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[10 Jul 2005|08:36pm] |
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so yeahhh i havent talked to this shit in a while and i hate everything haha AND YOU ... jj im on the phone with lauren. Sooo im like mad but i really dont care about anyone anymore.... BLAHH im fjahrgkjhwoe im just like hey. fuck my space is better bye.
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[07 Jul 2005|09:40pm] |
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im so done. i really am i wish that it was all over. everythings building up on me and i cant leave i cant get out i cant get rid of this guilt there putting on me .. and i mean everything is just killing me i am trying to help all these people when none of them give a living crap about me and i mean i just cant believe its getting this low again i mean seriously i went out in the rain today and it just made me see that everything falls .. and comes back together but i hate how it all falls apart at once.. and its just like i theres this fucked up side of me me that no one should have to see and im turned inside out. and im sorry for the way that i am im sorry that im not making you happy im sorry that i cant figure out what i need and what i dont .. im sorry that everything is just so upsidedown.. im sorry god isnt my savior. im sorry that i cant hear your words of hope.. im sorry that ever pill i pop makes everything dissapear and im sorry for hurting you ahead of time.i just dont know i mean nothing is making me happy anymore i mean HA my mom told me to stop eating the other day when michelle was here cause i was getting fat like krissy i cant believe her i cant believe the shit she would say about her fucking daughter... i wish that it wasnt true though and i honestly think ive slipped into depression again.. its gay but its true nothing is making me happy not even music... i mean i feel like those stupid kids that complain about there life all the time but i really dont i really try not to just when it gets bad i cant hold it in i mean these bruises are just proof to the world that i lied to you. that i dont like the bitter truth and i dont like who i am... or do i? i dont even know i dont know if its me or just my body thats fucked up. my hearts breaking... and its never going to be able to be fixed its not.. theres no way i mean really im like a broken soul somthing unfogivable has happened to me and i cant forget it i cant just let go i cant just TELL HIM to get a grip i cant go to the cops i love him to much and people think that its drugs HA! its my life.. its my parents... its my feelings.. there WAY off the page. and every night i go sleep thinking. dear god take me back to feburary 12th please god please just let me change it.... i am almost to the point to where it hurts so bad i dont want to live. i honestly dont see the point. the only reason i wont press any harder is all i do is wanna please people and i know that wouldnt do them any good and all i do is just hope and pray that things will get better but they wont they arent they cant its way to farrr.... BLAH! fuck mom wants to read GTG BYE
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[04 Jul 2005|03:02pm] |
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Can you hear me
Can you see any part of me
Can you feel me
Can you bleed for me
Can't you see me walkin in your shoes
Can't you feel me steppin all over your soul
Can't you feel me reach into you
Can't you feel me walkin over your soul
Can't you feel me wait in pain
Can't you feel me reach into you
Can't you see me walkin in your shoes
Can't you feel me steppin all over your soul
Can't you feel me reach into you
Can't you feel me walkin over your soul
Can't you feel me wait in pain
Can't you feel me reach into you
Can't you feel me walkin over your soul
Can't you feel me wait in pain
Can't you feel me reach into you
so today was okay i dont know whats wrong with me im just not happy.. and i feel disapointed. the only time im happy with myself is when im driving i guess because ive acomplished somthing.. maybe i should take a shower and get pretty maybe i would feel better .. happier.. maybe if someone cared.. someone called ... life was okay.. but this is it nothing is wrong in my life except the drugs... and i think im starting to become what i beg people not to be... im so afraid of it.. and i realized im just as bad or worst then someone else... i dont know im jsut in the mood to leave im gunna SCREAM I WANT TO JUST FUCKING dance dance dance all my enegry out..
latley i have been relating my life to songs and right now. its colors by cross fade. it makes so much sence. and the unknown mostley its like i see myself doing that to the people that care about me its starting to hurt me im listenin to it now.. I WANNA DRIVE i wanna feel the wind in my hair.. i wanna leave this house.. i must go.. until 4 pauls comin over.
-by the way i am making mistakes but i need to make them... so if i do hurt you or have.. please dont hold it against me... im not myself latley.-
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[03 Jul 2005|03:02pm] |
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So no one ever comments on my site anymore i think im gunna quit it its a waste of time BLAHHH! i need muisc yeah okay im good now well yeah im a little bit pissed me and james broke up but i guessit was my fault because all the stupid shit i am doing i really am but i dont want to stop so fuck it... and its the summer and im not gunna end up like i have before and to see how little people fucking care about me anymore makes me farther off the edge im seriously at a paralell in life where i just want to waste away.. and im gunna completely straighten out when school starts cause this is bullshit ai mean i dont know im sick of hurting people that care about me and shit because the things im doing so im just gunna back off everything... WE SAID WE SAID WE SAID.. this time was gunna be differnt. WAKE OF THE DEAD. seriously i shouldnt be listening to this song considering what its about.. there got a better one.. i dont know i honestly dont know if im depressed of if im just a little crazy... CANT Be Held responsible She was touching her face... and i wont be held responsible she fell in love in the first place... for the life of me.... i can not believe we would die for these sins we were nearly freshman.
so im dog sitting this lady and i have a serious habbit about just like going threw people shit esspecially when its like totally ovbious that shit on somthing... and me and lauren went threw there shit .. and found hella liquor.. and hella pot seeds. no coke though thats what we thought she was on we found VALUIM OMG im sooo fucked up.. im sooo happy but the sad part is i see two sides to everything because like yeahhhh i dont know i want to stop but i just cant i cant fucking drop what makes me happy and this is all my choice no one else could ever try and tell me it was peer pressure because davey would not let me try anyyyything last night that i havent done.. and i love him for it... i just hope we stay like we are... i dont want it to change... soo anyways i love you man im in a rap mood.
i love you and if you need me call my cell cause you know i kinda need some sence.
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[01 Jul 2005|10:03am] |
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So last night i played a game a pathetic game with myself it went somthing like this if in every hour i guessed a person would call me a spacific person would call me or a spacific person would pick up there fone when i called i would take a pill i ended up taking like 6 and i dont rememeber shit about last night i just member crying.. so i was worried and i talked to davey.. and he sounds mad at me and i talked to james and i am just getting bad vibes allll over the place so it sucks ... bad.. so i might have just fucked life up worst then it already is ... but its okay right... :-/ i need some fuckin grasp im losing touch with reality.
i think im fucking screaming for help and all i get is fucked up..
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[30 Jun 2005|07:26pm] |
You're a sexy girl! You are beautiful, and you
love attention from guys, and are very
flirtatous. You might come off as a slut and
bitch to some but I think you have another side
to you that is pleaing for attention, love, and
care. You might be confident on the outside but
don't be afraid to unleash a more sensitive
side. Be better than just the average sex
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What kind of girl are you? (with pix!)
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[30 Jun 2005|05:04pm] |
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Life is like a porn video.
You sit around waiting for the climax.
Then it comes.
Then its all a boring down hill drag.
It never gets better unless you rewind.
WHY CANT WE FUCKING REWIND.
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[30 Jun 2005|05:03pm] |
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I CANT BE HELD RESPONSIBLE... I WONT BE HELD RESPONSIBLE
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| Goodbye to you. |
[30 Jun 2005|02:45pm] |
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From the way that you acted to the way that i felt it you werent worth my time.
so i babysat all morning and im sitting around in a bra and undies with my dye on my hair waiting for it to soak in... cause that would be cool.. hahaha even thouu its like already died. but yeah so oooo yesterday was a boring day like always actually i just got really stoned.. thats always fun but i was talking to this guy and im gunna let him remain namless but he was telling me that he was worried about daniel. and for some reason he told me i should call him and try and get his shit straight.. but thats not why i called him i just miss him so bad its unbelieveable.. i really do and i mean if i could talk to him for 5 minutes i think my hole life would be better but its not and our short conversations last like 27 seconds which honestly makes me cry i miss him so bad i miss my best friend. but its whatever.. i cant change the past right. but o i wish wishes could really come true i swear i would wish my life away trying to fix all my misakes.
im about to see a million things i thought i would never have to see before i died.
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[29 Jun 2005|04:09pm] |
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so im in a good mood i really am i dont know how lifes gunna be better it couldnt. i dont know i wish that i was somewhere though doing something dancing partying.. laughin... but its okay
My best friend took a week's
Vacation to forget her
His girl took a week's worth of
Valium and slept
Now he's guilt stricken sobbing with his
Head on the floor
Thinks about her now and how he never really
Wept he says
I can't be held responsible
Cause she was touching her face
I won't be held responsible
She fell in love in the first place
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[27 Jun 2005|09:16pm] |
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FUCK THIS SHIT IM SO UPSET. IF THIS EVER HAPPENS AGAIN IM GOING TO KILL SOMEONE.
im going to take somthing that can kill me i need to take a risk
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[27 Jun 2005|11:21am] |
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Woah baby warped tour kicked ass like no other i mean honestly it did the mosh pits were insain ATREYU KICKED ASS MAN i seriously had the best time of my life.. and like dude i couldnt believe it but avenged did awsome well at least m. shadows did he totally like kicked ass but the band itself sucked at least at that show i mean i dont know and MCR hooollllyyy crap i dont even really like them that much but the crowd was insain im not even joking you me sunny michelle lauren and jeff were like in the center of the crowd and it was insain all these stupid people didnt know how to help people crowd surf and shit and our part of the crowd like completly colapsed and shit and me and lauren ended up at the bottom of a 5 person pile up and shit it was insain i dont know it was fucked up i like passed out like 3 times and couldnt breathe and michelle like completly like nocked some guy out to get me out of the crowd and shit i dont know i was really upset i didnt even get to be with james like the hole day but i guess that doesnt matter now he broke up with me last night.. and i told him to call me today because its kinda iffy but i dont know it hurts and all but i guess its what i get ha. yupp sooo im all bruised cut and soar but when i got back from the tour it was crazy and like i came up to my house to see a blue explorer in the drive way and i was like freaking out im seriously the happiest person ever my dad got me a car.. ahhhhh yepp so i tried to drive it last night and i stalled it soooo oo MANNNY TIMES HOLLY CRAP YOU DONT EVEN KNOW a stick is soo fucking hard to drive. but im getting the hang of it my cars pretty and has a nice cd player and system but yepppp ill bbl i gtg bye sick world
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So today my cell died death adios compodre i can not get it to work.. :-( it wont turn back on it was charged i am angery. very verrry verrry angery. im mad im going to go to the mall tonight and talk to the tmobile people and bitch and yell and curse till i get a new one free!
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| Wishing i wasnt alive |
[21 Jun 2005|06:46pm] |
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so you know how theres some things you just dont want to talk about and how that they just cant get off your mind well i have one of those and james told me like yesterday that eriks mad at me .. so i guess i feel like a bitch in that sence but i have so much on my mind and its like almost to the point where i just wish i could die im sped up again just being myself and i am getting exactly what i want but i just cant seem to undestand why i feel so horrable i mean i honestly think im the worst person alive its just like imcomprehendable and i just need my friends right now so bad and i mean ive been making mistakes repeatitivly and its just to the point where i dont even think i should be cared for and this so sounds like a pitty call but dont pitty me im not worth it i just wish i could feel immortal and its like i dont even know where to start its just another short period of depression and i want it over i hate this i just cant express it i could just die right now.. god. i miss my friends.. i miss having friends.. o god i cant.. fuck bye
Eyes now open i see
a deep hole inside of me
why did you do this
why dont you see
that everything we were
was apart of me
you took me away
Im left here
so lonley
kill me off
let me die
because its better then just being
alone incomplete alive
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[20 Jun 2005|02:16pm] |
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it never felt so good to the mind.
-davey is coming in like 2 hours to get me and hang out but i have to take a shower cause i have pink in my hair and i think i was sspppoooossttta take it out hours ago.. ooops. :-( but yeah the death thing sounded pleasent im eating nerds yeah and there good. but yeah.. sooo back to death yep sounds wonderous .. doesnt it?
---I feel eyelashes on my cheek They lacerate my flesh,A pain so good.So put your hand in mine, never let go, Never wake up ‘cause I’m done with promises I’m taking blood oaths. Feels like you could kiss My imperfections, my imperfections away. And I would stand, stand by your side Until the sun turns the sky All the colors I see in your eyes. And I’ll never need to see the sun again, There’s enough light in your eyes to light up our little world. So take me, take me away. Kill me slowly, I’ll never be the same. And I swear to you, on everything I am,And I dedicate to you all that I have And I promise you that I’ll stand right by your side Forever and always until the day I die. The bite marks on my neck never felt so good. I’m losing control And it’s all that I can do not to blackout Fall into lust with you. Your kisses infect me. The dark gift is loving you.----
<3<3<3Lauren
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[19 Jun 2005|08:02pm] |
LAYER ONE:
-- Name: Lauren
-- Birth date: 11/07/89
-- Current Location: Tomball
-- Hair Color: pink and some brown
-- Height: 5'7"
-- Weight: 115
-- Righty or lefty: righty
LAYER TWO:
-- Your heritage:mexican/french/english
-- The shoes you wore today: none i hate shoes im a hippy
-- your weakness: drugs
-- Your perfect pizza: pepperoni
-- Goal you'd like to achieve: going to FIT in newyork
LAYER THREE:
-- Your most over used phrase on MSN/AIM: hey
-- Your thoughts first waking up: WTF
weekdays: party / drugs
weekends: family / food...
-- Your best physical feature: my hips
-- Your bedtime: when i get tired
-- Adidas or Nike: Adidas
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: tea sucks
-- Chocolate or vanilla: both
-- Cappuccino or coffee: cappuccino
LAYER FIVE:
-- Cuss: yeah
-- Sing: scream..
-- Take a shower everyday: mostly
-- Want to go to college: yeah in new york
Layer Six:
-- Like high school: fuck no
-- Want to get married: if im in love
-- Believe in yourself: depends
-- Get motion sickness: nope
-- Think you're attractive: somewhat
-- Think you're a health freak: to an extent
-- Get along with your parent(s): normally
-- Like thunderstorms: no just rain
-- Play an instrument: no
LAYER SIX:
In the 6 past months...
-- Drank alcohol: yeah
-- Smoked: ya
-- Done a drug: yeah
-- Had Sex: ya
-- Made Out: ya
-- Gone on a date: yeah
-- Gone to the mall: yeah
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: yea.. :-(
-- Eaten sushi: yeah its fuckin nasty
-- Been on stage: yeah but not for my show.
-- Been dumped: yes
-- Gone skating: i skateboarded yesterday
-- Made homemade cookies: ya
-- Gone skinny dipping: ya
-- Dyed your hair: pink and blue
-- Stolen anything: yep
LAYER SEVEN:
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing:yep
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated:my hole life
-- Been caught "doing something": yep
-- Been called a tease:no
-- Shop Lifted: yep
-- Changed who you were to fit in: once
LAYER EIGHT:
-- Age you hope to be married:none
-- Numbers and Names of Children: 2 adopted
-- Describe your Dream Wedding: beach.
-- How do you want to die: dont care ill be dead.
-- Where you want to go to college: F.I.T.
-- What do you want to be when you grow up: interior decorator
-- What country would you most like to visit: figi,germany
LAYER NINE:
In a boy... or girl:girl
-- Best eye color?: green
-- Best hair color?: brown
-- Short or long hair? long
-- Height: taller then me
-- Best weight: not that important
-- Best articles of clothing: blue jeans:-)
LAYER TEN:
-- # of people I could trust with my life: 2
-- # of CDs that I own: 14
-- # of piercings:8
-- # of tattoos: 0
-- # of scars on my body: too manyy
-- # of things in my past that I regret: dont regret things.
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| Avenged Sevenfold |
[19 Jun 2005|12:50pm] |
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Man i have some sympathy for Avenged sevenfold. there new cd is like a glory fade of what they used to be able to acomplish the guitar is still good. but m. shadows can no longer scream i understand why but its just a big disapointment but none the less im still going to suport them. one good track on there new cd is betrayed and burn it down ... welps im gunna go for now adios!
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Put an x by the things youve done
(x) smoked a cigarette
(x) smoked a cigar
(x) made out with a member of the same sex
(x) crashed someones car
(x) been in love
(x) been dumped
(x) shoplifted
() been fired
(x)been in a fist fight
(x)snuck out of parent's house
(X)had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
() been arrested
(x) made out with a stranger
() gone on a blind date
() lied to a friend
() had a crush on a teacher
(x) skipped school/class
() slept with a co-worker
(x) seen someone die
(x) had/have a crush on one of your LJ friends
(x) been to Canada
(X) been to Mexico
(x) been on a plane
() thrown up in a bar
(x) eaten Sushi
() been snowboarding
(x) met someone because of myspace
(x) been to a concert
(x) been in an abusive relationship
(x) taken painkillers< overdosed. >
(x) love someone right now
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
() made a snow angel
(X) had a tea party
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumping
(x) played dress up
(x) jumped into a pile of leaves
() gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
(x) fallen asleep at work/school
(x) used a fake ID
(x) watched the sun set
() felt an earthquake
(x) touched a snake
(x) been tickled
(x) been robbed
(x) robbed someone
(x) been misunderstood
() pet a reindeer/goat
(x) won a contest
(x) been suspended from school
(x) had detention
(x)been in a car accident
() had braces
(x) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had deja vu
(x) danced in the moonlight
(x) hated the way you look
(x) witnessed a crime
(x)questioned your heart
() been obsessed with post-it notes
(x) squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
(x) been to the opposite side of the country(florida???)
(x) swam in the ocean
(x) felt like dying
(x) cried yourself to sleep
() played cops and robbers
(x) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
(x) sung karaoke
(x) paid for a meal with only coins
(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(x) made prank phone calls
(x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
() caught a snowflake on your tongue
(x) kissed in the rain
(x) written a letter to Santa Claus
() been kissed under a mistletoe
(x) watched the sun set with someone you care about
(x) blown bubbles
(x) made a bonfire on the beach
(x) crashed a party
(x) have traveled more than 5 days with a car full of people
(x) gone rollerskating/blading
(x) had a wish come true
() humped a monkey
(x) worn pearls
(x) jumped off a bridge
(x)screamed "penis" in class
(x) ate dog food
(x) told a complete stranger you loved them (david cole when i first met him.)
(x) sang in the shower
(x) have a little black dress
(x) had a dream that you married someone
(x) glued your hand to something
(x) got your toungue stuck to a pole
() kissed a fish
(x) worn the opposite sexes clothes
() been a cheerleader
(x) sat on a roof top
() had sex at a church
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
() done a one-handed cartwheel
(x) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(x) stayed up all night
(x) didnt take a shower for a week
(x) pick and ate an apple right off the tree
(x) climbed a tree
(x) had a tree house
(x) are scared to watch scary movies alone
(x) believe in ghosts
(x) have more then 30 pairs of shoes
(x) worn a really ugly outfit to school
(x) gone streaking
(x) played ding-dong-ditch
(x) played chicken fight
(x) been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(x) been told you're hot by a complete stranger [ Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<this [...] weekend.im>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] Put an x by the things youve done
(x) smoked a cigarette
(x) smoked a cigar
(x) made out with a member of the same sex
(x) crashed someones car
(x) been in love
(x) been dumped
(x) shoplifted
() been fired
(x)been in a fist fight
(x)snuck out of parent's house
(X)had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
() been arrested
(x) made out with a stranger
() gone on a blind date
() lied to a friend
() had a crush on a teacher
(x) skipped school/class
() slept with a co-worker
(x) seen someone die
(x) had/have a crush on one of your LJ friends
(x) been to Canada
(X) been to Mexico
(x) been on a plane
() thrown up in a bar
(x) eaten Sushi
() been snowboarding
(x) met someone because of myspace
(x) been to a concert
(x) been in an abusive relationship
(x) taken painkillers< overdosed. >
(x) love someone right now
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
() made a snow angel
(X) had a tea party
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumping
(x) played dress up
(x) jumped into a pile of leaves
() gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
(x) fallen asleep at work/school
(x) used a fake ID
(x) watched the sun set
() felt an earthquake
(x) touched a snake
(x) been tickled
(x) been robbed
(x) robbed someone
(x) been misunderstood
() pet a reindeer/goat
(x) won a contest
(x) been suspended from school
(x) had detention
(x)been in a car accident
() had braces
(x) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had deja vu
(x) danced in the moonlight
(x) hated the way you look
(x) witnessed a crime
(x)questioned your heart
() been obsessed with post-it notes
(x) squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
(x) been to the opposite side of the country(florida???)
(x) swam in the ocean
(x) felt like dying
(x) cried yourself to sleep
() played cops and robbers
(x) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
(x) sung karaoke
(x) paid for a meal with only coins
(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(x) made prank phone calls
(x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
() caught a snowflake on your tongue
(x) kissed in the rain
(x) written a letter to Santa Claus
() been kissed under a mistletoe
(x) watched the sun set with someone you care about
(x) blown bubbles
(x) made a bonfire on the beach
(x) crashed a party
(x) have traveled more than 5 days with a car full of people
(x) gone rollerskating/blading
(x) had a wish come true
() humped a monkey
(x) worn pearls
(x) jumped off a bridge
(x)screamed "penis" in class
(x) ate dog food
(x) told a complete stranger you loved them (david cole when i first met him.)
(x) sang in the shower
(x) have a little black dress
(x) had a dream that you married someone
(x) glued your hand to something
(x) got your toungue stuck to a pole
() kissed a fish
(x) worn the opposite sexes clothes
() been a cheerleader
(x) sat on a roof top
() had sex at a church
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
() done a one-handed cartwheel
(x) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(x) stayed up all night<right now>
(x) didnt take a shower for a week
(x) pick and ate an apple right off the tree
(x) climbed a tree
(x) had a tree house
(x) are scared to watch scary movies alone
(x) believe in ghosts
(x) have more then 30 pairs of shoes
(x) worn a really ugly outfit to school
(x) gone streaking
(x) played ding-dong-ditch
(x) played chicken fight
(x) been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(x) been told you're hot by a complete stranger <this weekend.im PIMP>
() broken a bone
(x) been easily amused.
(x) caught a fish then ate it
(x) made porn
() caught a butterfly
(x) laughed so hard you cried
() cried so hard you laughed
(x) mooned/flashed someone
(x) had someone moon/flash you
(x) cheated on a test
(x) forgotten someone's name
(x) slept naked
(x) French braided someones hair
(x) gone skinny dippin in a pool
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[18 Jun 2005|03:19am] |
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People are so stupid METH is the worst drug you could ever do. i am fucking sitting at my computer crying right now i want to shoot myslef i cant believe this shit i want to do i am having the worst anxieity attack ever. i want to die i want to know whats going on in life i want everyone sober i dont want to live like this anymore i want this world to stop turning.GOD DAMNIT I DONT KNOW WHERE TO TURN I THINK IM GOING TO JUST LIKE DROP OFF THE FACE OF THE EARTH NO ONE EVER CARES PEOPLE ARE STUPIDD!sept for a couple
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Welll hum. im home helll yeahhh man i miss life as its known i tooootttallly gained like 10 million pounds. cause i ate out every second i got to because i didnt have to pay for any of it it was SHEEWEEET. i missed all my friends i missed james jeff lizzie jennifer ERrrRic and PAUL. mannn i can not ever wait to see them james is working right now so im trying to get lizzie to call her mother and talk to her to see if she can come over because like yeah i need someone to talk to ive been in a car for 2 days it sucks .. michigan boys are hot. the girls are fat and ugly and rude i do not like them at all but i loooved the attention going up there. it was sooo much fun man i have so much to say and so little breath to say it i went shoping alot and got alot of kool stuff.. im totallly now like in love with girl singers there soo cool hahaha there my im mad music but dont get me wrong my # one music is like screamo. welpps gtg love ya lots bye.
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