[21 Nov 2006|01:30pm] Ive gone from lids footaction t-mobile haagan daz & now. asian chow?! haha pimp much? you'll be back,you always are. typical you. & typical dumb girl who believes you. & about not caring, I never stopped I just stopped letting it show. estee beck, your incredible. stay strong, your strength is always something I have admired. we've been friends for 10 years, & we may not be the closest but your like my sister, & if you need anything I promise to be there. Im just a phone call away. lunch soon? post comment

</3 [21 Nov 2006|09:18pm] Dear Sometimes that most important things in life, are the hardest to say. I don’t understand how I cant grasp anything, it might have been a short amount of time, but every second couldn’t have been better. You were happy, weren’t you? What about the risks, the ones that could have changed it all? So much for happy endings. I wish I could erase everything, and start fresh, start slow, savor every touch every memory, every hello, and every kiss goodbye. I obviously meant nothing, if you can so easily throw it all away. I’m sorry, for complicating your life, for being confusing as hell, for taking things too seriously, for over analyzing every word, for overreacting, and for falling just a little too hard. Take care? Are you kidding me? Take fucking care? I only have to see your face everyday of my goddamn life, and it may not hurt you but inevitably it will kill me. You will never know how good you had it, but go chase the quick fix the ones that wont sincerely care about you, the easy targets, the sluts who are willing to give it up but never give you their heart. I hope your happy, I hope they make you happy, because one day you will miss me, and you will miss the surprises, the cards, & the girl that was so willing to put her heart out there that so easily got it shoved back in her face. The girl that was good for a little while, until the next pretty girl came along, the one who worried, who cared, who wore her heart on her sleeve. You couldn’t even tell me to my face. I cant fake it anymore, I’m crushed. I thought I was over it but truth is I wont be not now, & no time soon. every action bears a consequence. you dropped me, broke me, betrayed me, lied to my face, you promised. & slowly but surly you broke every single one of them. you lied to me, lied to me. continuously. all I did was ask for honesty, & you proved to me I wasn’t even worth the truth. I wasn’t worth a "break up". you were the one I tried to draw, you were my perfect picture. happy endings? there are none, endings are never happy. & the worst part of everything, is that you left me for the most beautiful girl in the world. she is so beautiful. but do me one favor, remember me, please? - - the one that used to be your world. post comment

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