| Tuesday, August 8th, 2006 |
| 12:20 pm |
how many tiems do i have to screw up friendships? i thought i could trust my friend molly with a secret and then she goes on and acts like she doesnt believe me. it hurts and yeah, it hurts. i wish kelsey was here so i could talk to her..... Current Mood:  crappy |
| Saturday, July 22nd, 2006 |
| 9:11 pm |
| You Are Ernie | 
Playful and childlike, you are everyone's favorite friend - even if your goofy antics get annoying at times.
You are usually feeling: Amused - you are very easily entertained
You are famous for: Always making people smile. From your silly songs to your wild pranks, you keep things fun.
How you life your life: With ease. Life is only difficult when your friends won't play with you! |
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| Tuesday, July 11th, 2006 |
| 2:53 pm |
camp was A-W-E-S-O-M-E !!!!!! i loved it and it was great seeing old friends. vbs is draining me, even though its only the second day. and the guys kept getting me wet with water balloons and those water pump things. ugh! more of it tomorrow. oh well- it's really not all that bad and i love those little kids. Current Mood:  blank |
| Friday, June 30th, 2006 |
| 11:41 am |
camp is tomorrow and i cant wait. i think i'm going to go crazy waiting. and the funny thing is..... i haven't even started packing yet! (lol) so i might want to start that right away. laters. Current Mood:  giddy |
| Sunday, June 18th, 2006 |
| 2:57 am |
been having this really bad nightmare tonight. i'm walking down the street and its dark and cold and kinda foggy. well out of the shadows walks a younger version of chase. he walks up to me and say hi. i ask him is his name. he says chase. i ask him how old he is. he says 17. i'm just about to ask him his last name when a gunshot sounds and he drops dead to the pavement. i look up in time to see molly run off. I wake up shaking and crying. idk why im having this dream but i wish it would stop. i'm going to go and try to sleep again. Current Mood:  drained |
| Monday, June 12th, 2006 |
| 5:29 pm |
last night i was scared out of my wits. joey delquadrai showed up and of the memories from a few years ago came flooding back and i've been running from them forever. i panicked and ran to the soundroom and hid there where i knew i would be safe. he left after about 10 minutes but i'm still shaken. Current Mood:  scared |
| Monday, June 5th, 2006 |
| 2:57 pm |
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME !!!!!!!!!!! ONLY 2 MORE DAYS UNTIL I TURN 15. YYYYYYEEEEEEAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!! I CAN'T WAIT AND I'M GOING CRAZY. Current Mood:  crazy |
| Friday, May 12th, 2006 |
| 6:58 pm |
hey bloggers. well, love is the real deal- i think. i'm 99.9% sure though. idk what it is about him but he makes me feel so special. i can't explain it but it's a good thing. (lol) Current Mood:  loved |
| Friday, April 7th, 2006 |
| 3:38 pm |
Aloha all you bloggers. everyday since winterfest has held something interesting or cruel. my emotions are confusing- even to me ans i have no idea what in the world i'm going to do about them or how to get them under control. but, i haven't let that put a dampen on my spring vacation. besides i'm not going to let life get me down. i'm tired of doing that and i'm going to stop once and for all. so.... i guess that would mean i've turned over a new leaf. we're going to go play some ball at the park now. ~aloha~ Chelsea Current Mood:  energetic |
| Wednesday, March 8th, 2006 |
| 5:20 pm |
Carpaydeim/seize the day/kill the dog/aight
hey bloggers. back from winterfest. oh my. talk about a blessing and everyone liked our performances. all these people kept coming up to us saying good stuff about us and we don't think we earned that kind of enthusiasm. there was only one thing missing- scott & Jenny. the weather was great, i actually wore my sunglasses all day long! Tree63 was phanominal! i got to meet them, they signed a pic of them and mom got a picture of us together. i was like YES!!!! (lol) anyways the phrase above is simply latin for seize the day, english for seize the day, get rid of your past, and chocolate church. (it's all right slammed together) well, gotta get ready for youth group. laters. ~Peace and love~ Chelsea Current Mood:  sick |
| Monday, February 27th, 2006 |
| 3:47 pm |
Gold meadal winner in the loser olympics
hey bloggers. my life's going downhill- once again. found out my friend, Trevor thinks my other friend, Erica, is annoying and won't tell her. she broke down and cried today at lunch today. what could i do? God sure throws me some pretty confusing turns. i'm barely able to scramble over one and another one comes to replace it. i also ticked off my friend Kirstein because i sat where she wanted to sit. man. what is up with me and disaster? winterfest on friday and i still haven't packed. (lol) spent like three hours on sunday helping gary clean the youthgroup. that was soooooo gross! you should've seen the mop! me and bryan rearranged the funiture. hope everyone likes it! well, I'm gonna go and do something. Laters! =-) Current Mood:  moody |
| Saturday, February 4th, 2006 |
| 10:51 am |
i don't know what i'm thinking anymore
hey all you bloggers. well- God has thrown me yet another curve to get through. mom lost her job yesterday. another grand thing to add on top of scott&jenny leaving for ohio and my usual worries. there's but one good piece of news in all of this- mom's coming to Winterfest! i can't wait till then. it's only like a month away. AAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! anywyas, i'm gonna go eat breakfast. just be keeping mom in your prayers. i'll leave you off with a poem i wrote for scott& jenny as they weny away. AS THE SUN RISES The sun rises in the clear sky, a new day has begun. Another day of grief as we struggle to relize that you are gone and won't be there. We took you for granted, thinking that you would never leave. We got attached and the pain is almost to great to bear. I know that this poem sounds sad but it's not meant to be. Though we will always love you and miss you greatly, it's all in God's hands. He wants you to go- so you go. We will very slowly heal and become happy again. We still have God to comfort us. The sun sets, turning the sky a romantic pink. Setting on the acts of the day and on our sadness. Tomorrow's another day. Another dday without you and your guidance. We don't know how, but God knows what he's doing. Current Mood:  crushed |
| Monday, January 23rd, 2006 |
| 7:07 pm |
My heart and soul weep with sorrow
hey all you bloggers. life is sad and confusing yet again. it's jsut one big viscious cycle. if you haven't heard- scott and jenny are leaving fo rohio next week. we found out yesterday and man, the news still stings and it hurts to think of it. i'm sooooo sad but i'm trying to keep my chin up and be strong for the others in the youth group. winterfest is looking bleak. Very, very, very bleak. but- the show must go on. we'll all start like bawling in the middle of the dance on sunday. well i gotta go check out my myspace. laters my friends. Keep up your heads and put on a happy face. Current Mood: sad |
| Saturday, January 21st, 2006 |
| 7:41 pm |
hey how yall' doing? stressed out at the moment. the usual teenage worries. school, love, zits/pimples, parents, the usual. i haven't written for a while. how are you peoplpe? just spent like a hour and a half on myspace chatting to my friends from school and a friend from the bowling team. they are sooooo cool. and i put in fiend requests. la la la.... i'm hungry. so, i'll see you all tomorrow. oh and i didn't get my hair cut yet. mom's being stubborn. ttyl. Current Mood: crappy |
| Saturday, December 31st, 2005 |
| 3:30 am |
The shadows of my past are starting to reappear in the day light instead of living in the night. Ugly and distorted, they raise their heads and it all comes flooding back. I run with all of my might to try to forget the pains of my dark past. I hide it from the rest of the world and I use my faith as a shield. I'm ashamed and not proud of the actions I take to rid myself of the skeletons in my closets. They chase me through the dark of my sleepless night. The nightmares haunt me during the day when my heart aches and my stomach quivers. The world would be better off without my sin and torment. My friends would be better off and so I say Good-bye. At least for now. |
| 1:48 am |
my mind is restless
it's now almost 2:00 am. i gotta stay here another day cuz the dumb weather is interfering. thoughts from my past keep flooding and attcking my mind. i'm gonna go insane. i wish molly,kelsey,and zach were here with me so i can hug them with everything i've got inside of me. i love them all sooooooo much and i don't want to cause them any pain. i'm wide awake and can't seem to get sleepy. i'm afraid to go to sleep because the nightmares will come back again. my past is attacking me and i can't get away. Current Mood: scared |
| Friday, December 30th, 2005 |
| 6:45 pm |
well, i guess people liked the poem i wrote yesterday. i feel pleased. iced christmas cookies today. watched march of the penguins last night. that was the saddest movie ever! i'm coming home tomorrow and i have no idea what i will do when i get there. i think i might go shopping at the mall, specifically American eagle. i've been watching the law and order: SVU marathon all day long. i think dad's playing call of duty on his x-box. i can hear the people screaming. i've been really sluggish lately and i don't know why. Here is part two in my series of poems from the soul. (i'm working on a better title for them.) My mind is pushing thoughts around like a merry- go round. It goes in a circle - a visious cycle which goes on for days. Who knows when it will end, but I wish it would just go away. My head aches and my eyes burn as I waste all of the energy I never have to fight off the images and ideas in my mind. They haunt and torture me as I fight to escape. Will anyone come save me? Does anyone care? Until someone finds me, I will suffer in silence. I'll act like I just don't care. Current Mood:  dorky |
| Thursday, December 29th, 2005 |
| 8:54 pm |
well, we went bowling yesterday and i totally kicked will's butt! then we watched christmas with the kranks and sahara. both good movies. will went home today(sniff,sniff) and angela is currently baby-sitting next door. found out shelby may be alergic to- get this- CARPET! wierd, huh? she has these funny bumps all over her knees, hands, elbows, and the back of her legs. i made christmas cookies today adn they are currently frosting them. i'm gonna leave ya with a poem i wrote the other night when i couldn't sleep. I sit here and babble about nothing at all, lacking in imagination or concentration. The thoughts inside my head go round and round- not knowing where to go. My emotions whirl inside me like a tornado that can't escape, and yet there's a certain peace and calmness throughout my soul. I'm awake but yet I'm sleeping- I live in a dream- like state. Although I don't know how long this will last, it helps me escape in alot more ways than one. Freedom is what it's all about. Current Mood:  cold |
| Tuesday, December 27th, 2005 |
| 9:10 pm |
My stress level = all time high
today shelby was being miss drama queen. me and will have been snapping at each other all day long. at least we are going bowling tomorrow. i can take my stress out on the bowling pins! lol. then we're (me,sharon,and angela) gonna get ourselves lost in the mall at belevue square on either thursday or friday. that'll be fun. i haven't really had any bonding time with angela even though we are the closest of age. well- will's only four months behind me but he sure doesn't act like it. although, he's smarter than zach and them. lol. i'm gonna go and find out what apple fritters taste like. until tomorrow or whenever. Current Mood:  stressed |
| Monday, December 26th, 2005 |
| 6:57 pm |
Scared to death
Anyone ever been followed by thugs looking for trouble? well- it explains itself about what happened today. They were threatning Angela's boyfriend and followed Will to the store across the street. Dad went and talked to them and said if they ever did anything to them again, that they will be charged with harrasment. I went with Will to the store and i was scared to death. but- they never showed up. thank heavens. I got the coolest stuff. Let's see. I got a scarf, shirt, stuffed monkey, popcorn, and these cool little keychain things. no bowling shoes, though. *sigh* i really wanted those this year. Angela went snowboarding with her boyfriend, sterling(kinda funny- huh?) and won't be back until Wednesday. Well- i don't know what else to say.(for once)LOL. TTYL Current Mood: distressed |
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