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_heathie @ 2007-05-28T21:18:00

2007-05-29T02:19:48Z

i signed on this name. i was super bored and decided to read old entries.

in doing so, i found myself missing many of my older friends on here.

i have a new journal, however.

please take a minute to add it.

i'd love to talk to you all.

you know who you are.

new journal is 651985.

thank you.

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2007-01-06T19:05:29Z

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2006-12-30T22:20:48Z

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surveys

2006-12-29T03:10:37Z

1. nicknames? heathie, ham

2.b-day? june 5th

3.age? 21

4.sex? female

6.where do u live? milwaukee

7.school? going to matc in jan.

8.siblings? four sisters and one brother

9.zodiac sign? gemini

10.righty or lefty? righty

12.hair color? medium brown

13.eye color? dark brown/hazel

14.height? five ft, ten in

15.contacts or glasses? neither

16.ear piercings? two in each

17.where do u want more? cartilidge

18..tattoo? 2 but i want a few more

19.where? shoulders

20.do u wear rings? the two i bought from kays

23.what pants are u wearing? eeyore pj pants

24.what shirt are u wearing? black shirt

25.what underwear r u wearing? black

26.what does your hair look like? messy

27.what song are you listening to? nothing; i'm watching friends

28.whats the last thing you ate? pizza slice

29.hows the weather? considering it's december, warm

30.last person u talked to on the phone? nicole

31.last dream u can remember? being pregnant, lol

32.who are you talking to? my brother just asked me if i had a pen...

33.what time is it? 8:49 pm

34.last four digits of your phone number? 4287

35.if u were a crayon what one would u be? my favorite colors are green and pink

36.have u ever almost died? yes

37.do u like the person who sent u this? amy filled this out and yes, i like her

38.how do u eat an oreo? eat the cream first and then the actual cookie

39.who makes u happy? stephen joesph ♥

40.whats the next cd your going to buy? i'm going to make them now! :)

41.what religion are you? lutheran

42.whats the best advice ever given to u? that good things will come if i am just a little more patient

43.have you ever won any special award? not really

44.what are your future goals? going to school, moving out with nicole, finding a decent car -- life goals-- graduating from college, finding a great job that i actually enjoy, getting married, raising a family, designing a house (steve! that's all your fault...!)

45.worst sickness you ever had? migraines

46.whats the stupidest thing you've ever done? dropped out of highschool

47.whats your favorite memory? i have a few =) recent ones-- the christmas carol; woodbury, minnesota

48.if you could change 1 thing about youself what would it be? to be more outgoing, to speak up, to stop worrying so much about what other people think

49.where do u shop the most?
target

50.how many kids do u want to have? at least two

51.son's name & Daughter's name? I don't have any boy names picked yet. My favorite girl's name is Kayla

52.do u do drugs? no

53.do u drink? yes

54.what kind of shampoo and conditioner do u use? whatever is there. it's usually suave. my favorite shampoo and conditioner is herbal though

55.what sport do u hate the most? golf. it's boring

56.what r u most scared of? failure

57.how many tvs do u have in your house? 6 or more

58.do u have your own phone line? a cell phone

59.do u sleep with a stuffed animal? sometimes

60.have u ever broken/sprained/fractured a bone? yes, all of the above

61.what do you dream about? i usually do not remember

62.who do u tell your dreams to? i usually keep them to myself

63.whos the loudest friend u have? rachel is pretty loud! patrick can be too

64.whos the quietest friend u have? other than myself?? steve or my brother

65.is cheerleading a sport? yea

66.How many licks does it take to get to the center of a tootsie pop? ask the owl!

67.What came first the chicken or the egg? i think the chicken

68.do u believe in love? yes

69. do you have a boyfriend or Girlfriend? stephen joesph ♥

70. do you have a crush? no

71. who is the lucky person? stephen joesph; i just told you that

72. love at first sight? no; lust at first sight :D

74. where would u like to go on your honeymoon? paris

75. what song do u want to be played for your 1st dance at your
wedding? hmm, i'm not sure yet

76. whats the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? smile :)

77. Are you shy to ask someone out? yeah but it doesnt matter because i have who i want

78.who do u want to spend the rest of your life with? it's kind of early yet, but steve...

79 do you find your self attractive? i have days

80.do u find your self ugly? most of the time. :(

81.do others find you attractive? some

84.boxers or briefs? boxers

85.curly or straight hair? straight

86.tall or short? Tall

87.good or bad guys/girls? gooooood

88.hat or no hat? no hat

89.ears pierced or not? doesnt matter

90. tan or no tan? doesnt matter

91.dimples or not? dimples are cute

92. sinister or sensative? sensitive

93.rugged or sporty? doesnt matter

94.sexy or cutie? cutie

95. accent or not? accents can be sexxi

97.smart or dumb? smart

98.what sport should he/she play? i dont really care. race!? lol

99.dependent or independent? Independent

100.lights on/off? off

101.sun or rain? rain!

102.Mickey D's or BK? bk

103.scary or happy movies? happy

104.backstreet boys or nsync? bsb

105. on the phone or in person? in person

106.paper or plastic? plastic

107.sausage or pepperoni? pepperoni

108.summer or winter? summer

109.hugs or kisses? i want both

110.chocolate or white milk? white

111.root beer or dr.pepper? root beer

112.glass half full or half empty? half full

113.tape or dvd? dvd

14.cats or dogs? cats

115.mud or jell-o wrestling? jello

116. Vanilla Or Chocolate? vanilla

117.skiing or boarding? neither

118.day or night? night

119.cake or pie? pie

120. Diamond Or Pearl? Diamonds

121.sunset or sunrise? sunrise

122.color? green, pink

123.food? lasagna, alfredo, french fries, guacomole

124.fast food? taco bell or bk

125.candy? resses pieces

127.ice cream flavor? brownie

128.sport? nascar or football

129. Animal? monkeys or penguins

130.number? 3

131.radio station? anything with country

132.song? too many to name

133. band? rascal flatts, toby keith, keith urban, gretchn wilson, nickelback

134. Actor or Actress? adam sadler, chad mcmurray, the ladies from one tree hill, sandra bullock, julia stiles

135. day of the year? doesnt matter

136. day of the week? any one that i have off of work and get to sleep in!

137. tv show? csi: las vegas, one tree hill, friends, dawson's creek, family guy

139. scent? vanilla, adidas perfumes

140. teacher? i dont go to school yet

142. quote? from the notebook...

143.loved someone so much it makes u cry? yes

144.drink? jack and coke, vodka lemonade, vodka redbull, malibu and pineapple. shots- apple jacks, jiger bombs

145.gotten dumped? yes

147.ran from the cops? no

148.stole something? when i was younger

151.been in love? yup

152.made yourself cry to get out of trouble? yea

surveys

2006-12-29T03:07:43Z

IMPORTANT!!!!

2006-12-21T05:14:40Z

TOMORROW OR ON FRIDAY, I WILL DELETE THIS JOURNAL. I'M GOING TO STAY AT LIVEJOURNAL. ALTHOUGH I WILL NOT PROMISE THAT I CAN OR WILL UPDATE FREQUENTLY. HOWEVER, I WILL ALWAYS REPLY TO COMMENTS AND TRY TO READ AS MANY ENTRIES AS I CAN WITHOUT GROWING EXTREMELY TIRED~ HAHA. IF YOU WISH TO STAY MY FRIEND, LEAVE ME A COMMENT TELLING ME SO ON THIS ENTRY AND I'LL BE SURE THAT I ADD YOU. ... I DELETED FRIENDS THE OTHER DAY AND I KNOW I DELETE SOME OF YOU THAT I DID NOT MEAN TO. :( I'M SORRIES. SO IF YOU SEE THIS... LEAVE ME A COMMENT AND I'LL BE SURE TO ADD YOU ON MY NEW LIVEJOURNAL ACCOUNT.

LOVE YOU GUYS.

PS.. I'M PROBABLY NOT SENDING OUT CARDS THIS YEAR.. SORRIES. BUT IT'S KIND OF LATE ALREADY. I SUCK. I KNOW.

THANKS STEPHANIE FOR YOUR CARD. :)

Address!!!!

2006-12-18T15:38:12Z

Everyone needs to leave their addresses so i can send out christmas cards. they'll probably be late... but eh well.

love ya all.

_heathie @ 2006-11-21T17:51:00

2006-11-21T22:51:06Z

so i've been gone but i've been busy. most nights, i'm with steve. other nights, i'm with brenda. or i'm just at home, cleaning or hanging out. my computer will not hook up to the internet so that also makes it harder to get online. i'm using my mother's laptop, which does not always work either. plus, i really do not have that much interest to be online. of course, i miss the most of you. but i've also grown bored with the internet. i don't talk to anyone on aim anymore. i wish that steve (ex) and i got to talk more, but he doesn't seem to care that much... maybe he does, but he doesn't seem to take much action about us not talking.

i don't really know what to write though. i leave tomorrow for vacation; going with steve for thanksgiving. i get to meet his parents & his friends. i'm super excited! :) other than that, i'm tired... so ima go! <33

School

2006-11-02T20:06:32Z

jebus, it's november already! that's insane.

well, i must say; happy birthday to my poohbear, jilly. happy belated birthday to stephen john. i hope you both have/had excellant birthdays. steve, next year- we'll be partying it up for your big 21! whoop. ♥

the other night, i found a calm. i don't know what else to call it. i'm calm! i feel relaxed and confident in myself. :) i honestly do. for the first time in a long time, i don't feel that i need another person to make me feel this way. it's all in me. i know this might sound a little weird, but i think it has everything to with faith & God. for a while, i was not sure whether or not i still believed, but in the past 5 months, i've realised that i do believe in God. & for some reason, the past two days, i've felt extremely at ease with my faith; meaning that i feel content//happy.

hm, steve, we should go to church soon. so i can sing.

i called matc today to see when i could register for classes, to get an equivlant diploma. i talked to the downtown campus conselor, who is really nice. she told me that i might have to re-take the screening tests, if i switch campuses. so i called oak creek to ask them. no one answered, so i left message. anyways, i'm hoping that i don't have to re-take it & that i can just get started with the tests. so depending on what oak creek says, i'll either go to downtown or oak creek. registeration is on the 13th and i'll be scheduling to meet with a conselor before then. i do need to go find my transcripts though. so i'll have to do that sometime soon. & i will. probably, next tuesday; when i'm off of work. i feel good about myself. i am happy that i did this. it was the first step to my future. =)

i am going to get what i want. i have the faith in myself. i haven't decided if that is a nurse or something in the crime fields, but i will find that out. i know things are not going to be so easy. but i'll do this. finally.

i can't take classes until jan. that seems far away. but i suppose it gives me time to study and i will have off for the holidays. which is good. besides, i'll need to save up some money.

speaking of the holidays, i think i got off for thanksgiving weekend. i asked the scheduler at work if she knew whether or not they approved it & she said that she thought they did. so hopefully, they have. i'll be going with steve to his house for thanksgiving. i'll be meeting the parents. & he's taking me to the mall of america. i'm really excited about it.

i'm really happy that i have him in my life. he's amazing. honestly, he is. i don't know how many times i have said that. but it's the honest truth. i feel so lucky to be feeling this way again. i never thought that i would feel this way again i didn't think that anyone would ever give me the chance again & make me feel this way. he makes me happy. i love spending time with him. even if he's busy doing homework; the sense that he is in the same house/room with me makes me feel relaxed. there's something about him. i wish i could describe better how he makes me feel. but it's indescribable.

and to think it's only been two months and we have a lifetime ahead of us.

Happy 2 Month Hun. :)

so for christmas, i'm getting steve a bunch of household items for his house he's going to build eventually. he has to put them somewhere in his house even if we break up. which i don't think will be a problem. so yeah..it's kind of goofy idea. but it sounds so funnnnn. and it's his own fault for always making me look at household items/appliances with him when we go shopping together. but i have to say, it's fun and exciting. it makes me very anxious to have this stuff. i can't wait until i get my life started, with school, then a job, then an engagement, a marriage, a building of a beautiful house, watching my husband accomplish his goals, children, etc. wow, i'm a loser. i like to plan way ahead..what can i say? hah. nah; i don't know. i'm just excited for the future. =)

_heathie @ 2006-10-11T19:52:00

2006-10-12T00:52:29Z

i haven't been on the internet a lot in the past few weeks. & when i am, it's not for too long. i usually hang around myspace, which if you haven't added me, you should. add me. =) i miss a lot of you and really wish that we could talk a lot more then what we get to now days.

i have been keeping busy by hanging out with the boyfriend. we hang out a lot. probably too much as he seems to think. but i'm not complaining. i know i keep saying how crazy it is but i am really happy with him. we're trying not to see eachother as much. but i don't know. i hate the idea. i don't like messing with something that makes me this happy. like they say, why fix it if it's not broken? who knows? maybe it'll be for the better. i do know he has things to do and things he's been slacking with to see me and such. i don't want to get in his way but he's so busy that i'm afraid i'll never get to see him. and let's face it, that's what i had before. and i don't want that again.

so lately, i haven't been in the best of moods. i've been sick which already makes me whine and irriated, but there's so much going on as well as that. my brother is severly depressed. he's pushing everyone away and has said often that he wants to die. it makes me really upset. it scares the hell out of me as well. he has always been the one who has carried me. i want to help him more then anything. and i damn well try to. but it's difficult. i don't know the right things to say and it fusterates me so much. it fusterates me the way that he is doing things. he's treating nicole like shit. it's not like him at all for one and for two, i know that he loves her and i can't understand why he is doing some of the things to her that he has done. and he's doing horribly in school. he's a senior again. last year, he skipped out and he still is skipping out. his school didn't kick him out like mine did to me so he went back this year. but even though he lies to me and tells me he goes to school, i have heard and found out that he has not been going. i want to kick his ass for this one. he has no idea how much he can accomplish if he would just try. he is a very smart kid with a lot of potentional. but no one gets anywhere by skipping school. not even the smartest kid there is.

i wish i could tell him in words how much he means to me. i love that kid a lot. he's my baby brother and he has always been there for me. he was there for me through my depression phases and i really want to be there for him. i wish i could protect him. i feel like a failure because i can't make him feel better. i don't know how to. i wish so much that i did. i want so much for him to be the happy, dumbass, annoying younger brother again. the one who is madly in love with my best friend and talks to her in this cutesy annoying ass voice that irritated me. the one that yells when i steal the phone from him to talk to her because god forbid they miss a minute worth of talking to one another.

another thing that is bothering me is zoe and nicole. nicole is really upset. about a few things. one is my brother. he's being a complete jackass to her. i know that he is but it still bothers me when she says somethings about him. i know it's not an excuse for what he's been doing to her but it's because he depressed. i know that it is. i know he loves her and i know he wants to be with her. he doesn't know how to though. and he doesn't even know that he wants her right now. he doesn't know anything, really. -sigh- i know my brother. i know him probably better then anyone else. and i can see how hurt he is!!! =\ i can see how confused he is. i don't know. -sigh- i hate that he's being this way towards nicole. i hate it for her and i hate it for him. nicole's not the type of person that will put up with this shit. and she shouldn't have to either. she deserves so much better then what he can give her right now. ahh. :*(

what bothers me the most is zoe. nicole seems really worried about her. i am too. i want to believe she's okay though so that's why i'm not letting myself worry entirely too much. but i'm scared. i want zoe to be happy. i want nicole to be happy. i want my brother to be happy. i want to be happy...

steve makes me very happy and all. but i have been depressed more then usual lately. i don't know. i think it has a lot to do with chris. i can see him following in my footprints with the school situation and i don't want him to follow in my footprints. i know that he can do better and i know that i could of done better. i want so much to go back to school. i want so much to accomplish things in my life. i'm growing impatient. i am making myself feel horribly about it. soon. soon. that's all i keep telling myself... -sighs-

& steve, sweetheart, i love you. don't take anything i said about us the wrong way. *mwah*

this is my beautiful zoe anne

2006-10-05T20:08:43Z

i'm her daddy. screw boys!

she's absolutely gorgeous. & i cannot wait to see her, hold her, and spoil her.

i love you you both, nicole and zoe.

ZOE!!

2006-10-04T21:44:16Z

WELCOME TO ZOE ANNE TAYLOR!!!!!!!!!
she was born yesterday. Niole had her baby! YAY!!

Auntie Heather can't wait to see you, Zoe.

-Kissies-

_heathie @ 2006-09-27T12:28:00

2006-09-27T17:46:11Z

Sorry I have not wrote in a little while again. It's not that much out of the ordinary for me. Although, I do feel that I do not get to talk to some of you as much as I would like to and I do miss you. I hope that you all are doing well.

I've been doing really good lately. I don't think I have been this happy in a long time. I know a couple of you have said that I'm moving quite fast & that you just don't want me to get my heart broken again. I know it is only because you all care, but I must tell you that things are great. Don't worry. I'm really happy. We're happy.

Steve is such an amazing person. He makes me smile, almost constantly. Of course, we had some arguements, but we always get through them. :) I love spending time with him. No matter what we do, I always feel happy.

I'm going to end up sounding too sappy! LOL. I'm just happy...

Of course there are still somethings in life I need to accomplish for myself. But I know that I can do it. It's just a matter of time. Currently, I'm trying to decide whether or not to get another job. It wouldn't be a great job. Probably back to McDonald's, lmao. But it'd be money and I might be able to get a management position. I'd try to get a job at a 24 hour one so I could work 9pm-1am. It might be hard to get hours like that, but I can try.

Reguarding work, it's been going alright. I'm tired of having to work at 6am, lol. But I do like that I get out at 3pm. So I'll probably stick to the early shifts. Other then that, work is going alright. I am starting to hate that I have to work in Special Services. Returns and Special Services are combined. But I do both department's work. I try to help SS as much as possible, but the majority of them never help me out. A lot of the times, a manager or department head has to ask them to take a return. Customers will go up to them for help, with a return, and even if I have a line, they'll still tell the customer to go in my line. It's not like they are busy or they don't know how to work returns. They do. I think it's rude to turn a customer away... It's especially Tara that bothers me. She's so full of herself. She thinks that she's higher then everyone else and that she can do whatever the hell she feels like. She clocks in and sits in the break room for 15 minutes, before she actually comes to the SS desk, to do her job. That's not fair. The rest of us are always out when our shift starts. I just do not like her anymore. She is very unprofessional and irritating. She talks shit about every single person there. I was told the other day that she calls me stupid, behind my back. I hate people that want to talk about you behind your back, but can't say anything to your face. She acts like my friend, to my face. A lot of people have told me not to worry about her and that she's just being a bitch, so I won't. But she needs to start acting more proffessional.

The other day at work, Donny cut open his hand. I guess he had to go in for surgery. He looked horrible after it happened; like he was going to pass out. It scared me...

I'm tired. I need to get more sleep, hehe.

I had a lot to say, but I don't remember anymore. Ah well.

survey

2006-09-25T02:07:45Z

Name: Heather. You all should know this.
What time is it: 8:50 pm.

THE FRUITS OF YOUR LABOR( things you can't live without)
Something important on your desk: Well, I'm actually in the kitchen on the lap top. But something important on my desk (actual desk in my room) would probably be pictures. <3
When you sleep you wear: If I'm too tired, clothes or panties & a tank.
If you could afford it at the moment, you would buy: A car.
Something you don't have a lot of: Money.
If your house was burning and you could only save 3 items what would they be: Pictures, Some sentimental stuffed animals I have.

MORALS
If there were no side effects, you would enjoy being addicted to: Isn't a side effect of substances addiction? I'd rather not be addicted to anything.
A time when you purposly hurt someone emotionally: I don't remember. I rather not hurt anyone.
A time you accidentally hurt someone emotionally: Probably at this very moment...
One person you have killed in your thoughts: Wouldn't you like to know? -Evil laugh-

FRIENDS:
Three traits you look for in a friend: Sense of humor, Caring, and Honest.
Who makes you laugh most often: I am always laughing. :D
A friend who you can tell anything: I don't really think it's people's business to know everything about me. However, most of my friends probably know more about me than what they'd like to know. (Good Answer) Nicole, Chris.
A friend you can got to for advice: A lot of them. :)
The best piece of advice you had been given: I'm not sure, to be honest.
Two closest friends: Chris, Nicole. Steve, Steve, Patrick, Brenda, Rachel. Tony, Dan, Justin. That was too hard to just pick two!!!
The friend who uses most of your energy: Hehehe....Steve. DUH.

EGO
Your 3 best qualities: Intutation, Sense of Humor, Kindness.
Your 3 worst qualities: Cranky, Low self esteem, ? Looks?
Describe your Ideal self: I'd be more active physically, more extroverted, I'd be more outgoing.
A comliment that makes you blush: Hehe..it depends on the person.
You are embarassed when: I am easily embarassed.
The greatest physical pain you ever endured: Sprained Ankle.
The greatest emotional pain you ever endured: Amanda's death, Grandmother's death, Grandfather's death, Grandmother getting very sick, Feeling that no one cared, Some break ups, Feeling that I failed myself.
Moment you are most ashamed of: Some choices I made.
Your best physical feature: Smile.
Who/What makes you happy: My family and Friends. Although they drive me mostly insane as well.
Who/what makes you sad: People who treat others like they are less because they are a different race, class, gender, sex, sexual orientation, etc... [good answer]

EMOTIONS
Emotion you hide most: Disappointment in others.
The emotion you tend to experience most: Happy.
The emotion you are feeling most lately: Giddy.
You have a huge amount of guilt regarding: Nothing, right now.
When you are angry you need: Breathe, take a walk.
When you are sentimental you need: a hug.
When you are in love you need: hugs!

MEMORIES
One of your most peaceful memories: Camping trips.
One of your most tragic memories: Amanda's death.
One of your angriest memories: It's too silly now...
A memory that makes you laugh: There are a few that come to mind.
A memory that makes you happy: Childhood.

LOVE
Something someone can say or do that you find extremely attractive: Showing that they care...
Something someone can say or do that you find unattractive: Drugs.
Two things appealing about people: Good sense of humor, Caring.
A personality trait you find appealing: Smarts, and sense of humor.
Your secret passion: I don't know.
What you enjoy most about having a committed relationship: Comfortability.

RELATING
DO you have a bf/gf if yes who? Yes. Steve.
What do you find sexy about them: The way he shows he cares.
A place where you want to have sex: on a rollercoaster. haha (sounds interesting...) On the beach...under the stars.
A strange place where you have had sex: None are really that strange...
What drives you crazy (in a good way) about this person: hehehe.
What music is on when you have sex, or is it the tv? Uh...I don't know. Tv. But it's not really watched.
Favorite song to have sex to : Lol...I think I've only had sex with music on once. & it was "our" cd. It was nice.
Describe your mate physicaly: Too much work lol.
Describle your mate's personality: Awesome.
You feel most attractive when: ....
Favorite thing you like to see your mate wear (clothing wise don't say naked): I don't know. I like jeans :P
What would you like your mate to do more of: ...hmmm.

FINALLY>>>>>>
If you had more time alone you would: SLEEP
If you had more patience you would: I will not let patience stand in the way of something I really want.
If you could change one thing about your physical appearance what would it be: Thin.
If you had no committments what would you be doing: Sleeping.
If you could have one super power what would it be: Flying.

If you could start all over....uhhh only change a few things.

passing time

2006-09-22T01:07:48Z

Have you ever...
Gotten stuck in an elevator:
No.

Egged a person:
No. But we threw an icecream cone at someone!

Egged a persons driveway but not their house:
No.

Stalked someone to find what classes they have or where they work or live:
No .

Gotten in a garbage can and had your friend push you:
No.

Spent an entire day wearing nothing but your underwear:
No.

Eaten french fries with a vanilla shake:
Yeah.

Burped up cheese on someone:
Ew, no.

Read your friends journal without them knowing it:
In 8th grade.

Gone skinny dipping:
Once.

Microwaved a piece of silverwear:
Yes. I'm retarted.

Been in a fist fight:
No.

Been in a cat fight:
No.

Had a crush on a cartoon:
No.

Lasts
Animal noise you made:
cat?

Time you tripped:
Today. Of course.

Time you cleaned around the base of the toilet:
Ew, the boys have to clean the bathroom. :P

Kind of gum you had:
Winterfresh, at work. But I have Orbit at home. The last I chewed was Orbit's Bubblemint.

pair of socks you wore:
I'm wearing one sock and a foot bandage on the other foot. It's blue and an ankle sock.

Beverage you had:
Milk, but I want water.

Spur of the moment decision you made:
To take this survey? Or do you mean something important?

Movie you watched:
Click, in the Budgets.

Person of the opposite sex you thought about:
Steve. He's sitting right next to me, :)

Time you saw a pengiun:
On my icon. In the real world, when Nicole, Noah, Amanda, Sammie, Chris, and
I went to the zoo.

Time you ate pancakes:
So long ago. I want some!

What would you...
Say if your best friend (whatever sex) told you they loved you: Well, I love them too, as friends. But in a romantic matter, I have no idea what I would say.
Do if someone gave you a llama for the next holiday: "You're giving me a Tauntaun?"
Ask the genie for your 3 wishes (Same rules as in Aladdin): Happiness for me and those I love, give me the ability to transport myself anywhere I want instantly, and enough money to be set.
Think if your mom came home wearing fishnets one day: Wonder why, I guess.
Do if someone egged you: Cry and then kill them.

Those are boring so....
Carebears or Grizzley bears: Carebears, lol.
Spiderman or Charlottes Web: Both are good, but Spiderman.
Black or White: Black.
Fast forward or rewind: Fast forward.
Bath or shower: Shower.
Granola or glitter: Glitter.
Devotion or distance: I don't understand why I'm supposed to choose between these. Devotion.
Elbows or knees: Well, both are useful. But knees.
Girls or boys: For romantic purposes, boys.
Embarassment or boredom: Boredom, I guess.
Public or private: Private.
Surfers or psychics: Psychics.
New years or 4th of July: I guess New year's.
Tree house or boat house: Boat.
Singularity or multiplicity: Depends...
Anarchists or ventriloquists: Neither.
1970's or 1980's: 1980's.
Paper or Plastic: Either.
Ants in Pants or Cooties: Cooties.
Slopes or beach: Beach, I guess.
Finger paints or toe rings: Um...
Aeschlus or Sophocles: Hmm.
Super heroes or super villians: Heros, most of the time.
Mullet or shaved head: Shaved.
I love lucy or i dream of jeannie: BOTH!
Ski or guitar lessons: Guitar.
Biting the hand that feeds or looking a gift horse in the mouth: I don't know.
Monster trucks or bumper cars: Bumber cars!! Right Brenda? LOL.
Goats or llamas: Goats, unless it's "Tina"
Realists or surrealists: That's a toughie.
Honesty or niceness: Honesty.
Blindfolded or handcuffed: Handcuffed.
Thinking or acting: Depends.
Streaking or sky diving: Sky Diving.

Right now
What are you wearing: Jeans, White tank, brown long sleeved shirt, rings, foot bandage, earrings, tongue ring, one blue sock, panties, bra, eyeliner, mascara, fondation, eye shadow, nail polish. :)
What are you thinking: "I wish this survey was over."
What are you listening to: the computer humming.
How does tuna fish sound to you right now: eh..don't care much for it.
Would a grapefruit be better: No.
Did the thought of how gross those would be together cross your mind: No, but grapefruit is gross any way you look at it.
What are you listening to: Same thing as when you asked me ten seconds ago.
What would you like to be listening to: steve :) but hes doing homework.
What are you doing other than this survey: waiting til steves done with homework.
Have you ever owned a goat: No.
What are your 5 favorite salad dressings: I'll name as many as I can. Ranch, Vingerette, Italian, and
French.
Are you annoyed by the length of this survey: It wasn't that long, but I am sick of it...
Are you tired: Yes.
Do you have any bruises or cuts on you body: Always. I bruise so easily.
How many people are in the room: Just one other than me.
Are there any animals in the room: No.
Is this your room: No. Steve's dinning room.
Are you eating anything (I'm eating tuna!): No.
Does tuna gross you out: It's okay.
Do turkeys amuse you: No...?

hello lj-world!

2006-09-21T20:55:37Z

*i'm tired of having no money. i need to learn what it means to save. next pay check, i'll spend it on bills & that's it. i need to cut back on going out. i can still go to friend's house, but i need to stop with the shopping and going out to eat. i cut back on drinking already so i'll slurge myself there. hehe. & of course, i'll still have days where i go out. but it's definately time to cut back and save up money. because i'm about to overdraft by $200. yuck.

*i don't think my parents are going to help with this car. doesn't suprise me. i love them, yes, but they are the worse with following through. i'll be fine with just some street car. but i'm disappointed. anyway, keep your eyes open for me.

*my toe and foot hurts. my foot has been hurting forever. but my toe for even longer. my dr. looked at it and said something about the bone structure being off. she told me to get new shoes (i did) and it still bothered me to call her. it's silly that the only thing wrong would be that i needed new shoes. that was not it. because it still hurts. today, i was limping around work, lol.

*speaking of work, i'm tired of having to work three people's jobs as one person. the phones did not stop ringing today. every second, i was on the phone. it didn't help that patrick called about five times.

*patrick's car got broken into. he's sure his neighbors did it. i tried hard to convince him not to get into a fight about it. but who knows if he'll listen or not. he's a badass. or he thinks he is. i feel bad for him, but there's not much i can do. he asked me to take off early to go over there, but i couldn't. there just was not a way. especially since i was alone from 9-1245.

*speaking about him, it's nice to see him again. we haven't really hung out in a while. it was good to catch up. but... he's very...demanding. i don't know. he thinks that i love him. he said he wanted to kiss me last night and was very flirty. he talked about sex a lot too. i don't know. i have a boyfriend and i'm happy. patrick is too late. which is what i told him. he tried to argue that by telling me i didn't know steve that well and shit. but it doesn't matter, what i do know about the guy, i love. and he makes me happy. that's all that matters.

*steve and i are doing good. i haven't really got to see him much. i've seen him, but most of the time, it was us just sleeping in the same bed. i hope tonight is different. we've been together three weeks today! :) i like him a lot.

*i'm so flippin' tired. nap-time, since steve's not online.

_heathie @ 2006-09-11T16:55:00

2006-09-11T22:00:24Z

i never feel good enough for anyone. my self-esteem is horrible. it's why i broke up with steve. it's why i don't feel good enough for my boyfriend. i wish there was something i could do to make myself feel better about myself.

i haven't really wrote about steve (boyfriend). we go out now. we have been for...ten days? now. heh. he's wonderful. he makes me happy. i hope i make him happy too.

i have to go back to work at nine for a cashier meeting. that sucks!!

other then that, i've just been hanging out.

_heathie @ 2006-09-08T16:41:00

2006-09-08T21:41:58Z

i beat myself up way too much.
and i know it.
but i also know i won't stop.

let's play catch-up

2006-09-05T22:35:26Z

- things with steve (ex) seem to be good. i IMed him tonight. i know, i disobeyed his rule. but i wanted to tell him about my dr's appointment. he and i talked. nicely, too. i told him about steve (this is confusing!). i don't really know what he thinks. feel free to tell me, steve.

- speaking of steve, haha. let me tell you about him. i work with him. & he's such a sweetheart. we've been out a few times. he slept over last night. i see a lot of potential with him. he makes me happy. :]

- work is work. it's okay. patrick switched to electrical. THAT SUCKS. there is a new special service lady, nicole. i really like her.

- other than that, i've been doing good. no time for all the details. i've been having fun and i'm happy. (i still want a lot of things and i still feel badly for where i am. but i need to start being more confident)

- dr's appointment went okay. although i got to read what my older dr. wrote about me. it was not pretty. he said a lot of mean things. but you know what, i think i'm fine. even if i'm a little overweight. :\

- my new doctor gave me a new prescription for an inhaler & i also have this thing i blow into that measures my breathing. i'm at 150-200. i should be AT LEAST 325. & a HEALTHY person my height, sex, and age should be... at 600. YIKES!

happy

2006-09-01T02:33:36Z

-it's been about a week +. sorry. oops.

-someone make this journal pretty.

-i deleted my myspace...

-i made another livejournal. for mostly one purpose. only certain people will get to read it. idk... i have to trust you a lot. i love you all, but some of you wouldn't even want to see it...

-i might be getting a car tomorrow. :D 92 automatic sunbird. it needs a little work but the boys think they'll do that for me.

-patrick and i are not on good terms right now. i don't want to talk about it.

-i talked to stephen the other day. it was good. :D i hate not talking to him. i want to tell him somethings and i can't. annoying!

-i'm currently trying to get another job. and looking for apartments. i might get a job as a homekeyer. bascically, i work from home. all i do is type up documents. :) sounds cool, hm? my mom works with the boss of the operation. she's going to talk to her about it tomorrow, because i can type really really fast!!

-i'm excited about this phone call. but i'll tell you if it happens.
*edited-- about the phone call- he did call. and just like i had expected, asked me out. we're going for coffee, and down to the lake on saturday. i'm so excited. i like him. we just talked fourty minutes and i wasn't bored. :) :) don't laugh...his name is stephen. but it's STEPHEN! lol. not steven. like stephen's. confused yet? hahah. this might get a little confusing... sorries. i think i'll stick to calling him steve and my ex, stephen. easier? GEESH. I'M REALLY EXCITED!! I SEE POTENTIAL WITH HIM.

-i made brownies. going to eat them now. yummy.

-i'm really happy... :)

_heathie @ 2006-08-22T15:58:00

2006-08-22T21:02:28Z

i'm tired. it's invetory week at work. it's pure hell.

so i had an attack at work the other day. i couldn't breathe and i as blue. needless to say, it was scary. i still have to call my doctor about that one. because the ER didn't do much...just helped me breathe. :)

patrick is back with felicia. i don't know. i don't care to talk about it too much. she's no good for him. & i am not just saying that. even if he never goes out with me, felicia is STILl all wrong for him. she plays a lot of mind games with him. but i try to understand his feelings. i know he's in love with her, still. & i understand because parts of me still want to be with steve. other parts, don't though. lol. no offense.

i need to buy new shoes and get my hair done. but not right now.

i think i'm going to get drunk tonight. yup.

confused!!

2006-08-16T21:53:28Z

so why if nothing is wrong with my heart did i get this letter saying i have to go see my heart specialist? i went to see you because of the chest pain. the dr i went to see ran an ekg and said nothing was wrong with my heart. usually when i go to see the specialist, he doesn't do much. he doesn't even run an ekg, not usually anyway. he just listens to my heart. that's all. nothing else. so i had the ekg done and the dr listened to my heart. i don't see why i have to go see my specialist. especially since i thought i made it clear that i didn't like the guy and didn't want to see him again. DUHHHH. she said to call her asap reguarding the issue. i just don't get it. it's weird. my mother and i think something must be wrong... and they need to look into it. AHHHH! :\

my first tattoo.

without make-up and after crying. scary!!!
i can't take it off...
boobage!
smiles!!
you can kind of see the fairy dust...

stars!! tattoo 2

being goofy with a fake smile!
being naughty..
tongue piercing!!!
awwww, all smiles!!
i look sassy as hell!!
i miss you......