I don't want to be seen as a pretty thing

Tue, 11 Mar 2008 19:17:12 GMT

getting high, then creating the perfect snack [ strawberry, chocolate, vanilla ice cream with golden gram cereal] is the best. My back ground soundtrack is full house [ the one when they got to Hawaii and get lost at sea, they have a picnic]. My diction and reading are created by plum skies and stories by randy f. nelson are pretty great.

i love days off.

math must be done and i don't even mind!

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Tue, 11 Mar 2008 12:28:11 GMT

4000 dollars for my car is finally here! life is changing and I'm excited!
jobs perfect, weekend was lovely with dearies and great company! lazy and dazyyyy.
spring break officially starts Friday and i am taking the day off! me and brent are going back to old haunts aka the brewery to see Strike Anywhere and the Riverboat Gamblers. I'm pretty excited!
i really want to hit up that new hookah bar as well.
my hair is dyed black by my amazing boyfriend! hes probably done the best anyone who's dyed it.!
less than zero = amaZing book.

Thu, 31 Jan 2008 01:56:36 GMT

Fri, 18 Jan 2008 22:27:24 GMT

new account = colds_overcoats

comment to be added!!

Mon, 17 Dec 2007 18:53:42 GMT

My eyes seemed to have changed over night.

Sat, 08 Dec 2007 01:16:17 GMT

OFF TO THE BEACH!

Thu, 15 Nov 2007 14:26:30 GMT

i'm tired, starting over, and reinventing.

LATRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

Mon, 05 Nov 2007 13:51:44 GMT

i don't have a home anymore and i don't really have a mother either. my mother decided to kick my sister and i out of the house. she has not called once to see how we are or how we're doing in life. she has completely left me and does not even care. i asked if i could come home and she said no. that she was not going to change and that i would need to do all the changing. she killed my frogs, the ones brent bought for me.

i have been taking it really well. i'm living at brents parents house right now and its pretty nice. today, for some reason, i really really just want to be home. i want to be in my bed, i want to wake up somewhere that is completely comfortable. i want to ride to school with MY mother and not a substitute. i want to go home and have alone time. i want to see my sister everyday. i want my mother to actually care about me again. i want her to at least call me. i want things to go back. i want my mother back and not this hard shell that she has turned into.

i'm so tired and i work all the time and i feel like i'm always behind.

i need a break that only my room and my bed can cure.
and its not happening anytime soon.
oh. time for class.

Fri, 05 Oct 2007 00:33:23 GMT

LIFE IS GREAT!!!!!!!

I COULDN'T ASK FOR ANYTHING MORE.

Sat, 22 Sep 2007 21:12:31 GMT

Last night, i wore the perfect shirt for the best trip of my life.

this teeny tiny pill made trees breath, the world explode with color, crazy cartoons, great bonds, same feelings as one another, rryans limbs growing and shrinking, brents face turning different shapes, banjo being the greatest cat in the world, rooms closing and openings, just perfect!

i love my life so incredibly much.
i have a new cute, simple job with really sweet people.
i'm getting my financial aid money back this week.
i'm buying myself a car.
the day traders first show next sunday [PEOPLE COME!]
maybe another trip.
seeing gabi!
my first tattoo, i talked to mark today and it should only be about $60-80
and fall weather.
TONIGHT my lovely sister and alex are coming over! and i hope maryyy.
watching one of the new grindhouse movies and mellowing out.
what else could i want?!

Wed, 19 Sep 2007 21:15:52 GMT

anything is possible with this breeze!

Mon, 17 Sep 2007 18:13:42 GMT

Friday night, was filled with orange tastes, pictures, cheese sticks, history, love, and excitement. Brent and I picked up Layla and took her to Alicia's. She is such a sweet girl and i had so much fun.

Saturday was my birthday! Brent and i headed to South Point, shopped around, had lunch with layla, alex, my mother, and her bestfriend. next we shopped at urban outfitters. where i was lost and bought the cutest, awkwardest shoes ever. i love them of course.

that night was spent with my lovely crazy amazing friends at brents having my BONGATHON. it was perfect. my best birthday yet. mary is so silly and lovely. i love gabi more than anything. her gift was a necklace she made with cheese and a key. PERFECT. and better then that was a note she wrote me.

mandy came over and made my sickness of too much mellowing, hooookkka, and vodka smoothie disappear. we had a cig with pot and smoked and smoked. she captured me and we headed to cook out. SO MANY PEOPLE AT 2 AM. it was crazzzzy. and of course crazzy things always happen with mandy. this was no different.

this fall air i do not want to blow away. it makes me feel alive. it makes me so happy and i am so in love with my life and brent and my friends.

things are exactly the way it should be.
i couldn't ask for anything else [besides a job and car but that can wait]
i took a psych. test.
i'm happy!

OUR CAKE!

Sun, 09 Sep 2007 02:33:14 GMT

RX Bandits, cigs, and cheese fires saved my life.

yes.
i think so.

Sun, 09 Sep 2007 00:54:15 GMT

lifes been good and prettty fun:

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i can not wait for fall.
its really nice making new friends.
i love my sister.
i love being in love more and more every single day [even though that is so very chessy]
i am SO fucking excited for my birthday.
i hair is dark black.
diamonds are sweet.

Fri, 31 Aug 2007 17:43:18 GMT

i have not written in this thing forever.

UPDATES
i started schoool about 3 weeks ago. i have no idea what i want with my future anymore. i changed from nursing to 2 year.
my classes are pretty cool.
i love my enlgish teacher.
i got fired from my job [very long story]. but i did not do anything wrong. i got fired because i was confused about my hours.
i have a new puppy. his name is gus.
i am making a lot of new lovely friends.
brent and i have been together for 14 months and it gets better and better.
i'm seeing gabi today and i can't wait! i've missed her so much.
i'm dying my hair hopefully tomorrow..by lovely mary.
i love brents house so much.
brents car got crashed..gareath did it on accident. its not tooo bad.
i'm very happy.
i will be getting a job at ihop i hope !! [andrew and mary will be working there to]
i love all my friends.
i'm finally very comfy with brents mother and its so niceee.
i really love my life.
i can't wait for fall. really. i miss it so much.
i'm not as bad as a driver as i thought.
i miss mmandy and amber.
i cant wait to go to the mountains sometime soon.

this is really a list and a very fast list.
i will update when i get a chance.
now i'm sleeping til with roxy till brent gets here!

Fri, 03 Aug 2007 21:30:19 GMT

Tomorrow will be my first day working at Its A Grind.
Hours: 10am-3-pm.
It should be exciting!

Tue, 31 Jul 2007 20:15:40 GMT

these last few days have been very very amazing. i've been hanging out with more girls lately and its been nice. most of the time girls can be bitches and not worth my time. but these girls are different!

sunday i went over to alicias house and we had a girls night. it was me, layla, alicia, ashley, sean, and colin. so it wasn't exactly a girls night but it was still lovely. we took lots and lots of pictures and just had fun and drank. i really liked it.

yesterday was such a perfect day. brent picked me up and we went over to johnnys house. we smoked a blunt and just talked about the show i want that! it was silly. brent and i left and we were STARVING so we somehow found this really cute sushi place. i got spicy tuna roll and yummy yummy noodles. it was so gooood. we went back to brents house and became stoned and silly. we rented silly video games and just enjoyed everyones company. we found fireworks and i got 4 boxs of sparklers!!!!! brent said a late one year present. we blew up toilets and just had fun.

today i hung out with corinne. i had a class with her in highschool and shes just so cute and soo soo sweet! it was our first time hanging out and i thought it might be weird but it wasn't at all. it was so lovely. i am hanging out with her much much more!! we went the the museum of science and just looked at gross snakes and put on silly costumes. it was so refreshing to find a new girl friend who isn't crazy or mean. shes so incredibly sweet and interesting.

brent's coming soon!! lifes goooooooooood.

Thu, 26 Jul 2007 01:08:14 GMT

fuck the meanness of the world.

this is how i will be spending my days.

tomorrow night will be spend with my lovely twiny.
we shall make yummy food such as
&&
we shall watch

brent will be there for a couple hours and we shall smoke and be silly like life should be sometimes

friday i will cerbrating andrews birthday by seeing this movie

which should be very funnny then i hope to see my old bestie
this photo is mad old

brent and alex will be spending the night and be filled with silly things.

saturday shall be spend in pretty dresses at a tea party because of lovely dani

and we shall eat these

i can not wait.

Tue, 24 Jul 2007 03:57:34 GMT

this weekend was basically crazy and topsy turvy but of course lovely and great at the same time. cars got into ditches and into houses, silly fights were made, drinking was done, stories were shared, hot tubs were given, fun was had!

today i looked at the house i will be moving into. its perfect. at least in my eyes. there is a lot of work to be put into it but i can't wait. i am painting my room as soon as i get moved in. there are 4 rooms. anyone need to move in? there is one more room left. andrew is grabbing one and so is mmmandy dear. her boyfriend will be arriving after december. rents not to bad. i NEED a new change in my life and this is perfect. i can't wait for the nights when brents drives over to my house. i can't wait to take care of myself. and be able to have my own room and space. i'm going to have to work HARD. but i've never really had to do that in my life and i can't wait for this challenge. i will be going to school and working in basically all my free time. but its so worth it! the backyard is huge and there is a porch in the front. its right near downtown [Hilsborough street.] i'm excitedddd.

tonight brent and i had dinner with his parents. we went to north hills. this girl was shamelessly flirting with brent which was very funny. even his parents noticed. it was silly && fun at dinner. then we all went and saw sicko. it really opened my eyes. this place here is horrible and could be SO much better with not even hard changes. people here though are to selfish and don;t want to change there way of life for a new easier one. when m. moore went to england and france people laughed when he asked where to pay for medical bills! both brent and i very much want to move away from here. Canada would be the place of chose. we were talking about it and its not impossible even though it feels it. we're both young and could save. it would be amazing if i could actually leave here and start over.

things are very good at this moment. i'm figuring things out that need changing but its nice.

Sat, 07 Jul 2007 18:58:29 GMT

its so fucking annoying when people are so immature! i sent that letter and now shes forwarding it to everyone. the funny thing is shes even lying now with the letter. shes leaving out the whole point of the letter. why can't people just grow up?!?!?

Fri, 06 Jul 2007 17:50:46 GMT

its hitting me more and more that i am actually REALLY done with high school. so with that i'm done with petty drama that i do NOT have to deal with. i might just start over friends-wise. [their are a few i want to stay in contact with, but just a few] it would make my life so much easier if i didn't have to deal with all this STUPID shit. so i'm not going to anymore. in saying this i wrote a very mean letter to someone. i feel bad about it just because its probably the meanest thing i have done. but it was all true and it made me feel better. which i can not decide if it is a good thing or not.

the 4th of july was lovely dovy. i woke up early, right before layla and alex left for south of the border. i had the house completely to myself and i loved it. i made myself tomato sandwich on an english muffin and read "valley of the dolls". i remember from the time i was little i always saw my mother with this book. so far its very good. interesting. brent and i are going to watch the movie once i finish the book. brent picked me up and we all headed to his parents house where had the most amazing hamburgers i have EVER tasted. so greatttt. we hung out there and then all went to play discgolf. then we just rented movies and i slept soundly with my boii :]. it was very lovely.

yesterday i hung out at brents and chris came over. we [ryan, gar, brent, chris] all went to moes where layla and alex were!! we all ate and then me and brent headed to his parents. ryan and gar came later. we all drank, got in the hot tub, watched silly shows, and made dinner, it was the best dinner everrr. i made a cake with sprinkles, chocolate chips, and pop rocks on top. they had no frosting so it was just cake. still very yummyy.

now i';m at brents parents house and just listening to music and playing with the dogs. seriously, if i had a dog i would never ever be lonely. i want one so bad.

tonight i'm headed over to kent's house. and maybe learning how to skate, carla will be showing mee.

Thu, 28 Jun 2007 17:53:44 GMT

so the first time that i ever buy pot [brent mostly buys it because i usually have zero money] i leave it in my pocket and then WASH them. of course i remember like 15 minutes after the wash has started. and of course its not even in the pocket when i check. so when the wash was done i had to search and find all of the 8th because i live at home. greattttttt. so now i don't even know if its going to be ok to smoke. but whatevvv. it just sucks.

annd my bitch grandmother won't let my mother, layla, alex, and pony come to the condo because of "religious reasons" which is total bullshit. so now my moms going alone with layla and alex. it sucks. i hate when people use religion just to be mean or hurt someone.

last night i watched the most of sicko at johnny and eliza's and its very intersting and very sad. i drove all the way from brent's house to theirs and went on that new highway. it was actually very easy and not as scary as i thought it would be.

Tue, 26 Jun 2007 16:50:47 GMT

i am in desperate need for a new computer. i am craving new music so badly but my computer is so incredibly old that nothing can download. so i need a new way to find music besides buying a random cd and then having the chance of wasting money i already don't have.

i'm filling out a application for a pizza place that gareth used to work at. andrew is probarly going to be working there to and that would be pretty awesome. hes a very funny kid. also gareth said that the girls don't have to do most of the work and that i would be making cookies most of the time. i don't even really care about the work. i just need to be doing something and i need to get money. i have none. my mother, pony, layla, and alex are all leaving for florida in 2 weeks. they will be gone for 3 weeks and i have no idea how i'm going to survive. i'm trying to get my license by next friday. i hope!

this weekend was mostly filled with : disc golf [at the middle school near brents and kent wood, spend with carla, kyle, gareth, andrew, ryan, and brent], playing kings, finding a new, good, cheap beer, hot tubs, one year!, cupcakes, loveeee, good times, laughing, and mellowing. also talks of the future and moving to ashville. i really like how my life is going. nothing is planned out and anything can happen.

i love that.

i can't wait til next week when layla and i have the whole house to ourselves. its going to be a nice, relaxing weekend!

Tue, 19 Jun 2007 21:04:19 GMT

ashville was unexpected and different then most of my journeys there. but i had layla and thats always much better with her. we took lovely pictures with our new Polaroid camera && had lots of hot tea && saw mr. brooks [AMAZING!} && just really caught up with each other. i've learned that things in my life that are different and i don't like to much ARE going to stay in my life indefinitely, so i better just get used to it.

seeing brent and everyone after 4 days was greattt.
i am really starting to fall in love with disc golf. i just wish i was A LOT better. its so divine being outside and just playing this game. brent and i are going to go together so he can really teach me. everyone was trying but with some physical activities i am slower to catch on.

i got my teeth taken out today. not as bad as i thought it would be!
brrents coming over to take care of me which will be really nice.

sunday is me and brents 1 year. i am very excited!!

Sat, 09 Jun 2007 14:44:28 GMT

i graduated yesterday.

i promise way too many things to way too many people.
i need to really work on this.

people are really changing.

last night was perfect besides wanting to have more hours in the night to do more things.
thrusday was very lovely. mario party 8 on wii is pretty much amazing && stuff.
mo jos is pretty much the best place to get pink lemonade and grilled cheese with tomatos! plus going with eliza and johnny.