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[Jan. 31st, 2007|02:52 pm] |
this is the start of my horror movie sleeve..
it was done by david tower at sick boy tattoo
more pictures of tattoos he has done on my at
myspace.com/closexmyxeyes
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| merry christmas! |
[Dec. 25th, 2006|04:52 pm] |
i havent posted on this in forever..im going to start again.... merry christmas again! |
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| I dont sleep because I am tired, I sleep because I am weak: |
[Jun. 14th, 2006|11:36 pm] |
Things I wrote months and months ago that I never posted.
mini disclaimer:: if you think you know what this is about, guess again. It isnt exactly as obvious as you may think, and since you arent me you havent got a clue.
I dont sleep because I am tired, I sleep because I am weak:
::ashley::
Is there anyway to stop the madness in my head.as everyday passes by the further the thought of you and i seems to die the phone never rings no more messages no more i love you's no more i miss you's. just letting you know if i could go back i would kiss you a little longer and hold you a little tighter because as are moments fade to memories and turn into fairy tales of a bitter sweet mortality i increase my tolerance to not look back to not look back as my swollen eyes fill with the memories of your lips against my skin and your "heart beat in my head" the night is no longer as calming and the taste of me is no longer as satisfying my heart nothing more than a casualty of war, yet here i stand in front of you ... a victim of reality, when it is too late you will find me waiting to tell you i still care, you will find me old before my time with a bad case of bitterness...well darling are you in need of me saying any more? |
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| how could hell be any worse.. |
[Jun. 12th, 2006|01:10 am] |
I am so close to absolutly loosing it. Everything important to me is falling apart all at the same time. But of course it is, isnt life a bitch or something like that, which ultimatly means everything bad is going to happen at the same fucking time. I forgot how to be strong, but it seems to be all coming back to me. I remember 4 years ago you could through anything at me and I could care less. I've been babied too much. Do I sound as bitter as I am. You can hate me as much as you want but can you blame me? I dont blame you for why I am hurt yet, some how someway this all my fault. Don't worry I've been through worse.
my only fear
" its way to easy to fake this smile..."
This was so a big mess of 5 things that are bugging me right now, if you think this pertains to you, dont. Because it really doesnt.
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[Jun. 10th, 2006|12:50 am] |
Letter to Ashley+*-+*-+*-+*-
Ashley,
you've never read this because i've never written it in words for you. i wanted to write it in a public place so that not only you, but whoever would see it. this letter is not one of flattery or heartache, it is one of undistilled love. in this letter i want to thank you for all the things you've ever done for me and my struggle, not once have you ever turned your back or betrayed, and your love for me is unwavering. not many people can honestly say that they've found that special someone that they would want to spend thier life with, and in this letter, i express my gratitude for allowing me to find you. thank you, ashley, for being my best friend and girlfriend. this letter is a symbol of my nuetral love between you and me, that will always be with us. thank you for reading my letter.
I Love You More Than These Words Could Ever Say,
Kenney
I remember when he used to write things like that. Now all I get is " Im grouchy and you always do this, love ya bye.".. maybe it's me, maybe I am just being silly, but I'm a girl so what do you expect, I cant help that you hurt my feelings. If you really love me deal with it and at least try to make it better. I do it for you. |
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| armor for sleep here i come.. |
[May. 16th, 2006|04:55 pm] |
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So what is the best thing to do when you are sad... go to the video store and rent a romantic movie of course. It makes you feel even more like shit, if thats possible. |
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| I told you I wasnt anygood, but you said you |
[Apr. 20th, 2006|10:47 pm] |
You have every right to be
This appalled with me
Join the club
I signed up a long time ago and I know how you feel
And when you decked me
You left me knocked out on the floor
I came to bloodied up, but you weren't around
I picked my teeth off the ground like they'd been there before
I always said that I liked the feeling of being alone and lost in a big city. well, I am over that feeling now. |
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[Apr. 2nd, 2006|02:52 pm] |
Went to the park with kenney today and took a few pictures... I really liked my hair and makeup today. Vegas is a week and a half! woo hoo!! Right now I am super bored and watching spider man and waiting for kenney to get off work. :(
final count of the kittes.. two black and one orange, there will be pictures because they are super adorable! |
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[Apr. 2nd, 2006|12:53 am] |
my cat is having her kittens right now! I am so so so so happy.
She has had two so far... an orange one with a brown eye patch and a black one.
I really hope the orange one is a girl because I want to keep it!!!!
I will post pictures later because they are so cute! |
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| with blue lips and dried eyes. |
[Mar. 28th, 2006|10:42 pm] |
So I went to the dentist umm I have a cavity. But he said with the amount of sugar I eat even with me brushing in the morning and I night ( like I do) it couldnt be avoided. Umm what else oh yea I get to have another mouth surgery. woo.not.
Umm I went to the doctor because of my back again and I have to go to pain management 3 times, and each time I go I have to have an epidural. No I am not having a baby.
Hmm in two weeks Kenney and I are going to Las Vegas for 3 or 4 days!! My Nanny is sick so I am going to see her and see the rest of the family :).
It was raining all day and 30 miles away a tornado touched down!!!. I was inside all day cuz umm it was raining and there was a tornado watch so I did the super cool thing and took pictures!
ex I oh
smashley
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| with forever lying in pieces and her name tacked on my neck. |
[Mar. 19th, 2006|11:18 pm] |
Things have been hecka crazy this week. Between school and everybody wanting to do something. The OLC show on Friday was very cool, they got a really good response which was cool because they are an awesome band.
hmm I have to go to the darn dentist tomorrow morning (( :( )). I havent been to the dentist since 8th grade. hope i dont have any cavities!!
oh and on saturday i got my hur did.
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| haha you fooled me too. |
[Mar. 3rd, 2006|08:24 am] |
| [ | mood |
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| [ | music |
| | kenney singing | ] |
It's crazy the things that you learn about a place and a person after you are detached from it/them. I miss one person from san diego,( but she moved) she's pretty cool. and i miss the beach. i thought i would miss more people, but eh i dont really care.
anyway.
busy picture taking duty tonight. I hope these shots come out as good as the last ones have. it's a different stage and i hope i use it well. we will see.
it's very rainy outside... it is nice. great day for coffee and poptarts. oh and mario party 3. (that game rocks)
people are ummgayyaokthanks. |
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| the snow!!! |
[Feb. 23rd, 2006|10:02 am] |
this is a picture of kenney and I from when we went to the snow.
anyway.. things are going well kenney moved in a few weeks ago. it's nice having him with me all the time, even though he totally hogs the bed. and he snores like a baby bear sometimes. i want it to be september so bad, i want to get another tattoo.
peace for now kids. |
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[Feb. 23rd, 2006|09:23 am] |
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can someone please tell me how to put a picture in my journal entry using the new rich text mode please? |
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[Feb. 2nd, 2006|12:16 am] |
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san diego kids!!!!
on the 18th of feb. i might be back in SD with a few friends. does anybody have a place where we might stay just for the night???
thanks
ashley |
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| what not to do with boys. |
[Jan. 25th, 2006|07:08 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | tear it up :: relationshit | ] |
because they obviously forgot to send me the "what not to do" when you are dating a boy booklet... i think i will write my own.
don't let them know they mean everything to you
don't let them see you cry
don't let them know they hurt you
don't let them think you can't find another
don't let them know you don't think you are pretty
don't let them know they make you weak in the knees.
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question?
why is it that you hurt me more than anyother, and i cant walk away from you? why do i keep coming back? why is it i feel like i cant live without you, but i know (because you show it) that you will be just fine without me?
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for the first time in a long time i wish i had a bottle of vodka and a clove,
bad me. i want to get out and try to forget ( you know like you... i want to take a page out of your book). i think i am getting weak.
((ashley))
im a great pretender at this game called love |
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| getting dumped fucking sucks. |
[Jan. 24th, 2006|08:43 pm] |
can get any more emo??
"my most famous mistake"
your name i will never forget, you will be my best kept secret, but my most famous mistake. i've never done to well on my own, don't worry babe, i'm not going home alone. your words left a stain, your left in my heart suffecating me from the inside out. im the girl you used to love before you grew up.
I'll keep smiling i'll continue to lie to myself, trying to convince myself Im not the desperate type. dont worry babe i'm not going home alone, i've never done to well on my own.
you didnt want me but you took me anyway, you chose music over love, and i tried to tell myself that that was okay. dont try to burry that away in your grave, youhave to kiss and tell.
there will be another girl, there will be friction in your sheets. you'll soon forget my name, and all i will be is another line in one of your songs...go ahead my love...steal a line... i hope you read along. im a hopeless romantic, but im not hopeless.
i'll keep telling myself that im not the desperate type.
.ash.
::im gay i know::
thats what happens to you when you get dumped.
(even though we are back together it still sucked) |
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| just a thought |
[Jan. 23rd, 2006|08:27 pm] |
wouldn't it be great to have a guy that would lay in bed all day long on a sunday and watch movies with.
and a boy to have mini picinics with the the backyard. and maybe go eat icecream with while watching the thunderstorms on the front porch.
i think all that stuff just happenes in fairy tales.
gay. |
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| freakin sweet. |
[Jan. 20th, 2006|08:54 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  chipper | ] |
| [ | music |
| | cocksparrer | ] |
Nothing is better than waking up at 7:30 thinking you missed the bus and then realize it in a PLAN B (foggy day) and school doesnt start until 10:30!
and to top it off listening to Cocksparrer and eating cherrios!
NOTHING.
peace it.
ash |
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