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I blame the wind.

my throat looks like a reallyreally scary cave right now.
that thing that hangs in the back of my throat...yea...it kinda touches the back of my tongue cause its all inflammed and swollen.
why cant i have liquid codine.
but...i made a pretty picture tonight.






eye like eyes.

if you think you know everything you are wrong.
dead wrong.
you know shit about shit.
and i dont fucking care anymore.
im becoming mute in my own fucking house.

my life has turned into a bad taste anne heche joke.
i'm in. i'm out.
i'm going to the snow. i'm not going to the snow.
hope. despair.


ohman. screw manic mondays. its manic week for me.


but i'm spending the night at marios. and i get to see cat on Sunday. and buy an xmas tree with my mommy.

lol. i talk too much.

itll be ok though.. stress is counter-productive

i cant let what's happening break me down.
yeah. hopes and dreams crushed. yes. probably losing the only person i've ever felt totally comfortable with.

but that's life, right?
there's good, right?
and there's always bad.
myself and many other can always atest to this.


everyone hope that my goodlooks(yea right) and charm(HA!) come into play later today as i try to get a job at Urban Body again.
if i do...I GET ALL MY PIERCINGS DONE THIS YEAR! fuck yea. side lip, INDUSTRIAL, tragus, spiral on my cartilage, etc! its just means countless counting of thousands of little pieces of frat girl belly button rings and the like....

maybe i'll snake so nice stone plugs since i plan to gauge soon too.
ohman. i'll be back to my metal self.

maybe there is beauty in this breakdown of events.


whatever. david. you made me optimistic this morning. you, from afar, have succeeded in what very few can do.

random sidenote: smoking a blunt then watching South Park while loud trance plays in the background has interesting effect.

at the rate things are going i'll probably be dead by next month.

and boys really dont understand a goddamn thing that a woman says to them.

Your First Name of: Kibby

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Your name of Kibby creates a desire to be of service to others, but its practicality and attention to detail restrict spontaneity. This name creates much frustration, nervous tension, and personal unhappiness because you are not able to realize your ambitions and ideals. You desire your life to be orderly and systematized and you keep your surroundings neat and tidy, but others often see you as fussy over little things. You are a patient person and you will work hard one step at a time to accomplish your endeavours. You tend to be thorough in building a solid foundation of fact and logic, but are not inclined to pursue inspirational or creative expression as in music or the arts.

Although the name Kibby creates idealism and the urge to help others, we emphasize that it limits your versatility and scope, tuning you to technical details. This name, when combined with the last name, can frustrate happiness, contentment, and success, as well as cause health weaknesses in the nervous system, and elimination system.

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