she simply will not die

ES MUY IMPORTANTE!

2004-05-31T06:27:05Z

hi. new journal. perhaps it will become friends only, who knows.

accident_scene

i got tired of this one. so. it won't be updated anymore. even though i still have like 3 months on my paid account. oh well.

umm. if you were on my friends list before, you're on there now. add me back. <3

accident_scene

the most random entry ever.

2004-05-29T02:27:35Z

hi. i just lost a sock somewhere. i think it's under my blanket. my cat threw up on the couch a little while ago. grosssssss.

i straightened my hair tonight whilst watching Law and Order. it actually looks good, except for the split ends. AMAZING.

i made a really good smoothie tonight too. mmmm.

oh, i just found my sock. yay.

i do believe that i am still going up to LIMESTONE for graduation. holycrapi'mexcited. i can't wait to see everyone. i will just need to talk to my Gio, since she said she would be able to give me a ride.

i started watching Indiana Jones and the Raiders of the Lost Ark tonight, but then i lost interest. i've never seen any of the Indiana Jones movies. i'm awesome.

umm Tyler. my mom said that i could visit you sometime, if you still want me to. :P and you best take me to Nantucket. <3

i've been listening to uber-mellow music lately. and lots of metal. weiiird.

oh yes. if you haven't responded to this, you should, by Sunday. it will make me a happy person.

now, i'm off to do something.

_forgetting @ 2004-05-27T01:49:00

2004-05-27T05:58:09Z

i've been thinking a lot lately. just about how i used to be a completely different person...back in 7th-10th grade. i mean i know pretty much everyone changes from like 5-6 years ago, but...i think i've noticed some rather significant changes in myself. i'm not as naive (MSSM and college tuned me into the worldly ways), i'm definitely more outgoing (i remember a phase right after we moved to Maine where i didn't talk to anyone at LCS for a MONTH. i spoke only when spoken to, and even then not much. imagine me not talking! hah!)...well okay. those are the only major things that have changed off that i can think of off the top of my head.

but in many ways, i'm still the same. i still care immensely about what others think of me, even though most of the time i pretend not to. i still want everyone to like me...i can't stand it when someone doesn't like me. but i've come to the realization that i need to give THAT up. sigh.

ok. god all this deep thought makes me want a beer or something. but alas. BEER MAKES ME FAT. and operation "Make Chani Hott, No Matter What It Takes" is still going.

i've always wondered what it would be like to have a "cool" job, like a jewel thief or bull rider.

bedtime.

ps jesus i LOVE Coheed and Cambria, and The Postal Service. <3

_forgetting @ 2004-05-27T00:22:00

2004-05-27T04:28:39Z

View Poll: #299553

so far there were two for chanivorous and one for chaniraptor.

ok. so nothing is really new here. it's been cold lately, which is not fun. there is a gigantic SPIDER that is threatening to bite my head off that is currently inhabiting my living room...meh. oh well. at least he's in the corner. but DAMN it is ugly.

i have recently become obsessed with the color purple. both my nails and my toenails are painted different shades of purple. hott.

i've really been slacking lately...i've been feeling rather domestic though, so i've been cleaning a lot. tomorrow i think i am going to shampoo my rug. FUN.

operation "make Chani hott" is not going so well. tonight i ate peanut butter (OH GOD, MISTAKE...I THINK I MIGHT DIE) and drank milk. two things this "diet" says i should not eat. oh well. i don't think it will kill me. sigh.

i need to get outside and take pictures. the area around my house is so pretty. i luff it.

ok. off to go...do...something...

<33

ZBRA: i HEART you and miss you too <3

_forgetting @ 2004-05-26T19:41:00

2004-05-26T23:43:47Z

ahh new summery colors. they kind of hurt my eyes though, i might fix them a little later.

ok. i'm thinking about making a new journal...which name do you like better?

chaniraptor or chanivorous

yes, i'm not sure. oh well.

umm i'll make an actual post later, i think. <3

yeah i AM crazy bored.

2004-05-25T05:15:35Z

hmm. because i am crazy bored right now, i am going to do something that cusackpixie and jtwill84 did a long time ago.

all the nicknames i've gotten over the years (in no particular order):

CHANSTER
CHAN-DAWG
WANG
CHANDIVA
CHANOMONOPEIA
CHAN
CHAN-CHAN
CANTONESE
ROOMMATE
POOKIE
CHANI BEAR
CHANILYNN
SHIZZANI (ahh, basketball...)
CHACHI
DEARLING
CHANIRAPTOR
MEI-LING
and my personal favorite...

CHANIVOROUS

it's like carnivorous, but not.

umm. today. i worked on my purse. watched SO MUCH TV I FEEL MY BRAIN ROTTING THROUGH MY SKULL (but it was nice). Queer Eye, Jeepers Creepers, Law and Order, Psycho...all whilst doing laundry / folding laundry / cleaning up a bit / being creative. talked to my aunt twice today and i'm spending TWO weeks in Vermont instead of just ONE. kind of exciting, but i fear i might go CRAZY. but i think we're going camping. and i am going to my cousin's 8th grade graduation. so i'm happy. :)

ok. off to do something else. <3 love ya everyone.

do this, because you LOVE me.

2004-05-23T21:06:19Z

stolen from jtwill84

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Do you have a crush on me?
5. Would you kiss me?
6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
7. Describe me in one word.
8. What was your first impression?
9. Do you still think that way about me now?
10. What reminds you of me?
11. If you could give me anything what would it be?
12. How well do you know me?
13. When's the last time you saw me?
14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
15. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you?

_forgetting @ 2004-05-23T16:11:00

2004-05-23T20:12:48Z

I CAN'T FIND MY CAMERA! AHHHH!

it's not in my room, my OTHER room, the living room, the dining room, the sunroom, the kitchen, or the tv room. i don't understand this. perhaps i unknowingly left it in my "stays at school" storage bin? that would suck. i found the prettiest flowers i want to take a picture of in my yard. sigh.

maybe if i clean up a little i'll find it. *sigh*

EDIT: found it in my mom's room (wtf?) in a suitcase. YAY!

_forgetting @ 2004-05-23T02:21:00

2004-05-23T06:31:10Z

hmm. today was mellow. went shopping with my mom...i got a fun new WORK SHIRT and a sweatshirt that says DAIRY QUEEN on it from Goodwill. so that's exciting. and we went to JoAnn Fabrics, where i got QUILT MAKING (!!) supplies. 4 bandana things, they're all rainbowy...and orange and yellow material for the rest of it. i am excited. and i also got stuff to make my jean purse. i just have to sew the material in on the inside and it will be done. yay! and then we went to Sam's Club, where we got lost because the place is like an airplane hangar. yeahhh.

hmm. straightened my hair tonight. it looks..okay. i noticed some split ends, so i need a little trim. i want my long hair back, ahhhh.

let's see. i start "working" for my mom on Monday. so i'm doing her paperwork. not hard. i'm going to "buy" myself a new cell phone. yay. and i got a paycheck in the mail today, which i'm going to use for the first month's cell phone bill. good planning on my part.

okay its bedtime. i'm tiiiired.

ps I WATCHED THE EMPEROR'S NEW GROOVE TONIGHT. and talked to my Gio! :)

reason number 2385412346278364 why i LOVE Tyler.

2004-05-22T04:36:23Z

so before school ended, Tyler sang "I Don't Wanna Miss a Thing" by Aerosmith to me (badly, but it was sweet)...and then he did it again over AIM:

Tyman2000: I could stay awake, just to hear you breathing...
Tyman2000: wathc you smile while you are sleeping
Tyman2000: while you are far away and dreaming
Tyman2000: i could spend my life in this sweet surrender
Tyman2000: forever...
Tyman2000: whre every moement is spend with you
Tyman2000: is a momment i TREAAASSSURREEEE
Tyman2000: AHAHHHH
Tyman2000: dont want to close my eyes...cause I misssssssssssssss you BABBBBE
Tyman2000: lying close to you, feeling your heart beaatting...and im wondering what your dreaming
Tyman2000: and wonderin if its me your seeing
Tyman2000: and i kiss your eyes and thank god were together
Tyman2000: and i jsut want to stay with you int he moment forever and ever and ever
Tyman2000: i dont want to close my eyese i dont want to fall asleep cause i miss you babe, and i dont want ot msiss a thing
Tyman2000: cause when i dream again the swetetest dream would never do
Tyman2000: ill still miss you babe
Tyman2000: and i dont want to miss one smile
Tyman2000: and i dont want to miss one kiss
Tyman2000: and i just want to be right here with you
Tyman2000: just like htis
Tyman2000: and i just want to hold you close and feel your heard so closet to mine
Tyman2000: and just stay close in time in this moment for all the rest of time...
YAYAAYAAAA AHAHAHA YAYAYAYAYAY AHHHHHHHHHHHH
Tyman2000: i dont want to close my eyse
Tyman2000: dont want to falla sleep
Tyman2000: cause dont want to miss a thin

_forgetting @ 2004-05-21T02:10:00

2004-05-21T06:11:07Z

i'm addicted to you, don't you know that you're toxic?

_forgetting @ 2004-05-20T13:26:00

2004-05-20T17:30:36Z

sooo i got my final grades.

General Zoology: B
General Chemistry II: B
Culture of Amusement: B
Beginning Spanish I: B

so my semester GPA is a 3.0, and my cumulative is a 2.87. in my mind, this sucks. it's only like a C+. C's don't get you into med school.

i'll do better next year. well, if i don't, i might drop out of school.

okay. off to go check the mail, which is not as easy as it sounds since i have to WALK to the POST OFFICE. :)

i love thee, Marshdawg.

2004-05-20T06:27:25Z

i be ghetto yo (2:18:51 AM): Someone pumped $25 in gas and did not pay for it at 9 a.m. Monday at a gas station in the 900 block North 21st Street.
i be ghetto yo (2:18:54 AM): hahah newark police reports
my heart crashes (2:19:54 AM): haha i miss the ghetto
i be ghetto yo (2:22:04 AM): my car/
i be ghetto yo (2:22:05 AM): ?
my heart crashes (2:22:54 AM): haha no, newark
i be ghetto yo (2:23:01 AM): ohhhhhhh
i be ghetto yo (2:23:02 AM): lol

and every time i try to fly, i fall without my wings...

2004-05-20T04:25:18Z

okay. so not much is going on here. i've kind of just been sitting around as of late. well except i go for a walk every afternoon. today on my walk, i saw a caterpillar, numerous bugs, and two baby TURTLES. except they were dead, which was depressing. i was sad :(

i went grocery shopping tonight. fun stuff. well not really. but we did get good food stuffs.

dear god. Britney is on TV. YES. and at the same time my brain is going "wtf, Chani. wtf." and i keep noticing the striking resemblence of Britney to Ashley Brooker and Sydney Andrews. funny how i don't like either of them. oh well.

i still kind of miss Camp Denidoo. lately i've just been missing the action and stuff. because, let's face it...it's MAINE.

awww my fat kitty just snuggled up with me. how sweet! :D

fun news (well, not really): my mom is going to pay me to do her paperwork this summer! i wish i could DRIVE, however, and then i would have a real job. ah well. soon i hope. but in a way it's a moot point, cause i don't have my own car. god i suck.

i have so many black fly bites. are there not bugs in Ohio? or did i just miss them? sigh.

okay. going to go...do...something... <33

_forgetting @ 2004-05-19T01:30:00

2004-05-19T05:31:50Z

there is utter crap on TV late at night. wow.

ps i don't understand all the bad music that's coming out lately, and then the equally bad music videos that go with it. which is why MTV is crap.

_forgetting @ 2004-05-18T02:28:00

2004-05-18T06:29:26Z

i have a black fly bite on my leg. and somehow i think it migrated to the other one.

weiiiiird.

ps i love late night chats with Josh, Marshall, and Mike!

_forgetting @ 2004-05-16T13:27:00

2004-05-16T17:31:43Z

god it's so cold here. for real. i woke up and walked into the hallway and thought my toes were going to fall off. ahhh, Maine.

i found my crochet hook last night, so i've definitely been busy...i decided to make Katie a present, which i will give to her for Christmas. and Tyler too...BUT i need to find my KNITTING needles first...that's another story. i have no idea where THOSE are. ah well. i've got the entire summer.

speaking of summer, i so need a job. the Dunkin Donuts near my house is hiring, but my mom DOESN'T want me to work there because she thinks i'll get fatter. wtf. but i did look in the paper and find a job i might like. so i need to call about that tomorrow. fun stuff.

and now i'm being yelled at to go take a shower so we can run errands. ahhh, being home.

adios mis amigos <3

_forgetting @ 2004-05-15T15:01:00

2004-05-15T19:04:28Z

i'm home...yay, i suppose.

i miss everyone at Denison, though...i know NO ONE around my house, and i can't drive...and MSSM is still in school...so...basically i'm spending my time alone since my mom works all day. fun stuff, eh? AND i found out that half my shit is still in storage (like books and stuff) and my mom doesn't really want to go GET it...so yeah. plus i really wanted to ride my bike and explore this area (ie, the end of my road) but i can't find the bike pump. so sad.

well, i kind of only miss certain people a lot. maybe i just miss the activeness of Denison. who knows.

well. if anyone wants a letter. email me your address: paperairplanedreams@hotmail.com

maybe i'll go sit outside and attempt to tan or something. it IS like 78 here. :P

part 3 of 3

2004-05-11T06:11:46Z

i might as well finish these fucking things before i go to bed / leave Denison...

oh goodness. i remember the first time i REALLY met you, when i was in my pajamas and i looked like shit and i was all bitchy. then Gallery Hop, and going to Chipotle in GHETTO and having to climb over the seats and shit... ;) LET'S SAY THAT ONE MORE TIME IN UNISON! haha how about NO. "should we go through that?" "no, i think that's a window..." haha. oh good times. i'm so glad we're friends...i can't wait for next year! it's gonna rock...Mardi Gras. :)

it's weird how we met when we were drunk. and how we're still friends. and Chipotle...good times. haha, Wal-Mart...My Little Pony ;) NAKED TIME...Britney Spears <3...."don't worry Sarah, i'll catch you!" oh, your new ghetto car...partying it up...i'm so excited for next year. <3 i love you SO much!

going to see your Little Brother. that impromptu trip to Easton. knocking the wind out of you ;) oh man. you...are amazing. i honestly could not have made it through the year without you. we've been through our fair share of shit, but surprisingly you've stuck with me. te quiero mucho <3 and everything else i would have said here, i've already said it to you. well, except for the fact that i still want to do you. see you this summer <3333

and i'm done. if i forgot someone, i apologize...

xoxo.

_forgetting @ 2004-05-08T14:49:00

2004-05-08T18:49:19Z

holy crap. thanks for an AMAZING last Friday night at Camp Denidoo, kids <3

i love you all so much...thanks for a wonderful year!

yay for finals almost being over!

2004-05-07T19:53:56Z

my chem final pretty much raped me up the ass...FYS wasn't bad at all, and bio only slightly penetrated me. Spanish, i'm not sure yet. i don't think it will be THAT horrible as long as i study. which i will.

ummm my throat still really hurts. like, i can't swallow. :/ not good.

and i just took the world's best nap. sort of. i was trying to take one earlier, but jtwill84 came upstairs and bugged me. jk, i love you Joshie.

my coffee cup smells funny. perhaps i should wash it.

i'm going to Chipotle tonight! yay!

and now, cleaning and shower because i'm still dirty.

_forgetting @ 2004-05-06T22:28:00

2004-05-07T02:28:55Z

yup, i suck.

you didn't need to tell me that twice.

!!!!

2004-05-06T19:07:32Z

_forgetting @ 2004-05-05T18:56:00

2004-05-05T22:56:15Z

i would just like to say that Stabbing Westward is like therapy for my soul right now. as is Nine Inch Nails.

_forgetting @ 2004-05-05T09:34:00

2004-05-05T13:34:46Z

i am really, really hoping that the reason it hurts to swallow is because i slept with the window cracked open. :/ i do NOT need to be sick during finals week. plus both Katie and JJ are sick, and i spend a lot of time with them.

all i want to do is keep sleeping, but i am meeting Tori to study at 11 in Slayter, and i still need to shower and stuff. yeah.

ps. i love Britney Spears, but we all knew that.