Slicin up eyeballs

hey! Me and Fran

2006-06-24T04:15:26Z

....

oh my gosh

2005-03-25T01:08:25Z

COME SEE ME TONITE AT BALANCAS/PYRO!!

Actors and Actress at 10:30- 3$ cover 21 +
amyyyyzing

followed by me on the wax cum on and cum out- I'll let you dizzle my skizzle!

I heart you!

HHH

you dont have anything else to do!

2005-02-10T17:45:08Z

David Bowie :: The Hearts Filthy Lesson

2004-07-12T03:22:43Z

neat!

whatever! My Sex Skill level is 200! and so what if i talk to much! hmpf

2004-06-22T17:27:07Z

welp

2004-05-22T00:39:17Z

Ive decided to make the rest of my journal friends only...its much "friendlier" that way...if you want added please comment! I love you all!

xoxo

Me

last night

2004-05-14T18:27:55Z

Was fucking weird, it wasnt cool, it didnt suck but it was hella weird. ::shoots self::

what a surprise

2004-05-07T18:58:39Z

Which 1990's Subculture Do You Belong To?

[Another Quiz by Kris
@ couplande

oohhh my god

2004-05-03T17:43:25Z

Im actually WAY too drunk to write in this!! im laying back down, Im never drinking Hurricanes again! Fucking bars

goodness im tired

2004-05-02T18:05:05Z

So Yesterday was a LONG day! I had to work @ 9 and I had went out with Clay on Friday night so I was exhausted. After work I met my family for my brothers birthday dinner at his fav mexican restaurant, it was the first time ive eaten in a few days so it tore my stomach up (even though it was yummy) so when i finally got home @ 9, i watched Party Monster before i went to work at the cane. That movie is hillarious too bad Macauly Culkin was in it- because he was terrible. So after the movie I rushed to get to work, it was some nasty Motley crue wannabes (as usual) so u can imagine the clientele that night, but I did end up making around decent money so that was good, after work i was wired so I went down to the loft party, it was fun there were alot of people i knew so it was all good. Andrew is like the 10,000th person to tell me that Im too flirty with guys. That makes me a little sad because I dont do it on purpose but it stings when 2 guys ive dated said they didnt want to be with me because of it....oh well...its only when i get drunk so maybe I should cut back. Working in a bar really dosent help matters. ANYWAY! Im super tired at work today, and the doctor im working with sits up front with me and tries to talk to me all day- shes annoying as hell! I might go to Omaha with Susan tonite- but not if im still this tired... I want to go to the Pyro room anyway, its fetish night or something...but who knows..

i stole this from Lexi but its an awesome idea!

2004-04-29T20:12:05Z

The soundtrack of my life...

1. Opening Credits: "Come on Come on"- The VonBondies
2. Waking Up Scene: "Big Brat" Phantom Planet
3. Car Driving Scene: "Pattern Against User" At The Drive-In
4. High School Flashback Scene: "Zero" Smashing Pumpkins
5. Nostalgic Scene: "A Certain Shade of Green" - Incubus
6. Bitter, Angry Scene: "93 Million Miles"- 30stm
7. Break-up Scene: "Love will tear us apart"- Joy Division
8. Regret Scene: "Heroine" - Benton Falls
9. Nightclub/Bar Scene: "24 hour party people" The Happy Mondays
10. Sad, breakdown Scene: "Shes Lost Control" Joy Division
11. Funeral Scene: "Brena" A Perfect Circle
12. Mellow Scene: "Echodyne Harmonic" Sparta
13. Dreaming About Someone Scene: "Fade into you" Mazzy Star
14. Sex Scene: "Lucky you" Deftones
15. Contemplation Scene: "Where I Landed" Denali
16. Love Scene: "Still in Love Song" The Stills
17. Friend Scene: "Lust for Life" Iggy Pop
18. Closing Credits: "The End has No End" The Strokes

_hothotheather_ @ 2004-04-29T10:39:00

2004-04-29T15:49:13Z

So Last night was interesting. I went to Buzzard beach to hear the Scuzzy Buddies spin- it was a good time, it seemed like everyone was in a good mood and alot of my friends were there. For once it was a drama-free night just lots of good convo and catching up on things, i didnt get wasted but i was feeling really good, it didnt take much since i didnt eat anything yesterday, i havent had that much of an appetite lately- its weird how i go through those stages. anyway i ran into Kyle N. and it was great to see him. I guess hes gonna play his guitar with my mom at some open night thing, so that will be fun, hopefully his parents will go and that will be cool, I also talked with Ryon for a bit, she is such a sweetheart! She just moved here so she dosent have alot of friends, so we are going out on Friday night to see the whores play at the Brick. which will be fun im sure. I did well with the guy situation last night, i was really casual and nonchalant with them, there was only one guy who i kinda had an interest in, Mr. E. Whom i had a crush on FOREVER. If I could dream up a perfect guy it would be him. well in the looks department anyway, he was being really extra friendly last night, alot more than usual. He asked me if i wanted to hang out at his friends later, but I had to decline him. grr work. Anyways what sucked was he was hanging out with this stupid guy who always hits on me - but i dont like him- so of course now he's an asshole, so of course he totally cockblocked Mr. E before I could get his # - but its okay because im sure ill see him again. The only thing that sucked was backing out of the parking lot someone scratched the back of my car, so now theres a huge white scratch on my BLACK car. But there so many other scratches, dents and cracks that im kinda starting not to care. i know messed up isnt it?

make me feel good about myself! Tell me how much you heart me! : )

2004-04-28T02:47:26Z

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. What makes me happy?
24. What makes me sad?
25. What reminds you of me?
26. If you could give me anything what would it be?
27. How well do you know me?
28. When's the last time you saw me?
29. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
30. Do you think I could kill someone?
31. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
32. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
33. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you?

sigh

2004-04-22T15:13:38Z

Im a little sad today. It just seems as nothing is going right- My love life and financial life is in shambles. and im just so moody lately-- I know im just PMSing but its times like this that i just wish i was another person living another life. sigh. depression sucks.

_hothotheather_ @ 2004-04-21T14:16:00

2004-04-21T19:14:38Z

Post anything that you want, and post it anonymously.
Anything.
A story, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love - anything. Be sure to post anonymously and honestly. Post twice if you'd like.
Then, put this in your LJ to see what your friends (and perhaps others who you don't even realize read your LJ) have to say.

ALL COMMENTS NOT POSTED ANONYMOUSLY WILL BE DELETED

last night

2004-04-21T19:07:46Z

Last night really sucked. I got to the Hurricane and of course it was DEAD. So Stan said i could take off...I was craving a vodka tonic so I made my way to the Empire room to see the fabulous DJ Tulipana spin. It was cool at first mostly everyone that was there I knew. Caught up on all the gossip and everything. Two random guys bought me drinks which was also cool. But I should have known HE would show up...he wasnt an asshole or anything but its like what he DIDNT say...didnt seem happy to see me, didnt ask what ive been up to...I mean typical guy. He gets all the girls why should he even put out any effort to be with someone. plus he kept talking to another slimmer much "prettier" girl. sigh. I always want what i cant have. I hate having to settle for second best. Im such a competitor, its not even really about the guy himself. Its about rejection. Dating really blows.

im still drunk

2004-04-16T16:39:28Z

So as predicted last night was PHENOMINAL to say the least- I had a superb time.. ME and Eanna met up with her friend Justin at the Quaff for drinks around 6:30. So I had a couple of drinks there and then we walked to the show (A perfect Circle and The Mars Volta) by the time we got situated- TMV was already playing but just seeing them again was simply orgasmic! Cedric was a afrom wearing hip shaking dynamo...I heart him they were amazing, APC went on shortly after and I was very impressed!! I had never seen them live before but this definetly wont be the last--for a live performance the vocals were stellar to say the least- Maynard is God I am convinced, and the thing I like most about the show was that they didnt ONLY play stuff from the new cd- (which of course I dont have yet) but they played all my favorites from Mer De Noms-- oh my god his voice....I could go on for days about but I wont ha! So after the show me and miss E went to the Brick to catch the last of Unknown Pleasures and Radio Berlin which was amazing---of course I had a few more drinks there so I got pretty drunk- Finally Me and Eanna went back to our Victorian Style Room at the Savoy Hotel- which was AMAZING I had never stayed there before but it is this old old haunted hotel--its beautiful-- We had a huge wooden canopy bed and the bathtub had claws it was awesome. heh heh. This morning we went downstairs for breakfast and I had the best omlete EVER! needless to say last night/ this morning ruled. I could die happy right now.

Tonite

2004-04-15T16:57:40Z

Im so excited I just cant hide it! Tonite is going to fucking rule! First of all Im meeting up with my lovely eanna to go shopping and have happy hour drinks- THEN we are going to see THE MARS VOLTA, with A PERFECT CIRCLE! Yes Yes Yes followed by more beer drinking and then passing out in our luxurious hotel room we are getting close by- AND I dont have to work again until MONDAY!!!! This whole WEEKEND is going to rule!

New Leaves

2004-04-14T18:36:27Z

I woke up refreshed and rejuvinated today. The world is so open with tons of possibilities. I can have whatever i want in life... Im getting my priorities stright and looking forward to the future. I am strong and independent. I can make intelligent decisions, and do whats best for me. I will no longer tolerate self distructive behavior. I am in control of me, and I am happy.

reevaluating my relationships with the opposite sex

2004-04-13T16:21:24Z

Just one more reason for me to become a nun. Men are rediculus! Just when i think I have everything figured out - everything falls to pieces. What is WRONG with these guys?>>> I dont understand how Mr. W. can go to Europe, call me and tell me how much he misses me and cant wait to see me and when he gets home its a different story....it all goes back to the human psychology of- "You always want what you cant have" Since Mr. W. was all alone in a foreign land without me, and couldnt see me all of a sudden he misses me and cant wait to see me, yet this person has been home for 3. Count them 3 days!! and somehow cannot find anytime for me, yet finds plenty of time to cavort and get wasted with his friends. Why oh why do I even bother!!! actually im not going to bother im finished with him.
Then theres Mr. D. he seems nice, calls when hes supposed to makes a serious effort to see me. hes a little melancholy and probly a little unhappy with his life, which means he would be a suitible choice as a potential "partner" but, and i know this is shallow, he is shorter and skinnier than me. I find him attractive for sure, but I dont know, it feels strange when were out because I want a guy that can protect me and stand up for me, and ive always been attracted to taller beefier men.... hmm
On the other hand, I have Mr. C. He is sorta sweet, a little shy, easily manipulative, but a little flaky, I can tell its just his nature, but it irritates me to know end-- I cannot STAND flaky people, and he dosent give me enough attention. Has not once told me im pretty, and call me insecure or whatever but I need to hear it-- I need to feel loved and valued not just someone who you keep around-! Well it is time for self medication. therapy. I need to reevaluate all my relatinship situations and decide which ones are worth that the headache. Well, that answers easy. none of them. smirk

back on live journal

2004-04-06T06:58:29Z

So Im back on this thing again- my journal is so not cool write now