Save Tonight

_gently_weeps @ 2007-08-09T23:22:00

2007-08-10T03:35:34Z

What could I possibly say about this summer?
First off, it's been the "true teenage experience" that's for sure.

I made more friends than I have made the past two years combined. The thing is, they're not just 'friends' most of them have turned into my best friends ever. People I'm so glad I met.
I have had more freedom this summer than I ever have had in my life.
Because of that freedom, however, I've done somethings I could've never imagined myself doing.
The first summer of having my license, and although I don't actually have a car, have been able to drive pretty often.
I've experienced once in a lifetime experiences. From Costa Rica to late nights laying in the grass and star gazing.
Lost a few friends.
Spending a ton of money everyday on food. From Chikys in Costa Rica to cookout.
Done things I will never regret and grown in ways I could've never imagined.

I don't want to go back to NorthWest, it's served it's purpose in my life. My parents would be fine with me switching schools, the only thing is I have no idea where I would go. I'd rather stay at Northwest than go to North.

I know what I want in my life, I love that feeling. The only thing is I know I have two more years of highschool before it can all happen.

Nothing's worth the trouble of everyday life.

_gently_weeps @ 2007-07-30T21:26:00

2007-07-31T01:27:55Z

This summer has been about new experiences.
I love it.

I'm finally doing what I want to do!

_gently_weeps @ 2007-05-20T17:01:00

2007-05-20T21:02:20Z

Someone should tell me what to do.
Because, God knows I can't decide for myself.

Nothing to lose, so come what may.

_gently_weeps @ 2007-03-19T17:14:00

2007-03-19T21:14:47Z

I'm such a damn idiot.

_gently_weeps @ 2007-02-13T19:33:00

2007-02-14T00:35:51Z

So, Equus is a crazy hard play.

Really.
I think it's great that MaryGrace wanted to try to do it cause I think the message is amazing, but..
ooh man. As a classroom project? Litttttle bit of high expectations.

Ben helped me a bunch today.
I just have to do so much characterization.

Stupid Doctor Dysart.
So many damn liinneesssss!

Gahhh.

_gently_weeps @ 2007-01-26T18:16:00

2007-01-26T23:21:21Z

I adore my cast.
They're the funniest people in the world.

I can't imagine having more fun during a play, ever. Or just in general.
Tara is HALARIOUS.
Wesley is too, obviously. Taylor has opened up and I really enjoy his company.
Vondria is fun too but I don't get as much time to talk to her cause she's always on stage.
Avery is adorable, along with Amanda.
and Kayla.. never really talks. But, she seems nice.

Mr Mitchell is my favorite. I really love that man. hahah

I'm so worn out.
I've got so much on my mind.
I've got SOOO much memorizing to do for Mary-Grace's play.

I'm ttttttotally ready for this weekend to happen :) I got three movies, made some pasta, and am going to sleepppppp.

:)))

I'm quite happy.

_gently_weeps @ 2007-01-20T23:49:00

2007-01-21T04:49:16Z

I don't know what to do.

_gently_weeps @ 2007-01-07T12:05:00

2007-01-07T17:06:07Z

Because you told me you still read this:

I adore you ♥
In every possible way.

:)

_gently_weeps @ 2006-12-29T13:14:00

2006-12-29T18:14:14Z

I found Nate on facebook.

I started crying.

_gently_weeps @ 2006-12-14T15:47:00

2006-12-14T20:47:27Z

I got a part I got a part I got a part!

One of the.. two white girls?

:D
I'm happy.

Why I love Mr Mitchell:
"Thanks so much for auditioning but.. I hate you so I didn't cast you. Ok." haha
and then after he told me more about rehersals and what not he was like "I talked to Ms O'niell and told her I had cast you and she said 'oh I love Mahony' but I was like 'ew I hate her'. K go eat lunch now!"

hahaha

That man is crazy.

_gently_weeps @ 2006-12-09T11:40:00

2006-12-09T16:40:07Z

Yesterday was halarious.
I don't think I've laughed so hard in.. forever.

I mean. Really.
Basically, for 2 hours I was just laughing my head off. :)))
And because of that I lost my voice. haha

I love him
and I love his family. :P

_gently_weeps @ 2006-11-30T20:06:00

2006-12-01T01:06:44Z

I'm proud of myself.

For the theatre situation.
And I know that the scene could be so much funnier, but we did what we could. And HELL, I worked my ass off.
Mitchell finally realized that what I'm doing is challenging and he pulled me aside and thanked me for doing it and then told me I'd be "rewarded" what ever that means.
The only thing I'm upset about is that we won't be chosen to be watched by the Theatre Charlotte guy.

I always get stuck in that type of situation.
I'm too nice.

He's gotten his lines, for the most part, memorized but he never.. acts.
:\
I feel bad for him though, he tries. Because he tells me what he WANTS to do in the scene, but he just can't do it.
I don't know..
Just watching Victoria and Alex's scene and seeing how funny and awesome our scene could've been.. it was depressing.
And just because I don't make a big deal about it and cry all the fucking time when I don't get my way I'm stuck being the nice girl.
I guess I'm learning a lot more than I think I am. But, what's the point??

I'm sick of theatre.
I'm sick of chorus.
I'm sick of sculpture.

Why do I go to an arts school if I hate all my arts classes?!?
Really!

_gently_weeps @ 2006-11-25T14:06:00

2006-11-25T19:06:50Z

She left.

_gently_weeps @ 2006-11-20T10:50:00

2006-11-20T15:50:29Z

NCTC was lots of fun. Mitch and I just hung out while Jamie took over and did everything. ;) Sweet.

God was amzing. All the performances, although Saturday night's was definitely the best.

Danielle and Katie came over on Saturday night.
Then we had a goodbye party for the Gallaty's on Sunday.
Basically it was just Danielle, Katie, Brandon and I just hanging out in my basement (like always) but knowing it was one of the last times it was going to happen... yeah, that was tough.

I don't know.
I stayed home.
I'm worn out.
I'm sick.
I.. don't know precalc.

I want to download some songs, eat some shrimp fried rice, watch movies and drink tea.
Thank god I'll only have one day at school this week.

_gently_weeps @ 2006-11-12T00:07:00

2006-11-12T05:07:21Z

I can't do it.
I really can't.

These next two weeks will be unimaginable. :(
I don't know what I'm going to do.
I can't stop crying.

:(((
Fuuckkkk.

_gently_weeps @ 2006-10-31T02:47:00

2006-10-31T02:48:06Z

I hope you believe me.
:(

_gently_weeps @ 2006-10-25T18:02:00

2006-10-25T22:04:44Z

NY was amazing, as always.
It's where I belong, I miss living there. :(

Wicked was FUCKING AWESOME. I wish I could describe it, but I can't so.. haha.
My birthday was perfect. Except not being able to get into Fall Ball, but even then, it was still perfect. ♥ Thanks to everyone for all my amazing cards.

But, today I couldn't focus.
I love her so much.
I can't believe she's leaving.
She CAN'T leave.
Shit, I have NO idea what I'm going to do without her. She's my best friend. My life. My homeeeeeess.
They found out who is moving into her house, they're a young couple with little kids.
I'm not going to be able to work through this..

:((((

_gently_weeps @ 2006-10-13T23:50:00

2006-10-14T03:52:42Z

I miss Nate.

I'm going to try as harrrd as I can to see him next week in NYC.
But chances are, he'll be busy. :(

I miss him the most.
It's been over 3 years since I've seen him.
I love that boy.
I wonder what he even looks like now..

:///

_gently_weeps @ 2006-10-01T18:01:00

2006-10-01T22:02:18Z

"Goddamn you, You're a huge bitch"

But I'm sure it just slipped, she's a loving parent, right?

_gently_weeps @ 2006-09-28T21:28:00

2006-09-29T01:33:02Z

I say I don't like theatre anymore,

and then I go to theatre class.
♥

I can't explain how much I love it.
How talented everyone is.
It's just absolutely amazing.

I wish everyone in the school could see our Living Newspapers. Hell, I wish everyone in the WORLD could see them.
I don't think I've ever cried OR laughed so much watching any performances, EVER.
Everyone is so amazing and I'm so glad I can be a part of it.

Really, if you aren't in my theatre class, you missed out.
And if you are, YOU GUYS ARE ALL AMAZING.

Oh and P.S.
I'm a thespian.

So much for my anti-theatre deal.

_gently_weeps @ 2006-09-27T21:40:00

2006-09-28T01:44:56Z

My friends all hate me.
And for some reason, I'm ok with it.

The filtering process has gone through a tooooon
and I'm happy.
I like people I never thought I'd really know, and wish I was closer with a certain few people.
But.. I probably never will be, just because we're not exactly in the same 'group of friends' but fuck it man, I don't have a group of friends anymore.

I want to get to know all those people that I've thought were so cool and never really got to know. That's my goal. Seriously. I'm pathetic because I make that type of goal but those people that I never really talked to last year, THOSE are the people I want to spend all my time with.

I still hate girls a bunch.
But I hate guys almost equally as much right now.

I don't know, maybe I'm anti-human and should go hang out with like, pandas or something, but I feel fine.

I'm rockin' at tennis too. I smashed this kid today who thought he was all big shot. It made me feel so good about myself.
I don't want my play to start up, I don't like theatre anymore.

I'm not complaining because I'm the happiest I have been in forever.
Eh, maybe I'm just crazy.

_gently_weeps @ 2006-09-22T15:58:00

2006-09-22T20:04:07Z

I had an ammmmmazing day :))))))))

In spanish we just looked at pictures of Mrs Murray's trip to Spain. It wasn't the greatest but eh, the beginning of the day never really is.
Then English we just hung out in the blackbox the whole period and took school pictures and laughed at eachother. :) Much fun.
Theatre we did our skits. Or most of us did. I cried so hard during Kenzi's group. Ohhh my gosh. And the animal cruelty one was SO so so soo good. My goodddddddd.
In PreCalc we got to miss some of the class for the 10th grade party thing. Free food and drinks. Mm. That's what I like in life. :)
Then on the bus I acted crazy with Dasha and Zack and talked to Zoooyyyyy for the first time in a LONG time and we listened to our songs we used to sing allllll the time. Good memories.

OOOh OHHH OOHHHHHHHH
soooo my 16th birthday will be absolutely AAAMMMAAAZIINGGGGGG.

So, it's on a Friday, the Friday FALL BALL is on!! before a 4 day weekend and I'm going to NYCCCCCC

:) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)
I don't think it could be any more perfect.

Oohhh Im happyyyyyyyyyyy

_gently_weeps @ 2006-09-20T16:37:00

2006-09-20T20:37:41Z

Did Mr Jackson email anyone else, or just me?

Because if it was just me I feel reeeallllyyyy stupid. :(

_gently_weeps @ 2006-09-18T20:10:00

2006-09-19T00:10:43Z

I really should stop writing here.

_gently_weeps @ 2006-09-18T17:42:00

2006-09-18T21:44:55Z

Wow.
You REALLY don't take a hint do you?
I put up with a lot of your apathy but sometimes it just gets old.
Start paying attention.
Thanks.

Otherwise, I had an ok day.
:P
I like getting pizza from people.
And getting my water spilled all over me.
and spitting all over Katherine, but then getting spit on by her.

My friends are so mean to me. hahhaha. Katherine told Christian to just say "You win" so I'll stop talking! HAHAHAH.