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THE DARK KNIGHT [19 Jul 2008|06:08pm]


I've been waiting to see this movie since I finished watching the first installment, BATMAN BEGINS. I remember the way the movie ended, insinuating that the Joker was to make an appearance... Did he ever. At first I was skeptical - Tim Burton already tackled the character - Jack Nicholson portrayed the Joker in 1991's BATMAN, a flawless portrayal. Could Heath Ledger really live up to Jack Nicholson's Joker?
I'll be one of many to tell you, YES.
YES. YES. YES!!
It was brilliant. Every aspect of each character was so thoroughly enlightened and portrayed that you find yourself getting lost in Gotham City.
The Dark Knight is nothing short of dark. This new Batman series has clearly broken all cartoon-ish molds and stereotypes that are Superhero movies.
On Thursday night, at 10PM I waited in line to catch the 12AM show of The Dark Knight, and I've never been more thrilled. At 2hours and 35minutes, I didn't get home until well after 3AM. I was so pumped and left wanting more, more, MORE!
I have that same exact feeling I had when I left the theatre after watching BATMAN BEGINS.

I really cannot wait for the third installment.
Let's bring The Mad Hatter on to the big screen already!!
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[ Mardi Gras / Fat Tuesday ] [06 Feb 2008|12:50am]
[ mood | creative ]

There is so much swirling around in my balloned head these days. So much to do. So much to say.
Very little change.

I'm beyond aware of every little detail that not only should be different, NEEDS to be different.
And no matter what the day, what the occasion, I hold onto what I know with every ounce of strength in my grip.

CHANGE.

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good question. [17 Oct 2006|02:48pm]
hello all,

today is tuesday - all day - and it's raining and quite ugly outside. but that's okay... i have the day off and can quite frankly do whatever it is i want with it.
or so i like to believe...
i have a lot of things to do; many of them being things that i have to do, rather than want to do.
but like i said, it's a-okay.

i feel like i've lost a lot. maybe not so much lost, as losing...
at least its not myself this time.
its more like im losing friends and morals and support and perhaps my mind?
but not me, no. im still here with that same smirk and itchy facial hair.
im just so sick about it. confused about it.

is this really fate? is this really the way all of it is supposed to go down?

it breaks my heart to see you running around because i know you're living a lie.

by myself is where i belong.
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mary had a little lamb [24 Sep 2006|01:22am]
[ mood | awake ]
[ music | tool - stinkfist ]

all that lay anywhere, everywhere, was the stench of his clothes. it seemed to bounce off the walls and shoot up your nasal passage like a ridiculously amazing scent of the past, present, future - all of it, some of it, and then none of it. the tingles sparked relapses and beautiful memories of irreplaceable, hand-in-hand rendezvous. ones spent with bleeding passion and evelotuniary campanionship ... all of it... to be melted into a puddle of boiling hot passe bullshit? chewed and spat out? jerked off into the oblivious nightlife of prudish antics, scene queens, and bold, fruity little fag-insects who suck the living life-blood out of themselves and any other 'fairy princess' who prances in their way of the almighty diva-tron sketch-drama 101.
their bark is so much louder and much more obnoxious than their bite.

there's number 7 cigarettes and tequila somewhere.

...i'll be right back.

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lovestoned. [21 Sep 2006|10:12am]
[ mood | anxious ]
[ music | mac computers humming.... ]

im a really bad person...

lately ive been unimaginative, unattainable, inconceivable, unreliable, prudish, niave, vain, egotistical, irregular, and downright drunk.

.... forget about me.

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Case of the Mondays :: [11 Sep 2006|12:14am]
[ mood | bouncy ]
[ music | christina aguilera :: mercy on me ]

where'd the weekend go?

3 bottles of wine later, it's monday...

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..... not sure, exactly. [06 Sep 2006|12:15am]
[ mood | annoyed ]
[ music | justin timberlake :: losing my way (i know..cant get enuff) ]

so it's off to pape station and danforth avenue and i'm kind of haulting....
i'm just thinking, yanno. thinking about things and why this year has just been one giant trampoline bounce up into ... i dont know.
there are no answers, that's the thing. nobody can see me because... i think it may obvious now, i cant seem to see myself.

and then that creates another answerless question which i clearly dont have the ANSWER to.

i love autumn... (literally).

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oh, blogthings.. [26 Aug 2006|06:32pm]
[ mood | anxious ]
[ music | loosen up my buttons baby -AH HA- ! ]

You Are the Very Gay Bert and Ernie!

Two grown puppets living together, sleeping in the same room?
They've even got coordinating striped shirts!



Your German Name is:

Ludwig Thorsten


Your Celebrity Baby Name Is...

Cairo Whizdom


ha ha ha.

... I need to get laid. 9 pm couldnt come any sooner.
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announce m e n t // [25 Aug 2006|04:52pm]
[ mood | rainy day-ish. ]
[ music | tom petty :: saving grace ]

vforviola@hotmail.com

it's my new email address.
add. love. chat.


X


oh, and if you want to delete the old one, feel free. however, i do have some random log-ins to check mail and such.

peace out homies.
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call me when you're sober // [14 Aug 2006|11:53am]
[ mood | irate ]
[ music | none ]

Not much to say, but I feel I need to say it... whatever 'it' is...
So much is winding in one ear, out the other, and I may just be losing that sense of self yet again.

Third time's a charm, right?

Fuckkkkkkk



... Being together could ruin alot. Do I tell him anyway?

-Answerless.
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we'll be missing you. [08 Aug 2006|02:35pm]
Today is so nice and sunny and warm and should-be cozy and fun and perhaps refreshing with a few beers on a patio, or some sun tanning and a few tunes... a busy world, a non-stop metropolis, and an on-going life of hectic havoc that never seems to stop until you least expect it... and then, it's too late.
I feel the complete opposite of the weather today.
I feel grey, kinda dark, pretty sad, but liberated in a morbid sense. A sense of realism that's shooting up my spine, too fast for me to handle, and it overwhelms me with how cruel and sad and unfair our world of despair really is.

I hardly slept last night. All I could think about was that smile. And how we'll never see it again...

Life isn't always what it seems to be.

I lay there and felt empty. Why do I deserve to be here if someone like that doesnt? Someone so free-spirited and kind and full of positivity? It's all so unfair.
I didn't know what to do. I jerked off and lay there feeling vulnerable and naked and unreasonable. I felt my lucky, unappreciative ass deserved to feel that way. I got angry. Sad.
Just stunned and speachless and not sure what to do or say...
I Lay there for a good few hours until the light tears streaming down finally sealed my eyes shut for the night, and I slipped into dream-lapse.

You'll be forever missed, remembered, and honoured, Drew.

... What a life to take.

All my love.
Joey.
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... mon tete. [06 Aug 2006|12:44pm]
[ mood | amused ]
[ music | ray lamontagne :: crazy (check this song OUT!) ]

OOPS! I shaved it again...

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sudoku fever // [28 Jul 2006|09:28am]
it's really early in the morning (compared to the time of day i've been used to getting up this week) and there is alot on my plate for me to chew-up and swallow.


I'm too full to take another bite...
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thanks for the boredom cure, jen! [21 Jul 2006|10:35am]
[ mood | curious ]
[ music | prince :: little red corvette ]

1. What time did you get up this morning? 7:56 AM
2. Diamonds or pearls? Diamonds in my champagne glass, pearl necklesses on my boyfriends :O
3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? Pirates of the Caribbean 2: Dead Man's Chest
4. What's your favourite TV program? Ummm... dont' watch much... I like late night... Letterman and Conan O'Brian
6. What's your favourite cuisine? Anything Asian is great to go out for.
7. What foods do you dislike? Broccoli
8. What is your favourite crisp? Crispers! Duh.
9. What's your favourite CD at the moment? Thom Yorke - The Eraser
10. What kind of car do you drive? I'm a frequent Viva bus passenger.
11. Favourite sandwich? Oh man... Italian BMT (Bigger, Meatier, Tastier) at Subway.
12. What characteristics do you despise? Discrimination, obvious jealousy, and people who go out of their way to try and piss you off... for why?
13. Favourite item of clothing? I got some real nice new kicks.
14. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go? All OVER Europe, a bunch of cities in the states, and as much of Asia and Africa I can see without being held hostage.
16. Favourite brand of clothing? Doesnt matter, i just gotta like it.
18. Favourite time of the day? TIME TO EAT!
19. What was your most memorable birthday? 19th, so far.
20. Where were you born? T.dot.
21. Favourite sport to watch? Tennis, soccer, hockey, and that EXTREME show with the voiced over asians killing themselves for the most retarded victories ive ever seen! It's AMAZING!
22. Who do you least expect to send this back? Doesnt matter.
23. Person you expect to send it back first? Also doesnt matter.
24. What fabric detergent do you use? Sunlight, for shizz.
25. Were you named after anyone? My nonno Joe.
26. Do you wish on stars? I wish alot... but as for stars, not just any stars... they gotta be shooting.
27. When did you last cry? A month or two ago.
28. Do you like your handwriting? I like my printing better.
29. If you were another person, would YOU be friends with yourself? SURE!
31. Do looks matter? Always have... it's sad, but if you're a 400 pound whale who wears moo moos all year 'round... Jenny's waiting for you.
32. What were your favourite toys as a child? Oh man I had ALOT of toys, and ALOT of favourite ones... remember stretch Armstrong???!!!
33. Where is your second home? Yonge Street.
34. What class in school was totally useless? Religion. And Art... but not the class... the teacher.
35. What is your favourite perfume? Right now it's Ferrari (because wow...) but I'm always a sucker for anything Dior, and Jean Paul Gaultier.
36. What is your hobby? Masturbating.
37. What's your nickname? Joey, Joe, Purple, Fag (apparently), Joerella, Pepper, Peppino...
39. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? Next to never.
40. Do you think that you are strong? Chyah.
41. What's your favourite ice cream flavour? I get a new one everytime... but I used to be obsessed with French Crisp from Laura Secord. Wow.
42. What are your favourite colours? Always been black and blue, but green has been inching its way passed blue more recently.
43. What is your least favourite thing about yourself? My scarecrow figure.
44. Who do you miss the most? Umm... good question.
45. Do you want everyone you sent this to send it back? I SAID IT DOESNT MATTER!
46. What colour trousers/skirt are you wearing? Ripped blue jean shorts.
48. What are you listening to right now? John Melloncamp - Jack & Diane
49. If you were a CRAYON what colour would you be? Viola, duh.
50. Last person you talked to on the phone? Marc
51. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? Boobs.
52. Favourite drink? H20
53. Do you wear contacts? not even.
54. Favourite day(s) of the year? All depends whats going on that year.
55. Scary movies or happy endings? Scary movies! Even though they're not scary, and most of them are cliche and have happy endings anyways...
56. Summer or winter? Fall (i agree)
57. Hugs or kisses? wet ones.
58. What is your favourite dessert? COLOSSAL CHEESECAKE!
59. What book(s) are you reading? The Hitch Hiker's Guide to the Galaxy
60. What's on your mouse pad? Johnny Depp.
61. What did you watch on TV last night? I didnt actually... Maybe some cp24....
62. What's the farthest you've been from home? Pisa-Toscana-Italia.

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Happiness isn't a warm gun, afterall. [19 Jul 2006|11:00am]
[ music | the raconteurs :: steady as she goes ]

Behind the CN Tower's seemingly peaceful aura, there have been 17 shootings in the Greater Toronto Area this summer spanning from June 23 to the most recent shootings at what used to be Joker Nightclub on July 17.
Here's a (disturbing)list of Toronto's gun crimes this summer:

[June 23]
> 12:45 PM - Michael Laidley, 22, dies after being shot in his townhouse near Sheppard Avenue East and Neilson Road.

[June 24]
> 2:00 AM - A bouncer in his 30's is shot at the Brass Rail Tavern (stip club) on Yonge Street near Charles Street, following a dispute.

> 10:00 PM - Police probe shots fired on Shuter Street near Parliament Street and Dundas Street East. A man with gunshot wounds later walks (WALKS) to the hospital.

[June 25]
> 2:15 AM - Two men are wounded after being shot while standing on the corner infront of a 7-Eleven store on College Street and Spadina Avenue.

[June 26]
> 8:40 PM - A 42-year-old man is shot in the thigh in an attempted carjacking.

> 10:00 PM - A 15-year-old boy is shot in the back, leg, and buttocks at Pape and Gamble Avenues, south of O'Connor Drive.

[June 28]
> 7:45 PM - Two brothers are shot in a dispute on McClure Crescent, near Neilson Road and Sheppard Avenue East.

[June 29]
> 4:30 AM - A man is found shot in the Dundas Street East and River Street area. More shots are fired at paramedics and police arriving at the scene. Quinn Borde, 23, surrenders to police after two days and is charged with six counts of attempted murder.

[July 2]
> 4:00 AM - Jeffrey Lewis, 31, of Toronto is killed and another person is wounded in a shooting on Weston Road near Rogers Road. No arrests have been made.

[July 3]
> 9:40 PM - A man is shot on the 28th floor of the Westin Harbour Castle. Police later find four kilograms of cocaine at the scene. Sean Erez, 36, of Quebec, the shooting victim, is charged with drug offences. Two others are charged with cocaine possesion. No arrests have been made for the shooting.

[July 5]
> 2:15 AM - Dianna Sandeman, 27, is shot dead and her boyfriend is wounded in a double shooting in their car outside a west-end bar.

[July 8]
> 3:30 AM - a 29-year-old man is shot in the leg and abdomen at an apartment on Adanac Avenue.

[July 9]
> 3:30 AM - A man, believed to be in his early 20's, returns to the scene 30 minutes after being shot in the buttocks on Jane Street near Wilson Avenue.

[July 11]
> 9:30 PM - Kemar Brown, 22, of Toronto, is shot twice in the chest in a tinyroom above a vacant store on Church Street, south of Dundas Street.

[July 12]
> 7:23 PM - Gerald McDonald, 45, is shot to death in an apartment on Weston Road near Eglinton Avenue West. Charged with second-degree murder is Wayne Andre Powell, 20, of Toronto.

> 8:40 PM - Virgilio Cuevas, 31, and 56-year-old unidentified woman die after being shot in the head in a garage on Canoe Crescent.

[July 17]
> 2:00 AM - Kirk Giles, 30, is killed and a man and a woman taked to hospital with non-life-threatening injuries after a shooting at the VOLUME (formerly The Joker) nightclub on Richmond Street West near John Street.

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fyi [17 Jul 2006|02:15pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]
[ music | thom yorke :: the eraser ]

i have alot of pictures coming up of a lot of fun things ive done over the past week or two (or three?)...

it's been a while since a picture post, and i have alot of pictures that have accumulated from just before the Pride Parade.
And swimming in the sun (getting nice and dark), and downtown excursions, and the party on St. Clair when Italy won, and more parties, lots of drunken times, concerts, and the likes.

stay tuned.

same bat channel ;)

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Glory Hole // [12 Jul 2006|12:17am]
[ mood | intimidated ]
[ music | blue october // hate me ]

When you're stuck inbetween A and B, and you cant C your way out of it... What's the answer?
When your falling down into a ring of fire, going down down down and the flames go higher and it burns (a la Johnny Cash), what do you do, exactly? What will make the flames go down? What will make you go up up up, because right about now, I need to know.
It's getting hot in here.

The answers (whatever they are) reamin infront of my face, tickling my nose and taunting me with snickers (the synonym for laughing like a hyena, not the candy bar) that echo throughout my brain like a tennis ball being spanked back and forth on the court by Venus and Serena Williams.
That misunderstood!

... CAN YOU TELL I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE?

I think I should simply GO with my gut instict and admit that I have certain issues with what-shall-remain-nameless problems, and all of the above need to be addressed to whom it may concern as soon as possible, stat.

Or I will continue to be sleep-deprived, on-edge, ill-tempered, and paranoid.

I want need change.
And a hose to put out the flame.


...down down down

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A Z Z U R R I // F L U R R Y ! ! ! [10 Jul 2006|01:30am]
[ mood | ecstatic ]
[ music | lacuna coil - enjoy the silence ]

Today has been one L O U D honk.

I can still hear the irritating, shrieking sound my soccerball-whistle made (I love it!) I was on College Street and St. Clair Avenue for quite some time... what a party.
Definately got some pictures coming your way!

And WHAT A RUSH - let me tell you.

Growing up I was always really enthused by the World Cup, but I've always ended up abandoning all hope. I never thought I'd actually end up seeing the cute-ass boys who play for italian culture everywhere party like it's 1982 (our last World Cup Championship WIN!)
And here Sunday July 9 comes, with a bitter French team and an Italian victory that was sweeter than limone gelato from La Paloma.
No one in that tournament deserved the cup like the Azzuri did - and I say this based on watching 60%(give or take) of the matches in that tournament. NOT because I'm... yes, Italiano.
Although that helps ;)

It's Italian PRIDE, baby!





Count 'em baby... 4 time World Cup Champions!









And before I end this green, white, and red post, I must trash-talk Zinedine Zidane. For the mere purpose of making my opinion publicly known.

WHAT. THE. FUCK. WAS. THAT. HEAD-BUTT. ABOUT!?!?!
Is he some sort of bull; in DYER need of anger management?
One wouldn't be crazy in assuming so, now would they...
But I'm glad he's going to be remembered that way after doing what he did.
He's a raging, sore-losing lunatic.
I mean, I actually used to like (RESPECT!) Zidane! I found him to be an awesome football player and an even better star player on an already incredibly talented team.
Twist his nipple a little and boy do you ever turn on a French wife-beater.
His wife must LOVE getting into arguments with THAT.

Go fuck yourself Zidane... and pardon my French, too.

I'm signing off now...
(Can you tell I'm excited?)

ITALIA!

Numero UNO del mondo, 2006!



Buona notte.
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Not Quite Ready// [07 Jul 2006|12:38am]
[ music | radiohead :: talk show host ]



Just dont ask...
There's been alot (ALOT!) of up-up-ups and now the down-down-downs seem to be more vivid than any upbringing I've had over the past 6 months.
Somehow, someway, I've canoodled myself in this tiny little spiderweb of downward-funneling dispair...
Basically, I'm not putting my best foot forward - I'm actually immobile. At a red light.
But the light's green... It says walk.

Sometimes I sit there and I wonder why it all ended, and I wonder when the skies will tear open and a beam of never-ending satisfaction will embark itself in my embodiment forever-and-ever-amen. I really do. That way visa can go fuck itself school can go fuck itself pot can go fuck itself priority can go fuck itself reliability can go fuck itself boys can go fuck themselves girls can go fuck themselves boy-girls can go fuck themselves he can go fuck himself she can go fuck herself you---can go fuck yourself.
Everything will just fuck itself and I'll be happy, without a care, without a worry, without a priority or a reliability or a he/she bitch tramp scuzzy faggot with a crystal meth problem.
All that glitters (with fairy dust a la prostitute) is gold, and all that's gold can lick my right testicle and call me Zazu (yes, the bird from The Lion King).

Good night, so long, and see all of your sour man pussies in the bottom depths of lucifers flaming dungeon of HELL.

We'll dink Pina Coladas...
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I was right, Robin... [06 Jul 2006|12:37pm]
[ mood | bored ]
[ music | mobile :: out of my head ]

You Are Batman

Billionaire playboy by day. Saving the world by night.
And you're not even a true superhero. Just someone with a lot of expensive toys!

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