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July 14th, 2008

Gambling Poll

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Poll #1223224 Casino
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Do you regularly play slot machines?

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Yes
0 (0.0%)

No
2 (66.7%)

Just on the rare occasion
1 (33.3%)

If yes or on occasion, do you mostly play online or at a real casino?

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Online
0 (0.0%)

Real casino
1 (100.0%)

50-50 mix of each
0 (0.0%)

If you play both, which pays out more frequently?

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Online casino
0 (0.0%)

Real casino
0 (0.0%)

No difference
0 (0.0%)

Which pays out more money?

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Online casino
0 (0.0%)

Real casino
0 (0.0%)

No difference
0 (0.0%)

Do you enjoy the new slots and the bonus games on them?

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LOVE them!
0 (0.0%)

Like them
1 (100.0%)

I can take them or leave them
0 (0.0%)

HATE them
0 (0.0%)

Dislike them
0 (0.0%)

Why do you gamble?

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For fun
0 (0.0%)

For money
0 (0.0%)

For fun and money
1 (100.0%)

Because I'm bored and rich
0 (0.0%)

Other (explain in comments)
0 (0.0%)

Do you prefer slots to other gambling games?

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Yes
0 (0.0%)

No
1 (100.0%)

I don't know
0 (0.0%)

Do you have a "system" for playing slots?

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Yes
0 (0.0%)

No
0 (0.0%)

I use a different system every time
1 (100.0%)

Other (explain in comments)
0 (0.0%)

If you have a system or many systems, how often do you stick to it throughout an entire gambling session?

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100% of the time
0 (0.0%)

75% of the time
1 (100.0%)

50% of the time
0 (0.0%)

25% of the time
0 (0.0%)

Never
0 (0.0%)

What's your casino game of preference?

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Slots
0 (0.0%)

Poker
0 (0.0%)

Black Jack
1 (100.0%)

Roulette
0 (0.0%)

Other (explain in comments)
0 (0.0%)

When you gamble, do you most often win or most often lose?

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Win
0 (0.0%)

Lose
0 (0.0%)

50-50
1 (100.0%)

Win, but walk out the door even or under
0 (0.0%)

Break even
0 (0.0%)

July 11th, 2008

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monsters inc
Amazing. http://www.chick.com/reading/tracts/0046/0046_01.asp
You'd think that Christian idiocy would at least make an attempt to keep up with the times.

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journey
I'm a flutterby! http://www.helloquizzy.com/results/the-camelot-test/?fromCGI=1&var_Arthur=5&var_Guinivere=2&var_Mordred=0&var_Lancelot=0&var_Merlin=4&var_Morgana=2&var_LadyoftheLake=5

http://www.helloquizzy.com/tests/the-camelot-test

Seriously, I value equality in things that are equal. I don't value it any more or less than that.

July 9th, 2008

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buddhist duck
i find myself less and less interested in theology as it relates to religion or to religion-as-divinity. I used to be at least interested to know what the religious people had to say and to find out why they believe what they believe, but now.... if a person can't offer any kind of evidence to support their views/beliefs other than "it's in this book, and I believe the book," I'm not willing to listen any further. It's a wste of time for both/all of us.

I was just listening to an Islamic woman on NPR, talking about different intrepretations of the Koran. I found myself intrigued, because it's interesting how one passage can be differently understood by each person who reads it. But that's the bigger picture that grabbed my interest; a linguistic curiousity. But the smaller, more specific picture was about a verse (or verses) in the Koran, and how it applies and is intrepreted today, whether or not it should be officially re-intrepreted, which intrepretation is correct and who said it first, etc. For me to take an active interest in the details of a broadly interesting situation, I have to accept those details as worthwhile. Forthe first time in a long time, I switched off NPR and just listened to music.

July 7th, 2008

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plankton!
Was a good weekend. O and I kind of took the entire weekend to celebrate his birthday (which is actually today) and went to Valley Fair and then stopped at Mystic Lake Casino afterwards. His luck wasn't so hot, but mine was. I knew I was having a lucky streak the night before when playing Blackjack with O and my kids. Then, at Valley Fair, I played an arcade game that required no skill or talent whatsoever, and hit big a few times, only "lost" twice, and those were the times I was listening to O, I think. ;) So I have a huge mess of tickets to redeem for various crap at the prize counter next time I go.
So, went to the casino, and my first $5 vanished right before my eyes. No wins at all. The next $20 was different. I put some into 25 cent Keno and won $30. Played some video poker and got a few excellent hands, but the payout was so crappy, I decided not to waste any more of my time there. Played various multi-line slots, had a few nice-ish hits, then went to Blazing 7's and won over $800 in a single spin. Tee hee.
Then tried the Blackjack table for my first time and lost $100. Decided to GO HOME after that.
Anyway, I am now caught up on rent, bills, etc. Not much extra after that, but I don't feel squeezed to death any more.

Tonight, O's coming over for cake and ice cream and games, and presents. Tee hee again.

I have an ugly migraine. I hope it will let me be active tonight and get involved with things.

July 3rd, 2008

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puppy FACE
What dog breed are you? I'm a Jack Russell Terrier! Find out at Dogster.com

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freak
well it was a nice run.

two days w/o a migraine.

that's over.

*sigh*

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It is really disenheartening that this feed: http://syndicated.livejournal.com/intgrloptnscafe/
constantly supports Obama and sometimes slams McCain. I don't like either of them, myself, but I don't want to subscribe to what I thought was a fairly cool,"integral" feed only to be fed one person's IDEA of integration.

July 2nd, 2008

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Been a tad bit crankity this afternoon. I want people to make sense. It makes me crankity. But the more I let it make me crankity, and the less I try to let it freaking go, the less I make sense, and I make myself crankity.

Obama makes me extra crankity.

East Bound and Down, Good Buddy!

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mapquest
Got this stupid song in my head. (From Smokey and the Bandit)Probably because I have more work than I can possibly do, and a coupala bitchez out to get me.

East bound and down, loaded up and truckin',
We gonna do what they say can't be done.
We've got a long way to go and a short time to get there.
I'm east bound, just watch ol' "Bandit" run.

Keep your foot hard on the pedal. Son, never mind them brakes.
Let it all hang out 'cause we got a run to make.
The boys are thirsty in Atlanta and there's beer in Texarkana.
And we'll bring it back no matter what it takes.

East bound and down, loaded up and truckin',
We gonna do what they say can't be done.
We've got a long way to go and a short time to get there.
I'm east bound, just watch ol' "Bandit" run.

East bound and down, loaded up and truckin',
We gonna do what they say can't be done.
We've got a long way to go and a short time to get there.
I'm east bound, just watch ol' "Bandit" run.

Ol' Smokey's got them ears on, he's hot on your trail.
He ain't gonna rest 'til you're in jail.
So you got to dodge 'im and you got to duck 'im,
You got to keep that diesel truckin'.
Just put that hammer down and give it hell.

East bound and down, loaded up and truckin',
We gonna do what they say can't be done.
We've got a long way to go and a short time to get there.
I'm east bound, just watch ol' "Bandit" run.

July 1st, 2008

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confused X 3
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bohemia

According to this, my grandma Joan was Bohemian. So I am Bohemian. Now I can haz hippy trendsters?

*EDIT that was supposed to say trendy hipsters, and I thought Bohemia was a made up place.

Everybody Sing!

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karaoke
Okay guys I'm falling asleep. Let's have a sing a long! I'll type in the first line of a song, and if you know the next one, type it into comments. You can do this as often as you wish, but only enter one line per comment. And if you know the line after one that has entered in comments, enter that song line in a response to the comment it follows. Got it? Okay. Here we go.


Out in the west Texas town of ElPaso...

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i'm not there
Holy freaking pig nutz I'm tired.

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sleepy polar bear
I dreamed all night last night. I was awake enough that I was analyzing them as I dreamed them. I had one that was interesting in the way that all of the characters were so....random...and unfitting together. O and I were living in some sort of place where we had only one room to ourselves. My kids weren't there. My brother Pete and his wife also lived there, in a different room, and Gypsy had his own room too. There was a car repair garage built right into the room O and I shared, and our landlord was Grover. One morning, Grover came into our room to tell me that I was sleping with my butt sticking out of the covers, and he indicated that I probably wouldn't want the garage guys to see that. So I covered up. I went into Gypsy's room and he was sleeping, but I saw this moving picture on his wall, like in the Harry Potter movies/books and it was really cool. I asked him what it was and if Grover had approved it. He said yes, and that he was bringing the picture to Carol today. Who Carol is I have no idea. And then someone was breaking into my brother's room, and Anna and I hid her kids. WTF.

June 27th, 2008

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boxer mouse
so things are very bad on the migraine front. they are severe and pretty much constant, and I have missed a lot of work, and will likely get fired before much longer. I've decided to get off all of the migraine killers, but the pain is absolutely unbearable, and I broke that promise on day one, at about 8:00 this morning. I have read now that about 90% of migraine sufferers who only band aid their migraines with pills, will have a stroke and die. I am looking into homeopathic solutions. I would get accupuncture or chiro or energy work if I could afford it, but my pills are making it difficult to make the basics come together. I think it's hard now, but wait until I get fired.
It is deeply depressing. Somehow I just keep getting right back up and hold onto some semblance of hope.
I need money and I need cheap/free medical care. If anyone's in the market to give services away for free, let me know. In the meantime I'm doing everything I can think of to do, in every aspect of my life. It's not working- or at least not working fast enough. And if it takes much longer, I'm guaranteed to lose my job.

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Faye Ed
* Post 3 things you’ve done in your lifetime that you don’t think anybody else on your friends list has done.

* See if anybody else responds with “I’ve done that.”

* Have your friends cut & paste this into their journal to see what unique things they’ve done in their life.


1) Been in a high speed chase with police and got away

2) Stole something while hanging upside down, suspended by a bungee cord slipped through a basement window, and tied around my ankles

3) In one fell swoop of my shorts, I mooned a crowd of at least 3,000.

June 23rd, 2008

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dog on tracks
I am not the happiest camper today. I got my hair colored on Saturday, and I love it. My natural color is kind of a medium-mousy brown, and now it is black in parts, and very dark brown in other parts. No one's noticed. Either that, or they noticed and think it's horrible. I can't tell which. O noticed, but that might only be because I told him. He doesn't seem to think there's much of a difference. I'd at least like it though, if SOMEONE said something without being asked to. Having no one say anything makes me feel even more like an alien than I already do. I don't get it. It's a dramatic change. In the meantime, I'm hearing converstions around me between other people: did you put mousse in your hair today? looks great! New shirt? Nice!

I continue to have daily migraine(s) can't tell where one stops and another begins. Nearly all of the money I planned to be able to use for clothes and kids stuff is going to Dr appts and medicine. I'm just as broke as ever, and that is depressing me quite a bit. I can't get caught up. I've been trying to for so damn long. I'm on heavy medication 24/7, my vision is fucked up, and I'm exhaussted.

My situation at work continues to decline rapidly. People see only little incidents when the big picture doesn't interest them. So when I point out the big picture and demand they see it, they think I'm paranoid- at best. People just won't open their eyes, and as a result I'll probably lose my job.

My computer needed a new hard drive, so I dumped some cash on that and more RAM. Can't install the hard drive though, and neither can the kids or their computer-forward friends. I am so sick of computer trouble. That's depressing too.

June 20th, 2008

Emails Part 3

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Londo scoff
Read more... )

June 18th, 2008

Emails Continued

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slappy
it's like she wants to get sued, I swear. Read more... )

June 17th, 2008

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stupid
I read a headline in the Washington Post, I think it was, over by the copy machine earlier. It said something about how Obama plans to increase spending to help close the economic gaps between people. I don't take issue with this, probably because I don't know what the hell it means, but it did make me think of how so many people want to close gaps. I do not understand that want. Why should a janitor earn as much as a surgeon? There SHOULD be a gap. A large one, I hope.
Another area where people are "close the gap" crazy is school. If there's a gap in grades or attendance between one race of student and another, the schools hurry to close the gap. This seems rather backward to me. Both incidences I'vee sited do.
If a gap exists, take a look at it. Figure out why it's there. If it's there for reasons that are appropriate, leave it alone. If it's there for suspect reasons, investigate the suspects, and if found to be bad, take them up at the roots. To alter pay that is appropriate or tests that are appropriate in order to fill a gap is just plain wrong. Fix the problem if it's fixable. Leave what's good alone.
I've noticed that Asian people tend to perform better academically than Americans, generally speaking. There's a gap there. I've noticed that white Americans tend to perform better academically than black Americans, generally speaking. There's another gap. Those gaps might exist for many different reasons. Some might be appropriate, or just the way things are. Some might be inappropriate, and those need to be uprooted.
I think some people get offended by gaps in any system that's in place to measure progress or accomplishment. People don't like to judge- don't like to say that one is better than another. So if one person makes more money than another, that could be construed as a way of calling that person better than the other, and we can't have that! Personally, if someone I knew thought that earning more meant a damn thing about how much "better" or "worse" than another a person is, I would not think highly of them. I think maybe 1/2- most people are the same way in that regard. Yet, if there's an economic gap, it must be filled! Why?
Another "gappy" area is prison. I've heard that there are more blacks than whites in prisons across America. I've heard that this is due to the fact that more blacks than whites are arrested. I've heard that this is due to the fact that cops hate black people. Last year, I think it was, I looked around the internet for some numbers to flesh this argument out. since I don't recall everything I found, I'll probably re-do my research, but I did see that there are more blacks than whites in American prisons. Check one. I did find that more blacks than whites are arrested in America. Check two. I found that lots of people think cops hate black people. I found that a lot of people don't think cops hate black people. My own thought is that some cops hate black people, some cops hate white people....they are a part of our society. Some are jerks. There's no getting around that. But to make a claim that the high population of blacks in prisons is because cops hate black people is absurd. Even if it weren't absurd, how would one go about proving such a claim? Get confessions from millions of black-hating police officers? Anyway- there's another gap. It is there. Now WHY is it there? Figure that out, then fix the actual problem. Don't just start arresting whites that haven't committed crimes worthy of sentences, and don't fail to arrest blacks when they do commit worthy crimes. If there's a fault with the law, fix that.

I heard a story on MPR some time ago about how some are pushing for a change in drug conviction sentences. They want prison time for certain crack and cocaine offenses to be lowered, as it causes an undue burden on young black males. Well....I guess if you think that the arrest was unjust, you could fight that. Otherwise, the punishment is the punishment. It's not like it's a different sentence for white crack and cocaine dealers. (and if that is the case, then fight that) It's more of a burden on young black males because young black males sell more crack and cocaine than anybody else. No, I don't have numbers on that one. I am sure some will say that it only looks that way because more young black males get arrested for it, but I say they are putting their cart before their horse. I have KNOWN drug dealers of many varities, and black guys sell crack and cocaine. Everybody knows it. So when someone tells me it's not true and it only looks that way because cops hate blacks, I just have to see that they're wrong.

Anyhoo- running amok style gap closing just seems like a way to not have to look at the fact that there are differences between people. A way not to even recognize the fact that there are measures of good and bad, of better and worse.
But, if you go around closing gaps because of this, you have already made a judgement about what's good and bad, about what's better and worse. You've decided it is bad to have gaps and it is better that we close them up. You have, in effect, created a gap. The gap between you and anybody who would leave a gap alone.
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