_kazumi_ (![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} _kazumi_) wrote,@ 2006-01-22 21:07:00 |
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Merg.
Finals week is over. I am not to stressed I guess, I have no clue how I did in Chem but my 3 tests I had in Math went decent. I got 103% on the first test, 84% on the second and 92.5% on the third. All over the place and really not acceptable. It should be more like 110%, 92%, 100%. Just stupid little mistakes of course. My band final was really funny, I got to school about 10 minutes late and I took a one minute shower and ran to school. I went the whole day with people saying I look really tired...I was like thanks -__-||. Yea but the final for band was to just learn how to play voilin hahaha. It was funny we had the little kids pick us and none of the little kids wanted me! I asked a girl if she could please teach me and she was like NEVER! I laughed really hard about it though, I thought it was funny. My fellow band mates kinda mended my self-esteem. I sucked though, I didn't really learn well, but oh well I didn't really care and we all got A's. The kid tried to teach me what a rest was...and I didn't have the heart to tell him I knew very well what one was, so I played along with it ^^.
//I think I broke it//
I played an indoor game with my team and it went pretty well, it was more a test of my legs. It failed horribly. We won 9-4, but I just didn't feel well at all and I got drilled in the knee pulling a move when some kid didn't follow me well. My legs are really not any better, and that is after a month of pure resting. I really fear for them, I go to the doctors tommorow. I wanted to try out for Eastlake soccer this year, but I doubt that now. It is just not happening.
//Doing good for your community//
Today I worked a bit for Habitat for Hummanity. Those kind of experiences are very humbling, but also very annoying when you have to wake up so early from a long week of school. Alas thought I felt at least good about myself that I helped someone. I mostly helped move stuff and measure and I hanged around with an old guy named Dick -snicker-. Anyways I went with two "friends" who when they asked for 2 volenteers ditched me like it was the new fade, and I was left alone in a very awkward and sad condition. S'alright though...I get so used to it, it doesn't even bother me anymore. I went into those rooms that were supposed to be for 2 or 3 people and it made me really sad, my bathroom was at least that size...I was glad to help at least cause I don't know...it is just a good thing to do I guess.
//My search//
I am searching for something I have never really had. A really good friend. Someone I could I don't know just depend on. My whole life I feel like no one has ever thought that highly of me. Even my girlfriends. I just kinda wish for someone who needs me through it all >>. I figured maybe just by chance, I would be able to connect someone just like me. Just develope something nice, but alas I am really started to give hope, in my real life and online. Sometimes...maybe it is because no one has ever tried, or maybe I haven't enough? I guess maybe I am just not friend material. I am way too evil, concieted, and vicious. I get to confused by the normal daily things, and I am always thinking differently from day to day. I think one day I will have that day when I just get someone on my side once and for all, but I really hope that day is soon, cause I am starting to get kinda lonely.
Finals week is over. I am not to stressed I guess, I have no clue how I did in Chem but my 3 tests I had in Math went decent. I got 103% on the first test, 84% on the second and 92.5% on the third. All over the place and really not acceptable. It should be more like 110%, 92%, 100%. Just stupid little mistakes of course. My band final was really funny, I got to school about 10 minutes late and I took a one minute shower and ran to school. I went the whole day with people saying I look really tired...I was like thanks -__-||. Yea but the final for band was to just learn how to play voilin hahaha. It was funny we had the little kids pick us and none of the little kids wanted me! I asked a girl if she could please teach me and she was like NEVER! I laughed really hard about it though, I thought it was funny. My fellow band mates kinda mended my self-esteem. I sucked though, I didn't really learn well, but oh well I didn't really care and we all got A's. The kid tried to teach me what a rest was...and I didn't have the heart to tell him I knew very well what one was, so I played along with it ^^.
//I think I broke it//
I played an indoor game with my team and it went pretty well, it was more a test of my legs. It failed horribly. We won 9-4, but I just didn't feel well at all and I got drilled in the knee pulling a move when some kid didn't follow me well. My legs are really not any better, and that is after a month of pure resting. I really fear for them, I go to the doctors tommorow. I wanted to try out for Eastlake soccer this year, but I doubt that now. It is just not happening.
//Doing good for your community//
Today I worked a bit for Habitat for Hummanity. Those kind of experiences are very humbling, but also very annoying when you have to wake up so early from a long week of school. Alas thought I felt at least good about myself that I helped someone. I mostly helped move stuff and measure and I hanged around with an old guy named Dick -snicker-. Anyways I went with two "friends" who when they asked for 2 volenteers ditched me like it was the new fade, and I was left alone in a very awkward and sad condition. S'alright though...I get so used to it, it doesn't even bother me anymore. I went into those rooms that were supposed to be for 2 or 3 people and it made me really sad, my bathroom was at least that size...I was glad to help at least cause I don't know...it is just a good thing to do I guess.
//My search//
I am searching for something I have never really had. A really good friend. Someone I could I don't know just depend on. My whole life I feel like no one has ever thought that highly of me. Even my girlfriends. I just kinda wish for someone who needs me through it all >>. I figured maybe just by chance, I would be able to connect someone just like me. Just develope something nice, but alas I am really started to give hope, in my real life and online. Sometimes...maybe it is because no one has ever tried, or maybe I haven't enough? I guess maybe I am just not friend material. I am way too evil, concieted, and vicious. I get to confused by the normal daily things, and I am always thinking differently from day to day. I think one day I will have that day when I just get someone on my side once and for all, but I really hope that day is soon, cause I am starting to get kinda lonely.
