I'm listening to this song by Elbow called The Bones of You and the chorus repeats "And I'm five years ago, every thousand miles away". And I wondered where I was around now five years ago. Turns out, the 18th is Wife's birthday- we spent the dinner at a nice turkish restaurant, and they made me put money in the bellydancer's skirt/waist/thing. On my mind was the future, but mostly in relation to the past- my story of Shiori, Juri and Nawanai (who some of you may know the players of now) had recently just finished, and I was aware of having lost both of those people forever. And although I considered Ben and Wife to be the closest thing I had to best friends, it seems obvious to me I felt as though in a floating world of sorts.
http://users.livejournal.com/_kasuri_/2004/09/15/ http://users.livejournal.com/_kasuri_/2004/09/18/This was before my halloween costume on the eve of Bush's second reelection. Before visiting Reed.
I guess it is true. How much has changed. But right now, with this one, I feel like I'm five years ago, a thousand miles away... Although I suppose the feeling really belongs to more like five years ago and nine months.
My baby is out really late. I hope he'll come home soon. We both should sleep.
And I love you and miss you.
~K
melancholy/nostalgic/calm