my teaching contract in Montpellier officially began one year ago today.  Sigh.  Memories.  Wish I were back there.

 day one of Spanish class: Check!

shall be interesting!

 I landed in lovely Montpellier, FR and began my awesome teaching adventure one year ago today.  
Memories :D

 looking forward to having some time to myself this weekend.. having time to catch up on life.. again.
possible activities:
-sleeping in
-exercising
-GRE studying
-email writing (finally!)
-package mailing (finally!)
-reading

we'll see.

.. with my life I guess.
Reading things like this makes me unsatisfied with my own life, knowing I worked just as hard as she did in college and now she gets paid to spend part of her work hours covering the reception desk getting paid to tinker online and do facebook quizzes.

happy for her success though. Who has the money to even consider buying $400 Jimmy Choo shoes these days?

faceboook status--

{friend} :
is headed to bellevue to check out Bravern and then dinner at tap house. look out Jimmy Choo
Il y a 2 heures via Facebook pour BlackBerry

...Le sigh.

 i can't sleep.

can you tell.

it's 2.56am

lame.

 I want to learn how to become a better person, live a more positive life.

In other news, I'm looking forward to the weekend.  Hopefully it'll include: a trip to the Greenlake Road Runner Sports store to buy new shoes, testing out said new shoes at Greenlake, GRE studying at Greenlake (still iffy), a trip to Easy Street Records to pick up the current Cut Copy and Passion Pit CDs, swinging by the Needle to say hi to the Spaceshooters, pleasure reading time, more GRE studying, and, gym time.... and whatever else I squeeze in... like a trip to the post office.. almost forgot that one.

In other news, I finally signed up for Beginning Spanish at GRCC (as a continuing education course).  Unfortunately, it doesn't start til late Sept, so I still have some waiting to do.

Also, where did the automatic spellcheck/correct function go on LJ? lameo. 

 What do you let or, what do you want to define you?

think about it.  I am.

 -feeling better now that the weekend is here.  freedom!

I feel completely defeated at work.  :-/  I feel like I'm really having a hard time getting into the swing of things, not working as fast as I should be, and panicking over small things when I should really be able to keep my composure (ie. a sign of not dealing with the stress well, I guess).    So, I can't budget my time accordingly nor time I handle the pressure?

Fall has barely started and I'm already feeling like I give myself daily heart attacks.  What am I going to do when the work load triples at the height of the season?

Def goes to show me that I can't be, and am not, good at everything.
Wish I *could* find a job that I'm good at. :-/

I hate greedy bankers and real estate people for causing the economy to fail and (practically) ruining my life :-/

According to my rough calculations, I make ~$100 too much every month to qualify for low income health insurance.

So many parts of that previous sentence are so absolutely ridiculous that I don't even want to think about it.

As of right now looks Iike I'll be crossing my fingers, very tightly, that I don't get sick or injured in the next six months. 

   I live for the weekends, I don't want to have to do that :-/  oh well.
At least the weekends bring super fun times like 25th bday parties playing Apples to Apples and Ride the Ducks tours on lovely, sunny morning days.

 Belive in fate?  Destiny?  Higher Powers... which prevent "Situation X" from developing further, thus remaining the original "situation X" ?  Why "event XYZ" happened/happens in the first place?

Blows to the psyche make me think about this.. or rather, a blow to the psyche has made me think about this.

life can be/ is (?) UNREAL.

 Sometimes my friends and/or "friends" don't get my sarcasm.  I can be really sarcastic a lot of the time.  Oh well.

Nerd = Enjoying reading the GRE test prep book = Me
lol.

I miss my sweet, sweet Montpellier.....   A LOT.
Why am I sitting here with tears streaming down my face?

 My 25th birthday= tapas and sangria!!  Doing it Barcelona style!  YES!!!

 Sometimes I really miss my old friends from Montpellier desperately.  I guess realistically I don't miss the city itself as the people I met there, the majority of whom are no longer in MPL.

I could expand on this and various feelings involoved, but I won't for now b/c my fingernail on my right pointer finger is really short and it hurts to type.. so .. later.

I haven't started work yet and I'm already "Out of money" before I even have it; that is to say, I know how it'll be spent.  $500/mo for the student loans, $500/mo for Disneyland (try my hardest to save as much as I can and see how things pan out), $500/mo for a ticket & trip back to "Montpellier"-- which in a perfect world would consist of:
-Going to MPL to visit the school, teachers, and former students :)
-Tour  more of the Languedoc region
-Go to London to visit my cousins
-Go to Birmingham (or Almeria?) to visit Paco
-Go to Porto to visit Marta
-Go to Granada to visit Sanaa

.. jam packed intinerary but I reallllllllly, realllllllllllllllllllllllllllly want to!  *le sigh*
AND my parents want to go visit my grandparents next summer.. A) if there's enough money to buy me a plane ticket maybe I can go too? B) maybe I add on my whirlwind Europe tour onto the start or end of my parent's trip if I go with?  **insert a million more tangents here**

wait 'n' see what the furture holds.

In interesting news, if things go well, 2 family members may visit this year.  Magda from my paternal grandmother's side who is my... something-something... may come in Oct for a while before heading to vacation/work in Hawaii (she's  a freelance painter and journalist) and Anna may come in May (or sooner) !!! :D :D :D  now THIS would be AWESOME!!!  Her Visa for the US expires in May 2010, so it'll be down to the wire soon enough.  It wouldn't be so stressful if she'd just get herself a UK Resident card.  Oh well.

on verra....

 toooooooooooooooooo hot. 
eck.
Five 90+ degree days?? Ughhhhhhh.  I think I'm going to melt!

 Why am I sick of suburbia (as always) and dying to move to the city (as always)?  Because in suburbia you don't get:

-Happy hour overlooking Lake Union, watching boaters and kayakers float by and seaplanes whizz by overhead
-U Village up the road..
-Getting to U VIllage from 15th via Ravenna Blvd and drooling over all the beautiful Victorian-esque homes
-Eating Red Mango ice cream in the sunshine
-Beautiful, large Barnes and Noble where I could blow a bazillion dollars
-Toddlers running around said B&N store yelling "Obama".  What darling little Seattlites :)
-Sbux inside B&N in which to enjoy one of a bazillion freshly purchased books
-Newly remodled Sbux (w/ fireplace?) on the corner which stays open to 1 or 2 am
-Cute (if expensive at $3 a pop) Trophy Cupcakes where the cupcakes still taste good and fresh 10 min before closing
(and no, I didn't have coffee, ice cream and a cupcake in the same evening... Trophy was 2 wks ago and Red Mango was tonight ;) )
-Lululemon
-H&M

*views of Lake Washington.. they're nice driving west over 520, but of course a million times better driving east.

heart.break (!!!!) everytime I have to get on I-5 South in order to leave my darling Seattle and go home 
*le sigh* :-/

I guess if anything it may give me some more determination to get my ass in gear and do something worthwhile, whether it be work or school, with my life, in order to move back to my fave city :)  I can only hope.