Our heartache never dies with the hotnightcrash

new beginning.

2005-08-07T10:15:28Z

I'm tired of this lj name and i hardly ever update. I think it's time that i get a fresh start (as everyone else call it). I don't know if i'll update more there or anything, but at least i'll give i a try. I'll let the people that i care about, know my new username when i have figured out one.

And if you care, then comment and i'll think about it.

some ranting..

2005-06-28T08:54:48Z

I'm bored, and i think i got virus on the computer. I thought andie was sending me a message, since she sometimes writes to me in english, though we speak swedish both of us. But it's my bf computer, so lol, luckily, it could have been worse. Sorry hunnie. I made a test also. or well, not a test, a survey. I am so bored. I need to unpack all my stuff, make the dishes and clean since my parents are coming tomorrow to visit for the first time. I think it looks messy enough already.

Nothing special ever happens nowadays. I wanna do something exciting. Something different. But now it's only five days until i start working. Damn, i hate working. I am so fucking lazy. lol.

*TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey*
Name:	Marlene
Birthday:	april 25th, 1986
Birthplace:	Boden, sweden
Current Location:	Linköping, Sweden
Eye Color:	Hazel
Hair Color:	brown
Height:	1. 66 cm
Right Handed or Left Handed:	right
Your Heritage:	-
The Shoes You Wore Today:	i haven't wore any yet
Your Weakness:	huge phobia of vomitting
Your Perfect Pizza:	ham, and lots of cheese
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	get into media college
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	too many
Thoughts First Waking Up:	ugh..
Your Best Physical Feature:	body. lol
Your Bedtime:	around midnight
Your Most Missed Memory:	my grandfather. rip.
Pepsi or Coke:	coke
MacDonalds or Burger King:	mcdonalds, but they're both disgusting
Single or Group Dates:	single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	lipton ice tea
Chocolate or Vanilla:	chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee:	yuck
Do you Smoke:	sometimes
Do you Swear:	always
Do you Sing:	when no one hears
Do you want to go to College:	yeah
Do you want to get Married:	i think so
Do you belive in yourself:	i guess i do
Do you get Motion Sickness:	no
Do you think you are Attractive:	i have heard so, yeah
Are you a Health Freak:	never
Do you get along with your Parents:	very well
Do you like Thunderstorms:	alotr
Do you play an Instrument:	no
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	smirnoff ice. so yummy
In the past month have you Smoked:	yes
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	no
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	no
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	yes
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	no
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	no, i try to avoid it
In the past month have you been on Stage:	yes, graduation
In the past month have you been Dumped:	no, i never get dumped. rofl
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	no, but i want to
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	no
Ever been Drunk:	yep
Ever been called a Tease:	maybe
Ever been Beaten up:	no, i beat lol
Ever Shoplifted:	too many times when i was younger
How do you want to Die:	nice and easy in my sleep
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	a designer, or a journalist
What country would you most like to Visit:	Australia
*In a Boy/Girl..*
Favourite Eye Color:	doesn't matter
Favourite Hair Color:	brown or blonde
Short or Long Hair:	medium
Best Clothing Style:	skate, trash
Number of Drugs I have taken:	none
Number of CDs I own:	some, i mostly d/l. schh..
Number of Piercings:	four
Number of Tattoos:	none
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	nothing
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

summertime

2005-06-25T11:51:37Z

It's summer and hey, i am happy. Me and my bf is going to paint the bedroom today. I am waiting for him to get back home with the tools, so that we can start. While i am waiting i did this thing:

You Are Pride !
You're competitive about most things. And feel
compelled
to constantly assure yourself of your greatness.
But hey,
It's not all bad - maybe you are that good! You
generally
look presentable, and are well educated because you
wouldn't let
yourself be any other way. People are intimidated
of you though,
so try and tone it down a bit - after all nobody is
perfect.

Congratulations ... You are the 'Best Kept' of the
7 deadly sins!

?? Which Of The Seven Deadly Sins Are You ??
brought to you by Quizilla

LOL. not that bad, right?

it's been a while, i know..

2005-06-05T21:21:41Z

Yes, i'm a loser, i know. But i haven't felt like writing here. I haven't, in fact, felt like writing anything for the last couple of months. I have almost abandoned my domain also. But it feels like there are so many more important things that i want to do. I have had tons of school work a few weeks back, which wasn't fun, but i had to do it. Then i have been travelling some too, since my bf isn't living with me at the moment. Work is the issue, but soon, in a week or so, i am moving in with him.

I can't almost get it that i am soon graduating. It's only five days left, soon only four. Then it's prom in six days. I know, it's pretty odd that prom is the day after graduation, i mean, how many people will feel like shit? Practically everyone, right? Oh well, it has to work out, because i am really looking forward to it, though i am not making a huge deal of it. It's just nice to dress up and hang out with all the retards from school, for the very last time.

So, sorry for being such a dork and that i haven't posted or read your livejournals for a while. But i am here now, hope you can forgive me. LOL

What's going on in your life then?

_killcrash @ 2005-04-10T14:10:00

2005-04-10T12:03:28Z

LOL, just saw that i messed up the previous post, it should stand 25 instead of 57 in that survey, obviously.. I'm such a retard.

happy happy girl

2005-04-10T12:00:06Z

Sunday. The weather sucks. I am tired like a fuck, BUT... I feel happy and i have no clue why. But i guess i shouldn't digg too much in it, then i might feel down again.

I have one of my parents dogs here. I wish i had one my own. It seems like my mom wants to give her to me, but i know i have too little time and want to do way to much and i have no idea what my future will look like. But we really do fit together i think. She's laying on the floor now sleeping. What a cutie. This morning when she saw that i woke up, she climed up beside me and laid her had on my arm. So sweet. I am in love. LOL. Damnit, i wish i could have a dog myself!

Wiiie, i was bored... And you know, it's only if i didn't have my boyfriend, right (A) =)

_killcrash @ 2005-04-03T13:40:00

2005-04-03T11:39:57Z

I'm such a loser. I haven't updated anything here for like two fucking months. But i'm bored and feel uncreative. Sucks, i know. But if i don't have anything interesting to say, i better not write anything coz no one will read about it anyway.

Oh well, spring is really coming, which means i'm also melting now. I'm slowly starting to feel alive again. I am really looking forward to this upcoming summer. I'm graduating highschool, i'm moving together with my boyfriend for real like 1100 KM away from my current home and i'm probably going to attend a university there. I can't wait!

Scotland, by the way was fine. It was pretty much what i expected it to look like. I met some nice people and had a great time, but at the same time it was a little bit boring also because i missed my boyfriend, which i had promised myself not to. Oh well, love is painful and just wonderful! ;)

April is here. Birthday month. My little brother is turning 15 on April 12th, my bf's bday is on April 15th, my cousin is turning 4 on the 19th, my mother's bday is on April 20th and mine is on the 25th. 19 years and still feeling 12. LOL.

I wish i had more friends, or that my current ones could actually hang out on our freetime, but everyone is so fucking boring.

try me

2005-02-09T15:34:48Z

Okay, some ppl have had this in their livejournal, but it doesn't mean i can't too. And i have nothing better to do so:

(1) Reply with your name and I will write something about you.
(2) I will then tell what song[s] remind me of you.
(3) Next, I will tell you who you remind me of, celebrity/animated or otherwise.
(4) Last, i will try to name a single word that best describes you.
(5) Put this in your journal

Ohh, and by the way. I'm going to fucking Scotland next Tuesday. Am i excited or am i excited? Wohooo!

wihoooo!!!

2005-01-29T13:34:34Z

Weekend, pheew. Finally. And you know what? I got my own domain!!! *dances around like a happy smurf* Gemma @ avidmsile.org gave me her other domain fridayinsin.net Go to her site and give her some love!

Yesterday me and my bf went shopping. He gave me a pair of jeans and a sweater. You're spoiling me hunnie. Later on the evening we just stayed home, watched some TV and ate Chicken and candy. Yummy.

I don't know what else to say. I am just so happy that i have my own domain now. I'll start working on the layout soon. wihhoooo!!!

_killcrash @ 2005-01-26T16:15:00

2005-01-26T15:14:47Z

errr....

_killcrash @ 2005-01-25T13:24:00

2005-01-25T12:18:42Z

OMG OMG. haha. how rude!

You Are 26 Years Old

26

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

Ohh, and thanks for the comments guys. I was feeling quite down, but now i feel a lot better. Thanks for caring.

_killcrash @ 2005-01-22T17:00:00

2005-01-22T15:54:18Z

Die. I'm a loser.

hell started again

2005-01-10T13:53:47Z

First day in school since like, three fucking weeks. I thought that i was about to die this morning. I was so tired that my eyes almost fell out and my head was aching so badly that i thought someone constantly was beating me. When i finally got to school, i figured out that Satan himself was going to be my new swedish teacher. And i know in fact that she's Satan, but masked. I had her last year in my history class and she's the worst teacher you can think of. If you want high grades, prepare to lick some ass! And the thing is that i suck at doing that. I try to be myself, and if they don't like it, too bad for me.

Oh well, i got to hear some nasty things that had happened during the holidays. Threesomes and orgasms on the dancefloor. haha. Where have i been? But perhaps we'll go out next weekend, not that i'm going to orgasm om the dancefloor or have threesomes or something, i just need to come out again and shake some ass. I want things to happen now, since it's been quite slow the same thing all the time lately. So be prepared for some Marlene buttshaking if my plans will be completed. yeaaah!

Well

2005-01-08T13:52:25Z

So, i finally got myself a new livejournal, which at the moment, doesn't look to well. I still need to figure out what i can do with it. I don't like the colors and well, the font either, but i don't have a clue about how much i can change. Tips?

Which Male Celebrity(Under 25) Would You Date, Marry, Do?(Girls)
Name
DOB
Favourite Color
You Will Date	Chad Michael Murray
You Will Do	Adam Brody
You will Marry	Benjamin Mckenzie
Will You Be Happy	Yes
How Long Will It Last	20 years
Does He Love You	Blush

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