Just hold me close to you

Sun, 15 May 2005 21:55:02 GMT

But my God it's so beautiful when that boy smiles<3

Let me take you to a place where you can
scream out loud all the words to your favorite
songs cause thats the least that I can do

Tonight is a story of love two broken hearts set by one
All she wants is a sign of how he's making her mind

My heart, your hand, not breaking again.

why can't it be the way it was
when pain was only plastic guns
my closest friends have turned and fled
you are a million miles away

Sun, 01 May 2005 04:49:37 GMT

New Live journal because this one is going insane and i have to delete every entry

_____Kaylaaaa

ADD ME FOOLS

anyone wanna help me make a friends only banner?!

Sun, 17 Apr 2005 19:28:37 GMT

commenting on my livejournal is soo last summer.

Thu, 14 Apr 2005 22:44:18 GMT

Yeah, so i haven't really been updating much. but nothing AT ALL has been going on. Going to my grand daddy's tommarrow for his birthday and then going to watch Rose's sexy ass in Snoopy (the play) Then back to my dad's. Aleah's having a bon-fire that i can't go to. it sucks. but i'll live, she'll have more. Alot of people are going i guess.

This is the first time in my life where i haven't really LIKED any one, but i have a few fine fellows' in my head. But i don't LIKE them, they're just cute, and i'm thinking about them. Nothing big, but it's sweet because this is the best way not to get hurt.

I'm soo anxious for summer, but not as anxious as i would be on Nottingham, because i had a pool, and more friends. I miss my brother Joe, and him living with us. He used to have my back some times when me n my mom would get into a fight. But not all the time. And now if i call him when me n her are in a fight he says let me talk to mom, and i don't want that. and when ever i go to his house my mom is there, soo i have like no time to talk to him alone :/ Oh well, it's life and he's 23 and i'm 15.

Speaking of 15 my birthday is in like 2 months and 28 days. I'm rather excited. well VERY excited. but i don't think i'll be getting my license on that day, becuase my dad wants to be up north for my birthday but i said no and i don't think i'll be ready for it. but maybe, idk.. My mom said that if Joe and Kristy let that we can get a bus or a huge van, and bring people from the 248 to the 586 and then people form the 586 can come and we'll have a pool party or some shiz. yeah that would be freakin amazing. but i doubt it'll happen. Idc what i do, i just want to be with my friends whether it's in Warren or not. But if i get my license, then i'm going to Warren ALONE (meaning with no parents) for sure.

I busted out my Blink 182 cds the other night when me n my mom got into a fight, and man o man, it was amazing. I remember being in Elemantry school and 6th grade LOVING LOVING LOVING THEM. I got Rose into Blink, she said she didn't like them, and then i was like listen to this, and she liked them. Then i got retarded and started to like rap >.< but now i'm sweet again. But there's one song, idk what it's called, but i remember replaying one part over and over and over because it was amazing. Enema of the State is SUCH a good cd.
yeah old days are what rule. Everything before August 29th were like the best days/years ever. and then i've had a few really good day past then. November 13th and January 15th. and October 2nd. But that's like it.
I really miss Warren, alot, i where my Warren Mott Basketball Camp shirt in gym even though Coach Wilk's make fun of me for it. man, i gotta rep the 586. no one understands.

But i'm super bored, and i'm not sapposed to be online when my mom isn't home because stupid dial up, and the damn couch in the kitchen. soo i'm going to play with stupid Ruby.

Peace the Brick out<3

Tue, 12 Apr 2005 19:56:28 GMT

AM I......
[]hott?
[]sexy?
[]fun?
[]funny?
[]annoying?
[]happy?

DO I.....
[]like you?
[]love you?
[]get in fights with you?
[]upset you?
[]disapoint you?
[]annoy you?

DO YOU....
[]love me?
[]like me?
[]hate me?
[]want me to be yours?
[]want to marry me?
[]what to be with me forever in a relationship or not?
[]just want to be friends?
[] want to kiss me?

WOULD YOU LET ME.....
[]stay the night?
[]sleep in your bed?
[]kiss you?
[]make out with you?
[]read your journal?
[]ask you out?
[]love you?

HAVE YOU EVER......
[]wanted to tell me something but just couldn't?
[]wanted to kiss me?
[]had a crush on me?
[]wanted my number?
[]wanted to chill with me?
[]thought of me and a bad person?
[]wanted me to be yours?

Put and X to all that apply

WOULD YOU:
[] go out with me?
[] give me your number?
[] kiss me?
[] let me kiss you?
[] watch a movie with me?
[] take me out to dinner?
[] drive me somewhere
[] cut some rug with me?
[] take a shower with me?
[] be my bf/gf?
[] have a fling with me?
[] buy me a drink?
[] take me home for the night?
[] Would you let me sleep in your bed?
[] Sing car karaoke w/ me?
[] sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone?
[] re-post this for me to answer your questions?
[] give me a piggyback ride?
[] Come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere

D0 Y0U...
[] think im cute?
[] want to kiss me?
[] want to cuddle wit me?
[] want to hook up with me?

ARE WE...
[] aquintences?
[] friends?
[] in a relationship?
[] gonna have kids?

AM I...
[] smart?
[] cute?
[] funny?
[] cool?

HAVE Y0U EVER...
[] thought about me?
[] thought there might be an "us"?
[] thought about hookin up with me?
[] found yourself wanting a kiss from me?
[] wished i were there?

ARE Y0U...
[] done with this survey?
[] happy you know me?
[] mad at me?
[] thinkin bout me?
[] going to repost this so that i will return the favor?

Mon, 11 Apr 2005 00:01:34 GMT

Wow, soo i've been grounded from the computer the last couple of days, still am i guess. Idk my mom listens to my brother too much. ohh well.
And i'm sapposed to be at the audition and chiodos show, but i'm not there. But over all this weekend has been pretty okay. Not much sleep though. BUUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

I get my braces off May 21st :D :D :D :D :D :D :D
Me and Aleah camped finally :D As did Keith, Cathrine Cincane (sp?) Brandon, and Ashlee. I won 5 bucks whether keith said i didn't or not. Drugs are bad. Matt Watson is hott as fuck. James is sweet, I met a sweet girl named Kaylen who has cool shows and freaks out. Bought Dairy Been for people. spent 5 bucks on something that wasn't even worth paying for. Got really excited for the show. AND I'M NOT THERE!!!!!
and yeahhh that's about it.

and my brother is a fucking idiot. and took the love of my life on the tractor with him. RETARD!

and Ms. Julia Fowler/Fika has a 15th birthday on Wednesday of this week. I trust all you cool cats will say happy birthday to her. If not, you're stupid<3

I WISH I WAS AT THE SHOW. what sucks the most is, my mom said i could go. and i'm not even there. :/

he is the lamb, she is the slaughter x)

Sun, 10 Apr 2005 18:00:49 GMT

i really think Keith Alex or J-Money should call me about the show today....685-7883

Thu, 07 Apr 2005 23:33:52 GMT

Well, soo this week has been good. :D Going back to school hasn't been soo bad. MOnday i went to track for the first time. My coach who loves me told me i couldn't do it, or i could but i wouldn't run in any meets till like late May, and track ends in the beginning of June. Soo i was just like, okay, i wasn't prepared for this season, i'll just do it next year. Soo that's that, no track, and i'm not too upset..Ohh well =) Then pretty much nothin else has been going on. I started to go tanning, that's awesome, but i don't tan easily, well, i do and i don't. idk my skin is retarded. And then on Wednesday my mom made me and my brother rake our whole lawn. and she's retarded and didn't even help, even though she's the reason why it wasn't raked. She should have done it in Autumn. Ohh well. It's done. And i'm applying for a job at the green house across the street from the school :D
Then today at lunch, I got my lunch, and i ordered a Capichino (sp?) and a fruit thingy and a small chocolate milk, soo i didn't know what to do with my capichino, soo i put it on my tray. and i'm waking down the lunch line (thank god i was one of the last people in line) and it spills on me. my HOT capichino. but not bad, only a little bit on my shirt, and on my thigh. But it was hot. and Aleah was laughing =) cuz it was hilarious. Soo I smelled like nasty french vinalla all day. ohh well, i like the smell<3
Soo we're doing research papers in Lit, and my topic is Why Depression Is Soo Common In Teens. and we've been working on it since like way before spring break, and the rough draft is due tommorrow, and i haven't even started it. I have all my sources and work cited shiz, i just haven't started any thing. Ohh well, i always seem to get better grades on things if i wait till the last minute. Just i've always ALWAYS gotten really really bad grades on research papers. =/ ohh well. 200 points, it's all good. i have a 97.3% in that class. IT'S SOO EASY. I'll have my mom help me.

This weekend i HOPE HOPE HOPE will be sweet, no Dad's, show on Sunday, THE "NEW" AUDITION AND CHIODOS! Camping with Aleah and BOYS (i like boys) on Saturday, partying on Friday, orthodontist appt. on Saturday and they tell me with i get the silverware off UGH i hope everything works out soo well, specially the show. My mom def. won't take me, soo like if i don't get a ride form like Keith, Alex, Aleah, or Justin, i'm screwed =/

But i gotta work on my rough draft.

PEACE THE SKUNK OUT

Sun, 03 Apr 2005 20:19:48 GMT

Yeah soo, this break sucked majorly. I didn't leave my house once. EVERYONE WAS ON VACATION! Rose was sapposed to come over Monday, she had a job interview, and then she was sapposed to come over on Friday and sometimes came up. It sucked. But then on Saturday my mom took me n my bro shoe shopping. I got sweet new shoes. Theyre Circas and they're black and red. They're sweet. Normally i rock ADIDAS but i decided to kick it up a notch, I dyed my hair as most of you should know.

I had to baby sit Saturday night for my cousin Bella. She was asleep from 6:30-10:00 and i had to wake her up because she's going through potty training, soo i had to put a diaper on her and send her to bed. Soo i wake her up and she looks around and just screams at the top of her lungs "MUMMMMMMMMMMMMMA" and she ran into her room and locked me out. I was sitting there by that door for like a half hour and then while she's in the room, she stopped screaming, and she's like "Kaya, i peed in my room" i was just thinkig ohh my goodness. but thens he let me in and i changed her pajamas and underwear and put on a diaper, and i realized i can't put diapers on for shizzzzz but then she like climbed into bed. wow. Physco baby. But then today i'm not doing anything

I have to find a way i can go to the show next week. WTF why would they have it on a Sunday...

oh well, school tommorrow, kind of excited just to get out of my house and away from my brother.

PEACE

Sat, 02 Apr 2005 15:48:46 GMT

Tom Auty and my self have realized that we are the coolest kids on this planet. because have one thing

WHEW

just pouring out more mom issues

Fri, 01 Apr 2005 22:43:09 GMT

the thing that makes me the most mad about living in this house is how i'm the biggest screw up and how i'm a terrible child. the only good thing that my mom likes about me is my grades and even those aren't good enough.

My mom is a fucking idiot and she treats me like a fucking 12 year old. i refuse to live with her. Come summer i'm moving out and moving in with my dad back in warren. i miss it soo much. I was watching Full House last night and they were going to move and i just broke down in tears because everyone was soo happy about it besides michelle and i was like what the fuck, idiots. why would you be fucking happy about moving? They ended up not moving which is a really good thing, i just wish my mom would have had the brains to not move. She's a fucking selfish bitch who says "we don't have the kind of money to be spending on that" seriously, fuck you, you spend our money on worthless shit like a god damn couch in the kitchen or a brand new dog that causes us to spend more money than ever before. I wish she wasn't my mom, i hate her soo much. i can't wait till summer.

yeah, i was doing soo well on not swearing, and then she had to talk to me. fucking bitch, i hate you.

and i swear to god if i spend my friday night home, i'll fucking kill someone. my plans tonite already got ruined. and hopefully natalie calls me.

Thu, 31 Mar 2005 22:07:14 GMT

My name is Kayla Moran, and i'm in love with a 5th grader<3

i really suck at resizing

old hair

new hair<3 it looks alot more reddish/pinkish in person.

my bangs always find a way to get in my face >.<

i was singing, dick

and one for good luck of the physco dog i've started to enjoy and who gives very big hugs<3

AND MY LOVE<3

he's soo cuteeeeeeee

Thu, 31 Mar 2005 18:10:32 GMT

Soo i've quit swearing, and i can honestly say i've done a really good job with not doing it. I subsitute words like F--- I say fudge, SKUNK, freakin, eff, and other shiz and it's working really really well. Julia and myself have realized that it's really ugly for girls to swear, it shows a lack of intelligence, and it's just a retarded thing to do.

Soo last night my mom and I highlighted my hair like BRIGHT red, and i haven't done anything to it yet, but my bangs are really red/pinkish, because ya know she never listens too me, and i didn't want them to get highlighted very much, and plus my bangs are the number one thing that i care about when i get ready for anything, because even if the rest of my hair looks like shiz then i can just throw my hair up, but my bangs are still down, ya kno? Soo, i haven't like done anything to my hair yet, just let it air dry, and it doesn't look too bad, i'm going to straigten it either today or tommorrow, i've gone this whole week with wearing it up, i haven't blow dried it since Easter, which is like SUPER healthy =) i'm proud of my self<3

Soo as of right now, life is pretty sweet, i'm doing alot better, and just everything is great, i'm okay with everything that's happening with everyone. Rose and hopefully Sandra are comming over tommorrow and i'm SUPER excited. We're hopefully hanging with Keith, Natalie, and Alex and hopefully Justin, but who knows. HOPEFULLY OTHER PEOPLE TOO! We just need to find a place to hang out..hmmm. Everytime Natalie is online i IM her to like hang out but she never answers. ohh well. Aleah comes home on saturday =) but i'm not going to be here, soo hopefully we're hanging on monday. I start track on monday, i'm really excited, i got new spikes and everything and then i have a meet on Tuesday, wow, totally not ready, but i've been running every day this week with Ruby, and that dog can run and i love it, not her, i love that she can run!

but yeah, that's all for now, when i straighten my hair i'll post pics

PEACE
if you wanna hang with me rose sandra and peeps, youre welcome<3

Wed, 30 Mar 2005 17:57:24 GMT

1. Kissed your cousin: they don't call me Hillbilly Kay for nothin ;D

2. Ran away: no, but i want too

3. Pictured your crush naked: no, i don't like weiners

4. Skipped school: Yes.

5. Broken someone's heart: Yup, Jason's

6. Been in love: i think soo

7. Cried when someone died: OH MAN, i cry when people are sick, of course i did

8. Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have: all the time

10. Done something embarrassing: always<3

11. Lied: sometimes

12. Cried in school:......yeah

WHICH IS [BETTER]...
13. Coke or Pepsi: Pepsi

14. Sprite or 7UP: 7up

15. Girls or Guys: Girls. they're better haha.

16. Flowers or Candy: candy

17. Scruff or Clean shaved: well...if were talking about what i hope we are...clean shaved, if not, you're freakin sick

18. Blondes or Brunetts: BRUNETTS

19. bitchy or slutty: neither, that's a retarded way to live your life

20. Tall or Short: Tall boy dating a short girl

21. Pants or Shorts: shorts on girls, pants on boys

22. Night or Day: Night

WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX...

23. What do you notice first: teeth, hands, hair

24. Like Being Spanked: you know it ;D

25. Worst Question For Him/her to ask: omg soo mant but the worst is "how far have you gone with a boy"

LAST TIME YOU

26. Showered: yesterday, bout to get in again

27. Stepped outside: like 5 minutes ago

28. Had Sex: i'd be labeled a virgin, and i'm lovin it :D

ABOUT YOU...

29. Ever been Engaged/ Married: yup, 3 times

30. Your Good luck charm: these Alan Iverson socks i have

31. Person You Hate Most: I don't hate anyone, i say i do, but i really don't.

32. Best Thing That Has Happened: In kindergarten when i got the love of my life

33. Where did it go?: she's 10 years old and still kickin'

34. Picture on your desktop: THE WEAKEND

35. Color: wait, favorite color, pale yellow

36.Movie: Radio and The Notebook

37. Artist or band: DASHBOARD CONFESSIONAL AND THE WEAKEND

38. Cars: Jaguar X-type

39. Ice Cream: Cookie Dough

41. Food: Rose's mom's stuffed peppers

WHO...

42. Makes You Laugh The Most: Keith and Sandra

43. Makes You Smile: everyone

44. Can Make You Feel Better No Matter What: Rose, Jessica, Aleah, Sandra, and Kevin Lewis

45. Has A Crush On You: hmmm...no one idk idc.

46. Do You Have A Crush On Someone: nahh, welll, sort of, but i'm trying to stop it.

47. Who Has It Easier?: dogs, and like 5 year olds

48. Gives You A Funny Feeling When You See Them: Jason Lewis

DO YOU EVER...

49. Sit By The Phone Waiting For A Phone Call All Night: I hate talking on the phone.

50. Save AIM Conversations: when they're really really good i do

51. Save E-mails: sometimes

52. Forwarded Secret E-mails: nope

53. Wish You Were Someone Else: Sam Wasko

54. Wish You Were A Member Of The Opposite Sex: YESSSS

55. Wear perfume: noo but i wear lotion on like my arms and legs that smells like Lavander

56. Kiss: yuppp

57. Cuddle: yup

58. Go Online For Longer Than Eight Hours At A Time: noooooooo.

HAVE YOU EVER....

59. Fallen For Your Best Friend? Yes

60. Made Out With JUST A Friend?: Yes.

61. Kissed Two People In The Same Day?: Yes

62. Had Sex With Two Different People In The Same Day? no

63. Been Rejected?: Yes, many times

64. Been In Love?: i think

65. Been In Lust?: yeahhhhhh

66. Used Someone?: That's terrible

67. Been Used?: I think i have.

68. Dumped Someone?: Yes.

69. Been Cheated On?: yeahhh, stupid idiot

70. Back Doored It? ..............if that means what i think it does HELLL NO

71. Done Something You Regret? Yes

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...

72. You Touched?: i socked my brother for no reason =)

73. You Talked To?: ALEAH<3

74. you tickeled: umm...i'm not big on tickling

75. You Instant Messaged? ALEAH<3

76. you kicked: my bro

77. You Yelled At?: my brother

78. You Dreamed About?: I KEEP HAVING THIS STUPID DREAM WITH A MONKY IN IT!!!

79. Who Text Messaged You?: i don't have a cell phone =(

80. Who Broke Your Heart?: Justin

81. Who Told You They Loved You?: Justin

DO YOU...

82. Color Your Hair? I highlight it TONITE I'M HIGHLIGHTING IT WITH BRIGHT RED

83. Have Tattoos? No.

84. Have Piercings?: my earizzles

85. Boyfriend/girlfriend?: nopeeeee SINGLE AND READY TO MINGLE

86. Own A Webcam?: yeah but idk how to use it

87. Own A Thong?: i'm a girl with skin tight pants...whatta you think

88. Ever Get Off The Damn Computer?: yea, i have dial up, i have tooo ha

89. Sprechen Sie Deutsch?: hahahah noo, Austin Powers is the best movie hhahahaaa

90. Habla espanol?: Si

91. Buy Designer: ummm...abercrombie jeans? and i rock adidas?

HAVE YOU / DO YOU / ARE YOU...

92. Stolen Anything?: when i was little i used to all the time

93. Smoke?: i've never smoked a cigeratte, but i've tried weed

94. Schizophrenic?: nahhh

95. Obsessive?: with teeth, yes.

96. Compulsive?: nope

97. Obsessive compulsive? NOPE

98. Panic?: i do panic sometimes

99. Anxiety?: nope

100. Stressed? nopeeeee it's spring break, live a little

Wed, 30 Mar 2005 05:15:48 GMT

Wow, i just realized that from the beginning of 8th grade till August 28th 2004 was the GREATEST year of my life.

8th grade and the summer. Oh man. Soo many new friends made, and some lost, soo many GREAT memories

.Freakin A man, Mr. Mcneil, that man was THE COOLEST PERSON on this planet, and no one understands it besides me. i always tell people "ohh that teacher was soo awesome" but they're just like oh. and like, even if you had him, you didn't have a tighter bond than me n him did. I called him ugly everyday and he didn't get offended. he called me grosse looking and i didn't care. That's not a teacher, that's a buddy. So i got a C- in that class, idc, i made him laugh, and i actually loved science. I remember one time, i went down to his class during 5th hour like i would every day, and i would just like walk it like it's nothing, and he thought it'd be funny to tell my Math teacher Mr. Carron why i wasn't in the bathroom, soo he walked me down to class, and he was like I FOUND THIS LOOKING FOR FOOD IN MY ROOM! and i was soo embaressed, but i thought it was hilarious, i wasn't allowed out of the class room in that class again. And i remember i always used to say "because i'm sweet like that" and he would give me this stupid look like i was insane. And another thing i liked Kevin Lewis back then, and we sat next ot eachother kind of, and one day Kevin was absent and Mr. Mcneil was like, KAYLA DON'T YOU WISH KEVIN WAS HERE SOO YOU COULD STARE AT HIM!!!!!!! hahahah and then, we had a track meet at Mott one day, and Mr. Mcniel was up there coaching Mott's Varsity Baseball team, and me n i think Alysha walked by and i was like WUDDUP OLD MAN and he looked at me and was like HEY SMELLY, HAVE A TERRIBLE DAY =) i swear, i've never had a greater teacher, to me, he wasn't a teacher, he was like a best friend, and maybe to some people it's wrong to think that about a teacher, but idc. Minette thought she could be like me some days and get away by calling him an old man, and he would just look at her like she was retarded hahahahaha

Lakeland gets out June 9th, on June 10th i'm spending the whole day at Beer. I don't care who says i can't. I'll spend half the day in Mrs. Murphy's room, go to the 7th grade lunch since i know alot of the kids because my brother is in 7th grade and went to beer. And then i'll spend the other half in Mr. Mcneils room. I swear, it'll be such a great day. i can't wait.

Wed, 30 Mar 2005 02:54:33 GMT

Tue, 29 Mar 2005 15:09:58 GMT

So, it's Tuesday and already break has been pretty but boring.
Yesterday Rose n Sandra were sapposed to come over but Ms. Buisness Woman Rosie (ha) had a job interview! But that's okay. Hooray for her and trying to make some mula. (because my birthday is like 3 months away ;D) So now her n Sondra are comming over on Friday =) Hopefully by then most people are home from their vacations.
I miss Aleah like WHOA but she called me again yesterday and we talked for like 45 minutes =D I keep trying to talk my mom into taking us to Florida next Thursday, she said she'll look into prices. If we go, shotty on going to Universal Studios. MOST DEFF.

Soo my plans for this week are nothing at all, besides Friday and Saturday. I don't have to baby sit at all this week unless Lisa calls me and asks, and i'll do it, because i'm saving up for my senior spring break trip to Austrillia, and i WILL go, even if i have to go alone. And Saturday night i have to babysit my cousin Isabella. WHO IS THE CUTEST BABY ALIVE!!!!

But other then that things have been going pretty swell. But if i'm cooped up in this house all week i'll kill someone. SOO CALL ME =)

i need a shower =)

Mon, 28 Mar 2005 02:40:07 GMT

I feel like crap-o-la because i freaked out on Justin, on Thursday. Even though i went crazy i didn't even tell him why i felt the way i did. I feel bad because Keith hates it when people complain, and i complained to Keith first, on his birthday. I feel bad because Justin's my best friend, at least before everything he was, and i treated him like shit. I feel bad because i called Holly 2-faced when she's really not, she was just confused. I called Justin 2-faced too, which i don't take back because he sort of is. I just hate being shared, or having to share my friends. Thats how i was when Angela moved on to Nottingham and her and Irena became friends. No one has no idea what i'm talking about besides Irena, if she reads this. I didn't want to share Rose when her n Derek started a relationship, i almost stopped my friendship with her over stupid me being jealous that i was losing my bestfriend/sister and i didn't want to share Rose with Sandra in 5th grade (what he fuck was wrong with me) and that's how it was with Irena, and now i feel like i'm losing Justin. and it sucks.

I keep telling my self i'm not going to be sad. soo today when we were driving home form up north, i saw a sign that said "Kettering something" and i thought of Natalie telling Justin's friend Julia that she Kettered, because she goes to Waterford Kettering and how Julia has really nice teeth. and it made me laugh. I just like thinking of everything good that's happened, and all the crappiness goes away. People have told me it didn't work, bologna, it does work, maybe you haven't had alot of good times to think of. Jeeze, i think about the car ride to November 13th NOTHING EVEN SPEICAL HAPPENED besides me ragging on Rose's dad like i do everytime i see him, because i love that man, but just the excitment of going to my first show. Freakin January 1st, sucky show, but i hung out with great people, i met Jim Morrison, held Sondra AND Cali up when they crowd surfed, i met Cali, swearing around a church with Jusin and Jim Morrison. January 15th when I crowd surfed, stinkin greatest 7 seconds of my life. Aleah's birthday, MEETING ALEAH! Hanging out with Jessie, SANDRA'S BOOTS!! all these GREAT GREAT GREAT times make me think, i swear to god, if i say my life sucks, i'm an idiot. Yeah, soo me n Justin broke up, okay, we're still friends, i'll get over it. Soo him n Holly are starting something, it's past me now, i don't care, i'm moving on, and i don't care if some people aren't happy for me, because i am, Rose is, Jessica is, and Julia is, and that's all that matters. All these good times make me like want to cry, because i treat myself soo terribly over the stupidest things. Stuff that doesn't even like phase me i make a big deal out of it, well that's going to stop, i'm a hipocrit, i help other people and give them my advice, and i don't even take my own. I'm changing, again. and i'm quitting swearing.

i freakin love my friends

Thu, 24 Mar 2005 20:19:28 GMT

Wow, i'm soo incredibly disgusted right now. Jesus Christ. okay, soo he tells me he misses me, and still plays with my heart and tells me shit that makes me happy and think maybe i'll still have a chance. and then i see like his livejournal and junk. yeah, fuck you. there is no other chance, you just want me for my ass. I'm not even going to cry any more. today was such an awesome day, and that's how it's going to be from now on, i'm done with you. i still want to be your friend, but as of now, i want nothing more. don't tell me shit that isn't true to make me happy. It feels like you used me, and we didn't even do anything after we broke up. just the shit you said. i'm sorry but fuck you.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEITH!!!!!!!!!!

YOU'RE THE FUNNIEST/COOLEST KID I KNOW!

Thu, 24 Mar 2005 00:28:04 GMT

I was in such a shitty mood today. for no reason at all, it's the new thing for me i guess.
But then.........
Aleah called me on her way to Florida =)
and just the fact that she thought me me, and called me totally made my week. I love her and miss here dearly, already <3

Spring break..ehh, hopefully going to florida on Thursday..maybe..maybe not, i need it.
Hopefully it's some what warm, maybe hoodie weather, i'll be happy with that!

This Friday-Eye appt at 9 am >.< then to the Airport to drop of my mom's old boyfriend then HOPEFULLY to Rose's. Then Friday night el Local Show with As Dawn Falls, A Second Too Late, and A Sundail, i know none of the bands that well, but i REALLY need to get knocked around. The show would be like a zillion times better tho if The Weakend or Chiodos were there, oh yeah, you know it's true.

{/Edit\} No show this weekend, i have to go up north for easter on friday =( and then hopefully rose is comming over on monday tuesday and maybe go home wednesday?=) {/Edit\}

my friends are amazingly awesome<3

Tue, 22 Mar 2005 00:57:23 GMT

i hate this soo much
i hate comming home and being alone
and when i'm alone i think ALOT about one certain thing/person
and it sucks, i guess
i hate being sad all the time
i liked it when i was happy
the only person that knows how i feel is Aleah
because she's going through what i am just at a present date
i love her to death.
Sandra too, because she's going through EXACTLY what i'm going through, word for word
i love her more than life it's self
and we're going to Mongolian BBQ to hang with Andrew from The Weakend over spring break
I'm tired of wanted to say something about this to him.
but i never know how to put it
or i'm too afraid.
I'm speachless
that's why i love live journal, just to get somethings more than others out.
everything sucks.
i hate school, but it's the only place where i don't think about this AS much
Everything's changing
and it's terrible
it's tearing me apart.
i hate break-ups =(

on the bright side
Julia (Fika) Fowler is one of the greatest most brilliant people i know, she's always there for me, even when times are rough with her. She has great taste in music, and is a great dictionary. She knows how to spell every word on this planet. She has an amazing boyfriend, and i love her dearly<3 THANK YOU FIKA<3

Mon, 21 Mar 2005 02:04:30 GMT

yes, soo this weekend was fun, but not as fun as i thought it was going to be
Friday night sucked, i was really sad about everything, but Holly helped soo much, we were up till like 1:30-2:00ish just talking about everything. She's pretty stinkin sweet and she made me feel alot better!

Saturday was good, but my plans like went to crap. My mom woke me up at 10:00 to clean my room and bathroom, even though i already did it friday night. Soo then i couldn't go back to sleep. Around 11:30 she took me to get my hurr cut, and it's SHORT! like shoulder length. (when i get batteries i'll post pics) The lady that was cutting my hair said i have BEAUTIFUL hair but i need a moistuizer because my hair is really dry and fried. Cause i blow dry and straighten it everyday and the school pool and shiz. oh well. But then i got home took a shower and did my hair, and i love the new doo, even tho i miss my long hair. But then my mom took me n my bro to 12 Oaks and i got new pants from AE and they don't fit AGAIN, and theyre a size 2 when i'm a size three....oh well, and they were 50 freakin bucks, yeah, definetly getting my money back. Soo then we went to Pac Sun and i FINALLY got my studded belt, but it's like sweet it's got one row of studs, and then a row of stars that got cut out, and then another row of studs. FUCKIN SWEET Y0! and then we went to Hot Topic for shirts. I got the black Hawthorne Heights shirt and the blue Hawthorne Heights shirt that says "Hawthorne Heights Ohio is for Lovers" it's sweet! Then i went to Abercrombie to use up my gift card that i got for christmas from my bro. Okay, i know he's broke and shit, soo he only put 25 bucks on the card, but seriously, you can't get shit from Abercrombie for 25 bucks. But i found something that was 19 bucks, It's a shirt that said "Let's get out of here" on it, and i thought it was cute!

Then after the mall my mom me n danny went to my brother Joe's house, from there i went to Jenns =) and we hung out there. We were SAPPOSED to hang out with our men (kevin, jason, bryan, mike lang, phill, mike c and steve) but yeah they ditched us to go to some other girls house, i was REALLY pissed. But then me Jenn Jamie and Melissa went and saw the ring 2, UGH it was scary. But i didn't see the ring 1 soo i was clueless at parts. But then we went back to Jenn's and watched a sweet movie on life time and went to sleep

This this morning me n Jenn woke up around 10:30 and did pretty much nothing but it was a fun nothing =) my mom came and got me at 3:30 and me her Danny and Joe went out to eat for my Grandmother's birthday and we went to a pizza place in Center Line, and MAN they have good pizza. But then we came home and i took a shower, and now i'm doing nothing!
This morning Justin told me he was thinking about me last night and he hasn't told me why, i'm kind of worried/anxious.....oh well.

i'm going tho, going to watch the best DVD i own.
Dashboard Confessional Unplugged<3

PEACE IN THE MIDDLE EAST

Sat, 19 Mar 2005 22:32:26 GMT

yup today will be sweet
testing my feelings for a certain someone that i haven't seen since october, kind of nervous. but excited.

Last night was crappy
but Holly helped SOOOOO much<3

Jenn Padula is my love<3

Fri, 18 Mar 2005 01:57:48 GMT

I seriously don't understand anything any more. Why are things soo hard? and why always for me? Always, with everything i've ever done.

School is shitty, home is shitty, everything is shitty

All the good bands are breaking up
The Auditon, well they didn't break up, but it's kind of like they did
Only in Movies
FUCKING BASED ON A TRUE STORY
AND FROM HERE ON OUT
What the fuck, if The Weakend or Dashboard Confessional break up, i'm done.

peace

p.s i think i'm moving in with my dad in the summer...

TeMptd lxl TouCh (9:45:48 PM): i'm irish:-)
TeMptd lxl TouCh (9:45:52 PM): and no one kissed me :-[
BIG PoPpPa 690 (9:46:04 PM): oh no
BIG PoPpPa 690 (9:46:27 PM): if u were here there would be a bunch of volunteers ready
TeMptd lxl TouCh (9:47:11 PM): :-)
Yup, definetly moving back.

this weekend will rock
hanging with my old hoodies, yup yup!

Wed, 16 Mar 2005 21:30:46 GMT

Does anyone want my black From Autumn To Ashes shirt, it's a small, and it has a design on the front, it's pretty sweet, but i never wear it?!?!?!

Emo Boyfriend
Name
DOB
Favourite Color
His Name	Angel
His Looks/Style	Curly-ish brown hair, brown eyes, tan skin, labret pierced, tight tshirts, tight pants, skate shoes
How you met	School
How he tells you he loves you	Sits outside your house at 2 in the morning and plays guitar and sings (very well) "Only One" by Yellowcard
What he calls you	Darlin'
How far you've gone	everything

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