the Annalog

Because YOLO

2012-10-02T17:50:22Z

I bought hot pink skinny jeans today on a total impulse. Currently, this will be the most ridiculous thing I have in my wardrobe. I have no regrets. NO REGRETS.

_fortuna_ @ 2012-08-01T10:59:00

2012-08-01T14:59:49Z

You know, as unimportant as it is in the grand scheme of things I must say this - I feel really awful for Kristen Stewart. She's pretty much being dragged over the coals by the media, who are gleefully pointing out that she's lost her friends and is miserable. It's really unfair that that poor girl (who yeah, made a mistake but is also like 21) does something stupid (WITH ANOTHER, MUCH OLDER PERSON) and has to take the fall for it.

I really hate that women take the brunt of the blame and anger when it comes to infidelity. The "Other Woman" concept is brutal. Anyways, that is all, I feel bad for her.

_fortuna_ @ 2012-04-13T14:58:00

2012-04-13T18:58:45Z

I am attempting to be somewhat graceful and not terrify my partner - BUT I AM THE MOST BABY CRAZY I'VE EVER BEEN

One more year later

2011-07-09T23:46:07Z

[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars.
[ ] I tan easily.
[ ] I wish my hair was a different color.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[ ] I've glued my hand to something
[x] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[x]I've had my pants rip in public

Health

[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[x] I've gotten stitches.
[x] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[x] I've sat in a doctors office with a friend.
[x] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.

Traveling

[x]I've driven over 200 miles in one day. (Well, sort of, I wasn't the driver.)
[x]I've been on a plane.
[x] I've been to Canada.
[x] I've been to Mexico.
[x] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[x] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.

Experiences

[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star.
[x] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[ x I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[x] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[x] I've gone skinny dipping.
[x] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[ ]I've been Skiing
[x] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've met someone in person from the internet.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[x] I've seen the Northern Lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[x] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[x] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten Sushi.
[ ]I've been snowboarding.

Relationships

[ ] I'm single.
[x] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[x] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[ ] I have a fear of abandonment.
[x] I've cheated in a relationship.
[x] I've gotten divorced
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality

[ ] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex
[x] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[x] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[x] I have kissed a stranger. (He really wanted to celebrate that soccer goal)

Honesty/Crime

[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[x] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[x] I've witnessed a crime.
[x] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.
[ ] I've shoplifted.

Drugs/Alcohol

[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[x] I regularly drink.
[ ] I've passed out from drinking.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[x] I've smoked weed
[x] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ x I've eaten shrooms.
[ ]I've popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[x] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[ ] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[ ] I'm addicted to self harm.
[ ] I've woken up crying.

Death and Suicide

[ ] I'm afraid of dying.
[ ] I hate funerals.
[x] I've seen someone dying.
[x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[ ] I've planned my own suicide.
[ ] I've attempted suicide.
[x] I've written a eulogy for myself.

Materialism

[x] I own over 5 rap CDs. (Yeah, deal with it)
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic.
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[x] I collect comic books. (erm, graphic novels)
[x] I own something from The Gap.
[x] I own something I got on e-bay.
[x] I own something from Abercrombie.

Random

[xI can sing.
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[ ] I open up to others easily.
[x] I watch the news.
[x] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[x] I curse regularly.
[x] I sing in the shower.
[x] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[x] I'm a snob about grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[x] I twirl my hair
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name (Roller Queen was taken, so I'm Roller Queen x)
[ ] I love being neat
[ ] I love Spam
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[x] I bake well.
[ ] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue
[x] I would wear pajamas to school.
[x] I like Martha Stewart.
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun.
[x] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[x] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I love white chocolate
[x] I bite my nails.
[x] I play video games.
[x] I'm good at remembering faces.
[x] I'm good at remembering names
[x] I'm good at remembering dates.
[ ] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.

[x] My answers are totally honest.

Moving Time!!!

2010-09-01T15:17:42Z

So my area of Toronto is terrifying. I think I have proven my street-tough attitude enough, so it's time to run away. Yesterday I saw a man in front of my apartment having sex with a tree. Oh sweet lord jesus.
I'm also moving in with James and Nyree, so who could possibly not be extremely happy?
Am psyched enough about future living arrangements that I'm not spending each moment dreaming of the east coast. Yay!!

One Year Later

2010-06-06T03:46:34Z

[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars.
[ ] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[ ] I've glued my hand to something
[x] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[x]I've had my pants rip in public

Health

[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[x] I've gotten stitches.
[x] I've broken a bone.
[x] I've had my tonsils removed.
[x] I've sat in a doctors office with a friend.
[x] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.

Traveling

[x]I've driven over 200 miles in one day. (Well, sort of, I wasn't the driver.)
[x]I've been on a plane.
[x] I've been to Canada.
[x] I've been to Mexico.
[x] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[x] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.

Experiences

[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star.
[x] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[ x I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[x] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[x] I've gone skinny dipping.
[x] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[ ]I've been Skiing
[x] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've met someone in person from the internet.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[x] I've seen the Northern Lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[x] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[x] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten Sushi.
[ ]I've been snowboarding.

Relationships

[x] I'm single.
[x] I'm in a relationship. (go team complicated!)
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[x] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[ ] I have a fear of abandonment.
[x] I've cheated in a relationship.
[x] I've gotten divorced
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality

[ ] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex
[x] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[x] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[x] I have kissed a stranger. (He really wanted to celebrate that soccer goal)

Honesty/Crime

[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[x] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[x] I've witnessed a crime.
[x] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.
[ ] I've shoplifted.

Drugs/Alcohol

[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I regularly drink.
[ ] I've passed out from drinking.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[x] I've smoked weed
[ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ]I've popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[x] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[x] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[x] I've hurt myself on purpose. (I guess it goes with the ED answer)
[ ] I'm addicted to self harm.
[ ] I've woken up crying.

Death and Suicide

[ ] I'm afraid of dying.
[ ] I hate funerals.
[x] I've seen someone dying.
[x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[ ] I've planned my own suicide.
[ ] I've attempted suicide.
[x] I've written a eulogy for myself.

Materialism

[x] I own over 5 rap CDs. (Yeah, deal with it)
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic.
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[x] I collect comic books. (erm, graphic novels)
[x] I own something from The Gap.
[x] I own something I got on e-bay.
[x] I own something from Abercrombie.

Random

[xI can sing.
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[ ] I open up to others easily.
[x] I watch the news.
[x] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[x] I curse regularly.
[x] I sing in the shower.
[x] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[x] I'm a snob about grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[x] I twirl my hair
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name (Roller Queen was taken, so I'm Roller Queen x)
[ ] I love being neat
[ ] I love Spam
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[x] I bake well.
[ ] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue
[x] I would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun.
[ ] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[x] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I love white chocolate
[x] I bite my nails.
[x] I play video games.
[x] I'm good at remembering faces.
[x] I'm good at remembering names
[x] I'm good at remembering dates.
[ ] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.

[x] My answers are totally honest.

Teh Boy

2010-06-02T02:16:22Z

....is awesome.
But oh so far away. Making a relationship sort of out of the question. But we are pretty much in constant contact. Makes it sort of complicated.
I am oh so good at finding far away boys, aren't I?
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

_fortuna_ @ 2010-03-29T12:35:00

2010-03-29T16:35:43Z

I kind of love the soundtrack from the movie Sunshine, it's great to listen to when one is arting. (Which is what we call creating art in the buisness)

_fortuna_ @ 2010-02-26T23:34:00

2010-02-27T04:34:14Z

I think I am going to change my name to Josephine W Quigley. Thoughts?

Anna vs. Cooked Food

2009-09-26T02:59:04Z

Today was so much easier, especially with the purchase of some lovely sea vegetables. Also the discovery of soaking cashews before throwing them into a blender made for quite the yummy dinner. 5 days left!

You know what's awesome? Cooked foods.

2009-09-25T03:12:19Z

So today was the first full day of being a raw foodist. Magic. I actually awoke from a dream and woke up to realize I had been dreaming about a big bowl of rice.
It's really for the best though, I think I need to work through an extreme and difficult change to my diet to really respect what I will be asking of clients when I tell them to change their diet. It's pretty much changing the way you live.
It's also mad how your mind sabotages you into thinking that you need what you aren't getting. This morning for example I felt deprived of something while I was eating breakfast. But, I don't eat breakfast normally. Or, I normally eat salads for lunch, but it felt like some big deal chore today. Ridiculous. The raw girl I know says that normally you wouldn't go cold turkey like this, and after the three day mark it will be easier.
I've never been really one to diet before, so maybe this is why I am so ill-prepared to deal with this.
Also I'm trying to get into the fermented food thing, but again my brain is saying, "Um Anna, remember how we don't eat spoiled food?"

The Raw Extreme

2009-09-24T03:18:36Z

So I am giving the whole raw foods thing a try. Not forever, but I kind of just want to give it a try.

Things I Hate

2009-05-02T22:30:41Z

1- People who use the word "chesticles" instead of breasts.
2- Brazil nuts.
3- Late buses.
4- Those double SUV strollers.
5- People who don't wipe down gym equipment.
6- People who try to friend me on facebook when we would not speak if we ran into each other on the street.
7-People who use the word "detox" or "cleanse" instead of diet.
8- Things that make my hands sticky.
9- The horrific yuppie/hippie hybrid that makes up the population of Vancouver.
10-People who abuse spandex and leggings. They are a privilege, not a right.
11- Douchebag frat boys who walk around quoting that show "Entourage"
12- People who are walking around in those surgical flu masks.
13- People who still think adding "That's what she said" to statements is still relevant and funny.
14- That show "Grey's Anatomy".
15- 98% of the customers at the store.

Anna and Carbs; a Love Story

2008-12-16T07:29:49Z

Guys, I tried to cut out carbs and made it like a day.

_fortuna_ @ 2008-11-14T22:02:00

2008-11-15T06:04:24Z

Alright peoples who know Conor/ created folks
Anyone have a good, cheap way to celebrate an (minor) anniversary? I want to do something memorable but not over the top and I'm really drawing a blank

Less than 2 weeks to go

2008-08-14T18:32:14Z

I can't believe how soon the trek to Vancouver is.
I'm so excited! We have a beautiful place to stay for a couple months until we get our own place, there's a room mate and she seems very lovely. Obviously I'm looking forward to Conor and I having space that it just ours again, but it's nice to have something that's certain.
I find myself overly romancing this area though. It's going to be bittersweet to leave.
Kingston is a beautiful city, and will always hold a special place in my heart, but I am so ready to leave it. I will miss the people. Not just in Kingston, but friends in other Ontario cities as well. I suppose it's a bit of comfort that I will probably see them the same amount I did previously.
I really know now that I need to stay firm with myself about school. I need to pay off my loan, or at least most of it before going back. I think it's the location change and everything that is making me panic about not being in school anymore. I can't wait to go back, and I think it's that passion thats going to make me work harder to pay back that loan sooner. I wish I were secure enough in myself to feel like I can make it in the workforce, and that I shouldn't just cloister myself away with my books and shelter myself from the "real world by staying a student forever.
I really would love it though if I had enough money and no social responsibility for that I could just leave everything behind, get new stuff and not pack/unpack anything.

_fortuna_ @ 2008-07-07T14:29:00

2008-07-07T18:36:52Z

1) Look at the list and put one * by those you have read.
2) Put a % by those you intend to read.
3) Put two ** by the books you LOVE.
4) Put # by the books you HATE.
5) Post.

1 Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen *
2 The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien**
3 Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte *
4 Harry Potter series - JK Rowling#
5 To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee **
6 The Bible - various authors *
7 Wuthering Heights *
8 1984 - George Orwell **
9 His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman%
10 Great Expectations - Charles Dickens *
11 Little Women - Louisa M Alcott *
12 Tess of the D'Urbervilles - Thomas Hardy #
13 Catch 22 - Joseph Heller*
14 Complete Works of Shakespeare**
15 Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier **
16 The Hobbit - JRR Tolkien **
17 Birdsong - Sebastian Faulks
18 Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger **
19 The Time Traveller's Wife - Audrey Niffenegger *
20 Middlemarch - George Eliot#
21 Gone With The Wind - Margaret Mitchell%
22 The Great Gatsby - F Scott Fitzgerald*
23 Bleak House - Charles Dickens
24 War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy*
25 The Hitch Hiker's Guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams*
27 Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky %
28 Grapes of Wrath - John Steinbeck *
29 Alice in Wonderland - Lewis Carroll **
30 The Wind in the Willows - Kenneth Grahame
31 Anna Karenina - Leo Tolstoy *
32 David Copperfield - Charles Dickens#
33 Chronicles of Narnia- CS Lewis *
34 Emma - Jane Austen
35 Persuasion - Jane Austen
36 The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe - CS Lewis *
37 The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini
38 Captain Corelli's Mandolin - Louis De Bernieres*
39 Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden *
40 Winnie the Pooh - AA Milne *
41 Animal Farm - George Orwell **
42 The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown #
43 One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez **
44 A Prayer for Owen Meaney - John Irving
45 The Woman in White - Wilkie Collins
46 Anne of Green Gables - LM Montgomery *
47 Far From The Madding Crowd - Thomas Hardy
48 The Handmaid's Tale - Margaret Atwood #
49 Lord of the Flies - William Golding **
50 Atonement - Ian McEwan*
51 Life of Pi - Yann Martel %
52 Dune - Frank Herbert**
53 Cold Comfort Farm - Stella Gibbons*
54 Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen *
55 A Suitable Boy - Vikram Seth
56 The Shadow of the Wind - Carlos Ruiz Zafon
57 A Tale Of Two Cities - Charles Dickens**
58 Brave New World - Aldous Huxley %
59 The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time - Mark Haddon **
60 Love In The Time Of Cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez %
61 Of Mice and Men - John Steinbeck
62 Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov
63 The Secret History - Donna Tartt
64 The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold
65 Count of Monte Cristo - Alexandre Dumas*
66 On The Road - Jack Kerouac
67 Jude the Obscure - Thomas Hardy*
68 Bridget Jones's Diary - Helen Fielding* *
69 Midnight's Children - Salman Rushdie
70 Moby Dick - Herman Melville*
71 Oliver Twist - Charles Dickens *
72 Dracula - Bram Stoker**
73 The Secret Garden - Frances Hodgson Burnett *
74 Notes From A Small Island - Bill Bryson
75 Ulysses - James Joyce %
76 The Bell Jar - Sylvia Plath *
77 Swallows and Amazons - Arthur Ransome
78 Germinal - Emile Zola
79 Vanity Fair - William Makepeace Thackeray *
80 Possession - AS Byatt *
81 A Christmas Carol - Charles Dickens *
82 Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell
83 The Color Purple - Alice Walker*
84 The Remains of the Day - Kazuo Ishiguro
85 Madame Bovary - Gustave Flaubert *
86 A Fine Balance - Rohinton Mistry
87 Charlotte's Web - EB White **
88 The Five People You Meet In Heaven - Mitch Albom
89 Adventures of Sherlock Holmes - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle*
90 The Faraway Tree Collection - Enid Blyton
91 Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad **
92 The Little Prince - Antoine De Saint-Exupery *
93 The Wasp Factory - Iain Banks
94 Watership Down - Richard Adams *
95 A Confederacy of Dunces - John Kennedy Toole
96 A Town Like Alice - Nevil Shute
97 The Three Musketeers - Alexandre Dumas**
98 Hamlet - William Shakespeare **
99 Charlie and the Chocolate Factory - Roald Dahl **
100 Les Miserables - Victor Hugo **

58/100! Take that BIG READ!!!

_fortuna_ @ 2008-06-27T19:57:00

2008-06-27T23:57:41Z

I'm so all about Dr.Pepper

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEH

2008-05-14T19:24:19Z

So I'm totally getting married on Saturday. THAT'S FRACKING SOON!!!!! I am so excited right now that I might blow up.

_fortuna_ @ 2008-05-01T16:47:00

2008-05-01T20:48:10Z

ONLY 16 SLEEPS UNTIL MARRIED BLISS

SUPER FRUSTRATIONS

2008-04-26T04:05:42Z

Okay, so no one here is shocked that I have an eating disorder the size of Kingston. But for some reason it's really starting to bug me. I mean, it isn't as serious as lots of other peoples, I'm fine a whole bunch of the time. (I mean, I can go for a month and not have any sort of "freak out") But I am really pitying myself tonight over this one.

I've had one really for as long as I can remember, because my parents set the BEST example ever. There is no way in my family to not feel guilty about food. You're either guilty for eating too much ("Do you really need all that?") or guilty for not eating enough ("I never see you eat", "You're too skinny", "You have no bum" etc etc)

The thing that pisses me off the most is that it's so ordinary and common and textbook. I would love to be unique and like how my body looks, to never feel the need to restrict calories or throw up or any of that glamour. I would love to know that my siblings were spared this, and that I am the unevenly unhealthy one, but it's in all of us. We pretty much all are the same when it comes to this one. Way to go genetics/nagging.

In short, I haven't eaten more than 300 calories in the last three days and am extremely pissy. And made the phone call ages ago back home saying I had the flu.

Fuck.

_fortuna_ @ 2008-04-21T16:35:00

2008-04-21T20:35:32Z

just booked the final details for my honeymoon = further excitement

_fortuna_ @ 2008-04-18T11:23:00

2008-04-18T15:24:25Z

I'M DONE MY MOTHERFUCKING DEGREE!!!!!!!!!!!
I NOW HAVE A $12 000+ PIECE OF PAPER!!!!!!!!!!!

EDIT: AND I'M GETTING MARRIED IN ONE MONTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm going to fucking explode

wastin' time

2008-03-06T14:42:32Z

1. YOUR SPY NAME (middle name and current street name)
Jean Johnson (LOVE IT)

2. YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME (grandfather/mother on your dad's side and your favourite candy)
Jean Jellybean

3. YOUR RAP NAME (first initial of first name and first three or four letters of your last name):
A-Die

4. YOUR GAMER TAG (a favourite colour, a favourite animal)
Green Puffin

5. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME (middle name, and city you were born in)
Jean Grimsby

6. YOUR STAR WARS NAME (first three letters of your last name, last three letters of mother's maiden name, first three letters of your pet's name)
Die Ton Tem

7. JEDI NAME (middle name spelled backwards, your mom's maiden name spelled backwards):
Neaj Notsrep

8. PORN STAR NAME (first pet's name, the street you grew up on):
Rosie Robinson (AWESOME)

9. SUPERHERO NAME: ("The", your favourite colour and the automobile your dad drives)
The Green Saturn

10. YOUR ACTION HERO NAME (first name of the main character in the last film you watched, last food you ate)
Jerry Cracker

I hate the gym

2008-02-08T17:45:48Z

Ok. I am in no way in top physical form. To this I am resigned and will not mourn it. Although, when one traditionally works out alone, they tend to get ideas in their head about the splendor that is their own fitness.
Allow me to explain, due to my laziness if I jog for 15 minutes, do 100 crunches and 20 minutes of yoga that is the workout of a lifetime. And because of that my brain tells me I am good at things.
I believe the gym was invented purely for the purpose of letting you know that your friends are in better shape than you are. I already hate going, but the weather outside is horrid, and I wanted to do something more than be lazy in my apartment. Basically the result- I am as uncoordinated, unfit, and overall unprepared person ever to set foot in the PEC.