this never meant to hurt....

so i lied about posting everyday...

Tue, 06 Jan 2009 03:57:38 GMT

but i swear i'll do it more often...

maybe....

once i get all my work done i will!

back at school...

Wed, 01 Oct 2008 02:43:03 GMT

i feel like i need to start writing again. and not just here and there, but every day or at least every other day? I don't know. I think it will be good!

I'm back at school...been here for about 5 weeks now... I'm doing really well out here actually. I'm surrounding myself with amazing people that really care about me and just want to have fun with me. I've met new people who are awesome and also reestablished some relationships that weren't as strong as they should've been. I've been going out a lot lately though and having a lot of fun, but i also really need to concentrate on my schoolwork as this is my last year here! I can't believe this is it...it came soooo fast! Ah!!

I've taken on a new outlook on life as well...I feel a lot more laid back than I used to be...and probably a little less crazy haha.. I was told by multiple people to read/watch the secret and it's really helped me think differently about most everything in life. I just know now that everything happens for a reason and nothing happens by chance. I also learned to think more positively and to stop being a pessimist! I've been more in tune with a lot of the energy around me too...as strange as that sounds...but honestly...everyone has energy that they emit and the world is full of different energies from other sources...and being more aware of those energies and vibes just makes life so much more enjoyable and almost invigorating. I don't know how to explain the things i've been feeling and understanding lately...they just exist and make sense to me.

In addition to understanding my surroundings and everything happening around me, I'm trying to find myself lately...i dont know how well that's going..

i really need to study though...
more later.
promiseee

Sun, 21 Jan 2007 14:31:45 GMT

i'm sitting here and wishing....

wishing that maybe in a few days
you'll realize that you just can't be without me...

and i'm wishing that you'll call
crying and confessing your undying love for me...

and i'm wishing that you'll take me back
and that you dont hate me
and that everything is going to be okay
and that i can stop crying because we'll be together again
and.... i hope you're wishing these things too

but the part that makes me want to die
and never see daylight again....

is that i know you're not.

Fri, 28 Jul 2006 17:44:05 GMT

Dan's band is playing with Atreyu on August 2nd at Mark's Showplace (a strip club in Bedford, NH)! Anyone who has a ticket to Locobazooka can get into this show for FREE! So come and support Fractured Silence! Thank you! The end!

Thu, 27 Jul 2006 16:23:02 GMT

soo.... dan and i, along with my parents, are going to see wayne newton.
and i think that's hilarious

summmmmer

Wed, 14 Jun 2006 13:27:53 GMT

i'm home, but i've been here for a couple of weeks now...
i still dont have a job and that suckssss....but i'm going to talk to a photographer today that may be looking for an assistant and i'm hoping that i'll be able to get some experience with her and/or put some of the skills that i learned this year to good use. dan's mom offered me a job at the firehall and i'm going to take it, but i dont start there until tomorrow. so hopefully between the two of those options, i'll be able to make some money this summer so i can stop mooching off my parents and dan! ahh! i need money! and then, to top it off, i got in a car accident like right after i got home. my car is still driveable, but anyone who knows my car knows that it sucked before it got hit, so you can only imagine how it is now... blah! but i got a check from the girl's insurance company and hopefully i'll be able to get a new car soon! ah! summer is crazy and i'm bored during the day with dan being at work and all... sooo anyone who wants to hang out in the morningish time, calllll me! the end!

Tue, 16 May 2006 03:34:45 GMT

i've still got a week left of classes.. .and then finals. this sucks. everyone is already home and i'm still stuck here! argh! thankfully I dont have too much more work to do. I just need to print out 9 more pictures and mat them for photo...but i think we're getting an essay to write tomorrow.. yuck. then i have another final for western art and architecture next thursday and then i'm done! and i can come home!!! which is very very exciting!
but a bad thing happened... my phone broke in half haha. i dropped it on the ground for the millionth time and it just gave up and snapped. the top part that flips down was hanging on by the electrical connection, but that just snapped. so now my phone is just a little thing with send, end, and 9 numbers. i had to buy a headset so i could actually hear people when they talk to me. hopefully i'll be getting a new phone soon! thats all for nowww!

Mon, 01 May 2006 16:08:27 GMT

sooo... saturday night i was hypnotized. and it was fuckin weirrdddd. that's all i have to say.

and yes, it DID work.

Sat, 29 Apr 2006 18:19:15 GMT

my mom and i just decided...
that we're going to start a new business.
instead of ice cream trucks for kids, we're going to have frozen drinks/cocktail trucks for housewives during the hot summer days. Aside from the whole not being able to drive with open alcohol in the vehicle, i'd say its a winner! the end!

meow meow meowww. i'm bored

Tue, 11 Apr 2006 16:50:33 GMT

+ danny is coming to visit in 9 days (for 4ish days)
+ i made the dean's list for fall and winter quarter
+ today is my half birthday
+ my mom sent me a half birthday cookie cake
+ sunday is easter!
+ steph came to visit last weekend
+ steph might come here next year!

- i won't be home for easter (for the first timee)
- i dont know where i'm going to work over the summer
- i have four pictures due on friday
- i have an exam on thursday
- someone stole my portfolio so now i need to buy new paper and a ruler
- yesterday was a shitty day

but today its really nice outttt! so i'm going to go lay outside in the grass and get my work done!

Wed, 15 Mar 2006 17:51:54 GMT

DANNY IS COMING TO VISITTTT!!!!!!!! EEEEEEEEEEE!!!! YAY!

Nicole, Diana and I played with my voice recognition thing-a-ma-bobby... This is what it THOUGHT we said.....

Sun, 26 Feb 2006 21:40:13 GMT

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ok. long overdue post time.

Fri, 24 Feb 2006 15:21:50 GMT

so the quarter is almost done... I just have to write a paper for monday, and take an exam on thursday and then i can go home for a week and just relax!
I just finished my final 2d project and it's fucking amazing. We had to do an autobiographical piece and I really just love how it came out. If i dont get an A on it, someones going to die! THE END!

Also... I was bored and I just figured out that I've been stuck with my period for approximately 500 days out of my life so far! thats fucking ridiculous!
And then I figured out that on this date, dan and i have been going out for 492 days! not as long as my period. that bitch!!!
ARGH!

so yah. thats all.
have a nice day.

Mon, 13 Feb 2006 20:38:38 GMT

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Sat, 14 Jan 2006 17:35:41 GMT

I havent written in here in a while...
but i have a story worth sharing i guess...

Rochester, NY has one of the highest snowfall amounts every year...(We're very close to Buffalo...)
However, yesterday, the actual high was 63 degrees here.
we were walking outside eating ice cream, not wearing jackets or any winter clothing...
Last night it got so hot in my room that i was like geez! i need to open my window!

I woke this morning to the wind howling and i noticed that i was a little chilly....
I looked out my window and low-and-behold! There's a blizzard!
There's literally snow flying into my window!

AH! What season is it???

ATTENTION! ATTENTION! ATTENTION!

Wed, 14 Dec 2005 19:13:54 GMT

i'll be home in THREE days.
AAAAHHH! YES!
I cannot WAIT!
i can't wait for xmas!

p.s.
if any of you would like a print from me for xmas, tell me now and tell me which picture you want (i've posted most of the ones that i have to offer....) I'm going to be printing on friday and i dont have any assignments due, so i guess i'll just be printing for funnn! and i only have 2 pictures that i know i'm going to print... so i need more! because i'll be printing for FOUR hours! so tell me! NOW! you have until FRIDAY MORNING to tell me! the end!

so i'm glad i'll be going home.
i have a lot of shit to do here before then, but its all good.. tonight i really need to study for my western art exam that i have tomorrow, but it shouldnt be TOO difficult. I also have to draw some things for 2D and that shouldnt be too hard either... cuz its just like rough outline sketches that have to be 11 x 17. lalala

i just need a break though.
i'm worn out.
ugh. get me home now!

editorial portraits + update

Sat, 03 Dec 2005 00:21:06 GMT

i did really well on my first quarter here :-)
my overall gpa was a 3.75 which is pretty sweeeeet!

these are the latest photos i developed... they're supposed to be editorial portraits of my mom and dad.
tell me what you think :-)

Sun, 20 Nov 2005 18:19:50 GMT

I'm homeeee for the weeek!!
come visit me or call me or something :-D!!!

Sat, 12 Nov 2005 04:24:03 GMT

i totally just finished my most amazing project everrr. its fucking sweet and its not due until tuesday, but its DONE. and that feels SOOO good!
so i definitely KNOW that i won't be up until 3 am on monday night, scrambling to finish it!
its for 2D design...and its just amazing. i'm proud of myself and you should be proud too :-D
wow, i just feel goood

please, no one ruin this...

p.s. Next week is finals week here at RIT. Our system runs in quarterly sections, so it's now the end of quarter one. I figured that next week i would be cramming for a million tests and staying up til 5am working on projects and everything.... But no. I dont have history (though we did just have an exam on wednesday, and i have to find out that grade on monday.... eeeek!) for 2D we're having a small quiz and we're turning in that project that i just finished, for some reason we never took a photo final or had a final project.... then in FYE we just have to go to this little event on monday night... but then on THURSDAY i have an exam in Survey of Western Art and Architecture.... so it sucks that i have to stay until thursday. :-( but this week is going to be sooooo easy and soooooo relaxing... ahhhhh

Wed, 09 Nov 2005 05:05:04 GMT

i dont like myself.
and i never will.

because i'm a horrible person
and somebody let's me know that everyday in some way, shape, or form.
even if i'm feeling better one day, there's always at least one person that let's me know that i CAN'T feel better. i CAN'T feel good.

simply because i don't deserve it.

new picturesss

Wed, 09 Nov 2005 00:26:18 GMT

the first two i took (as a studio assignment). the last one is one of me that a girl from my class took....

updating.

Wed, 02 Nov 2005 01:30:24 GMT

my internet was broken last night...i fixed it this afternoon though, thanks to the wonderful help of ITS at my techy school...

also, we've had a very interesting issue with lady bugs in our room lately....they are creeping in through the window and its rather scary. but today a big black lady named Juanita Jackson (no lie!) and a scrawny black man came with a vacuum cleaner and sucked away all the lady bugs! so they are no more! YAY! (except for a small cluster living in the corner of my window...but oh well.. at least they arent flying above my head while i sleep like last night!)

i got to see how my picture came out from the studio portraits we did... i'm not sure if i like this one... but its okayyyy.....

Sun, 30 Oct 2005 00:51:36 GMT

i feel like i'm going to pass out or something...
my head feels really hot
and i'm all... discombobulated
ugh.
why is my head so hottttt?

lets just say that i got lucky :-)

Wed, 26 Oct 2005 11:31:25 GMT

so this morning, all freshman had to be up before 6am to get on to SIS to register for classes.
i sat at my computer and used the tricky text-bases VAX system, which took forever to log on, while i also kept hitting redial on the phone and refresh on my browser.
FINALLY the VAX let me on! i was like WOO HOO!!!! so i registered for all the classes i wanted (and needed)
writing, 2d, FYE, photo, west art + architecture and massage!!!

this is sweet :-)
everyone on my floor used my computer to register because i kept the system up for so long.
i just logged out of it now, an hour and a half after i initially logged in!
it was tough seeing everyone suffer because all the courses were closed after 7, but i was lucky!
yay! hooray for lucky me!

Tue, 25 Oct 2005 18:06:15 GMT

this weekend was soooooooooooooooooo awesome. it was perfect. I visited my Danny boy and we had the best time. It was so good seeing him and everyone. I love that boy! mmmhm!

but... downside of this weekend----- i think i caught a cold somewhere along the line. i didnt go to class today because i didnt feel good and because i didnt finish this project that was due today... the project is almost done though and i plan on turning it in right before i go to class at 4. hopefully thats not a problem. i'll just explain my situation to her. but... i just learned that diana has strep throat. she's had it for a week, but the doctor failed to tell her.... weird. so i think that the combination of her being sick, and dan being sort of congested has made me sick. the end!
but i will get better!
soon! YES!