Happy Freakin Thanksgiving

The plane ride was unbearable. I'm farrrrrrr too fat for those seats. Seriously, I could barely move. There were two grown men on either side of me, just to top it off I suppose. I had a stomache ache like I was gonna throw up and when I tried to sleep, my neck hurt cuz I'm too tall for the headrest.

I stood outside waiting for my dad's SUV to drive around. Didn't happen. I thought I saw it down a ways so I walked over there, and that wasn't it. So I tried to pay phone, cuz I forgot my cell, and the pay phone didn't take my quarters. I called the airport operator who basically told me I was SOL. I walked back to where I originally was, and I tried that payphone, which also didn't take my god damned defective quarters. Then I saw May's car. So I walked over... Pretty upset, might I add, cuz I thought they had forgotten me. And she goes off. She didn't even say hello. It was just "I've been here for over an hour" "Where have you been" "Why don't you have your cell phone"? Not having my cell is an inconvinience for me too, okay? God.

So on the car ride home, she asks about my mom's health, which I'm not too comfortable with so I'm like "She's okay". So she asks if I have fancy clothes, and I don't. She gets upset about that, and I'm like I called my dad to see if I needed any and he said no. And she was gonna surprise me with tickets to The Producers. Which sucks cuz I totally think that would have been fun, but oh well, they're there right now.... Which is how I found the time to cry uncontrollably and write in my LJ...... Anyway, she's like where's my heavy coat and I told her I don't have one. But she bought me one for my 17th birthday, but it's too big for me now. Well why didn't I tell me dad so he could have exchanged it? Because it's been a freakin year. Okay? So I'm like "I'm sorry, I'll take it to the tailor and have it fixed". And I'm like totally upset cuz May is always so sweet and nice. And whatever... So since I forgot my cell and a coat, she's like "God Sarah, did you forget your head too?"... And I turned away to keep from crying and she thought I was rolling my eyes or something.... Cuz that's what my dad scolded me for: rolling my eyes and not talking to May. I'm like he didn't even ask my side of the story.

And then I go upstairs to my room to try and calm down and he comes up and is like "Don't get an attitude with May", and I try to explain and he goes off about how I'm an adult now because I have peircings everywhere. I have my lip, tongue, and ears... Oh my goodness. But yeah, he won't let me explain and he's like "You need to apologize to May".

So I go to apologize to May and I'm like "I'm sorry if you thought I was mad at you. I'm not, I just get upset easily---" to which I get cut off, because she started accusing me of stuff again. I honestly can't remember it word for word cuz I was kind of shocked. It was about rolling my eyes and something. And I'm thinking I just apologized and I didn't even do anything wrong, and she's not apologizing back.... She's trying to make me feel worse. So I just kind of took it all, without defending myself, and she finally was like "Well we should get over it. We can be annoyed without being mad". And I still want my god damn "I'm sorry for saying you forgot your brain". Like that'll happen.

I feel like a blubbering fool. I haven't stopped crying since like... an hour and half. I tried to call David but his cell isn't on. I need a friendly voice.

Actually I really need a hug. Lots of hugs. I want a hug and to see my puppy and to go to improv club.

(Don't say anything bad about May, it won't make me feel better)