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[Wednesday
April 24th, 2013] |
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Okay, what the heck??? I seriously didn’t expect Bayern to beat Barcelona 4-0! I mean, I hoped they would win, but I expected the teams to be evenly matched. It certainly didn’t seem so yesterday. (Then again, I expected Bayern and Juventus to be evenly matched as well, and they weren’t and expected Bayern to be waay better than Arsenal, who managed to beat Bayern in the second leg, soo…) I mean, Bayern clearly dominated almost the entire game, although Barcelona did win when it came to ball possession (and yellow cards, although that was a close one). Their attacking was better, their defending was great (I think Barcelona had only 1 actual chance…) and overall they just worked better together in both attacking and defending (together as a team). Their game was more innovative, adaptive and less dependent on keeping the ball (compared to Barcelona).
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[Saturday
March 23rd, 2013] |
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FINLAND DREW WITH SPAIN IN THE WORLD CUP QUALIFIERS!!!!! (And it was an away game!)
Sure, they didn't win, but when one is expecting a loss, a draw feels pretty good. It wasn't like the result was a boring 0-0 either. They actually managed to score and had a few other chances as well. YAY THEM!!!! The beginning was (as expected) relatively boring. My father commented that it might end 0-0 and I responded with "or then Spain scores from a corner kick" (which did happen. XDD)... Then it started looking a bit more interesting and it was weird to actually have hope (already relatively early on). To be fair, Spain pretty much dominated the game, but I like how our players stood their ground, did their best and most importantly didn't go into the game with a defeatist attitude, cowering before the mighty Spain like Germany some other teams. Realistically, doing as well as they did was VERY unlikely and dependent on Spain's sucking/taking it too easy as well.
They should be A LOT worse than Spain, but... they weren't. And it feels good. :) I doubt Spain will take it as easy when they come here for their away game... but I hope the Finnish team will continue playing with guts and relentlessness despite a probable defeat. Well.. you never know. We're not qualifying for the World Cup... Small victories are/would be nice. :)
Also: I bought a new mobile, since my old one (of about 10 years) just stopped working. It's a smartphone (Nokia Lumia 620), so I have problems using it.. (It seems like the net works better on it than on this crappy comp. Not that I would post on LJ through it... because writing/typing is a pain)
Also2: University still sucks and I'm (still) definitely not graduating.
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| The perks of being a wallflower |
[Tuesday
January 29th, 2013] |
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Since a bookshop in the centre is having a sale (70% discount!), I’ve taken advantage of that and have bought a few books (what is a “few”?). In addition, I get a free paperback after buying seven, so when I realised I was going past it (again ;)) I needed to choose a normal priced book for the free paperback, since there is no use in wasting my free book on the ones on sale. So… I trolled around looking for something. (I’m picky. Even with books that are free I won’t just grab anything.) Finally (actually quite quickly), I set on the perks of being a wallflower, which I had heard of thanks to hearing about the film. The book came out in 1999 and it’s a pity that I didn’t read it back then (or knew of it) so I could compare how my opinion on it might have changed, since it is, after all, written from a teenager’s point of view: about this shy and awkward boy’s experiences and relationships during his first year in high school, expressed through letters he writes to an unknown person. ( read more, no spoilersCollapse )
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| And Bayern will have a new coach... |
[Thursday
January 17th, 2013] |
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Okay! It’s the beginning of the second semester of my supposedly last year at university and judging by how much of my Master’s thesis I’ve done, it really doesn’t look like I’ll be freed from the horrible prison into the world of unemployment any time soon. GAH. Obviously, despite my “plans”, I managed nothing. Go, me! However, I’m mentally feeling a bit better and have fewer issues, so maybe that’s a start. We’ll see. I don’t have many courses for this semester: Two Spanish, one French(UGH), one German (UGH) and I have to take a few tests… At least. Who knows what else I have to do after I bother to find out.
On Guardiola as Bayern’s next coach… I pretty much had the same reaction as I did last summer when it was rumoured: “But he doesn’t know any German!” Okay… I suppose he has now had the time to learn enough and still has time before the summer. (So that what his gap year was about! XDD) And not everyone is as bad at languages as I am
On another note, I don’t know how he’s going to fit in with Bayern and their system. I don’t want to see Barcelona 2.0, and don’t think it will be either, but I’m a little worried about what sort of style they’ll be playing and how well it will work. When it comes to the players, I think he'll like Müller, but I see Ribéry and Robben (especially Robben) on the black list… I hope not. Despite their personalities, I do think they’re an integral part of the team and great entertainment value. I don’t want them gone. :( I also don't want to see an influx of Spanish players
On a positive note, I think that having such a renowned coach (even if it was with an almost fool proof team) will at least give Bayern a nice psychological boost, and that’s always good considering the setbacks they’ve had (mostly thanks to the lack of spirit/confidence/something) The current team is in such a good place though (who knows by the end of the season), so it can also be a high place to fall if things don’t work out. I just don’t know… I’m sceptical, but perhaps hopeful as well?? Actually… I’m also very interested in what is to come. :)
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| HAPPY NEW YEAR |
[Friday
January 4th, 2013] |
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HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!
I thought that nothing could be worse than 2011, but then came 2012, so I'm a little worried.
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New Year’s resolution:
LOSE WEIGHT
That's about it.
I'm also trying to be nicer and to ignore people, who are just too stupid to waste my time on. I think I'll also make a few lists on little (or big) goals I want to accomplish. (Like graduate. "Getting a job" is probably impossible)
However, my main resolution is the one I've had every damn year for the past 11 years and have never managed to keep. (In fact, I've just ended up putting on weight.
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| The Hunger Games |
[Thursday
December 20th, 2012] |
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I won’t take back what I said about the snow, although it has caused some problems with my cycling (not so much when it’s cleared away) and trains (I’m always late anyway). At least it’s not raining! (And I don’t like sleet either) I have to be careful not to get sick though… it’s SO cold now.
Otherwise… a little depressed. Or a lot. Thank goodness I don’t have lessons for a while and don’t have to see people. Also.. I passed everything. Even French! (Hah. Not sure how that happened. I don’t know that language)
Although there’s one test I have to take: the teacher subjected to check my latest sociology test sent me an email asking me to rewrite everything on the comp, because my answers were unreadable. I sent her a response asking her to fail me. I’m not writing those crappy answers on a damn comp!! Anyway, she failed me at my request and I can take the test later. Yeah, I actually prefer everything to be useless and study some more! YAY. Well, it’s not like I studied for that test anyway
On other stuff: Ages ago I read The Hunger Games (the trilogy), which was pretty much what I expected it to be: an entertaining read, but nothing special. I can imagine that I would have obsessed over them as a teenager (in comparison to Twilight, which I really can’t see ever liking) and even now I recognise the addicting quality, but I think the success lies more in the concept than the actual execution. I obviously had to read the books, not just because of the hype, but because the idea reminded me of Battle Royale, which is one my favourite books (and something I loved as a teenager and still do). After reading The Hunger Games, Battle Royale required a rereading. Comparisons are/were inevitable, although in the end they’re very different. I also watched the BR film again, which is okay, but there is no way it could tackle the whole book. I read the book after seeing the film (I don’t think it was even translated into English then), and not to my surprise realised that it was much better (and then disliked some changes in the film). With HG I actually liked the film a lot, despite seeing it after reading the book, possibly in some aspects even more than the books, because they just worked better on screen. (I wish however that last names/actual names were added to some characters given the different portrayal)
Anyway… a longish non-spoilery ramble:
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I want to eventually see the first film/part of The Hobbit, but everyone will probably see it before I feel like it. I’m in no hurry though. I wonder if I should reread the book, because I hardly remember anything of it. (I think it has been over 10 years since I read it..)
Three films of one book, though? It’s not even long!!! The Lord of the Rings got three films (one for each book ) and that’s ten times longer! (I think. I haven’t actually checked. :) )
I thought the draw for CL knock out stages was supposed to be tomorrow, but oh well. I was so pleased that all the German teams finished first in their groups. (Especially Dortmund! They had the insane death group and after last year’s showing it was quite a (pleasant) surprise. :) As was Chelsea no making it out of their group. ;) Yes, I might have felt a bit of Schadenfreude there. I’m bitter that they took Tottenham’s DESERVED spot, because the defending champion apparently has to always take part. NOT ANYMORE Bayern against Arsenal… can be really interesting. Bayern is stronger (IMO), but who knows… I'm more exited about Real Madrid vs. Man Utd. (rooting for Real!).
Bayern's games tend to make me more nervous. ;) (Although they have been so convincing this season. :))
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[Thursday
November 29th, 2012] |
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It's snowing! I hope it will last as well, because I now have winter tyres (on my bike). I'm in a bit of a pickle with my last Spanish composition for one course that ended now.
I guess I was supposed to hand it in today and I was intending to, but I just couldn't think of what to write about! GAH! Well.. I suppose the teacher will accept it later as well... I'll force myself to do it this weekend. (To be fair it's always a little obscure with the instructions. Most of the time I don't know what we're supposed to do.) Anyway: Less school! Once I'm done with all my lessons, I'll work on my Master's... yeah... I'm starting to get the feeling that I won't be graduating after this year, especially since I fear that some of my courses are outdated. (It's not fair.) I'm so fed up with this damn uni already! I don't want to take certain courses again just because it has taken me longer to complete other courses.
We're only allowed to borrow 5 DVDs from the library. (Found that out now as well... Haven't borrowed that many before, it seems.) But I got to borrow six. I should have tried to pretend that I don't know why I'm unable to borrow 10 more books...
Enough on school. Yay, free time?
List of TV shows I'm following:
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And on to reading (which is something I'm doing more now. YAY.)
A questionnaire:
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I also have hardly any money now. Nice. Thank goodness I'll get some money at Christmas.
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| Random stuff again |
[Saturday
November 24th, 2012] |
Certain stuff doesn’t really work on this computer and the programmes are a little outdated. I’ll eventually get a new one (assuming my Dad buys it for me, because I have no money) and can write a bit at school, so it’s fine for the time being. Actually, I think I could survive for quite a while and at least some restrictions are good? Speaking of restrictions, I’ve decided that Sunday is my “no computer day” (I decided during my test, during which I thought of all sorts of things not remotely related to the test), which also restricts the amount of schoolwork I can do. (Almost nothing. I can study though). Basically that means that most of my homework must be done on Saturday (or then Monday), because Friday is a “no schoolwork day”. (Unless I have a test the following day) Actually, yesterday seemed just like any other day when I don’t have any lessons, which is not a good sign… but maybe once I start actually working hard… Yeah right. Sunday might turn out to be a much bigger change though??? What on earth will I do tomorrow? ;)
I didn’t do the homework I wanted today… or really much anything, but I’m in no hurry. (Okay... I’m in a bit of a hurry…) I can still do something before going to bed. (Today it doesn’t have to be exactly 12 PM, cause I woke up so late anyway) I spent time at the church bazaar (I actually went there myself instead of letting my Mum bring me stuff) and bought a bunch of books. (Yay!) Also, I'm pretty sure I saw the teacher from my creative writing course (selling books). I did talk to him a little, but I don't think he recognised me. (So... he goes to the same church as my Mum. :)) Anyway, then I went to the uni library to try and accomplish something (accomplished nothing) and then to another library (more books). It’s unfair that the limit is 40 books. I might need some for my Master’s, but I don’t want to sacrifice any of the 40 books I currently have. (At least the uni library hasn’t got a limit. Probably. I currently have about 70 books.) Yeah… I guess I could read tomorrow and tidy my room. ;) (And TRY and come up with ideas for my Spanish compositions… good grief.)
LJ is one of those pages that doesn’t really work on this computer, which is why I’m not sure why I’m posting from this one. because I’ve been trying for ages and refuse to give up
However, I like this new system on LJ (don't know how new it is) that the cuts (and thread of comments) are shown on the same page and not opened in a new one.
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| I'm starting this again.... |
[Tuesday
November 20th, 2012] |
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I haven’t been writing here for ages, mostly because I would have only been complaining and nobody cares for what I post anyway, but also because I’ve been avoiding this cluttered place as well as a lot of other cluttered places. My life is a big mess and my head probably even more so, but I think that LJ will give some sort of clarity like it did the first time I wrote here. Anyway, I hope to post more at least for myself. I do like reading my flist though (but need to quit some communities! There are just too many of them), but it seems like many have left as well? Perhaps moved to tumblr??? I don’t know. I don’t care much for that, because I don't quite get it, but I’d like to know your addresses! (Maybe I’ll get one as well.. but I have also had a Twitter account for five years and I hardly use that. Why must there be so many places and things? Stupid online world!)
Uni continues to suck. (This is not complaining. This is a fact) I decided to take a bunch of courses I didn’t need but thought would be useful, since it’s supposed to be my last year (who knows anymore…) and I need to make the most of it before facing the inevitable joy of unemployment, but they’re sort of swamping me (although I only have lessons on three days a week) together with the courses I SHOULD take/get done, and there lies the real problem. I don’t have much, but somehow it’s such a big hurdle. All my crap considered I have been trying, but I also feel screwed over by the uni’s ambiguity or my own incompetence to understand what I’m actually supposed to do. Clarity is underrated! I want to do so much more, but I can’t. The time just runs away. On a positive note I have been trying to read a bit more after my crappy summer, and that’s been going okay. The lessons aren’t bad, but the German crap I have to take care of is. (I’m not entirely sure what I’m even supposed to take care of anyway) I even had an oral presentation in Spanish. (I sucked, but I did it.) Still need to write a few compositions. I just realised that I was supposed to read 8 pages on the civil war. (And that’s why I’m procrastinating now. Luckily my French lesson was cancelled, so I could sleep longer). Maybe I have issues with instructions? I had just one sociology course left (I think) and I probably managed to screw that one up… I had no idea what the questions on the test even meant. Yay me. There was one German test I was supposed to take as well (should have done this last semester, but I didn’t), but I’ll probably leave it for later, since at the moment I just feel so tired, because of all the stress I create for myself. Trying to take it easy. YEAH!
Well of course, the first time I post here in a long time, it has to be about school. Umm… maybe something else next time. (If there is one) Will be reading my flist then soon as well. ;)
Oh yeah, my computer has been broken for a while and I'm using my Dad's laptop. (I also have my own minilaptop I can use, but I prefer to only use it for specific tasks)
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| Game of thrones season 2!! |
[Tuesday
April 3rd, 2012] |
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Short post just to express my enthusiasm!
After 10 hours at university it definitely felt good to suddenly remember that the 2nd season had started. Yay! I spent a few minutes checking the opening credits for sigils (okay, I replayed it also just for the fun of it), but I did keep my eyes peeled for new locations. DRAGONSTONE!!!
Oh, Davos. :) I don't know how I feel about Stannis. He seems different from what I'd imagined. A little too... tame. But who knows. TV!Renly was quite a bit different to book!Renly and I like him anyway. :) (I hope to see the amusing "altercation" play out later) Melisandre is already getting on my nerves. More than Dany. Actually I still like TV!Dany.
Also: Still loving to hate Joffrey and Cersei. Not much changed there. I'm looking especially forward to (and maybe even dreading. :))episodes 3 and 4. And 5.
On other notes: It's snowing in April.
Need to finish my seminar crap, prepare for the presentation, study for entrance exams, study just in general, some stupid essay (again), finally hand in my Bertolt Brecht essay I still need to proofread... but I spent another few hours checking my Spanish composition and I can't stand proofreading for some time. GAH.
I think there's something else I need to do...
I'm hungry... I should probably eat. (Although I haven't lost ANY weight despite being on a diet and actually eating healthily for already 3 months. :( )
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[Sunday
February 12th, 2012] |
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Okay, so despite being under the impression that I would have an easier time with my school, since I don't have that many courses, I have come to realise that when I actually try to do something concrete (this meaning actual studying), it's not really that easy. However, I must admit that I definitely prefer this to the "many courses not doing anything dropping a few just passing the rest without studying" alternative. I LIKE stressing about school, because compared to my usual stressing about myself and my life it's so much better. Besides, when I've actually got some work done, I feel good about myself. Before, with my level of commitment I haven't even deserved to pass most of my courses and I've just felt worse about my lazy loser self. Of course I probably won't do much better even if(when) I study, but at least I don't feel as bad. I think that's what it's supposed to be at uni as well. :) Stressing about the work and using time to actually do it; constantly and not in the last minute and only regarding those courses for which one actually has to hand in some evidence to show that work has been done. (Assignments) I still don't feel that great about myself, but I'm doing things little by little and prioritising a bit more, so that already contributes to my well-being as opposed to not doing anything because I hate myself and thus hating myself even more and there's THAT unfortunate cycle. Procrastinating is evil and gets worse the more stuff is left undone and piling up into a huge heap in and around me. I have in mind to do at least a little of something everyday and with time running out I'll just have to choose what's most important.
I hate having to give up exercise because of studying, but it has lately been so cold anyway, I haven't been able to jog outside without risking my health (now it's better so I did go. ;)). And speaking of health I HAVE indeed been eating healthily. I hope it sticks. I hope my studying sticks (I'm afraid it won't...) I hope I won't fall into an abyss of desperation and depression (LIKE ALWAYS EVERY YEAR DESPITE VOWING TO MAKE A CHANGE) I mean, it's the 6th year of uni(including the year I "quit"). I should have learned how to be a bit better student (actually I should have already graduated. HAH). It's not like I've NEVER studied AT ALL. There have been a few(very few) bright incidents (and the constant entrance exams I never pass) and in the end I usually manage to scrape enough info into by brain to pass. It's just that I'm not happy with how things have gone down and I feel guilty about not putting enough effort into something that's supposed to be important. (The problem being that I think I'm studying useless crap most of the time, and even when I'm not I have problem concentrating) Yes. I'm a failure. Yes. I fail even when I try. Concerning the outcome there's (often) no use trying, but concerning my well-being, there is.
UGH. So little time. even when NOT procrastinating
Also, R.I.P. Whitney Houston. :(
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[Saturday
January 21st, 2012] |
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HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
Yes, it’s a bit late, but I haven’t quite been able to do anything and now it’s back to school after the "holidays" during which I was supposed to write a few essays, transcribe, work on my Masters and study for a test and ended up… well I kind of studied a bit for the test in the last minute and a few hours before (I woke up at six o’clock, despite normally going to bed at that time… Yay for perseverance!) and of course the questions where on topics I hadn’t read, but I was NOT going to leave an empty paper, and ended up JUST passing with my made up answers. (Yay for perseverance!). All the rest… I kind of started, but never really got there… I absolutely HAVE TO this week(end), because otherwise I’m completely screwed. And then there’s studying for the next tests. I’ve been less depressed this year, which is a good sign, but my own insecurities are still holding me back. I made a promise to myself that if I’m able to pass the test with barely studying, I’m going to make an effort to NOT waste my brains and potential, which I would consequently obviously have. I just have to hope that my mind and body won’t fail, like they usually do, because then not even perseverance can help my completely messed up state. Visiting a psychologist has made it worse as well, but I’m not giving up on that either.
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[Wednesday
October 19th, 2011] |
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I’m turning 26 soon. UGH. No, it’s not old, but it’s closer to 30 than 20 and given the little I’ve accomplished and the state my life is in, it’s really very depressing. Anyway, yesterday I went with a friend to see a film to celebrate her birthday, which was last month. We went with the usual “let’s see what there is” tactic and chose “Abduction” which was pretty much what we expected. An entertaining and enjoyable film, but nothing incredible. We joked that we will remember it for how we bought our tickets. I asked for two tickets and the person selling tickets asked for ages.
Me: WHAT?!
My friend: I’m 24
At that point even I had registered the situation and we were both laughing. I didn’t get to answer, but I suppose our reactions were enough. It was sort of amusing, because in the queue I had just been lamenting my age and my friend had said that she had reached the point when people mistaking her for someone younger is a compliment. Getting carded while buying alcohol is very much hoped for, but when one is buying tickets for a film rated not under fifteen , that’s something else. :) I felt a lot better about getting older, but I hope I’ll be able to look over 10 years younger in the future. :) I feel like I’ll prob. end up aging 10 years in one day or something
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[Wednesday
September 28th, 2011] |
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Maybe I'll try going to be early today... Probably not, especially since I haven't finished my homework for tomorrow. At least I'm not going to bed at 6 in the morning anymore. But I'm lucky if I make it by two. Four is the usual time. Surprisingly, despite needing 10 hours a sleep a day I aven't been falling asleep at school. (It helps that Tuesdays are off and I sleep all day). Speaking of school, I've been screwing up. I'm a horrible student, I haven't perpared for anything I'm supposed to, haven't studied and tomorrow I need to meet the teacher to discuss my topic for my Master's/Seminar, since I ended up missing the lesson, because I got the time wrong. Of course I did.Okay, enough with the negativity.
Positive: BAYERN! Gosh, I love the way they're playing. When the groups for the CL were announced, I was a little wary, especially of ManCity, but the others as well, since overall it's quite a tough group. Despite the great form, I was still a little nervous, but watching the game destroyed that. :) (Okay, I was sort of nervous about ManCity scoring at all.. since I kind of like the consistant clean sheet. XDD) I will continue to be nervous when the next big teams comes along to test the surprisingly great defence I'm getting used to now, because it's a little bizarre. I don't know... the awesomeness can't continue forever.. right? Even so, the team continues to be a team with a controlled yet fearless playing style. And I hope for them to keep up the great attitude they have going.
Also:
A while ago I read an enjoyable manga (and then watched the enjoyable anime), Karin.
I actually had a dream in which I enjoyed the manga and really liked the main pairing. I had noticed the manga since it wasn’t that long ago released in Finnish and of course I had read the back cover, so I had a vague idea what it was about, but nothing concrete enough for my dream to be based on. Anyway, after the dream I looked a bit more into it, but only quite a bit later at the library did I remember that I could check it out. Luckily all the volumes were out and all but the last one available at the library either in Finnish or English. I borrowed the first two and returned to get the rest the next day (and had to resort to read the last on my comp, because I couldn’t wait.) I enjoyed it much more than I expected given the vampire element and shoujo love story element that pretty much form together the whole basis for the story(except it turns out that the manga is shounen).
However, the vampire element is quite atypical(the main character is a sort of “reverse vampire”, ejecting blood rather than sucking it) and I freaking love the main couple. So yes, my dream turned out to be correct in all aspects, although there was no way my subconscious could have known anything. I think I enjoyed it specifically, because the development of the main couple just worked so well and had me really rooting for them, in addition to all the smile and “awww” inducing moments. I like both characters, they don’t frustrate me with their unnecessary shenanigans and most importantly NO FREAKING LOVE TRIANGLES. Karin and Kenta’s romantic story is a lot different from the ones of many anime /manga couples/pairings. Pretty much all the stuff that normally annoys me is absent. ;) I can't even think of any normally annoying tropes that just work in this context, probably because there aren't any.
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| Compulsory post on the beginning of crappy school |
[Saturday
September 17th, 2011] |
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The 2nd week is already behind me and I don't really feel any different. Probably because I already had some French during the end of the summer so the transition wasn't that big and because I'm just depressed and unmotivated in general. However, on the first day I actually left to school in tears and felt absolutely awful the whole day. A few days ago I started hyperventilating and decided to skip my first lessons, because I was seriously freaking out. (And it just happened that when I finally dragged my arse to the university the other lessons I had were cancelled, so that was for nothing). I don't really blame school, I should be getting help, but I keep procrastinating that as well.
Anyway, my lessons for this semester are:
-Seminar (UGH. The most important, because it’s preparation for the Master’s thesis, but it would be good to already have a topic and start working on it! The teacher is currently annoyed with me and my undecided, unmotivated self)
-Colloquium (Uhm, I'm not sure what this is, I don't know what's going on and I can hardly open my mouth during the lesson, because I'm so scared. I need to give an oral presentation soon..)
-German literature course(on Bertolt Brecht)
- Work experience crap (got postponed till the next period)
-Spanish (I’ve never sucked this much at a language in comparison to my efforts. I hardly even passed the previous course, but I do want to learn this language, so I'm trying)
-Russian (the hardest language I’ve ever had and I feel I’m falling even further behind, since I’ve forgotten almost everything during the summer holiday and I was supposed to revise it.)
+Other stuff: stupid essay I have to write, stupid psycho test I have to take, stupid abstract I have to write to get that degree(which I should already have, but I keep on procrastinating)
#On something more positive: FOOTBALL! Ah, the Champion's League!! I'm not able to watch much since my computer is slow, but I caught Bayern's game against Villareal. ;) (And Barca vs. Milan was on TV ;) )
Gosh, I really liked the way they played. They seemed to be just working really well and functioning as a team of course since Robben wasn't playing XDD. I think in general they seem to be just really getting somewhere, despite the few (continuous) problems with not always utilising their chances(and there's always the defense, but it has looked good in the previous games that I've seen)... Then of course there was the 7-0 hammering I also caught last week... to think that it could have been more
I still fear ManCity though. :) I think that it will be a great test. *hopes to see it on TV*
Tomorrrow: Schalke! (I'm very much for Schalke otherwise, because I’m rooting for Pukki to succeed, but we'll see if he'll even play. Personally, I was surprised that he was even on the bench last week)
#My brother's in London. Or he'll be back soon. I hope he brings me something. ;)
#My slow computer frustrates me
#I should study. Crap.
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| HJK! HJK! |
[Thursday
August 18th, 2011] |
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Just got back from the stadium! Freaking awesome!! I honestly did not expect HJK to even draw let alone win, but I suppose in hindsight it sort of makes sense. (But still... they made Schalke look freaking awful...) It's not often that they get a full stadium. (I've never been there before, although I've been saying for a while that I'd like to go and watch them. I just never got anyone to come with me before today...) So, it's not that surprising that they were extra pumped, especially with an opponent that not too long ago played in the freaking Champions League semi-finals. Also, perhaps Schalke underestimated HJK?? (After all they had just beaten Köln 5-1, and Köln should be a lot better than a Finnish league team...) They really didn't seem in it, hardly had any chances... I think they were a little more dangerous in the 2nd half, whereas (IMO) HJK dominated the first, but it didn't lead anywhere. HJK's defence really held strong(I was actually impressed). And HJK... heck, if they hadn't messed up a few of their chances, the result might be even more awesome. :) Seriously, I was worried that Schalke would come back somehow, but no. They did get a bit better and weren’t letting HJK players run through and past their defence quite as often and actually started creating chances in the offence, but it wasn’t enough.
Anyway!! The away game next week! I hope it's on TV... gosh. I don't really see Schalke underestimating them again, and they do have the home advantage.
(Buut... I'm happy that at least tonight HJK showed what they can do. :) )
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| Green Lantern (and yes, again comparing to anime) |
[Friday
August 12th, 2011] |
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I went to see Green Lantern, which everyone hasn’t seen, since it just came out here and nobody was interested enough to watch it with me, so I went alone. Actually, I’m feeling quite okay with going to the cinema alone now. I pretty much knew nothing about it before, although I did know what the green lanterns are and that Hal Jordan is the most iconic of them (at least I think, since I actually know that name and to associate him with the original Justice League), but it’s far from the knowledge on Superman, Batman, Spiderman etc. I didn’t want to do any research beforehand either, but just go there and see it as any other film, without any comic books sources to compare it to. That being said I enjoyed it immensely.
I really liked the portrayal of Hal as a cocky, rash, unintentionally insensitive, but a genuinely good-hearted and strong willed individual. He sort of reminded me of Taichi from Digimon, a perception further strengthened by the theme of the film, which centred on fear, courage and weaknesses and strengths of an individual. Hal goes through similar struggles concerning fear and facing (overcoming) it, trying to find his role in his new position, screwing up and acknowledging his weaknesses and failings as part of his character and as something to improve on. And then of course there’s the part of being the “chosen one” (one of the chosen ones actually, but the film obviously centres on him) precisely because of his inner qualities, and the power he has is based on will and his strength I how strong he is as a person. (very Digimon-esque)
There’s also the interesting concept of how the power that is used corresponds to the person's imagination, inner thoughts, his/her character etc. And how similar people, or people in similar situation can turn out oh so very different.
Despite his big heroic moments one especially reminding me more of Masaru, Hal needs others, he confides in them, they give him strength and advice as well that ends up being very vital. (To put it mildly). All that contributes further to his development as a person and tackling his issues pulling through in the end, having actually listened to the advice and learned(yeah, a Digimon thing again,). Most of the other supporting characters aren’t really that developed though, but the little I saw was quite likable (and the film was about Hal after all) Maybe the main villain is a little clichéd, although on the other hand the big bad is actually something else entirely, not actually a being, and (like in Digimon) it’s a fight with inner strength against something preying on weaknesses. I didn’t think it was very “super heroish”... but more like a shonen anime?? It was definitely a lot more sci-fi with the whole group of intergalactic space police and the main character becoming one of them, and the small thing about saving his world as well as others from an outside force. I really hope for a sequel (since there was the cliff hanger), but the box office hasn’t been that great and critics haven’t loved it. I don’t know… I think there’s less interest, since GL isn’t as well-known as other super hero films and the latest DC comic book film was the freaking Dark Knight. Yes, it wasn’t as epic, but I left the cinema grinning and in a good mood(which is quite big for me) mainly, because it had a very uplifting feel to it. In general it sends quite a positive message and is quite straightforward in its approach. And that’s okay too. One can be quite poignant without being ambiguous. I thoroughly enjoyed it, found it entertaining and enrapturing. It was different to what I expected, but I didn’t expect much, and in the end it’s very much a type of film that I do enjoy.
Also: I have tickets to the HJK-Schalke Europa League play-off. Bloody expensive ones. My Dad paid and refused to let me pay any bit of the price at all.
Also2: went to bed late and turned the lights off at six o'clock when my Mum... got up. Rythym all over the place, eating horribly, should be studying... same old.
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| Yay, Sirens. :) |
[Tuesday
August 9th, 2011] |
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I love "Sirens". I figured that I’d watch it anyway, because well… Richard Madden… playing a promiscuous gay character. Yes. There are ways to convince me. But I suppose I didn’t expect to like it quite that much?? I’m sceptical when it comes to anything close to a medical drama and this wasn’t really, since it centres on the job of paramedics (with the added bonus of the police and firemen). Besides, it focuses less on the actual profession and more on how it affects the characters and how these very different, realistic individuals deal with their personal issues and their life in general. (Strangely, I can identify in some way with ALL of the four main characters, even the token female, which is quite exceptional.) I really like the dynamic between the ambulance trio. They act like jerks towards others and each other are not necessarily very close emotionally (though working on it?) but do come through for each other when it matters. Their interactions with each other vary from hilarious and entertaining to touching and sweet and that’s kind of the feel of the show in general. To me it’s much more of a comedy than a drama, despite the serious topics and premise. The overall feel and atmosphere are more light-hearted and comical than serious, but it’s not like the darker side is only played for laughs. I think the series manages to balance comedy and drama in a way that serious matters aren’t completely depressing, but not glossed over either and creates an entertaining and quite insightful entity with realistic seeming events and characters. At least to me everything comes across as natural and genuine.
Aah… the long wait for the 2nd season, but at least there IS a 2nd season.. I think… Looking forward to that then.
Seriously, it’s awesome. WATCH IT!
PS: Thanks to my waking up late and my computer being so slow I only managed to reserve the most expensive tickets to the game. I had reasonable tickets before, then my computer threw me out and when I tried to reserve them again, they were gone. Sucks. I'm still thinking whether I'll take them. My Dad's fine with it, but it's not like I want him to pay that much either. GAH.
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| Since the leagues are starting... |
[Monday
August 8th, 2011] |
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-The beginning of the Bundesliga!!! Yaaay!!!!
And yay for Mainz winning something and not so much yay for Bayern losing their first (home!) game of the season.
At last I got a sort of stream for my super slow mini laptop to work for that game, so I think I managed to see most of it??? (Otherwise I listened to the BuLi radio)
Can’t say that Neuer did enough to win me over, but I doubt that will happen anyway. Besides, everyone makes mistakes, and I actually felt bad for him. Well, it's just the start of the season, so there are enough chances. Besides, I honestly wasn’t expecting much in general. It’s been a while since I’ve seen the team really play and I think they need time to properly come together, but I have hope. I always have. Especially, since there really have been some great moments. (Even without goals.:) ) And starting the season with a loss is actually good luck. :)
-Schalke will be coming here to play against HJK next week!! (The Europa League play offs. : ) I’ll see if I’ll be able to get tickets, but on the other hand they’re really expensive. (Not that my Dad cares that much. He'd prob. rather have good seats, whereas I'm thinking about the cheapest ones...). Anyway, I’ll be rooting for HJK (my home team!) even if I’m really more into watching Schalke. :)
(Oh and since we got Spain in our World Cup qualification group, I hope to eventually see them here as well. :) Oh, and maybe France. We’re so not qualifying for that tournament either. Well… maybe the Euros in 2016? ;) )
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| A Dance With Dragons |
[Tuesday
July 19th, 2011] |
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I would have thought I'd be quicker... But oh well, ramble with spoilers ahead on the 5th book, which actually changed a few of my perceptions of some characters and my general feeling of the series, which on its own, makes it quite remarkable, despite the tediousness from time to time.
( random rambling on a dance with dragonsCollapse )
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| Harry Potter 8 |
[Thursday
July 14th, 2011] |
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At least I saw the final film on time. :) In anticipation of it, there was a showing for each of the previous films, so I caught the 7th one a few days before and probably was the only one in the auditorium who hadn't seen it before. :)
And I re-read the book as well (I still have to re-read the last two in German and Swedish)
Overall, I was relatively pleased. I don't really expect the films to completely correspond to the book(and don't think they should), but the last ones proved to be quite faithful to the book (obviously, some stuff was changed, but I was in general okay with it). They also felt so much darker and intense. I know that they have been becoming that gradually anyway, but I still feel that the last two were something else. (Or then I just don't remember the 6th that well..) The atmosphere was so dark, there was just so much... death. I don't remember tearing up at all when I read the 7th book, but I was really moved watching the 8th film especially (and could have easily cried if I hadn't been in a auditorium full of people. I think a girl behind me was sobbing... it sounded like it anyway...). Overall, I felt that the last two films captured the spirit of the the last book really well and were enjoyable to watch.
( more thoughtsCollapse )
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| A Song of Ice and Fire - part two |
[Wednesday
July 13th, 2011] |
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I actually bought the gigantic 5th book already, which in its giganticness and hardcover-ness cost as much as the four previous books together. Yes, I’ll angst about it a little bit, because I glanced through the book and there seemed to be a LOT of Dany. Well, at least I’m not in THAT much of a hurry to start. I need to finish rereading the 7th Harry Potter book before seeing the film first. :)
So the ramble is still based on the four first books… and really only on the characters. :)
When it come to the characters in this series I don’t have massive hate or love for any. Okay, I really detest Dany, but that’s mainly because I find her characterisation… quite bad. What I mean is, that since so many characters do a lot of despicable things, I can’t really condemn one and then forgive the other, since it doesn’t seem “fair” to me. Basically, I like the characters mainly because of their interesting portrayal in the books, not because I think they’d be wonderful people in real life. Granted, I am drawn to the personalities as well and will dislike others because of their personalities, but for me it’s not the only defining factor. Neither is whether they’re more good or more evil, because who can really tell, anyway? It depends how you want to judge(and yes, I’ll judge my way ;) ) The characters do a lot of questionable things, make a lot of stupid decisions, but I like seeing and understanding what’s behind their actions, what actually motivates them to do the things to do and take them as far as they do. Even among the worst cases they still have their redeeming qualities (well, maybe not Joffrey, or the Mountain, but they don’t have POVs, so what do we really know?) and even the more moral ones are far from saints. (besides little kids like Myrcella and Tommen..) I will hate some of my favourite characters from time to time and love some I don’t really care for. And of course… there are those I just love to hate. ;) I did watch most of the TV series first before I read the books, so it definitely influenced me a bit. ;)
( on characters, spoiler warningCollapse )
Yeah… there are quite few I like actually, and more important ones, but this started getting long again… and I wanted to post this before reading the 5th book. DDD
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| A Song of Ice and Fire - awesome epic |
[Sunday
July 10th, 2011] |
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So, I finally finished reading the four books in the series "A Song of Ice and Fire", which I had heard of before, but hadn’t ever read. (Probably because they were hard to find in libraries. I checked. And besides, I’m not that partial to fantasy in general.). Of course, since the TV series was so enthralling, I just HAD to read the books as well. The publishers had correctly anticipated the flood of new fans the TV show would generate and I found a nice box with the first four books and HBO logos. (As if we didn’t know. That’s why I was there. ;) ) I originally thought I’d just buy the first two, but four together wasn’t much more expensive anyway so I bought the box, and I’m glad I did. Looking forward to the new book coming out next week(don’t know if it will be here at the same time, but I will be checking) but not that much, since it will feature more of my less favourite characters and events and less of the stuff that interests me the most, but of course I’ll happily read it. I’m more interested in the book that comes after that… goodness knows when and by then my eagerness will have significantly died down. Not that it will stop me from loving it or grabbing it excitedly…
Anyway, I felt like I took a really long time reading these books. :) I originally was going to wait until I finished a few others, but I kept on reading random excerpts without properly getting into the story, so I had to start. :) (And even then I kept on jumping ahead, surfing the net and completely spoiling myself). I loved the first book, during the second started getting stuck, but developed the style of reading the more interesting POVs first before moving on to the boring ones (some story lines are detached enough for this to work… sort of).
Due to not being able to absorb everything (or remember everything) with one reading and just in general lacking the ability to put my thoughts into words the ramble won’t include everything I want. And I’m not sure if it’s even a ramble. However, these would be my first thoughts that I tried to put together to sound somewhat cohererent. :)
( long but not spoilerly ramble/reviewCollapse )
This is more of a review than and exciting ramble(who even read this? XDD). I think I’ll continue later with the excited ramble on characters and stuff… because this already turned out too long.
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[Monday
July 4th, 2011] |
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I honestly didn’t think I would be watching something like “Teen Wolf”. Yes, it’s about a high school student, who is bitten by a werewolf, which ends up affecting his life quite a deal. And the wolf that bit him is the one behind a few killings occurring in the neighbourhood…
Seriously, it’s a lot better than it sounds. It’s no masterpiece by any means (and a few issues need suspension of disbelief) but it’s quite entertaining and exciting even. Eagerly waiting for the next episode.
( pros and jeCollapse )
On a crappier note: I need to take a break from the comp that gets on my nerves (or just use the uni comps). It’s just so slow and I don't have enough patience to wait 5 minutes for a page to load.
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| On TV shows |
[Sunday
June 26th, 2011] |
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This is freakishly late even if the last ep of series I've been watching aired last Monday, but whatever. (And the 4th season of True Blood starts today! yay for summer series??)
I should be studying. Why can't I do that?? I'm missing one book for my psych test on freaking brains, but I have the other one... (which is less disgusting than the book I'm missing)
Cut for length. I've tried to avoid spoilers... there's mentioning of weddings, but that's it, really.
And there were quite a few weddings...out of the shows I watched 4 had weddings, then there was the almost wedding, and some engagements...
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| Posting.... finally. Watching anime...finally. |
[Sunday
June 19th, 2011] |
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I’m trying to get a little better. I spent (I think )5 weeks indoors unable to face people and now I’m going outside every now and then (depending on how crappy I feel). Obviously I’m horribly fat and disgusting, so I need to get that in order before I see people. I also need to study, since I’m taking French in the summer and hopefully FINALLY that psychology test I’ve been trying to manage for 4 years. (It’s the only course missing from my degree). Of course, I’ve pretty much just been lazying around, watching TV, reading(this is actually good)…. I hope to write again… but that’s going pretty crappily.
I actually watched an anime series. This is notable, because since my bad depression 5 years ago (and other bouts of depression… really I can’t tell the difference anymore), I sort of stopped.
Anyway, I watched “Togainu no chi” that is supposedly based on BL game, but you would never know it, because there is no BL to speak of in the actual series. Well, okay there is one character who likes making young pretty boys his slaves (also for sex I believe), but that is not really shown. Otherwise, there are just a few hints (and I definitely think that one could interpret the “friendship” as something more). Not that it actually bothered me. Despite the premise of the series being quite weak and the plot in general seeming not that incredibly developed, it was strangely enjoyable. I suppose I found some of the characters quite interesting, although there wasn’t much room for proper development. I especially liked the main character (Akira) and his BFF (Keisuke).
The cliffhanger ending was quite disappointing and in the end I’m not really sure what the main story really was about. I think I understand the point of it, which I suppose is the most important, but I didn’t really get a proper picture of the world the events took place in and I felt that I needed to know more about the characters. However, it succeeded in getting me interested and capturing my attention enough for me to watch all the eps at once (and I originally thought that I’d only have time for maybe three) And by at once, I mean that I actually went to bed in between and continued in the morning. About thirty seconds before the ending of the last episode my friend phoned me, so the final cliffhanger part I watched 2 hours later (yeah, it was a long phone call and my brother stopped by) was far from effective. I think I yelled (mainly at my brother who was in the room at that moment) something along the lines of “Was that it?? That sucks!” The series is based on a game though; a game with multiple storylines and endings, so I suppose it was tough to make a satisfactory ending or perfect adaptation for that matter. And overall, I’d say that I was happy enough with it. (Even if some things did annoy me. Darn it!!)
Then I tried watching” Kuroshitsuji” and managed one episode. I managed about half an episode of “Durarara!!” before I got bored. I’ll probably give them another chance. I have a looong list and I’ll probably proceed one at a time. (Probably. If I proceed at all.)
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