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letting go

Wed, 12 Dec 2007 17:21:50 GMT

this past month has been incredibly hard. im in a struggle for happiness and contentment. i loathe for the ability to sleep, to eat, and generally feel alive.
i dont know who i am
i dont know where i am
i dont know what i want

i know of a place that i want to venture to. but it would be chaos just to ask for some alone time.

haha actual laws

Tue, 16 Aug 2005 20:59:41 GMT

brought to you by Dumb Laws.com

San Francisco Laws:
Prohibits elephants from strolling down Market Street unless they are on a leash.

It is illegal to wipe one's car with used underwear.

Persons classified as "ugly" may not walk down any street.

It is illegal to pile horse manure more than six feet high on a street corner.

Giving or receiving oral sex is prohibited.

now be sure to have you elephant on a leash at ALL times

Mon, 01 Aug 2005 08:10:07 GMT

i just gauged my septum from a 6g to a 2g. wow that was amazing. i seriously blacked out from the pain for a little bit. but that was the coolest feeling ever. my eyes were red and glossy for over an hour. my face was stiff for a day and as of right now im having funlookin through my nose. my gf was too scared to watch so she went and looked at some flash work. all in all i loved it. in about 2 or 3 weeks im gin in to re-do my madison and my gf is gonna do her clevlage(sp). cant wait.

pretty much my feeling of life

Thu, 28 Jul 2005 20:28:28 GMT

I've met God across his long walnut desk with his diplomas hanging on the wall behind him, and God asks me, "Why?" Why did I cause so much pain? Didn't I realize that each of us is a sacred, unique snowflake of special unique specialness? Can't I see how we're all manifestations of love? I look at God behind his desk, taking notes on a pad, but God's got this all wrong. We are not special. We are not crap or trash, either. We just are. We just are, and what happens just happens. And God says, "No, that's not right." Yeah. Well. Whatever. You can't teach God anything. ~Chapter 30 (Fight Club)

eh...

Mon, 25 Jul 2005 09:09:36 GMT

bleh, i start school in 3 dayz. it feels good goin back, but i feel wierd bein around a bunch of people who i dont know. i hate that feeling of knowing people are just looking at you and then when they come up to ask you 20 questions, it sucks.

other than that, im in a wierd mood. still lookin for work, but no luck as you an see. but today i took the gf to see a show since we havent gone to one in a while. met marshall(nerozero) and talked for a while. really cool guy. as of right now, ive got a headache, so im done typin away.

Mon, 18 Jul 2005 05:55:46 GMT

bored bored bored...

so last saturday i went and seen the new Willy Wonka film...yea, wasnt too pleased. i actually almost fell asleep during the movie. it just seemed too different from the original which im used to seeing. very random and vapid.the oopma loompas... just dumb. and johnny depp just didnt seem right for the role. oh well, i didnt pay this time. next up..the devil's rejects. cant wait a second for it to come out. i love how it more resembles a classic 70's horror genre to it. but who knows until i see it. until then..PEACE OUT WANKSTAS!!!

Fri, 15 Jul 2005 07:29:38 GMT

hmmm...

i was so thirsty right now, and i found some package of kool-aid in the cubbard(sp) and it looked like it was from the 80's or something. a little hesitant, i still made it. now im drinking it like crazy but im wondering if im gonne be feeling dead tomorrow.

woohoooo

Fri, 15 Jul 2005 05:44:28 GMT

yuuuup its official. im goin bak to school. i start on the 27th of this month. i take business so hopefully when school is over ill be able to get myself a nice good earning job and finally be happy with what ive done in my life.

get your pussy here...

Wed, 06 Jul 2005 07:07:37 GMT

yes thats right, get your pussy here. ive got about 5 kittens up for adoption right now. all free, or $5 for me to use for gas. if anyones interested let me know. they are about 8 or 9 weeks old and are litter-boxed trained. i neeeeeeed to get rid of em. i wish i could keep one but unfortunatly i cant. so please...help me...take my pussies away =0X

Fri, 01 Jul 2005 19:32:58 GMT

grrrrrrr. the job market sucks ass right now and isnt helpin me out. >=0\

errrrr

Fri, 24 Jun 2005 18:15:04 GMT

this sucks, i have no computer and my laptops being all retarded...

Mon, 13 Jun 2005 19:22:48 GMT

yea i think im gonna try to make it to the DG tonight. i need somethin to dooooooo

been tagged

Mon, 13 Jun 2005 03:21:26 GMT

hmmm been tagged by ladydev

List five songs that you are currently digging... it doesn't matter what genre they are from, whether they have words, or even if they're any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying right now. Post these instructions, the artists, and the five songs in your blog. Then tag five other people to see what they're listening to.

|-1-| MSI - stupid mf
|-2-| Tactical Sekt - xfixiation(myer burns the dancefloor rmx)
|-3-| Psyclon Nine - inri
|-4-| Nekromantix - whats on your neighbors bbq
|-5-| SITD - yield to despair

I tag:
lvl10droid
nerozero
ange_deforme
_neutral9
goreishgrotsque

sorry if you've been tagged already

haha this was fun

Thu, 09 Jun 2005 08:28:58 GMT

haha yea this was odd but fun, this is me half a year ago

dont mind the gay pose though

Wed, 08 Jun 2005 22:26:08 GMT

uhhh, i need sleep. i think in the past week ive slept about a whole 4 hours or less a night. now im all dizzy and light headed. but its been pretty fun =0)

Mon, 06 Jun 2005 08:10:23 GMT

DeathGuild tonight. ill actually be there. been a while though

Tue, 31 May 2005 20:21:28 GMT

ok this past sunday was pretty damn cool

went to the pound to see psyclon 9. first came up consectum, never really heard em so i was pleased with the sound they put out. then abbeyvain came up, wasnt really a fan. next was tesseract 7. it was ok. up next was Ayria, damn, she was hot. and the music was pretty kick ass. suprising though cause i dont really listen to much like that. after them was The Azoic. they were ok but i got a little bored after the first 2 songs. Last was p9, fukin killed the place. only bad thing was the sound guy. he should be shot. the show was kick ass though. got to talk to eric for a little bit and shook hands with marshall while he was on the stage. i also picked up the new tactical sekt album there. if you have a chance give it a listen, so so worth it.

ill shut up now so see yas

woohoooo

Fri, 20 May 2005 05:50:33 GMT

oooh yea defenitly cant wait to see em on the 6th. if youre in the Bay Area. GO SEE THEM!!! guaranteed to be worth it

Tue, 17 May 2005 00:57:18 GMT

=0(

i went to change my web ring, but i took so long trying to put another ring in that it closed on me. i couldnt get my hand to fit in my mouth so i couldnt get the ring in. and now its closed. that was my favorite too. this sux

Wed, 04 May 2005 18:32:23 GMT

got some new chucks yesterday. werrd. ive never worn em before so i thought theyd look like clown shoes on me, BUT THEY DONT. =0) ok g2g peace out muh nikkas

weeeee

Fri, 29 Apr 2005 02:38:15 GMT

im bored

and watching wheel of fortune for some reason =0/

Fri, 08 Apr 2005 23:36:44 GMT

yup. i seriosuly dont know what to do. my life has just been all blah, no luck and hardly any good. ive been lookin for a job for like 2 years now and not one has gone through. just last week i had my closest moment of actually gettin one. but nope, got turned down. im one of those guyz who desperatly needs one to live. im pretty sure ill end up having to live in a car pretty soon and i didnt think it could have gotten worse from living without food, water, or power then gettin evicted when i was a lil younger. but i guess i was wrong. like i said before, i dont know what to do. too much shit goin through my head at the moment so ill just stop and shut up here.

Wed, 16 Mar 2005 05:41:56 GMT

=0/

i think im gettin pnemounia again . . .
my breathing is starting to get hard again and im really wishin im not

lovely

Thu, 07 Oct 2004 14:54:42 GMT

yesterday i got a hold of the bushwacked 2 audio clip and i must say its great. check it out if you're interested.

http://www.thesmokehammer.com/