♥Gabby&Cheryl

i'm actually starting to enjoy working/chem labs/whatever more than i did before. why? distraction. now that i finally have time to think.......i think. and thinking is bad :(

i miss you. or, better yet, i miss the idea of you. or both. bah humbug

nothing can replace the love found in true friendship.

(except perhaps a mother's love for her child, but i guess i'll find that out later in life)

UPenn tomorrow to visit Teresa for a week :) Cindy's coming, too! I'm super excited.

so much for "friendship"




you, of all people, should have stuck up for me.

i miss you..

home sucks

i only have a handful of real friends left here

and i miss my boyfriend.

i wanna go back to LA.

BIRTHDAY SEX

it's been 9 months.
it's been almost 2 months of no direct communication...until today.
it was so little, but it was enough to remind me how much i still care about him, and how much i will always care about him.
i don't care about him like i used to (i have someone else for that), but i'm just so not used to having him be a big part of my life.
if only he cared about me the same way. or at least had a little respect for me. oh well, i guess i'll just have to move forward, if not move on, but i've lost enough friendships this year..bah

romeo take me somewhere we can be alone

i can't always be waiting, waiting on you.
i can't always be playing, playing your fool.

:) i'm already getting a head start.

that i made to myself.

i realize that i am still drunk right now.
but in any case, i should have been able to make better decisions.
i always promised myself that i would never let ANYONE leave my house if they were planning to drive and if they had been drinking.
i let myself down.
a normal person learns from their own mistakes.
a genius learns from other peoples' mistakes.
a fool never learns.
hopefully, i can learn from my mistakes and never let this happen ever again.
my fault. i accept full responsibility. and i don't want anyone else telling me otherwise.

a lot of pent up anger these days, goddamnit. -_-
and, i've been trying to sleep for the past HOUR and i can't. argh.
sooooo frustrated.

actually, i'm feeling a bit better now, because i am looking at bumper stickers on facebook, and they amuse me.
TEEHEE!
GOODBYE!

please, please, please never lie to me. i will find out.
(this is about a different situation, by the way)
lies hurt way more than the truth. in fact, in this case, the truth doesn't really bother me at all.
people who lie to me lose my respect.
oh, and while i'm talking about this...secrets don't make friends. -_- things like these make me wish i was back at LA where my friends and i tell each other everything. because that's what friends DO. guess some people just really aren't my friends. and if you want it to be that way, then fine.

i think i'm overreacting, but i'm very tired, and i'm glad that my break is shorter than everyone else's cause i want to go back now.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!! hhahah. i will now read crime and punishment before bedtime. goodnight.

<3 gabby

2008 SURVEY

WHAT HAVE YOU DONE SO FAR?

Stayed single almost the whole year?
not even close.

Done something youv'e regret?
i have no regrets.

Lost someone?
no

Cut class?
high school, only like once, and with my mom's permission lol. college? like, every day. haha. that will change though, i promise.

Were involved in something you'll never forget?
many things.

Visited a different country?
mexico, france (just the airport), czech republic (just the airport), lithuania. yay traveling :)

Cooked a gross meal?
nope, but i RARELY cook so yeah.

Lost something important to you?
not really

Got a gift you adore?
yes

Tripped over a coffee table?
probably walked into a coffee table, maybe not tripped over one.

Dyed your hair?
no

Came close to losing your life?
no

Went to a party?
of course.

Read a great book?
i just finished one today. perks of being a wallflower.

Saw one of your favorite bands/artists live?
i wish

Your 2008 Friends & Enemies!

Did you meet any new friends this year?
yes, of course :)

Did you dislike anyone?
unfortunately.

Did you grow apart from anyone?
not significantly.

Do you have any regrets when it comes to your friendships?
no

Your 2008 BIRTHDAY!
Was it a good one?
yes

What did you do?
for my actual birthday..kevin surprised me by coming home from japan early and showing up on my doorstep at midnight, then the next day we watched wall-e and then i sat in my brother's room the rest of the day watching my brother and some friends play cod4 while i talked to random people online, including a creepy ucla stalker grad student who has since been blocked from my buddy list lol

Did you have a cake?
no, i don't like cake. i believe i had s'mores like i usually do but i'm not sure!

Did you get any presents?
mhmm

All About You in 2008!
Did you change at all this year?
my lifestyle may have changed, and my sense of humor is a bit different, but i'm still me.

Did you change your style?
no, not really.

Were you in school?
yes

Did you get good grades?
senior year yeah, so far in college..mediocre. it's gonna be better second quarter, i promise. even though i have harder classes..oh boy.

Did you have a job?
yeah, i tutored after school.

Did you drive?
um yes.

Did you own a car?
i used to. now i just drive my mom's car, which is way nicer anyway.

Did anyone close to you give birth?
no sir!

Did you go on any vacations?
yes sir! huntington beach with my girlies and lithuania with my family.

Would you change anything about yourself now?
more exercise. that's about it.

2008 WRAP UP:
Was 2008 a good year?
yes!

Do you think 2009 will top 2008?
i think it will, thanks to college and everything

I CONFESS that in 2008 I...
( ) stayed single for the whole year
( ) kissed in the snow
(x) celebrated Halloween
(x) had your heart broken
( ) mooned someone
( ) went over the minutes on your cell phone
( ) came out of the closet
( ) gotten pregnant
( ) had an abortion
( ) done something you've regretted

OTHER

( ) painted a picture
( ) wrote a poem
(x) ran a mile
(x) shopped at Hollister or Abercrombie and Fitch
( ) posted a blog on MySpace
(x) visited a foreign country
(x) cut in a line of waiting people
(x) told someone you were busy when you weren't
(x) partied to celebrate the new year
( ) cooked a disastrous meal
(x) lied about how old you were
(x) prank called someone

In 2008 I...

[x] broke a promise-->unimportant ones.
[x] fell out of love
[x] lied-->about stupid stuff
[x] cried over a broken heart
[ ] disappointed someone close
[x] hid a secret
[ ] pretended to be happy
[x] slept under the stars-->meteor shower! but we slept inside after.
[ ] kept your new years resolution
[x] forgot your new years resolution-->i don't think i had one..
[x] met someone who changed your life
[ ] met one of your idols
[ ] changed your outlook on life
[x] sat home all day doing nothing
[ ] pretended to be sick
[x] left the country
[ ] almost died
[ ] given up on something/someone important to you
[ ] lost something expensive
[ ] learned something new about yourself
[x] tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it
[x] made a change in your life
[x] found out who your true friends were-->well, i always knew...so yeah.
[x] met great people
[x] stayed up til sunrise
[x] cried over the silliest thing
[x] had friends who were drifting away from you
[ ] had a high cell phone bill
[x] spent most of your money on food
[ ] had a fist fight
[x] went to the beach with your best friend(s)
[x] gotten sick
[ ] liked more than 5 people at the same time
[x] became closer with a lot of people....


i'm excited for 2009.

i am a strong person, i can handle whatever you have to tell me, no matter how shitty it is and no matter how much you think it will hurt me. as long as you're honest, i'll probably get over it, move on, or at least move forward if not completely get over it.

on the other hand...lying is something that i cannot accept. you're violating my trust and basically telling me that you don't think i'm strong enough to handle the truth. well, i am. i've dealt with drama, heartbreak, whatever and i've been just fine, and even if you think it's in your best intentions to lie to me, it's not.

so, the moral of the story is, don't lie. i'm going to find out the truth eventually, and you're going to regret that you lied. that's not a threat, it's just the truth.

that's about it...happy holidays

<3 gabby

- reunions with yayjuicy
- eat a shitload of food
- soccer (call me up and we'll play)
- hike up mission peak (wanna join me?)
- snowboarding/skiing?
- exercise
- socal kids come up! hopefully
- visit socal
- watch a lot of random videos
- family time
- shopping
- READ READ READ!!
- watch movies (kiss kiss bang bang, monty python and the holy grail)
- learn something new
- sleep




I JIZZ RIGHT IN MY PANTS EVERY TIME YOU'RE NEXT TO ME
AND WHEN WE'RE HOLDING HANDS, IT'S LIKE HAVING SEX TO ME
YOU SAY I'M PREMATURE, I JUST CALL IT ECSTASY
I WEAR A RUBBER AT ALL TIMES IT'S A NECESSITY


so, my first quarter of college is over. these past few months have been some of the most amazing, tumultuous, dramatic, crazy, guitar hero-filled months of my life. i don't have any regrets, but i have some things i need to work on. and i definitely have a lot of new goals for next quarter:
- focus more on school/grades
- american red cross club? or at least join something
- get a job goddamnit
- exercise
- FLOOR INTRAMURAL SOCCER <3
- learn something exciting (salsa?)
- avoid drama at all costs, but seeing as how roommate signups are the end of january, that kind of drama is inevitable. but hopefully i can eradicate other drama. buttttttttt that's quite unlikely, unfortunately. we will see...
- party in moderation and stop smoking. including hooka. i think. i still need to mull this one over
- become lesbian so i stop fucking myself over repeatedly. you'd think i would have learned my lesson by now. i made a promise to myself at the beginning of the year that i wouldn't get romantically attached to anyone my first year or to seriously like anyone.. but that failed. sooooo i don't think i can make those kinds of promises to myself. but i don't regret my decisions anyway, cause regrets are for losers :)
- find a balance. i seem to have lost it.

figures...i come home to norcal and it immediately starts raining. :( boo
i suppose i shall go sleep now.
<3 gabby

don't walk into his room and bite him on the arm unless you are 100% sure that he is not webcamming with his girlfriend.

k coo


i want someone to slam me against the wall and make out with me passionately. IS IT SO MUCH TO ASK FOR?! FUCK...

put it in the air!


i love blasting songs with lots of bass on my sub + speakers :)