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...Cause I am hanging on every word you're saying
Even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside heaven's door
And listen to you breathing
Its where i wanna be, yeah
Where I wanna be...
...Find me here
speak to me
i want to feel you
i need to hear you
you are the light
that is leading me
to the place where
i find peace again
you are the strength
that keeps me walking
you are the hope
that keeps me trusting
you are the life to my soul
you are my purpose
you are everything
and how can i
stand here with you
and not be moved by you
would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this
you calm the storms
you give me rest
you hold me in your hands
you won't let me fall
you still my heart
and you take my breath away
would you take me in
would you take me deeper now
'cause you're all i want
you are all i need
you are everything
...Everything...
...M.Y.A...
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[30 Mar 2004|05:31pm] |
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I've decided not to post anymore... so this is my last post... I've had a great time with you guys helping me and helping each and one another. I've realised some things just need to be kept to oneself... so the more I view LJ the more I want to post how I feel. I don't know if I post to get a reaction from people in a way reaching out or just cos I have nothing better to do... (((I don't know if that came out right.))) I don't even think I'm gonna post on your LJ's either... well I don't know for how long. All I know is that I need some me time. I'm not sure how long that will take.
Thank you all...and take curr...
jai
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[25 Mar 2004|06:04pm] |
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The Rainbow seems so far... I can't see the Silver Lining...
...my eyes are so blurry... i can't focus...
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[24 Mar 2004|11:24am] |
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I'm here just like I said, Though its breaking every rule I've ever made, My racing heart is just the same Why make it strong to break it once again? And I'd love to say I do, Give everything to you, But I can never now be true...So I say... I think I'd better leave right now Before I fall any deeper, I think I'd better leave right now, Feeling weaker and weaker, Somebody better show me how, Before I fall any deeper, I think I'd better leave right now...I'm here so please explain, Why you're opening up a healing wound again, I'm a little more careful, Perhaps it shows, But if I lose the highs, at least I'm spared the lows... Now I tremble in your arms, What could be the harm, To feel my spirit calm... I wouldn't know how to say, How good it feels seeing you today, I see you've got your smile back, Like you say your right on track, But you may never know why, Once bitten twice is shy, If I'm proud perhaps I should explain, I couldn't bear to lose you again... I think I'd better leave right now...I will...will I???
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...Listened to this song, I didnt pay attention to it before...
U got it, u got it bad
When you're on the phone
Hang up and you call right back
U got it, u got it bad
If you miss a day without your friend
Your whole life's off track
ooo you got it bad when you're stuck in the house
You don't wanna have fun
It's all you think about
U got it bad when you're out with someone
But you keep on thinkin' bout somebody else
U got it bad
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[20 Mar 2004|11:41pm] |
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[10 Mar 2004|10:09am] |
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Sometimes I forget where I am
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[09 Mar 2004|12:37pm] |
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Funny how life throws things at you RANDOMLY!!!
Basically I woke up to a phonecall… My friend Evelyn asked if I wanted to go to Manila! (First thought… is there a Manila in London? As in nightclub) She proceeded saying that she works for a freight company and that they need to get a machine part to Manila PHILIPPINES!!! I was like! “I just woke up and you’re springing me with this!”
Jai:
How did u get my number anyway?
Evelyn:
Called up Louie’s house and asked if they wanted to go. Louie said he couldn’t cos he cant get work off from work cos you guys are going to America
Jai puts perspective on things and has a con-fuzzled look on his morning face…
Evelyn:
…He said that you don’t do anything. So I thought if you’re a bum you might wanna go?
Jai:
Damn I’m working today and tomorrow… But what do I have to do and what’s it for?
Evelyn:
Well basically… we ship things… and we have a part that’s considered Hand Luggage…
Jai: Wonders if its drugs! Nah well has to be of some importance if there needs to be someone to personally guard it!
Evelyn:
So you can go there for a week and have a hotel etc… and its all paid for! Cos you can’t just go somewhere that far and come straight back! Might aswell enjoy it!
Jai:
I wish I could… but working today and tomorrow. And I really need the money!
I guess putting things in perspective… if I wasn’t aiming my guns at something right now… namely America/Hawaii then I would’ve just gone… but cos I have some targets now… I need to hit them… when they’ve been hit… I’ll move onto the next. But I guess if any opportunities come up that aren’t in direct sight of my objective… then I’ll do it. We never know what life’s gonna throw at us… guess its up to us to make that decision whatever that may be.
Bring It On Life! I can take YA!
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[18 Jan 2004|10:58am] |
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Well this is my world... where I am mostly... mostly!
Well firstly I didnt finsih my last... guess I didnt know what to say... Maybe soon... you'll understand... Can't wait though... gotta wait for the right time.
Other than that my past week had been very hectic... just found out mum's been telling some peeps that I just laze around... I guess its true to a certain extent... but in my own way I feel Im finding myself... I get more certain as days go by and my drive increases... thanks to a special someone... they know who they are... Watch this space i guess.
Yesterday was saturday... went with Louie... he was supposed to buy something for himself... he did... and ... something for me too! LOL....
( Sarah-Jane )
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[09 Jan 2004|10:51pm] |
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Now...if you could have a super-power what would it be?
Had a discussion at work... well more of a ramble... My mate was really upset at work... cos she's really pretty and has a really nice personality. Why was she upset? Cos someone touched her hair...Why did someone touch her hair?... Cos they later told me that "I think she has extensions!" I was like "what the f***!, No way!"... Proir to the discovery that she might have extensions, my mate kinda stormed off... I was like "whoa"... Later on when I spoke to her... she seemed really upset. She then told me that she gets it all the time!..."No I don't have extensions...yes, these are my real eyes? And of course my breasts are real!" I was like "ok" but she seemed utterly upset. She really took offence that someone picks at her... and the place where I work... presentation is everything... I mean would you buy some perfume off some scrappy un-groomed girl/guy... or a well spruced up dude/dudette... (thats wat I also hate about my job! Everyones soo fake!) It was just sad to see that even the prettiest of people have appearance issues... I continued to tell her that at the end of the day... why should u give a flying f*** what other people think...if you feel good...are happy with ones self...then thats all you have to worry about... cos when you start wondering what other people think... thats when you start picking yourself apart...right??!!??!!
Now you're wondering, "what does a superpower have to do with this?" To then take her mind off things I asked her "If you could have a super-power, what would it be?" Straight away I've always wanted to be able to 'fly' you know... like superman! But I then said that having the power to be able to read peoples minds and influence how they're thinking might be cool. She said that she would so not like to have that power! I was like why? She said ... cos then when you're with people you know... and to find out what they think about you, you'd be like "oh... so you don't like me" or "oh you think I'm like this and like that!" I was like... yeah thats true... but at least you'd know what people are really like...
I kinda know what people think of me... well kinda... I care and I dont care... I'm like yeah I know I fly straight... but I hate how people just label me... Ahhh man I sooo don't know what I'm chattin' about!
...Damn why do I think so much? (((thats why i get high blood pressure!)))
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| ...My First Entry... |
[03 Jan 2004|06:37pm] |
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... Well ... Thanks to a certain online buddy (Lani...x_posed!) I'm finally here... well not here as in online but at home typing ... errrr... well u knoiw wat I mean. So I welcome all to the Wonderful World of Jai...(don't get scared!) I know most the people will know me... obviously or else you wouldn't know to come to my journal... right? >>>RANDOM THOUGHT... Last time I tried to do some kind of journal I ended up doing for a week or something...just got bored... or was it cos I had nothing to say? Or maybe cos I was like 12????<<< Sorry... u guys will have to get used to all those kinda random thoughts and stuff from me!
...Oh teach me Obi-Lani...
"First thing u have to do Jai is get a place where u can upload ur pics... like Photobucket.com!" said Lani... There for I did! "Then u have to get the url ..." So I did "Then paste it into LJ" ...So... I did!!! hehehe
First attempt!!! Yep thats me!!!
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