James

all we need is a punch in the face.

2005-06-01T10:05:56Z

holy hell. I have been lost without LJ. yay.

do you remember when it was quiet down here?

2004-01-13T20:28:49Z

look! i am here again! another fast from livejournal broken by the monotony of the office. Here's a word for the day:

Penultimate.

I know you like that, and if you didn't know, that means next to last. If i were in a race, i would probably not strive to win, but maybe to have the penultimate placing. Taste my pain.

i barely miss living in that selfish bliss

2003-06-16T18:47:13Z

today is my mom's birthday. I wonder what i should get her? Yep, i am one of those last-minute shoppers. Whatever i get for her, she is sure to hate it. So maybe i'll just give her a card. At least i remembered it's her birthday right?

I really wanted to hang out with Sarah this weekend, but i guess other things came up. Meh. I guess there's always this week eh?

i now have 3, possibly 4 bands going on. I need to pick 1 or 2. It's kinda shitty that everyone forgets that you exist until you start going to shows again. It doesn't take much to remember why you stopped going in the first place though.

today lunch was lasagna..mmmm.
bye

in the ashes of our greatest year

2003-06-12T19:18:28Z

So here's a thought for the day:

The peregrine falcon is so named because it is traditionally captured during its first flight, or venture, from the nest.

Interesting hmm?

I took an IQ test today, and i scored a 129. It said the average is 80-90. So, I am above average, but why do i feel so....average? My birthday is coming up very soon. If i only live to 46, i am middle-aged. That's a healthy thought too. I wonder what my mid-life crisis will be? I want a rascal scooter. That is all.

sonic bookmarks and bad scenes

2003-06-11T18:44:28Z

You guys ready for my lunch update today?

Turkey sandwich
doritos
cranberry juice

what a combo.

I wonder how many people hate me today? I wonder how many of them i will hate in return? Why is my office the cold one? I wonder what the temperature is in the Phillipines right now? What did it take to persuade an actor to be in a silent film? It seems there should have been a level of trust that doesn't exist in film today. After all, the editor can make the actor say whatever he wants in a silent film. Do women ever feel obligated to pay for the male on a date? Or feel obligated to drive? Why is that socially unacceptable while dating, but perfectly normal when married?

That is all for today,
emulate a good time.

send me an angel

2003-06-10T18:28:57Z

Entry #2:

today is the greatest day i have ever known
+ today is the worst day i have ever known
------------------------------------------------
it's just another day

MATH IS EASY

Today lunch is better, more healthy. Lisa (xtodayisinmywayx) is beautiful. I saw the photos. I have nothing to say, but fantasie impromptu is playing somewhere...that's by Chopin. My favorite.

i'm not cutting you down, i'm just carrying the axe

2003-06-09T18:33:24Z

hello my beloved livejournal world. Have you missed me? I feel we have grown apart in over the past year. Are you mad at me for neglecting you? If i had to apologize for leaving, i'd say it wasn't you...it was me. Can you forgive and forget? I have remembered and come back.

It's lunchtime and i am consuming a previously frozen pastry? That is what a hot pocket is correct? Bleah. Times like these i am glad my parents cooked for us growing up. I am grateful to be an 80s child, where you still had real meals. Macaroni & Cheese was the closest to "convenience cooking", and it still took 10 minutes or so. Now everything is processed, frozen and dehydrated for your convenience. I won't be surprised to see the average lifespan decrease significantly in the next 10 years.

I'm back, hello, and whatever.

-james-

I can't drive...55

2001-11-27T10:02:37Z

hmmm, had a great day. I was woken up this morning by my mother screaming at me (sometimes i wonder why i came back home....then i realize it's cheaper...or is it?) So, what's she yelling about? Money. See, i had a crappy little van in Louisiana that i drove (the bandwagon..heh..little joke...very little), and now it's up here. My father drove it down to texas one weekend and it broke down....completely. This was about 2/3 months ago. So, i am on my parent's insurance policy for this car. It is sitting in the garage here collecting dust. I have been bumming rides to and from work and whatnot. Well today i was told i owe 110 dollars for insurance on the car.(the car that has been broken for some time now). I refuse to pay for the reason that "i am not going to pay for insurance to continue to bum rides, and drive my mother's car once every 2 or 3 weeks" or when she needs a favor from me. So, my mom blew up, said "you'll never drive again, i am cancelling your policy" So, i am now permanently on the nike express or all-time shotgun..heh. Get this though....this is awesome. Following the insurance mess "don't think you are going to get away with not giving me any money....now you are going to have to pay rent....200/month". Now....i have no problem with paying for my own food, a portion of utilities, maybe a bit of the rent. However, 200 seems a bit excessive....considering it's where my PARENTS live!?!? Also i am in some debt (i aquire these all the time for those of you who personally know my parents...yet they never know what i owe them for, and the price continually increases). So, i have been paying off a 200 dollar debt for about 3 years, and gone a birthday and a christmas giftless because i requested my gift be an erased debt. Well, somewhere along the line this debt has become 700 dollars. When i ask "what did i spend 700 of your dollars on?" the only response is..."when you visited for christmas you made some calls back to louisiana". (this debt started over me changing my major in school. My mother said she would not have me changing my mind on what i want to study all the time and i was on my own from then on to pay for school, and i owe them 200 dollars because that's the amount they put into it..over the years it has even been as high as 1500 dollars...for what? i don't know. My mother throws in reasons from when i was about 9. My favorite one though..."you have to pay 100 dollars for your senior pictures"(i didn't even want senior pictures...she forced me to get them done and they damn sure didn't cost 100 dollars..it was fucking olan mills!!) So back to the lousiana phonecalls....I came home to visit for christmas last year, i called my house (the infamous 415) on new years...i talked for maybe 45 minutes...i am sure Jarrod and Chris remember that phone call, i spoke to both of them. How that phonecall ended up costing my mom 700 dollars is beyond me, but this is the kind of unreasonable shit i deal with everyday, and part of the reason i moved out to begin with. I am only bitching about this here because i'm still pissed about it. When i arrived back at home in june the phone bill was only 400 dollars. What gets me....my parents have AT&T Long Distance, and unless they started charging like phonesex sites for long distance calls, i figured the bill would be 30-40 bucks...like it is for them. I guess i got the magical 900 number long distance service though. Anyway, that's beside the point. The fact is, I came home hoping they wouldn't do this shit and try to make sure i never have any money, but i had a feeling they would, and Chris Welch even predicted it would happen. I have made a 150 dollar payment to my mother to get her to stop harassing me, and look what happened...i now owe almost twice as much. Hah. Damn i need to move out again. Shit shit shit.

wooh another fun survey

2001-11-08T13:18:42Z

A-Age: 21
B-Best Friend: my brother..or sister
C-Choice of meat: chicken...(not fried..blah)
D-Dream Date: ever seen mallrats? The Batman scene.
E-Exciting Adventure: driving to boulder today
F-Favorite Food: chinese
G-Greatest Accomplishment: i have many
H-Happiest Day of Your Life: quite a few
I-Interests: if you know who i am..you know
J-Joke: blind man walks into a store with a seeing-eyed dog...starts swinging it around his head..when asked what he's doing says "looking around"
K-Kool-Aid: i mix weird flavors
L-Love: stinks,hurts,scars...hmm can't think of any other 80s song references
M-Most Valued: life?
N-Name: blarg i am a creature
O-Outfit You Love: clean clothes.
P-Pizza Toppings: monkey wafers.
Q-Question Asked To You the Most: what's wrong? or...are you really gay?
R-Radio Station: the all suck
S-Sport: skateboarding/soccer/freestyle walking/golf
T-Television Show: ummmm...mr. show
U-Umbrella in the rain?: no
V-Video: the goonies
W-Winter: snowboarding...oh shit yeahaea
X-X-rays recently?: mighty creative !!!...why didn't you just write Xylaphone with a question mark?
Y-Year Born: 1980
Z-Zodiac Sign: cancer

I see you for what you are and i am not amused

2001-11-08T12:35:10Z

So i haven't posted in a while. I haven't felt like it. I think i should write another one though, being that i have something to say. I have noticed Summer has been having some problems lately (her car, work, family, etc.) I think the Karma Police are catching up. Everyone...let this be a lesson, why you shouldn't be a bitch. So i also heard she has a new boyfriend...he's more "punk" and all that bullshit. I know him...huge Crass fan. Jimmy Action Z as she referred to him in a recent post. As much as i hate the word "posuer"...i have found my exception to the rule. I have met the most shallow, lascivious, and transparent person alive....that person being Summer. So i had a very short-lived relationship with summer just recently. I didn't know her going into it (a mistake i will never make again). It's funny, because normally i am picky about girls. I think alot of them are hot...but...if they don't have a certain personality i don't ever consider them for a girlfriend. With that said..i haven't had very many girlfriends obviously. I can still count them on both hands. Well, Summer was an interesting one...she came into it complimenting me like mad, and she is an attractive girl. I was a little off-balance for the reason that i don't get a whole lot of compliments like that...and people aren't usually as blunt about romantic interest. So, i went for it. Anyway, it didn't last very long...she found another guy that was more "punk" so she could learn more about the wonderful world that is punk. If you look at her previous posts she even made a comment like "i am soo happy i am punk" or something to that effect. It made me pretty sick anyway. "punk" is just a fashion...it is a trend. It is now more mainstream than anything else. Britney spears has her own line of "punk princess" clothes(two words that should never be put together)...i used to work at a store where they sold it. 14 year old girls ate that up. I love how propaghandi is listed as the music for her last post. Now i guess she'll claim to be socially active, and PC. If anyone has ever spoken to her online..you know all the little smiley faces and lol's. Maybe she'll stop with that soon because it's not "punk". I am hoping she learns as much as she can from "jimmy action z" before she finds someone a little more conducive to her conformity. I really hope she learnes that punk is fake, and she is following suit with everyone else in the gigantic "independant collective" that is the punk scene. Before anyone writes this off as "oh james is just bitter" think about it (for those of you who know summer), i am not that far off base. Everyone knows that summer is a very very shady/fake person... She's trying to get as far away from her previous scenester persona as possible. Also, to say the Ataris are the "punk" band that got you into it all... The ataris would sport the "punk princess" "i like shy boys" "you say bitch like it's a bad thing" shirts if they were female...i wouldn't be surprised if they wear it anyway for the blink182 factor. Those guys are either almost in or in their 30s and they are singing about fucking high school and puppydogs and ice cream, trying to come off as big sweeties so they can fuck their groupies. Pop-punk is exactly what it is..pop rock with a "bad boy/bitch" personality...expressed in the clothing and the "attitude". So by saying you are a "punk" summer, you label yourself and strive to be independant at the same time... Punk Rock was the new york dolls and the sex pistols and the velvet underground, the ramones, etc... Those were loud rock bands with a "bad boy look/attitude", Hell, the sex pistols were formed by a fashion designer to sell a look. It worked. Somwhere along the line pop culture worked it's way into the fashion, and pop punk is the result. The lamest music ever, the trendiest "underground" clothing brands, and a shitload of costume jewelry. I am not a punk, i will never be a punk, and i am happy with that. I like music that is labelled punk rock(i didn't label it), i skateboard because it's a challenge, and it's fun...I wear skatebrand clothes and etc. because i support my interest, and i play in a band that has been labelled "punk rock" because it is loud, fast, and socially-oriented lyrically. Anyway....the moral of my rant:

don't try to be someone you aren't just to fit in.dress punk

or

THINK FOR YOURSELF.DRESS PUNK

1984 anyone? in the words of the great band fast to nowhere "this is an orwellian nightmare"

summer....you live in a glass house.
what's the cliche'? You can't afford to be a bitch if you are naked in a glass house? good enough.

look look how raver i am

2001-11-04T08:02:35Z

I am 12% Raver.

Have I even been to a rave? I'll go home. Loser. I suck. Actually, I am probably just a normal person taking this test and don't know why.

Take the RAVER Test at Fuali.com!

heh...i have never been to a rave and i dislike most techno-ish music(it's not music)noise.

Hippies, Patriots, and "a whole lotta nukes"

2001-10-08T10:47:11Z

Today is one of the worst days i have ever had. With that said i feel now i should maybe explain. I talked with a few people about this briefly. While at work today (the lovely Sam's Club) i was informed by almost every other customer that America is at war and have officially dropped bombs on Afghanistan. It wasn't jut left at that either. I would have preferred that was the entire conversation. No, what happened is every American flag t-shirt sporting person that came through my checkout line seemed to have no compassion or no respect for human life. Comments like "It's about damn time we got those guys"...."i have been waiting for Bush to bomb their asses since day one"...."I'll bet Bin Laden thinks differently now huh!?!"...."The Lord is with us today"(this one made me sick). See, also being a cashier at sam's i am not paid to think, so my comments had to be kept to myself no matter how much i wanted to scream at these people. So i was a wreck while driving home...i walk in the front door...my dad is on the couch and says "HEY!! Did you hear!?!?", "their after Bin Laden now". I made a comment like "what else is new? or Again?" or something to that effect..i don't remember what, regardless my response to that triggered a few questions from my dad. "what? you don't think they should catch him?"

I think Bin Laden should pay for his actions....end of story. What i don't think is that we needed to bomb Afghanistan. I am totally opposed to bombing anything. I think it's an inhumane form of attack, and you can't control weapons of "mass destruction". So my dad says "OH i get it, (like he has me all figured out) you are opposed to harming or killing anything or anyone right?" in a general meaning, and an idealistic, or utopian society yes. So this is the proceeding arguement from my fther "you know, a group of people used to have ideas like yours...do you know what they were called? Hippies. They were all about peace and love and drugs....and they sucked the life out of this country...they are the liberal people who are anti-everything that made this country into the weakened state it is currently in" (how nazi-esque does that sound?) He proceeded to give me a nice little analogy "suppose you have this guy all about peace and ani-violence protesting on a street corner, and this guy walks by and hears the talks of peace and whatnot...so he walks up to the man and punches him in the face (to which my response was "that guys a dickhead"). The protester gets all pissed off and says "why'd you hit me, i don't believe in voilence..etc.." So when the protester calms down and feels like "the better man" the assailant punches him in the face again. Eventually the "hippie" will fight back...because it's human nature..it's a survival instinct". So that was the lovely analogy my father gave...so i gave mine.

"first off, if a man came and assaulted the protester...yes...self preservation does play a key factor in that..and retaliation is understandable being that..obviously that man has NO SOUL. What it doesn't mean is that the protester has the right to shoot the other man as a form of retaliation. Or (Bush's plan) to shoot all of that man's family and friends and anyone who has ever been in contact with that man on a friendly level...aquaintance or not." I am not a hippie, they were wrong. Liberal-minded yes....but not every liberal person on earth is a hippie....hooray for stereotypes indeed. So, the debate heated up...and my parents were trying to corner me in my views and opinions and disprove everyone of my views....but they couldn't make my ideas out to be "wrong" so they got hostile. This was my little brother's take on all of it (he was just listening to the whole arguement) "you guys (my parents) are just running in circles with all of this, and some of what you have said is very very stupid and i know for a fact you don't really believe it. The reason you are getting so pissed off is because you can't disprove or label a "conscience" or "common sense" as wrong, but you are definately trying." That was the most philosophical/intelligent thing my little brother has ever said, and the first time i heard him take a side in a disagreement. It was nice to hear someone else see my ideas as "common sense". So my parents started in on him and accused me of putting thoughts into his head. HAH! Then this is how the arguement went. Direct quote from my mother "anytime you think you are right...you are wrong. That is allways how it will be". That was the stupidest thing i think anyone has ever said to me...at that comment my brother and i started laughing uncontrollably. Which made my mom crack a smile, however my litle brother beat me to the retort...which was "so what you are saying is......if i am in school, and i am taking a test..no matter how right i know i am on an answer...i am wrong?" According to my mom "that's different" yet she couldn't explain in anyway how. So then enters my father into the discussion agin after he had said "i can't even talk to you, and the only reason you think this way is because of your naivety and self-righteous attitude...you are just not as educated in the world as your mother and i". My whole arguement was based on how "it doesn't have to do with the degree of education you have..it should be common sense", and the previous quote from my father was his final verdict. So my dad re enters the arguement to say people with mine and my brothers views are what is wrong with this country, and my mom and him start into both of us...preaching in a very fascist manner, so i walked away, and my brother screamed "shut-up". My mom broke down into tears and said "i can't believe i raised you kids, and it's reasons like this that i wish i never had children". So i felt very loved...naturally. About 20 minutes later my dad came downstairs in a false sense of humility to say "do you REALLY believe all of what you said today? Because you destroyed your mother." When i said "yes", he decided to try and force some other form of guilt on me by saying "you just disagree with your mother and i to the point where you don't know what you are talking about...and it's not that you are "right" that has upset us..it's your level of ignorance...and that is why your mother is crying".
Now, i left out alot of the arguement, and only put the main idea of the arguement in writing...but damn. I like to think i am a somewhat intelligent person, and when i form an opinion, i don't do so until i know enough about the topic to feel comfortable talking about it. If there is one thing i hate it's when people try and argue about something they don't know enough about to have an arguement. Well, apparently i am a fool, and in that, my brother is a fool, and anyone who has any sort of heart or soul...we are all fools, and we are a doomed species.
-james-

don't you know i'm good for nothing?

2001-10-06T10:56:44Z

wooh, it's almost 5am. I just got back from a keg party with cheryl. There were soo many people there. There were times i couldn't even move because of the people there. It kinda sucks when a party is that crowded, and you are one of the few sober people. So i met a cool guy named Patrick, he was very nice, very professional guy. Seems to know what he wants from life...i admire that. Also i talked to Cheryl's old roomate, Erica. I had forgotten that she went to our first concert here in the springs. According to Cheryl she really enjoyed the show...when i talked to her she said she really enjoyed it, but she doesn't normally listen to that genre of music. That's really cool. I'd say my biggest goal as a musician is to reach people that would normally not listen to our kind of music. It makes me feel better about being in a band and myself when i hear that we have done that.
So last night we played with a band from Chicago called Jinx Pack, they were really good, and the coolest guys to talk to. They reminded me of Old Face to Face stuff, and the more poppy Strung Out stuff. There website is www.jinxpack.net
They said they were very impressed with our band, but in all honesty i think they put on a much better show than we did last night...they even played Motley Crue's "kickstart my heart" fucking awesome. We gave them everything we were paid for the fact that the show was small, and they needed the cash for their tour...every dollar helps. I hope to meet up with them again someday.
Well, Patrick and Erica (i guess they are dating) are going to our show on friday hopefully. I think i will make some more flyers for this show. If people are lucky i will make more promo cd's and pass them out at populated places like i did when we first got here. Welp, i think that's all i have to say today. It was pretty uneventful until tonight. So in the Immortal words of Joey Cape (lagwagon) "bye for now"
-james-

cut myself today....it's all for you

2001-10-04T09:15:06Z

Start...
1. What kind of chair are you sitting in?: A chair that makes my ass hurt
2. Do you have a fireplace?: yes 2
3. Do you light fires in it on Christmas Eve so Santa burns his little backside off, you cruel and heartless grinch?: hmm...they are gas fireplaces, and i hate you(whoever made this survey).
4. Do you think they should make purple m&m's instead of those ugly brown ones?: did i allready say i hate you? because i do so much more now.
5. Do you share your m&m's in a false sense of generosity, but really keep all the blue / green / orange ones for yourself?: you are not scoring any points with me
6. Do you think French women should just assimilate and shave their legs?: i know a whole 0 french girls and none of them would like me anyway so i dont give a shit.
7. What is the Pythagorean Theorem?: c2 = b2 + a2
8. What do you think about toe socks?: socks with toes? no doubt a product of slave labor..fuck that shit
9. What about guys who wear toe socks?: hmm....probably homosexual
10. Do you floss daily?: yep
11. Does your mother still pack your lunch?: i'm 21 goddammit
12. And HOW old are you?: see above
13. Do you have all your fingers?: yes
14. Do you think it's right for someone's mother to pack their lunch?: more power to the helpless asshole
15. What is in your mouth RIGHT NOW?: cookie..oreo
16. Does that include dental work?: no
17. What did you get on your SAT's?: didn't
18. What do you think about guys who wear nail polish?: ok
19. If you are / were a guy, would you ever wear nail polish?: yeah
20. Name somewhere you would LOVE to have sex: cemetary
21. another: church
22. another: trapeze
23. another: a boat in the middle of nowhere..in a tropical storm.
24. Have you run out of ideas yet?: no have you?
25. Do you take any medication?: aspirin, ibuprofen, when i have a damn headache
26. Is it LEGAL medication?: yeh asshole it is
27. Have you ever cut your own hair?:no
28. Has your home ever burnt down?: no
29. Do you know Liam O'Donnell?: no

What's Your Favorite...
30. soup?: chicken and stars, or chicken with rice
31. underwear?: clean
32. opposite (or same, whichever way you swing) sex underwear?: clean as well
33. bread?: wheat
34. cereal?: well, hmm i can't drink milk...i'd say the best is cinnamon life though..by far. I almost ate a whole box one time...ask chris yarbrough. There were life squares all over his living room :)
35. font?: bluecake? i have used several fonts for schtuff, and that's the coolest looking one
36. garden tool?: eat me
37. breed of dog?: beagle...snoopy-like
38. cheese?: cheddar? i dont give a shit about cheese
39. song by Korn?: blind..that so rocked 8th grade

Have You Ever...
40. Used 16 point font or triple spaced a term paper to make it seem longer?: no.....moron
41. Did the teacher fall for it?: why did you just ask something stupid like that and then think you allready knew what the answer would be...you suck and i hate your family as well now.
42. read "Sparknotes" instead of the real book?: no..i like to read
43. Do you consider any of that bold-faced CHEATING?!?!: get bent
44. dialed a rotary phone?: yes
45. run away from home?: no
46. brought an animal home and questioned, "Mum, can we keep it?": no..i am not british.
47. considered becoming a nun?: no
48. Kissed someone of the same sex?: no
49. Did you like it?: there you go again...dont ask stupid shit like this...god i wanna know who made this damn survey.
50. seen Rocky Horror Picture Show in the theater?: yes..i was in it recently
51. Are you a transvestite?: no
52. Do you know any?: no
53. gone trick-or-treating and been given something OTHER than candy?: rocks wrapped in aluminum foil...ooh and a lump of coal from the pissed off santa claus...fucking retard.
55. drooled in your sleep?: yep
56. kicked someone in the nuts?: yeh..i play soccer..that happens
57. Was it intentional?: you just got the stupid look...i think there were 3 blinks that time.
58. been kicked in the nuts?: yes..many times
59. blown something up?: yeh
60. Was it in the microwave?: no...it was the millenium falcon

Almost Done...
61. Do you ask people things you shouldn't?: yeh sometimes
62. Do you tell people things you shouldn't?: yep
63. Ever run up the down escalator or down the up escalator?:yep
64. How often do you brush your teeth?: very often..sometimes up to 5 times daily
65. When was the last time you went to the doctor?: a long time ago
66. Why were you there?: to get a metal fragment removed from my leg
67. Do you write reminders to yourself on your body with ink?: no
68. Do you hate spiders?: no...but they scare me often
69. What do you think of oral sex?: cool
70. Was that last question intrusive?: yeh
71. Should we turn Pakistan into a big parking lot?: no you fucking nazi
72. Do you celebrate Christmas?: yep
73. If so, do you have a REAL tree?: no
74. What color are your towels?: mostly red or black
75. What color are your toenails?: bone colored
76. Do you ever go "commando"?: i have sometimes on laundry day
77. Do you think bisexuals are "cooler" than straight people?: i think you are a moron and i hope you never have children you pathetic example of earth's organic heritage.
78. Are the "quotation marks" getting "annoying"?: no..but the creator of this survey has pissed me off from the beginning
79. Do you IM people or wait for them to IM you?: eat my ass
end.

inventory = sesame street (1 ah ah ah, 2 ah ah ah, etc.. ah ah ah)

2001-10-02T06:32:02Z

Tonight was inventory at the lovely Sam's club. Fucking hell, it is surprisingly hard to count gigantic items. heh. so i went in to work at 3 pkm, and i just got off, a little after midnight. It's been a while since i wrote anything on live journal. We wrote a new song for RuR, Tommy even posted about it in our news section, and we have purchased a .com so, within the next few months there will be a www.raisedunderreagan.com. We are in the creative process of the site...so it may be a while. We are completely redoing it because we decided the bigstep site isn't as cool as we would like. Hmm, what else? A guy at work that coaght our last show came up to me today..i haven't seen him since the show. He said we are the second best band ever...first being pennywise, and he's slightly biased because he is from their hometown. Anyway he wanted to tell me that we put on the most energetic live show he's ever seen by a small-time band, and compared to the other bands that night we were incredible. I thought that was really cool of him. Being that he doesn't know much about the punk rock genre and doesn't keep up with what he does know of it. He said pretty much as far as punk rock goes, he likes pennywise, and bad religion, and a few other bands..mostly local california bands. So he gave me a few dollars for a cd also, because he had to leave our show early. I really thought that was very cool of him because i thought that wasn't one of our better shows. We did get a few songs video-taped nicely though, and we will have them on the web soon. So that should be cool. Hmm, gee, i can't think of anything else to ramble about. so i guess that's all for todays entry.
-james-

Guns don't kill ducklings, ducklings kill ducklings

2001-09-21T11:58:37Z

hello again,
well first off i would like to apologize to cheryl. I was supposed to hang out last night but i slept from 5pm until about 3 am. I had been running on about 4 hours of sleep, and there was nothing to do...soo i fell asleep. Sorry Cheryl!!

and here's something for everyone to think about. I refuse to watch television during this crisis simply because of the media's coverage of it. Everytime i have seen it i get pissed off. This is why. Has anyone noticed that the news is allways extremely one-sided? Especially CNN and virtually all other forms of mass media. Does it ever occur to people that the news and media is a business that provides entertainment? It all comes down to "money". How do they make the money? through stories that will run or grasp the attention of the viewer. Almost all mainstream media is owned and controlled by conservative capitalists that only have dollar signs in view. So the media runs with the stories that are fed to them by the government and whatnot even if they are extremely one-sided. Did anyone listen to their parents when they said "don't believe everything you see on TV"?
No one ever listens to an activist talking about reform and whatnot because everyone feels that we are in america "land of the free, and the home of the brave" everyone is free to do and say what they want. That is true to some degree, but think hard about this. If you go out and tell a million people what is wrong with america no one will stop you because you have no clout. Suppose the reporters on CNN come on tomorrow and say "America! it is time for a revolution, the democracy has overstayed it's welcome and allowed capitalism to suck the life out of the working class". Those people would be fucked over so bad...first off they would lose their jobs, and they would probably be arrested....and for what other reason than speaking freely? Isn't that against the "constitution"? Suppose they don't go to jail...they would be silenced somehow.

quoting justin from anti-flag "life must be so easy when you don't have to think, black and white-like printing from the newspaper's ink. I wish i had a chance to reveal all the lies, but everyone's so brainwashed would it even help to try?"

It makes me so mad when i think that America has brought this on itself(which it has), But it wasn't those people who were killed that are responsible...and that is soo depressing i can't even describe it in words. I know that most people question "how could afghanistan hate america so much"? It's because the people have been sheltered through the democracy...why is there a such thing as "top-secret" in a country that is meant to be free? What secrets would make us more "safe" if we didn't hear them? The truth is most of the "secrets" kept from the people are things that would make people question if how our country operates is indeed the "best form of government". I know i have heard that ever since grade school. Democracy is the best form of government..the most civilized, etc. Why? If you haven't looked into how democracy operates in real life (besides the text-book version) how can that be true? That is blind faith in it's purest form, which i like to see as being blissfully ignorant. The same goes with religions. The way the people believe in democracy is the same as christianity and the like. How can people condemn another faith or religion as wrong, or bad if they know nothing about it? It happens all the time. I just spent the last year of my life surrounded by southern baptists. They are the most cultish form of christianity i have ever seen. I'd say 80 percent of them are the most narrow-minded people i have ever talked to in my life. Anyway, back to the subject at hand... Secrets are kept from america because of the way the media is controlled. When is the last time you heard a CNN special report about american soldiers testing bombs killing thousands of civilian natives in another country? Do you hear reports about how armed american troops occupy over 70 percent of the world? This is the truth...and it happens daily. We don't hear about it because it damages the reputation of this country....so instead the officials will give the crew another story to chase. How would you feel if you had an armed british militia group set up at the end of your street? Even better, what if they practiced war games over there with live ammunition? Isn't this what our country rebelled against in the beginning? British occupancy of america? What makes us different going into other countries and setting up camp and "regulating"? This country was built on freedom, yet we take so many other countries freedoms away. You will occasionally hear a news report about a fanatic risen to power in another country and he has taken the people's freedoms away. So America goes over and gets rid of the problem right? Wrong. There is a reason that fanatic has risen to power...because people support him. So by getting rid of the fanatical leader you have just enraged all of his supporters, and most likely incited a civil war. That sounds great to me(maximum levels of sarcasm)... So after that fact you leave troops there as "peacekeeping" forces. What are they meant to do? They supress any resistance....that's a nice way of saying murder. What if during the civil war in america some other bigger nation out there thought the union was taking away the freedom from this country? So they stepped in and killed Lincoln and remained in the middle supressing any workers that rebelled or any Union troops? It doesn't seem right to me. Maybe this will inspire some thinking, I know all of my friends are intelligent. That is all.
-james-

capitalism is indeed organized crime and we are all the victims...

2001-09-20T07:19:34Z

wow this is soooooooo....superficial, forgive me if some answers are incomplete

3 Things You Like About Your Body:
1 - fuck this question
2 -
3 -

3 Things You Hate About Your Body:
1 - all of it
2 -
3 -

3 Things You Like About Your Personality:
1 - my humility...enough said
2 -
3 -

3 Things You Wish You Could Change About Your Personality:
1 - i am too depressed all the time....fuck
2 -
3 -

3 Things You Would Do With A Million Dollars Cash:
1 - give it all away....no one needs that much money
2 -
3 -

3 Things You Never Want To Do/Have Happen To You:
1 - there's so much...i can't specify
2 - it's all pretty obvious
3 -

3 Things You Want To Do/Have Happen To You Before You Die:
1 - get married someday
2 - change the world
3 - be able to support myself and family with my music

Do you have any piercings?: no

Any tattoos?: nope see previous survey

Do you like candles?: definately

Do you like hot wax: no

Do you like incense?: not fond of it, but i dont care

Do you like the taste of blood?: no..too metallic

Fetishes?: haha

Biggest turn on?: intelligence

If you could meet anyone famous in the world, (i.e: they've been on television, or in a book, movie, etc...) who and why?: Holden Caulfield.....i think we'd turn out to be good friends. J.D. Salinger is the man.

What song is stuck in your head right now?: Underground Network - Anti-Flag

If you could get away with it and murder anyone, who and for what reason?: this is stupid

Person you wish you could be with right now?: there are several and i believe you know who you are.

What/Who is next to you?: my bed

What do you want done with your body when you die?: i dont care..whatever's cheapest

Do you believe in love?: yes

Do you believe in soulmates?: yes

Do you believe in love at first sight?: no..that is called lust.

Do you believe in Heaven?: i like the idea
Do you believe in Hell?: i dont like the idea

Do you believe in any of the following: Santa Claus, The Easter Bunny, The Tooth Fairy or Jesus Christ?: i dont care
In the past 24 hours, have you:

Flashed someone?: oh you know me...call me carnal james. *sigh*

Mooned someone? see adove....lame lame lame

Tried to kill yourself? is this important?

Tried to kill someone else? i don't feel i need to even dignify this question with a response.

Told someone you hated them? no

Told someone you loved them and didn't mean it?: no

Taken a shower?: yes

Hugged someone?: no

Kissed someone?: no

Had sex?: no

Been drunk?: no

Been high?: no

Been in a fight?: no

Sang?: yes..poorly (unfortunately)

Danced?: no

Made someone laugh?: maybe?

Has someone else made you laugh: yes

Had a philosophical conversation?: indeed

Contemplated suicide?: no

Wished on a star?: no

Fantasized about someone?: this isn't important..but sure

Would you rather....:
Be in the Mountains or at the Beach?: both mountains/winter, beach/summer

Have someone break up with you or break up with someone?: i dont care..if it's not working both parties should see it...then it doesn't matter who does it.

Be caused physical pain or cause someone physical pain?: be caused

Be alone or with someone else?: depends on my mood

this was very trite, unoriginal, lame, uninformative, and probably the worst survey i have ever taken. that is all :)

sunshine,lollipops and rainbows, everything that makes me feel so happy......... bah

If you can't stand above the water then I'll see you on the ocean floor.

2001-09-20T06:33:44Z

Hey all you people in internet-land. Here I feel like god....when i turn off my computer you all cease to exist. Heh. j/k

So tonight we had our first practice in about 3 weeks. It was very shitty. I haven't ever been nervous about playing a show because i was afraid of the sound. Well, I think it's all because this is not our real drummer. Andy is back in Louisiana, he had a lease with friends he wanted to uphold his end of the deal before coming back this way. So hopefully the 27th goes well. We just sounded very sloppy tonight... It was like we forgot what playing with each other was. It sounded shitty to..couldn't get a good blend. Anyway, that's enough about that. I hope the 27th goes well. I have a feeling it will.

I want to let everyone know cheryl is awesome!! She made heaps of flyers for me! That is awesome! I'll fill out the survey thingy here soon Amber. Today has been an allright day. Other than the band practice. I really dont know what i want to write about in this entry. My grandparents have left so i know have a bed again. That's a good thing. I have felt very creative lately...so i think i am going to delve into that a little more. Maybe write a few songs for myself :) I'll make sure they are emo...HAH! I am kidding. As Damian Burford so nicely put it..."Emo is like the little tiny rock in your shoe that you take off the shoe and shake it around and no pebble comes out..you feel around in there...no pebble, and then you put your shoe back on and the little bastard is still there." Well put Damian. Well, that's my entry for today...sorry it's kinda boring. Next time i will try and bear more of myself. :)
-james-

We are.........138

2001-09-15T17:09:53Z

Hello all you crazy kids. Wooh, so My next day off is Monday. Woooh!! Anyone in the Colorado area at this time i would like to inform you of coming attractions. On thursday (not this one, next one) the 27th, Raised Under Reagan is playing at Industrial Nation. 9pm and all that good shit. 3 measly little dollars. So you peeps at UCCS be sure to inform all that appear the least bit "punk" of this awesome spectacle, shin-dig, or what ever cliche' term you feel is appropriate. Chris Martin, this is an excellent opportunity to talk to girls (we should go hand out flyers at UCCS one day with Cheryl and make her talk to all the cute ones for us). I know if i went to hand a flyer to a girl i thought to be cute all that would come out would be "eh..um..flyer...show...i.....punk rock......uh..yeh....cute...not a jew....bellybutton.....gotta go"
pathetic i know. So i have heard alot of peopel comment on how they don't like Industrial Nation. Personally, I have no problem with it, and i am grateful to Sherry for having a place in town that allows punk rock to be played. The club may not be the most glamorous...but have you been to the highlifehouse? In Shreveport the only place we could play was the basement of an art studio.....the basement was condemned. We were constanly hassled by cops and shut down on several ocasions. I admit that Sherry (the owner of indy nation) does look scary and sort-of on the "nazi" side of things....but i have talked to her on several occasions now and she is very nice. She is also very humble in the dealings with her club. I had a discussion with her about why there is a low turn-out at shows there...she says she has had the problem before, and for some reason people single her out as reason to dislike the place...but i think the problem lies in the atmosphere....if she had enough people come out, she would move to another location though....a vicious circle. The place is dank, and dirty, but at least the ceiling isn't falling on us when we play, and we have room to move. The sound system is better than most we have played through. Given, I would love to play at the coloado music hall, or the underground(which is a glorified basement), but i have found the people in charge at those venues have been bigger assholes than anyone else..and for what reason? Because they think their place is the shit. The Music Hall are a pack of money-grubbing assholes..when i finally got to tlk to someone after 2 weeks of calling them, they were going to rent the hall to us for a night for near $1000. What fucking bullshit...all these local bands play there and you know they didn't rent that fucker out...so i guess if we kiss enough ass we can play there, but unlikely since i don't play that game. It's bullshit that a band should pay to play a concert...since they are the ones bringing in any profit for the ungrateful fuckers in charge. The Underground says "umm, you're gonna have to go through our booking manager here...but i think he's booked for a good 3 months and you need to give him a demo(bullshit). Those guys 48ribs have played there twice and have only been a band for about 2 weeks (direct from their mouths) and they haven't even made a shitty demo recording. So when i hear people bitch about shows being at industrial nation it kinda pisses me off...for one, the club is not half as bad as places we have played before, and secondly, because Sherry is the only one in this town that actually gives a shit about the music scene. She told me she books so many obscure bands because it's not about profit(amen and i praise you), but it's about exposure. She says the bands touring through come to her and say they were turned down at the other venues in the springs, and when she looks at the bill for the night..it's a bunch of local bands that were playing the places that turn these TOURING BANDS down. I don't know..but it only makes sense that a band from out of town has priority over a local band..or am i wrong in this assumption? What i mean by that is...how many times has everyone here seen Dr. fucking NO? Yet they are headlining a show the same night a band from new york or such asks for a date. Is it too far below these local bands to open for a national group? That's not very hospitable of the scene here. Also, for a scene full of open-minded people (by that i mean the punk rock scene) that is one of the most narrow-minded things i have ever heard. I am not saying everyone in this town should start praising Sherry and Industrial Nation because i don't know that there aren't other qualms with her and her venue, and her club isn't the nicest of the bunch. I am saying she's the only one that is doing it right, and the only one that is giving us a chance. She doesn't require demo submissions from any bands or anything like that because she told me
"who am i to judge someone else's art, and how do i know who's going to like it?"
So as a band member and the only one from my group that has been trying to and booking shows I am very grateful to play at Industrial Nation. For those of you that went to our last show there you may not know this but we made 40 dollars. That's right...everyone saw how many people were there, and we brought in about 10 with a marker of our own (which Sherry knew we did, she just didn't say anything). So there were 30-50 people there..maybe, and we made 40 dollars. That is the most we have ever made from a show, and that is not even a third of the crowd from our biggest show. What happened...she split bar tips, and all of the door mongst the bands. She took money from her employees...and from her bar to pay the bands. Why do people think that place is so bad??? Compared to the music hall who wants us to pay them 1000 dollars for one night and if we make anymore than 1000 that night we get that as profit. That is the most fascist concert hall i have ever dealt with, and in shreveport we went to every bar and club and they wouldn't even let us play. We stumbled on the zebra club (the art studio basement). So, i don't think Industrial Nation is as bad as people say, and i don't think much of people who are calling it a "nazi" or "fascist" club. I have only been trying to get involved with the scene here for a short time...but i am starting to feel very biter about Colorado's scene. People don't even have an idea what goes on behind the scenes but because of "ambience" a club or place is shunned. That is so stupid. I feel like all the "punks" here have been pampered and (for lack of a better analogy) are "afraid to get dirty". So that's my rant on the scene, and those of you that are in the colorado scene...i think that's 3 of you...i don't know that this pertains to you, but i needed to vent. Maybe you didn't know this stuf was going on in your city either...now you do. Maybe you have a different opinion of indy nation now? It doesn't really matter, i feel better having written this down. I swear when i am giving out flyers if people say shit about how shitty that club is i am going to have a hard time not bitching them out. that is all...thanks for reading!!

would you like to take a survey?

2001-09-14T04:36:18Z

do you like george wendt?
do you like beans?
do you like george wendt when he's eating beans?

Like The Beatles? yep..the real poppy cheesy shit

Like silverchair? not really, but i own frogstomp

Like Janis Joplin? nope

Like Limp Bizkit? not really much at all they fucking suck

Like Deftones? no..too whiny

Like Radiohead? ok computer

Like Everclear? yeh the singer's a cool guy

Like Staind? wooooh...no

Like Pink Floyd? zzzzz...nope

Like The Misfits? mommy!! can i go out and KILL TONIGHT!?!?!?

Like Less Than Jake? sigh...nope

Like Matthew Sweet? no

Like Crazy Town? no

Like Tom Petty? hmmm, not sure...would never own an album though

Like Blink 182? well, i hate to say this, but i like cheshire cat and dude ranch alot...i can't listen to them anymore without wanting to destroy everything around me....but...yeh..you know.

Like The Bloodhound Gang? oh yeh..i am jimminy jimminy pop i am i am

Like Our Lady Peace? whyeiayeayyyy yeah..superman's dead..no...they suck.

Like Foo Fighters? yeh dave grohl is the shit yo

Like Sublime? yes..but i think alot of it sucks too

Like Grateful Dead? wooh, am i a daisy pickin' fruitcake with no fucking shoes?

Like Marcy Playground? nope

Like 2 Pac? nope

Like The Doors? jim morrison's life story.."i'm drunk, i'm famous, i'm drunk, i'm dead"
no i dont like them

Like Oasis? yeh that was sooo rockin' 9th grade

Like The Cure? indeed..hey this is very ironic, and very tasteless, but i was allways very fond of the song "killing an arab". Hmm, but i am a pacifist, and i dont wish death upon anyone.

Like Weezer? yep

Like RATM? sure do

Like Factory 81? i dont know

Like Marilyn Manson? no

Like Alien Ant Farm? woooh..they are almost identical to papa roach..i dont like them either

Like Tool? undertow is awesome..they went downhill from there

Like Nine Inch Nails? yep...remember "wish"? That song was awesome!

Like Static X? nope

Like Pearl Jam? sigh....tough one. I dont HATE them, but i was never very fond of them. Although eddie vedder is very cool..he was on a bad religion album. He sang on the song "watch it die" a fave song of mine.

Like the Beach boys? for the cheese factor...yes i do

Like Def Leppard? oh yeh..but they were no bon jovi!

Like Elton John? not really..but i like several of his songs

Like the Smashing Pumpkins? not really..i was in a band that used to play that song "today" all the time..i HATE that song...and i never wanted to play it....sigh

Have you ever...

Kissed someone: only one..haha j/k

Been in love: i thought maybe

Been so drunk you blacked out: nope

Cheated on a boyfriend or girlfriend: nope...broke up before it got that far...I have been cheated on..and that sucks... i wouldn't do that to anyone else.

Kept a secret from everyone: all the time

Set a body part on fire: only my ass...spicy food. hah..just kidding...ew ew

Had an imaginary friend: no...but had imaginary enemies when i would play GI Joe with my friends..or ninja turtles

Called or seen a psychic: nope

Ever cried at a chick flick: haha more than one...god i am a wuss!

Had a crush on a teacher: AFTER high school!

Found a cartoon character attractive: oh man.....if catwoman were real! Remember michelle pfifer as cat woman...oh my god.

Ever at anytime owned a New Kids on the block tape: no, but i heard soo many of those..i have two older sisters..they even had the bedsheets

Watched Punky Brewster: yeah..watched webster more often

Prank called someone: i dont remember...probably..actually probably not

Eaten a whole box of cookies and thought you were fat after: nope

Been on stage: I'd say a good 25-50 percent of my life is on stage, and i wouldn't want it any other way!

Gotten in a car accident: nope

DO YOU...

Wear eye shadow: i have...and i will in the future as well

Have a dog: no..but dog are way cooler than cats.

Want a tattoo, and where: yes several. Felix the cat on my leg, black flag on my chest, afi tat somewhere, something on my back...yeh

Have any regrets: in the immortal words of the bouncing souls..i wish i could say..i have no regrets today. I don't but i have a few regrets..but they are in the past..so i dont dwell on them.

Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend: no...le sigh

Crush: allways

Do you have a best friend: several

Who do you go to for advice: shit...ummm recently...cheryl or chris martin. Usually people would come to me.

Who knows all your secrets? nobody

Who do you cry with: myself

DO YOU BELIEVE IN...

God/Devil: I believe in something greater, but i dont believe in organized religion. That is a summary..for more info call me at 1-800 blah blah etc.. sorry..bad joke. If you woud like to have a religious debate just ask. I have many. i mean hey!! I'm mormon!!! HAH

Yourself: sometimes

Your friends: yeh...but they stress me out alot

Aliens: sure

Love: definately

Destiny: could be..i often wonder

Signs: haha no..but it's funny to joke about.

The Closet Monster: no, but the one under the bed is a bastard
One person for everyone?: i wish that were so

watch the left, watch the right, watch the center, and watch your back..

2001-09-12T19:41:48Z

So now for my comment on the tragedy that has happened. I didn't read any live journals yesterday, or talk to anyone on the phone, etc.

What happened at the World Trade Center is the most shocking thing i have ever seen in my life. I can't say an "Attack on America" was completely unexpected however. As a terrorist attack...was completely shocking though. For several years now i have had discussions with friends about the "security" of America, and the nationalism, and pride, and how that would be the downfall of this country. I allways found it laughable that people saw America as "untouchable". I hate that it takes a tragedy like this to humble those in positions of power. Complete innocence was destroyed for a religious belief no doubt. Granted, America has a very powerful military (more powerful than i think it needs to be, but that's another story). I am only cringing at what could happen in retaliation to this. I feel it is a horrible crime commited, and those responsible should answer for their actions. I am afriad that we will retliate in a manner no better than what has happened here. When i say that i mean for fear of senseless bombings, as in recent history when baghdad was bombed because of Saddam and his fundamentalist group. The military bombed school buildings and office buildings, etc. in baghdad, killing several innocent people. How is that different than attacking the world trade center?

I understand the fear for loved ones and those close to us, both of my brothers in law are military. They called us yesterday to tell us about the happenings in their area. Both of them seemed very afraid of what will happen...that is completely understandable.

My main concern here is that most americans will react in a way similar to my own father's reaction. At news of the tragedy, i could actually see his heart swell with national pride as he said "we should deport every rag-head, sand-farming, camel-jockey...and then bomb the hell out of them" According to him...the only way to fight a terrorist attack is through terrorism.(cough cough...bullshit). What will America think if these people turn up to be an American group? People with the same mentality of those in Columbine and etc.? I feel the media is wrong for pointing the finger without fact towards bin laden. If it is only a probability that he was involved, dont say anything until you know. I am terrified that the entire nation is going to go on a "witchhunt" for innocent arabs here in our country. Those people are American as well. I think this was a terrible tragedy, and i am very sad for those lives lost and their loved ones. I am also very depressed that it takes something like this to bring the american people together. I am going to hope there is not a war from all of this, and that those responsible are brought to face justice. That is all...unless i can think of anything else i want to say later.
-james-

I wanna destroy you

2001-09-10T01:40:35Z

So last night after work i drove to the emo show. I am kinda confused on this "emo" er..post-punk(sorry chris martin) scene. In Louisiana when the emo bands would play with our band all the emo kids would be chill, and over-dramatic. At the show last night there was an all out drunken brawl... I guess that happens when you try and suppress the need for high energy music. hah.

So the show was good, the fight was interesting. I still really can't get into emo music. I think the shows are allright, but I don't think i could buy a cd. I am told it's good to relax too....bah. When i want to relax i put on the specials or madness, old-school ska/reggae. Depending on my mood i listen to some new wave 80s as well, that is good relaxation music. So i am hoping the scene here in colorado will welcome our brand of political/melodic/hardcore. I am starting to doubt it...given the amount of emo kids who won't admit they still like to rock out for fear of being labelled a "sell-out" or a "posuer". I hate both of those terms. Anyway that's my rant on last night. Today is a different story...

My grandmother has been visiting this household for a few weeks now and she has it in her head that my mother's children are out of control.... First of all, i am 21 years old, i spent the last year of my life in louisiana, very far from home, and i survived..in fact, i would say i did better than i had expected..i don't need to fucking hear what i need to do with my life or how i should do anything. My grandma is very old, and very egotistical, so she thinks she can just whip this group into shape in a matter of weeks and then my mom will have no worries. I see her intentions may be good, but she's very very wrong. The only person in my family that needs any sort of discipline or correction is my little sister..she's 8. However..she's the only one who doesnt get any of it. HAH! i just had a thought..listen to how "emo" i am right now with my whining. It's more "bitching" than whining i'd say. Anyway, i am going to start looking for an apartment somtime soon or such...life at home is bullshit. Tonight everyone went out to eat at a steakhouse (blah) and the entire time we were there my parents and grandmother talked shit about me as if i weren't even there....like if they talked around me it was ok. I feel like my parents have the maturity of a 6 year old. They had to point out that i have alot of communist views...(i corrected tham and said "i am a socialist") so they decide to play the communist thing out and in a psuedo-intellident way bring socialism back to communism..which isn't very hard since both are derived from marxism. Le sigh. So I have had many discussions with my family on religion and such, and i feel like they don't even fucking listen. For example...I told my parents. "i don't like church..one, it's full of hypocrites..two, i don't feel you need to assemble somewhere to have faith or beliefs" so that is taken as (mom):"James has given up on religion...he disrespects the church and god. I thought i raised my children right but i must have screwed up with him somewhere. I just wish he wasn't so full of hate...he promotes open rage against anything in his band even..blah blah blah blah blah."
I really wish my family wasn't stupid. When i defend myself and tell them...they are wrong, etc. They find something else to attack.. At the resteraunt for example. they are off calling me a communist, i finally said something to shut them up, they retort with: "Well you don't even comb your hair!" (how childish is that?)
apparently all punk musicians are homosexual as well according to my dad....lately he's been hung up on the gay thing, and he's very ashamed because apparently I am gay(i was unaware). Well whatever i fucking hate my family..i have tried many times to make peace with them, but it is obvious hey don't want it. It's just a good thing i have friends. :)
that is my rant for today...hope you enjoyed it.

_james_ @ 2001-09-08T14:46:00

2001-09-08T20:48:11Z

today, i got a livejournal...holyhell. See, a friend, of a friend, of a friend of a friend, etc... (ok so not that many friends) told me to get one of these things..so i did. So now i am the multitude of masculenity you see before you now...only you can't see me. I woke up at 630 am today..why? i don't know, i was just..awake. I sat around all morning, i watched the over-exaggerated pep assembly known as the the Mtv Video Music Awards. I was so disgusted with pop-culture even more than i have ever been. I have never seen or really heard linkin park...but they played on the show....all i have to say is......fuck them.

So as i watched the music awards my hope for humanity started to slip away, and i decided to turn it off. So i sat around a little more, and decided i would get online, i did, i talked with a few people and now i am here. Wonderful.
Well, hope you have enjoyed this wonderful "nugget" of info. Have a wonderful day...i know i will....sigh.