Just a Little Curious
And what's there has been spent in the lab downstairs, or trips back and forth to the house that was Buffy's, but now's so empty it hurts in a way Fred didn't plan, or working on her computer. Fred's time has ben so taken and twisted she doesn't really know what hour it is anymore...only that it is late. And jet lag isn't her friend. She tries laying down, but Fred's legs still feels like they are swaying, even when they aren't moving at all. So she sits up and lets them do what they want anyways.
And still thinks about Buffy's house, empty and alone. All of those things, waiting for her to come back. All of those friends, waiting for her to come home. It's like the space that Fred couldn't see in her own life has opened up right in front of her, in someone elses. And they're here, everything that truely matters is still here. All Fred's really left or lost are silly, silent things, and suddenly the seld awareness appears. She's been spinning a bit, maybe more than anyone really saw, but spinning none the less. Waiting to be pulled back or rescused, for someone or anyone to come and save her. To take her home.
Only this is home.
Just like that's Buffy's home. With her rooms and her things and her friends. Her baby... Fred's home had gone and packed up and moved right underneath her feet, maybe even more she even saw it was gone. But Buffy's hadn't, and she was going to make sure it was still there when she came back. And...and that she came back.
Somewhere in all that thinking Fred makes her way downstairs, silently slipping the whole way. And of all things she finds the beer, lined up in the neat little rows. Well, not so little rows. At first it's just one of the bottles, it's dark amber colored glass just like the one her Dad would sip from on the porch on some nameless Saturday afternoon. So she opens and drinks the whole of it, and sits right there with him the all of the while. In her head she tells him countless, unordered and meaningless things. And then the kitchen is her lab, a liberated place to taste and see and be a part of welcoming Fred back to herself. It's all very organised at first, some bottles followed through. Some tasted and discarded.
Some good, some not.
Some right for her, others not at all.
But the whole of it...welcomed.
With progressingly less steady feet and arms.