| 11pm |
[Jun. 18th, 2009|11:26 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  busy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Black Eye Peas - Alive | ] |
While washing my car just moments ago after swimmming, i felt happy that i although i don't exactly have as much time as i did before i started work, i still make time for myself to do the things i like and enjoy doing. |
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| From Rags to Riches |
[Jun. 14th, 2009|06:24 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  complacent | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Moloko - Sing it Back | ] |
"Never compromise on your health."
Thats what a 52 year old uncle reminded me in the gym today.
"Thanks", i said in return. |
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| Keeping Afloat |
[May. 26th, 2009|12:44 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | calm | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Texas - Inner Smile | ] |
A thought ran through my head while i was swimming tonight.
Being an optimist does not mean that you always believe in seeing the glass as always 1/2 full and fooling yourself to be in a constant state of happiness and positivism.
Its more to being in-tune with reality. Thats what. |
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| Work |
[May. 15th, 2009|10:10 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  awake | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Zee Avi - Honey Bee | ] |
So i started work about 2 weeks ago and things have been good so far.
Me. A project coordinator.
I like my collegues. They're funny and weird at the same time.
We'll see how this goes.
The only thing that i need to adapt to is working out and swimming at 9pm instead of the usual 7pm. Urgh. |
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| I seriously don't know whats going on |
[Apr. 5th, 2009|01:24 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Blue October - Say It | ] |
Today was absolutely random.
After rock climbing, i decide to meet up with my fellow surfing friends for dinner.
Shortly afterwards, we bore witness to a couple fighting and getting physical in public accompanied by shouting of profanities at Starbucks. The funniest part? The mom (of presumably, the couple) was sitting there and chilling out while watching the drama unfold before her and does NOTHING.
Then, pigeon shit decides to drop on my dear friend's white trousers, much to her disgust and followed by her expressed bitter hatred towards all pooping-feathered flying animals in existence.
Later, i find myself sitting at the bar with my good old friend having some drinks only to be later approached by a juvenile kid drinking herself drunk and offering us two drinks. We accepted the kind gesture but later did we know, we fall bait to her self-created drama. Rants followed by cursing and all that jazz by a 18-year old who thinks she knows what love is all about(?).
I just want to sleep now. Goodnight. |
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| The Merits of Unemployment |
[Mar. 24th, 2009|07:33 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  amused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | American Analog Set - Anything Could Happen | ] |
Ever since both parents made a return trip for a break from Dubai, i have officially being appointed as the maid, chauffeur and cook for a week plus now.
I sometimes wish i had siblings who i could shove share the responsibility with. Haha
Not that it is anything to shout about but i still manage to regularly hang out, swim, rock climb, go to the gym and a new addition - surfing.
No more bumming around at the end of this month. Time buckle up, market myself and milk the cash cows. |
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| Metaphorically speaking |
[Mar. 8th, 2009|05:17 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | blank | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Royssopp - Its What i Want | ] |
The worst thing about surprises is that you can never tell if it will be a good or bad one.
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| Like a deer in a headlight |
[Mar. 3rd, 2009|01:26 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Dubai, U.A.E | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | amused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Diana Krall - It Could Happen to You | ] |
As much as i love Dubai inside-out, the only thing that i dislike is driving etiquette here as compared to K.L.
So i drink drive back at home and speed. Fair enough.
Over here, they speed at every opportunity and fuck themselves over. And then proceed to purchase another testosterone-infused car granted if their limbs and brain stem are still intact.
They also like to honk at you ALOT as though you subliminally named their mom a whore just because of the 0.5 millisecond delay to react to the green light infront.
Oh, and the Emiratis here can't properly park or align their cars parallel to one another.
Damn the fact that i couldn't go sky diving at Umm Al Quwain. Oh wells! |
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| Pericardiocentesis |
[Feb. 4th, 2009|02:28 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | amused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Rushes - What You Waiting For | ] |
I'm sad that i see life as a chessboard. Black and white. I'm missing the hues.
The only mistake i can do is not moving along it. |
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| Empathy |
[Jan. 21st, 2009|01:02 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | busy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Nina Vidal - No Umbrella | ] |
You laugh. I laugh.
We go back and resume living our lives. |
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| I hope its going to make you notice, someone like me |
[Jan. 13th, 2009|01:46 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | sleepy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Kings of Leon - Use Somebody | ] |
Formulating new year resolutions are a great way of bullshitting yourself and others into believing they can become a reality by wishful thinking.
Likewise, case in point, people seldom change. And when they do, its progressive. Or they give up midway through.
Gone were the hey days when i played 'hero' and got obsessed over somebody whom i thought i could expect to change with my help. Sadly, that was the biggest fucking mistake i ever made. Reality kicked me in the nuts to ingrain the fact that only people can change themselves or i had to just simply be willing to accept that person for who they are.
But because people excel at lying to themselves by blinding themselves into seeing what they want to see in another, provides both you and me the power to lead others on by communicating what we want to hear so that others will be attracted or remain in a relationship with us while you and i can go about screwing around with others. Hah.
While i can hope all i want that that somebody will change into someone else, if that someone whom they are today is somebody i can't foresee myself being with tomorrow or who still is the same since a year ago, i'll just drop them. Its funny how sometimes we can be mesmerized by/be in love with a person we wish they were or hope they could become be somebody that just isn't.
We always have to deal with the person who actually exists.
On the brightside, if you're truly what a mature person would claim to be, you can bulldoze your way through the sea of bullshit of others aswell as your own and accept things the way they simply are. Conventional wisdom was right. The truth is often simple but we just rather not accept it.
Life is a compromise. Relationships, for that matter, are a compromise too. |
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| Means to an End |
[Dec. 31st, 2008|01:12 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | complacent | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Athlete - In the Library | ] |
Year 2008 was one of those years for me that i would like to sit down alone by a warm fireplace and watch it play like a slide show on rewind in black and white on mute with somebody to hold close in my arms.
And the lights will go off. We'll close our eyes and wake up to the unknown. Goodbye.
Happy New Year, kid.
And make others feel loved and happy around you like you always do year after year even if you were never truly happy inside.
Always. |
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| Love Foolosophy |
[Dec. 25th, 2008|01:45 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | busy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Resentments - Look Up | ] |
In any kind of relationship, people are how they act - watch them and learn who they truly are and don't get yourself burned. |
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| Baby Steps |
[Dec. 16th, 2008|01:38 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | busy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Killers - Spaceman | ] |
If your goal in life is praise or to impress people, to seek approval and admiration, that is when you’re truly lost.
Perhaps this sums up why people will continually love to hate celebrities and their narcissism and grandiosity while passively indulging in mental masturbation around their entire self-absorption. |
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| When things are going right, you won't notice |
[Dec. 13th, 2008|04:49 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | blank | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Matt Pond - Basement Parties | ] |
Its been awhile since i last remember myself being angry. Friends have always said of me being easy going, calm, and rational in whatever situation whether it be tragic or horrible. But thats their opinion anyways. They may be awfully right.
Perhaps the last time i totally snapped was this year in June when i was inches away from socking a wealthy, married 40 year old lawyer friend in the face for persistently pressuring my close friend of mine to sleep with him and even had the nerve to offer to pay her knowing that she and her family was struggling through a rough period. It was quite a heart aching moment, at that time. I'm glad i held back and got a grip of myself then although the thought of it still ticks me off. Recently, a former band member told me that his wife gave birth to a child. Good on him. I hope he becomes a good parent.
Jump forward to the past couple of weeks. Its been nothing but endless phone calls and messages by friends returning back from overseas or visiting asking me out night after night to the brink of insanity. Of course, the outgoing party boy in me said 'yes' while i noticed my money reserves declining. In between, i had less and less time for myself. It was difficult to strike a balance when you're caught up with everybody who just wants to leave their bodies and deal only with immediate matters.
Two nights ago in the morning i bore witness to a horrible road accident. I doubt the driver and passengers survived the car crash. I couldn't sleep much that night after seeing what i saw. That was when realization slapped me in the face and i told myself that i can't afford to live my life this way anymore. Its became too overwhelming and monotonous for my liking. Its too damn short.
Likewise, if all you have to ever talk about is what bar you're hitting up this weekend, what parties you were at during the weekend before or the funny, screwed up shit that happened when you were drunk, it gets really old. Quickly. We all deserve to be taken seriously. Not as clowns with feathers stuck up our asses.
That being said, i'm glad i'm going rock climbing today to take things off my mind. Plus, i'm contemplating about arranging some long distance cycling around Putrajaya soon.
Meanwhile, i'm doing all the right things with my life but only on the surface.
But somehow inside, it's pining. Its a tough way to live.
This isn't myself at all.
*Sasha's flight is arriving this evening. I miss her dearly. |
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| You, me and everybody else |
[Dec. 10th, 2008|01:15 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | awake | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Dusty Springfield - Spooky | ] |
People like talking about others because it sometimes makes them feel superior or makes them feel like they're in control.
But sometimes some people who know about these things makes them care. |
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| I deflect |
[Nov. 28th, 2008|03:16 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | blank | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Perishers - Trouble Sleeping | ] |
Row, row, row your boat,
Gently down the stream,
Merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily,
Life is but a dream.
Even a positive and head strong person can posses all the innate qualities to succeed but even though, those qualities can sometimes be simply dismissed by peers and circumstances.
As much as i sigh in dismay about the thought, i move on
because i never did allow myself to stand still. |
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| Reminder to self |
[Nov. 23rd, 2008|04:55 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | productive | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Cold War Kids - I've seen enough | ] |
Whether you believe in gravity or not it doesn't matter because when you fall, you hit the ground the same way everyone else does. |
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| Midnight conversations |
[Nov. 21st, 2008|04:53 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  bouncy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | MGMT - Kids | ] |
Life should be experienced and lived.
Not watched and wondered about. |
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| Dear conscience |
[Nov. 15th, 2008|12:07 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | calm | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Band of Horses - Detlef Shrempf | ] |
Meeting up with Johann, the cheery Myanmar worker at my mom's friend's restaurant who recently underwent surgery to remove a brain tumor was heart warming. If you think you had it hard in life, these are the real people that you ought to be grateful for slapping self-awareness into your face.
I wouldn't be surprised if i were to ask what they are thankful for in life, they'd be able to list off many.
Nevertheless, last night's meet up would be one additional entry in my very own list of things to be appreciative of.
I have no complaints. |
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