Us; We; You and Me.

...shoulda been my name...

2006-11-06T00:56:01Z

Cellophane
Mister Cellophane
Shoulda been my name
Mister Cellophane
'Cause you can look right through me
Walk right by me
And never know I'm there...

I just watched "Chicago" with my roommate Mollie, and that song has been stuck in my head since. "Mister cellophane shoulda been my name mister cellophane".
I'm wondering how everyone is doing in their lives. I simply have no time to just call anyone (not even my own mother), because ever ounce of spare time is spend with my head in an Organic Chemistry text book. yes. Organic Chemistry. you heard me right; I have signed my soul over to the Organic Chemistry devil and am, it seems, forever at his mercy. "If only Organic Chemistry would make itself clear to me!" I gasp...but the test results don't lie, and Mr. Orgo chem is very shy it seems at revealing his dirty little secrets to me. Damn it, i need to succeed or else there goes my dream of becoming a doctor. Maybe i should just become a performer and live on stage for that split-second high as the crowd stands and cheers at my wonderful performance. Yeah. maybe i'll just go make myself a drink and call it a night with my orgo text faithfully next to me on my bedside drawer. "mr. cellophane shoulda been my name...'cause you can look right through me, walk right by me and never know i'm there..."

Petar is a really wonderful man; I don't want to sit here and boast about him (even though I want to) but he really is wonderful. Kind-hearted, sweet, protective, and always a perfect gentleman, I think i can proudly say, "ladies, I have found myself a catch!" And you can all rest assure this is one catch you don't let go of, and I certainly don't plan on doing. I always did say, "whoever could stand my mood swings and my emotional stages and my nagging and my bitchy-ness, he's the one for me." *A year has gone by and he's still loves me!* :)

*said with sarcasm and meant to be funny...I know i'm not the comedian and i also know i should not quit my day job. got it. ;)

Anyway, it's good to be back on lj. i miss this place...we used to have such good time bonding here: all our fights would be on lj, all our problems for all our friends to read, everyone was connected and knew full well what everyone else was doing...ahhh the good 'ol days.

IT JUST HIT ME

2006-09-11T04:55:13Z

and i ask myself why i'm up at 1 am when i have an 8 am orgo lab tomorrow. well...PETAR IS COMING TOMORROW. yep. tomorrow. it just hit me. i missed him a lot recently because he's been so busy with stuff and packing that we couldn't have our usual talks...but now he's coming and i'm going to be the most selfish person with him. :) MINE.

_habit @ 2006-09-06T12:18:00

2006-09-06T16:19:51Z

I AM SO BORED. SAVE MEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. i have plenty to do..but i just don't feel like doing it. grrrr.

AAAAAHHHHHHHHH

2006-04-29T03:38:34Z

CROATIA CROATIA CROATIA CROATIA....SHOULD I SPELL IT OUT??? CROATIA!!!! tomorrow...8pm flight....and straight into the arms of the man who loves me. :] can a girl get any luckier?

While I clean...

2006-04-24T02:33:34Z

I found this random piece of paper with this written on it: "...the love I have for one man in whom I will always believe and for whom I will always fight." Guess who it was talking about :]

In other news, I'm leaving Boston in exactly 5 days (soon to be 4 as soon as the clock strikes 12). That means that in exactly 7 days I will be in Zagreb, Croatia enjoying the company of my boyfriend...whom I love so very much. :) can you tell I'm excited yet? hehehe...I mean, today I actually cleaned out all my books, notebooks, and packed away my things as much as I could...leaving me with almost nothing in my drawers and my desk. HEHEHE...ohhh MAN i'm so excited!!!!

does anyone even read this stuff anymore???? Lesley? Mona? Cassie? Christine? Gerry? hellooooo???? IS ANYONE OUT THERE? haha..peace!

I'm being haunted

2006-04-23T04:51:34Z

or followed. Gosh..and it was as if the elephant itself sat itself down across the table from us....
i'm getting over it....slowly..but OH so slowly.
just be patient my darling...

5 more days and then..POOF...Irena disappears...her prince comes to save her from the dragon... :) Take me away prince charming!

I just tasted a little throw up in my mouth

2006-04-20T01:03:48Z

April 19, day #9 will not exists in my mind.

[edit] why are women looked down upon? why do men feel the need to rule over women's choice to choose? Why does the government feel the need to repress women's rights? People can be so stupid sometimes.
Rule of thumb: if you want to write about your "opinion" on abortion then fine but DON'T do so in such a liberal paper such as the NORTHEASTERN NEWS and have a hanging dick between your thighs. If you don't have a uterus then you really shouldn't be allowed to make laws ruling over a reproductive organ that you do not possess. [/edit]

UM.

2006-04-06T01:48:26Z

DID I MENTION THAT THERE'S ONLY 23 MORE DAYS UNTIL I SEE PETAR? HMM!?!? :]

Spring.

2006-04-02T19:03:52Z

Isn't anyone else excited that spring is here?! I love this time of year...everything is in bloom.

Oh, and did I mention that there's only 26 more days until I see Petar? :] you people have NO CLUE how happy that makes me feel--how happy he makes me feel! I love him so much.

_habit @ 2006-04-01T02:30:00

2006-04-01T07:31:05Z

all i want...is to have him here...right next to me. then i'll stop crying.

I was sittin' waitin' wishin'

2006-03-26T12:32:41Z

Sex week is starting here at NU...and sure I can participate in the fun games they have but it wont be so fun without Petar here hehe. Oh and 33 more days. that's closer to the 20's than the 40's :) Soon this long wait will be over. Oh so very very soon. And then I'll get to jump on him, grab him, and hug him so tightly that I'll never let go and neither will he. *happy sigh* soon...soon my love.

I'm sitting at work, it's 7:27 AM and yes, I'm at work. I'm working a lot because I need the money and I also like to keep myself busy. Except the problem is that it's hard for me to actually do work here because i'm so tired, but i'm sure i'll get over that soon enough. I got to talk to him today early in the morning and that made me so happy. just 5 minutes is enough to get me through a couple more hours of work. i can't wait until he comes home and then we can talk over the computer :)

speaking of computers, mine's been acting really strange recently. it's been refusing to shut down and open simple applications such as word and i get stuck doing my chemistry lab report on word pad. i have to take it in to get it checked out and fixed up because last week my computer detected a "trojan" i was like, trojan horse what? haha..just kidding, but i do know they are bad so i have to go fix it.

ljubavi moja ti meni znacis vise od svjeta..i volim te toliko puno da jedva cekam da ti mogu pokazati koliko te ja volim. [that means i love you in croatian]

garrrr i say garrrrr!!

2006-03-19T14:55:43Z

I deleted my Myspace because i simply just don't trust it anymore. Like, there are so many instances of rapists and racists and...well people just being mean. There is a video section on myspace and i saw one (under comedy) where this man was just SCREAMING at his cats and the poor things were getting scared. I mean, i didn't find any porn video's but it's okay to put on a video where a man is torturing animals? C'mon...and anyway, i just don't use it that much. Sorry guys.

40 more days. I'm staying alive somehow..hehe..the excitement sometimes overwhelms me and i just lose it...but that's only sometimes and especially when I pms (now).

i'm at work...not much to do except to type up stuff and work on hw. ewwww homework..ewwww. but fuck that shit..i'm going to work my ass off this last month so i can pull my grades up. GARRR...

Oh! and Jack is going to be name of our doggie...we already named him...hehehe..SUCH A CUTE (WRINKLY) PUPPY..OOOOOO..PUPPPPYYYYY i love puppies..hehe

Oh, and I don't want to ruin any surprises or anything but someone came to visit me up here! it was a surprise! haha too bad i couldn't really see them though...you know...gotta go to class! pfff..hehe...

ok..ladies and gents..I'M OUT!

45.

2006-03-15T15:19:56Z

You know, it's strange; How can someone so far away have such a beautiful effect on me? I'll tell you how: L-O-V-E. Love is all you need. I swear it was as if i fell in love with him all over again when he sent me those pictures today. My heart gives a skip and a hop out of rhythm whenever I look into his face and see that smile that I like to think only smiles for me, and those eyes that only look at me like that, and that hair and those big strong arms .... God I miss him so much.

this test will be over soon..only 45 more days. That's like doing 45 more sit-ups...that's nothing. It's like spending $45 instead of $50. It's like having a 45 minute class instead of a 3 hr long lab. It's like waiting 45 more days to see the love of your life standing in front of you...that's not so long at all...I can definitely do that and much more. :]

Don't Worry

2006-03-09T04:32:53Z

I'm still alive!

And Friday the 10th of March is going to be 5 glorious months with Petar. :] <3

Today = Bad

2006-03-01T12:40:09Z

I know today will be a bad day. Don't ask me how I know, I just know that it will be a very difficult and sad day. I miss him terribly, and that will never change. Except that some day's it is barable (slightly) and other days it's just NOT. Today is a NOT day.

My oh my!

2006-02-26T02:06:43Z

So I'm at work and it's boring as usual so I decided to update my journal. Nothing new, really...my eyes hurt for some reason. I can't wait to go home next weekend...ohhhhhhhhh I can't wait! And after that it's only 7 more weeks until I see Petar! YES! :D

_habit @ 2006-02-23T09:38:00

2006-02-23T14:39:31Z

...But Lesley, I never see you anyway...and I miss you!

I am sad.

2006-02-22T04:09:08Z

I miss him.

_habit @ 2006-02-21T19:31:00

2006-02-22T00:37:07Z

So I'm back in Boston. Home felt so good; real food, comfy bed, sleep and my own toilet and shower. Beautiful.

I realized that my trip to Croatia is approaching really fast! Only two more months as soon as February is over...and then...and then absolute bliss! I'm going to finally, after 4 long, hard months, I'll be in the arms of the man who loves me more than anything in this world. Isn't that beautiful? It brings a smile to my face every time I think about him.

Oy, class tomorrow. That's not going to be fun! Oh but...Spring Break in 2 weeks baby! woohooo! them I'm back home! yay! :]

Guess who came back!

2006-02-18T05:18:49Z

I came home today!!!!! Oh how I missed my own room, my parents, my sister, my pets, my friends! I can't wait to relax and enjoy every second of this vacation from school...oh wretched school! Hehe...I also got to see my Plane Tickets for Croatia! I'm leaving April 29!!! Oh yes baby! Petar, medo, I'm coming!

I'M SO HAPPY

2006-02-12T02:12:18Z

I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM!!!!Petar...I just..I want to scream it to the whole world!

Hmm...let us ponder..

2006-02-06T05:50:19Z

Does anyone update livejournal anymore?

Hey everyone

2006-02-05T02:54:32Z

I want to deck out my livejournal. I feel like I'm going to be keeping it for a long time--maybe even past my twenties. Can you imagine what our generation is going to be like as parents...grandparents!? We're gonig to be listening to rap music and techno, writing on our online blogs, chatting on aim, and sending eachother funny phone pictures and text messages. That only makes me wonder what the "young" generation will be like. Hahaha...very entertianing if you think about it. I bet they'll be learning how to make computers in computer class soon, instead of just learning about word and how to type. Oh how I love technology.

I'm doing really awesome...the ring on my left hand is keeping me grounded and loved by Petar. He loves me so much, and I love the fact that he is so serious about us. "us"..."we" ... "you and me"...now my title makes sense. I love how different our relationship is...our love...I never felt it this much before...

It's raining right now...it's wet and yucky, but i think it's also thundering and lighting outside which i love! so overall, after work i'm going to get some pizza...eat it..and relax.

...but I really want to deck out my livejournal. hehe.. If anyone has seen or has any ideas of a really beautiful background picture..please tell me about it and send me the link! thank youuuuuuu!

!! yay!!

2006-01-31T06:34:01Z

_habit @ 2006-01-08T17:57:00

2006-01-08T23:02:37Z

I'm crying because i miss him. i miss him so fucking much. God, God this pain hurts. everything reminds me of him: the cafeteria, the street across me, the room i'm sitting in right now...my computer..the picture on the wall...I just miss him so much. My heart hurts...

I know i'll be going to croatia in 4months...seeing him there at the airport will be THE happiest moment of my life, but right now that moment seems so far away. And he can't talk to much now because he's skying and the phone doesn't work there and the interenet is far away ....i just miss him. I want him back..i want these 4moths to just speed away...just fly away...just please..like, let me sleep them off.

classes start tomorrow, and i'm happy. They will help keep my mind off of missing him...they will divert my attention away from the lack of having my love hug me every night and kiss me when we go to sleep. please, please ..... i miss him...my Petar..my bear..my love.

i have to keep myself busy..