn to not depend on anyone. as soon as i do, they usually back out or fuck up.
no one can be trusted, really.
when will i learn?
in other news
kate comes home this weekend, and i'm excited. too bad the very few people i CAN depend on are away all the damn time. but it will be okay bc she comes home this weekend, and we'll go to bubble house and proabbly take a spontaneous trip, and hmm.
there is also someone i really want to see this weekend, bc i miss him, but we'll see...he asked if i wanted to hang out, but....things always get messed up with us?
i really should be doing more homework. oops
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