how everything ended up is weird, and I don't think I will ever quite make sense of where I did and did not get into.... I honestly cannot figure out the rhyme or reason to any of this
UMiami for Musical Theatre and Music Therapy:
rejected all around. the blow that kinda hurt. it's hard when you've dreamed of a certain place for so long.
Syracuse for Musical Theatre
accepted academically, rejected to the MT program
Pitzer
rejected
U of Central Florida for Musical Theatre
accepted academically, rejected to the MT program.
Chapman for Music Therapy
rejected all around. wtf? i think they don't want eastcoasters though... whatever
Arizona State U for Music Therapy
accepted academically, rejected to mus ther program.
U of Arizona for Musical Theatre
accepted academically, rejected to MT program
NYU for Musical Theatre
accepted all around, not into CAP21, the really musical theatre based program, but into another amazing acting studio, Playwrights Horizons, that after frosh yr I can still do a huge concentration in music.
SUNY New Paltz for Music Therapy
accepted academically, never ended up auditioning
American U for Musical Theatre
accepted academically, couldn't make the audition
Muhlenberg- BA in theatre
waitlisted, wtf again. I think they realized they weren't my first choice though.
I had dreamed of miami for the entirety of my high school career, even bits of middle school. It was the drive that got me through, it was my escape.
But the more I think about it I'm glad I didn't get in there, because then it would have been a tough decision, and I would have beat myself up that wherever I chose, what chances and opportunities did I give up. And then I would have given up opportunities, networking and the best theatre location for... well the weather.
in actuality would I have fit in there? with the pre-gaming, rah rah, keggers and all? no not really. That's not me, and that still won't be me in college. I just like the warm weather and the beach-y college atmosphere.
so where am I going to college?
New York University, Tisch School of the performing arts, for drama, for acting
official as of april 5th when I sent the deposit in.
I am still in absolute disbelief when I tell someone oh I'm going to NYU. I never in a million years would have expected the whole college extravaganza ending like this. Getting into the most prestigious school I applied to, arguably the hardest program to get into at nyu. It's like shit man, I'm going to one of those "new ivies" when someone hears me say "NYU" they expect me to be smart, take a million APs, the SATs were a breeze and blah blah blah I'm so intellectual. Which none of those are the case with me. Why they want me I will never ever understand, especially when safety/ match schools like Muhlenberg & Chapman rejected my ass.
what wanting umiami so so so so bad really did for me? it gave me a goal, it gave me a drive. to work my ass off to achieve more, to not settle for warmth at the arizona schools. So indirectly it is because of miami that I killed myself in high school to be my best. Why I second guessed not taking physics at all, contemporary issues as my only science junior year, worried only having one [bullshit...] AP, why I worked my ass off to raise my chem grade, why I take these classes like calc that I hate, the drive for me to endure the other standardized tests after I bombed the first, and freaked out during the second.
Miami was why. But NYU is what I got.
and I really, truly am thrilled to be going there next year. To know that I will have my own private bathroom in my room and don't have to be stuck in antisocial substance free, to know I will finally live somewhere excited, that everyone won't know my name, that I will have built in friends at my studio whom I will spend 20 some odd hours with every week, that I am going to the #1 dream school?
i'm fucking going to NYU
how absolutely crazy is that?
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