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[15 May 2005|05:54pm] |
But my God it's so beautiful when that boy smiles<3
Let me take you to a place where you can
scream out loud all the words to your favorite
songs cause thats the least that I can do
Tonight is a story of love two broken hearts set by one
All she wants is a sign of how he's making her mind
My heart, your hand, not breaking again.
why can't it be the way it was
when pain was only plastic guns
my closest friends have turned and fled
you are a million miles away
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[01 May 2005|12:48am] |
New Live journal because this one is going insane and i have to delete every entry
_____Kaylaaaa
ADD ME FOOLS
anyone wanna help me make a friends only banner?!
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[01 May 2005|12:13am] |
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holy moly at my brotehr finding his ipod on Ledgewood which is like 2 streets and a lake away from my street!
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[17 Apr 2005|03:27pm] |
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commenting on my livejournal is soo last summer.
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[14 Apr 2005|06:28pm] |
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Yeah, so i haven't really been updating much. but nothing AT ALL has been going on. Going to my grand daddy's tommarrow for his birthday and then going to watch Rose's sexy ass in Snoopy (the play) Then back to my dad's. Aleah's having a bon-fire that i can't go to. it sucks. but i'll live, she'll have more. Alot of people are going i guess.
This is the first time in my life where i haven't really LIKED any one, but i have a few fine fellows' in my head. But i don't LIKE them, they're just cute, and i'm thinking about them. Nothing big, but it's sweet because this is the best way not to get hurt.
I'm soo anxious for summer, but not as anxious as i would be on Nottingham, because i had a pool, and more friends. I miss my brother Joe, and him living with us. He used to have my back some times when me n my mom would get into a fight. But not all the time. And now if i call him when me n her are in a fight he says let me talk to mom, and i don't want that. and when ever i go to his house my mom is there, soo i have like no time to talk to him alone :/ Oh well, it's life and he's 23 and i'm 15.
Speaking of 15 my birthday is in like 2 months and 28 days. I'm rather excited. well VERY excited. but i don't think i'll be getting my license on that day, becuase my dad wants to be up north for my birthday but i said no and i don't think i'll be ready for it. but maybe, idk.. My mom said that if Joe and Kristy let that we can get a bus or a huge van, and bring people from the 248 to the 586 and then people form the 586 can come and we'll have a pool party or some shiz. yeah that would be freakin amazing. but i doubt it'll happen. Idc what i do, i just want to be with my friends whether it's in Warren or not. But if i get my license, then i'm going to Warren ALONE (meaning with no parents) for sure.
I busted out my Blink 182 cds the other night when me n my mom got into a fight, and man o man, it was amazing. I remember being in Elemantry school and 6th grade LOVING LOVING LOVING THEM. I got Rose into Blink, she said she didn't like them, and then i was like listen to this, and she liked them. Then i got retarded and started to like rap >.< but now i'm sweet again. But there's one song, idk what it's called, but i remember replaying one part over and over and over because it was amazing. Enema of the State is SUCH a good cd.
yeah old days are what rule. Everything before August 29th were like the best days/years ever. and then i've had a few really good day past then. November 13th and January 15th. and October 2nd. But that's like it.
I really miss Warren, alot, i where my Warren Mott Basketball Camp shirt in gym even though Coach Wilk's make fun of me for it. man, i gotta rep the 586. no one understands.
But i'm super bored, and i'm not sapposed to be online when my mom isn't home because stupid dial up, and the damn couch in the kitchen. soo i'm going to play with stupid Ruby.
Peace the Brick out<3
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[10 Apr 2005|07:50pm] |
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Wow, soo i've been grounded from the computer the last couple of days, still am i guess. Idk my mom listens to my brother too much. ohh well.
And i'm sapposed to be at the audition and chiodos show, but i'm not there. But over all this weekend has been pretty okay. Not much sleep though. BUUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
I get my braces off May 21st :D :D :D :D :D :D :D
Me and Aleah camped finally :D As did Keith, Cathrine Cincane (sp?) Brandon, and Ashlee. I won 5 bucks whether keith said i didn't or not. Drugs are bad. Matt Watson is hott as fuck. James is sweet, I met a sweet girl named Kaylen who has cool shows and freaks out. Bought Dairy Been for people. spent 5 bucks on something that wasn't even worth paying for. Got really excited for the show. AND I'M NOT THERE!!!!!
and yeahhh that's about it.
and my brother is a fucking idiot. and took the love of my life on the tractor with him. RETARD!
and Ms. Julia Fowler/Fika has a 15th birthday on Wednesday of this week. I trust all you cool cats will say happy birthday to her. If not, you're stupid<3
I WISH I WAS AT THE SHOW. what sucks the most is, my mom said i could go. and i'm not even there. :/
he is the lamb, she is the slaughter x)
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[10 Apr 2005|02:00pm] |
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[07 Apr 2005|07:15pm] |
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Well, soo this week has been good. :D Going back to school hasn't been soo bad. MOnday i went to track for the first time. My coach who loves me told me i couldn't do it, or i could but i wouldn't run in any meets till like late May, and track ends in the beginning of June. Soo i was just like, okay, i wasn't prepared for this season, i'll just do it next year. Soo that's that, no track, and i'm not too upset..Ohh well =) Then pretty much nothin else has been going on. I started to go tanning, that's awesome, but i don't tan easily, well, i do and i don't. idk my skin is retarded. And then on Wednesday my mom made me and my brother rake our whole lawn. and she's retarded and didn't even help, even though she's the reason why it wasn't raked. She should have done it in Autumn. Ohh well. It's done. And i'm applying for a job at the green house across the street from the school :D
Then today at lunch, I got my lunch, and i ordered a Capichino (sp?) and a fruit thingy and a small chocolate milk, soo i didn't know what to do with my capichino, soo i put it on my tray. and i'm waking down the lunch line (thank god i was one of the last people in line) and it spills on me. my HOT capichino. but not bad, only a little bit on my shirt, and on my thigh. But it was hot. and Aleah was laughing =) cuz it was hilarious. Soo I smelled like nasty french vinalla all day. ohh well, i like the smell<3
Soo we're doing research papers in Lit, and my topic is Why Depression Is Soo Common In Teens. and we've been working on it since like way before spring break, and the rough draft is due tommorrow, and i haven't even started it. I have all my sources and work cited shiz, i just haven't started any thing. Ohh well, i always seem to get better grades on things if i wait till the last minute. Just i've always ALWAYS gotten really really bad grades on research papers. =/ ohh well. 200 points, it's all good. i have a 97.3% in that class. IT'S SOO EASY. I'll have my mom help me.
This weekend i HOPE HOPE HOPE will be sweet, no Dad's, show on Sunday, THE "NEW" AUDITION AND CHIODOS! Camping with Aleah and BOYS (i like boys) on Saturday, partying on Friday, orthodontist appt. on Saturday and they tell me with i get the silverware off UGH i hope everything works out soo well, specially the show. My mom def. won't take me, soo like if i don't get a ride form like Keith, Alex, Aleah, or Justin, i'm screwed =/
But i gotta work on my rough draft.
PEACE THE SKUNK OUT
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Yeah soo, this break sucked majorly. I didn't leave my house once. EVERYONE WAS ON VACATION! Rose was sapposed to come over Monday, she had a job interview, and then she was sapposed to come over on Friday and sometimes came up. It sucked. But then on Saturday my mom took me n my bro shoe shopping. I got sweet new shoes. Theyre Circas and they're black and red. They're sweet. Normally i rock ADIDAS but i decided to kick it up a notch, I dyed my hair as most of you should know.
I had to baby sit Saturday night for my cousin Bella. She was asleep from 6:30-10:00 and i had to wake her up because she's going through potty training, soo i had to put a diaper on her and send her to bed. Soo i wake her up and she looks around and just screams at the top of her lungs "MUMMMMMMMMMMMMMA" and she ran into her room and locked me out. I was sitting there by that door for like a half hour and then while she's in the room, she stopped screaming, and she's like "Kaya, i peed in my room" i was just thinkig ohh my goodness. but thens he let me in and i changed her pajamas and underwear and put on a diaper, and i realized i can't put diapers on for shizzzzz but then she like climbed into bed. wow. Physco baby. But then today i'm not doing anything
I have to find a way i can go to the show next week. WTF why would they have it on a Sunday...
oh well, school tommorrow, kind of excited just to get out of my house and away from my brother.
PEACE
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[02 Apr 2005|10:47am] |
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the thing that makes me the most mad about living in this house is how i'm the biggest screw up and how i'm a terrible child. the only good thing that my mom likes about me is my grades and even those aren't good enough.
My mom is a fucking idiot and she treats me like a fucking 12 year old. i refuse to live with her. Come summer i'm moving out and moving in with my dad back in warren. i miss it soo much. I was watching Full House last night and they were going to move and i just broke down in tears because everyone was soo happy about it besides michelle and i was like what the fuck, idiots. why would you be fucking happy about moving? They ended up not moving which is a really good thing, i just wish my mom would have had the brains to not move. She's a fucking selfish bitch who says "we don't have the kind of money to be spending on that" seriously, fuck you, you spend our money on worthless shit like a god damn couch in the kitchen or a brand new dog that causes us to spend more money than ever before. I wish she wasn't my mom, i hate her soo much. i can't wait till summer.
yeah, i was doing soo well on not swearing, and then she had to talk to me. fucking bitch, i hate you.
and i swear to god if i spend my friday night home, i'll fucking kill someone. my plans tonite already got ruined. and hopefully natalie calls me.
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Soo i've quit swearing, and i can honestly say i've done a really good job with not doing it. I subsitute words like F--- I say fudge, SKUNK, freakin, eff, and other shiz and it's working really really well. Julia and myself have realized that it's really ugly for girls to swear, it shows a lack of intelligence, and it's just a retarded thing to do.
Soo last night my mom and I highlighted my hair like BRIGHT red, and i haven't done anything to it yet, but my bangs are really red/pinkish, because ya know she never listens too me, and i didn't want them to get highlighted very much, and plus my bangs are the number one thing that i care about when i get ready for anything, because even if the rest of my hair looks like shiz then i can just throw my hair up, but my bangs are still down, ya kno? Soo, i haven't like done anything to my hair yet, just let it air dry, and it doesn't look too bad, i'm going to straigten it either today or tommorrow, i've gone this whole week with wearing it up, i haven't blow dried it since Easter, which is like SUPER healthy =) i'm proud of my self<3
Soo as of right now, life is pretty sweet, i'm doing alot better, and just everything is great, i'm okay with everything that's happening with everyone. Rose and hopefully Sandra are comming over tommorrow and i'm SUPER excited. We're hopefully hanging with Keith, Natalie, and Alex and hopefully Justin, but who knows. HOPEFULLY OTHER PEOPLE TOO! We just need to find a place to hang out..hmmm. Everytime Natalie is online i IM her to like hang out but she never answers. ohh well. Aleah comes home on saturday =) but i'm not going to be here, soo hopefully we're hanging on monday. I start track on monday, i'm really excited, i got new spikes and everything and then i have a meet on Tuesday, wow, totally not ready, but i've been running every day this week with Ruby, and that dog can run and i love it, not her, i love that she can run!
but yeah, that's all for now, when i straighten my hair i'll post pics
PEACE
if you wanna hang with me rose sandra and peeps, youre welcome<3
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So, it's Tuesday and already break has been pretty but boring.
Yesterday Rose n Sandra were sapposed to come over but Ms. Buisness Woman Rosie (ha) had a job interview! But that's okay. Hooray for her and trying to make some mula. (because my birthday is like 3 months away ;D) So now her n Sondra are comming over on Friday =) Hopefully by then most people are home from their vacations.
I miss Aleah like WHOA but she called me again yesterday and we talked for like 45 minutes =D I keep trying to talk my mom into taking us to Florida next Thursday, she said she'll look into prices. If we go, shotty on going to Universal Studios. MOST DEFF.
Soo my plans for this week are nothing at all, besides Friday and Saturday. I don't have to baby sit at all this week unless Lisa calls me and asks, and i'll do it, because i'm saving up for my senior spring break trip to Austrillia, and i WILL go, even if i have to go alone. And Saturday night i have to babysit my cousin Isabella. WHO IS THE CUTEST BABY ALIVE!!!!
But other then that things have been going pretty swell. But if i'm cooped up in this house all week i'll kill someone. SOO CALL ME =)
i need a shower =)
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I feel like crap-o-la because i freaked out on Justin, on Thursday. Even though i went crazy i didn't even tell him why i felt the way i did. I feel bad because Keith hates it when people complain, and i complained to Keith first, on his birthday. I feel bad because Justin's my best friend, at least before everything he was, and i treated him like shit. I feel bad because i called Holly 2-faced when she's really not, she was just confused. I called Justin 2-faced too, which i don't take back because he sort of is. I just hate being shared, or having to share my friends. Thats how i was when Angela moved on to Nottingham and her and Irena became friends. No one has no idea what i'm talking about besides Irena, if she reads this. I didn't want to share Rose when her n Derek started a relationship, i almost stopped my friendship with her over stupid me being jealous that i was losing my bestfriend/sister and i didn't want to share Rose with Sandra in 5th grade (what he fuck was wrong with me) and that's how it was with Irena, and now i feel like i'm losing Justin. and it sucks.
I keep telling my self i'm not going to be sad. soo today when we were driving home form up north, i saw a sign that said "Kettering something" and i thought of Natalie telling Justin's friend Julia that she Kettered, because she goes to Waterford Kettering and how Julia has really nice teeth. and it made me laugh. I just like thinking of everything good that's happened, and all the crappiness goes away. People have told me it didn't work, bologna, it does work, maybe you haven't had alot of good times to think of. Jeeze, i think about the car ride to November 13th NOTHING EVEN SPEICAL HAPPENED besides me ragging on Rose's dad like i do everytime i see him, because i love that man, but just the excitment of going to my first show. Freakin January 1st, sucky show, but i hung out with great people, i met Jim Morrison, held Sondra AND Cali up when they crowd surfed, i met Cali, swearing around a church with Jusin and Jim Morrison. January 15th when I crowd surfed, stinkin greatest 7 seconds of my life. Aleah's birthday, MEETING ALEAH! Hanging out with Jessie, SANDRA'S BOOTS!! all these GREAT GREAT GREAT times make me think, i swear to god, if i say my life sucks, i'm an idiot. Yeah, soo me n Justin broke up, okay, we're still friends, i'll get over it. Soo him n Holly are starting something, it's past me now, i don't care, i'm moving on, and i don't care if some people aren't happy for me, because i am, Rose is, Jessica is, and Julia is, and that's all that matters. All these good times make me like want to cry, because i treat myself soo terribly over the stupidest things. Stuff that doesn't even like phase me i make a big deal out of it, well that's going to stop, i'm a hipocrit, i help other people and give them my advice, and i don't even take my own. I'm changing, again. and i'm quitting swearing.
i freakin love my friends
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Wow, i'm soo incredibly disgusted right now. Jesus Christ. okay, soo he tells me he misses me, and still plays with my heart and tells me shit that makes me happy and think maybe i'll still have a chance. and then i see like his livejournal and junk. yeah, fuck you. there is no other chance, you just want me for my ass. I'm not even going to cry any more. today was such an awesome day, and that's how it's going to be from now on, i'm done with you. i still want to be your friend, but as of now, i want nothing more. don't tell me shit that isn't true to make me happy. It feels like you used me, and we didn't even do anything after we broke up. just the shit you said. i'm sorry but fuck you.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEITH!!!!!!!!!!
YOU'RE THE FUNNIEST/COOLEST KID I KNOW!
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