| Wine and cheese |
[08 Jul 2009|08:54pm] |
Wine and cheese has this intoxicating effect on me. Well, other than the obvious buzz you get from drinking three glasses of good red wine. It's like the combination takes you to a completely different place. We also had some mozzarella cheese with sliced tomatoes, salt, pepper, oil, and vinegar. Absolutely amazing. After the snack we watched murder by numbers. It was a good night.
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| In deep shit |
[02 Jul 2009|11:56pm] |
You know, I've been to therapists and psychologists before, and I think it helped. I might need to think about doing it again. Failed my theater class (don't ask), so now I need to take not just two, but three classes (and pass them!) in order to be eligible for financial aid in the Fall... and only in the Fall, because the government only pays for the first 180 credits of your first undergraduate degree. Yes, that means I've taken almost 180 credits. That's some sick shit.
I owe FIU $120 for one class and I have to hope they will let me register for one more as an override, meaning I will owe money for that class too. Fuck. My. Life. I will be going to class Monday - Thursday. There goes working on Mondays and Wednesdays. I'm financially fucked and if I had the body, I'd seriously consider prostitution.
All this stress, plus the fact I'm taking FIVE classes during a Summer semester (praying to God I can get in that last class), and the guilt I'm feeling for fucking up so bad is really getting to me. I'm not going to get all emo and bore you with the details, but depression + substance abuse problems + stress = a bad fucking mix.
Speaking of emo, you know those horrible journals you keep in high school that are incredibly embarrassing and make you cringe at how you were back then? Yeah, I found them, and damn, someone should have shot me. Wearing black and liking Marilyn Manson doesn't give me the right to have sullied the world with such pathetic and trite prose.
EDIT: Alright, sex might not have made it all better, but it certainly got my mind of my problems and left me with a smile on my face for the time being. At least I didn't do any of the other stuff I have hidden away somewhere.
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